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Hyunwoo bought some snacks and water at a convenience store and headed to the house he had left empty for the day.

The building was originally owned by his mother, but became his property as of last year.

No, it is a two-story brick house, which is a bit awkward to describe as a building.

It was an old building that had been built over 30 years ago, but it had undergone major renovations, so it was more than enough to live in alone.

“Ugh, the building owner is a bachelor.”

As he reached the house, a familiar voice called out to Hyunwoo. It was a fruit shop lady who had recently rented out the first floor of the building.

Since she was close to sixty, she had trouble deciding between the title “aunt” and “grandmother,” but Hyunwoo called her “aunt.”

Whenever she ran into Hyunwoo, she would pretend to know him, calling him the building owner bachelor.

We’re not that close, but we’re so close that it’s hard to pretend we don’t know each other.

Hyunwoo raised his voice for her, who had been deaf since an early age.

“Hello! Is business going well these days?”

“Huh? Well then, good luck. Since it’s in the middle of a residential area, my neck is fine. I’ll go out and pay the rent on time, so you don’t have to worry about being a bachelor.”

She mutters something in a dialect that Hyunwoo cannot easily understand. After hearing it roughly, I thought it meant that I would not fall behind on my rent, so I just smiled.

The monthly rent for giving up a small space on the first floor is about 1 million won.

It used to be a space where his mother ran a beauty salon, but now it has become a fruit shop that allows Hyunwoo to lead the life of an unemployed person.

He bowed his head in greeting and headed toward the entrance of the building next to the store.

In order to use the stairs located inside the building, you had to enter a password into the thick glass door blocking the entrance.

As I entered the six-digit password with familiar movements and walked up the stairs, I heard the sound of the door slamming and locking behind me.

Then, the sound of cars coming and going outside and the sound of the TV coming from the fruit shop fade away beyond the door, and only silence falls in the hallway.

Perfect sound isolation so that the small sound of exhaled breath can be considered the loudest sound in this space.

Hyunwoo inherited this building and carried out renovation work, paying particular attention to soundproofing and soundproofing. This was especially true because it was a building located on a street where people walked around.

He did not want the hustle and bustle outside to invade his home, nor did he want the sounds he made to spread to passers-by outside.

As he opens the front door lock and pulls the handle, an empty landscape welcomes him.

Soundproofing work had also been completed inside the house, so the silence that filled the house was not unfamiliar at all.

The furniture in the living room is a sofa and a small table next to it.

There isn’t even a TV or shelves that his mother might have used.

This is because the first thing Hyunwoo did as soon as he inherited the house was to throw out all the belongings in the house.

Space was no exception to his control freak tendencies. No, it was especially special because it was the house where she lived.

Even the slightest trace of the previous owner, or to exaggerate even a speck of dust, could not be tolerated.

It made me sick to think that this was a house with the hands of the woman who abused me.

Therefore, the inheritance I inherited was first used to remodel this house. Everything from floor to ceiling was torn down, torn down, and rebuilt.

A home just for Hyunwoo, reborn under Hyunwoo’s touch. An entity that embodies his controlling tendencies in the form of space.

Hyunwoo lay down on the sofa and reached for the notebook on the table.

The thin notebook with a dark blue leather cover was filled with short lines of text along with the date.

[March 28th. Pygmalion effect. Praise and expectations seem to be surprisingly effective in changing people’s behavior. What happens if you praise more and expect more?]

[March 30th. Principles of systematic desensitization. Removing aversive reactions requires delicate hierarchical control. Start from small tasks and gradually move up to bigger ones. Never be in a hurry.]

Is that a type of teaching assistant that I started using after meeting Hyeji?

I am confident that my memory is not that bad, but my sense of reality was very blurred due to meeting dozens of women in two months.

For the first time in a while, a woman who intrigued me appeared, so it was necessary to leave a brief review of each day in order to prevent possible misunderstandings and mistakes.

For that reason, a month’s worth of records had already accumulated in the assistant teacher’s diary, and the woman who was the subject of the diary was in the process of being reduced from a rag to a slave.

Hyunwoo looked through the previous contents for a moment, opened the blank space of the last page, and picked up a pen. The pen slipped across the paper with a crunching sound.

[April 28th. Symptoms and principles of PTSD and its treatment. Why did it look like that? What kind of magic happened?]

I wrote a simple line in my notebook and fell into deep thought as I bit into the snack I had bought.

Hyeji’s abnormal symptoms that I witnessed this morning were clearly beyond the normal range.

No matter how you think about it, acting like a doll with its strings cut just because you couldn’t say I love you properly is not normal.

Hyunwoo really wanted that unusual reaction. When I first saw that reaction, I felt like Santa had visited me while I was sleeping last night.

If you can do it once, you can do it twice or three times. So, we need to find out what the principle is.

It was only that thought that made Hyunwoo return home, tired.

I was certain that it was definitely related to yesterday’s corporal punishment, but I couldn’t figure out the principle behind it.

No, I guessed it to some extent, but I couldn’t blindly trust it. There were many parts that were unclear to explain simply with violence.

I especially liked the strange sight of Hyeji laughing with tears streaming down her face last night.

Hyunwoo continued to worry a little longer and then shook off the thoughts that came to mind with Jung-gu heating. My own learning and experience were still insufficient to approach it with guesswork alone.

After pouring the snack into his mouth, he opens the laptop on the table and begins searching.

In the quiet living room, only the sound of typing and clicking of the mouse occasionally rang out.

He moves only his eyes and hands without the slightest movement. The eyes move constantly, scanning the information displayed on the monitor.

There were several search boxes open, but they all had one keyword in common.

PTSD causes, PTSD symptoms, PTSD stages, PTSD treatment… Search terms that might make someone mistake you for a psychotherapist or mental counselor.

In particular, I read a lot about treatment for PTSD.

If you know how to improve symptoms, you can easily figure out how to make them worse.

Woo-woo-woo-woo-

For a long time. The sound of the cell phone vibrating from his pocket broke Hyunwoo’s concentration.

I furrowed my brows slightly and took out my phone, and messages from Hyeji appeared on the screen.

[Jeong Hye-ji: I went home safely!!! Why didn’t you leave a KakaoTalk message? Bingu. Did you fall asleep right away?

[Jeong Hye-ji: It’s lunch time hahahaha Oppa, you two should eat and sleep ㅜㅜㅜ… I can’t even call you for fear of waking you up.]

[Jeong Hye-ji: And my period broke out… I somehow felt like I was going to break out today ughㅜㅜ]

Hyunwoo was casually reading the messages through the preview pop-up notification, but when he saw the last message, he fell into deep thought.

On the day I first met her, I was told that my period had just ended, so even considering the oral contraceptives I was taking, my cycle was roughly correct now. Rather, it felt a bit late.

It’s been almost two weeks since I took the medication. If all goes as planned, you will be able to enjoy vaginal ejaculation to your heart’s content after your period.

Hyunwoo smiled at that thought, then came up with a really good idea and licked his lips with his tongue.

The smile on his lips became increasingly darker.

I was already looking at her anus, but the opportunity presented itself. I felt like if I used this period well, I would get a sex toilet that could take a dick through its back hole.

Of course, that was the way, it was obvious without any need to say it.

Words like a dense spider web pulled from the tongue. It completely entangled her body and mind.

This time, Hyeji will be caught in the net that the tip of her tongue is weaving, and will helplessly give up her anus.

Hyunwoo felt things swelling just by imagining it, and he turned his phone notifications to silent. First of all, I had to organize my studies from just now.

As it turned out, yesterday’s magic was not just about barbaric and low-level violence.

If I had waved my hand hastily, relying only on yesterday’s experience, I would have been in trouble.

What broke her spirit last night was ambivalence.

It means having contrasting emotions at the same time about an object, person, idea, etc., or confusing emotions such as feeling one way or another.

This ambivalence was the hidden key to reassembling her mind at will.

It makes you have extremely contrasting feelings about your boyfriend, such as feeling like he is the person you love the most and feeling like he is the person you fear the most.

He used to be the warmest person, but then he acts like the coldest person, and he started out as the softest person, but then turns into the most violent person.

Just like yesterday.

This ambivalence paralyzes Hye-ji’s thinking ability and creates the optimal condition for brainwashing her. I already tasted some of the fruits this morning.

Hyunwoo calmly wrote down the content from just now into his notebook and became familiar with the principle.

It was a clearer and simpler principle than I thought.

[One. A depleted mind cannot function properly. It is like a body that cannot lift a finger after hard physical labor.]

[2. The clash of ambivalent feelings confuses Hye-ji’s mind and quickly depletes her spirit.]

[3. A depleted mind cannot resist and accepts any brainwashing.]

When I took off my pen and looked back, I realized that the words I had unconsciously said yesterday and the actions I had taken without much thought were all forms of torture that triggered ambivalence.

He cut my heart to pieces with sharply forged words, but comforted me with a gentle tone. After committing terrible violence, he gently caressed her as if he were a precious lover. He acted like he was very disappointed, but was happy to follow orders.

In particular, I was confident that hitting my breasts after inflating my positive emotions with a confession had really set off the detonator.

The complete depletion of the mind created in that way, and the rationalization of corporal punishment imposed in that state.

I felt like I finally understood why Hyeji was so nervous in the morning. It was as if she had fallen into a very powerful brainwashing.

After that, Hyunwoo continued to meticulously organize the details of his investigation. In place of previous vague speculations, grounded confidence based on theory gradually began to take root.

Then, when I looked out the window, the sun was already going down. I was so focused that I didn’t even notice time passing.

When I took out my cell phone, which I had put on silent mode, I saw a pile of messages and missed calls.

[Jeong Hye-ji: Did we wake up??????]

[Jeong Hye-ji: Honey, why aren’t you answering the phone? Are you sleeping? Let’s worry ㅠㅠ]

[Jeong Hye-ji: Hey!!!!! I told you to answer the phone!!!]

[Jeong Hye-ji: Wooi ㅠㅠㅠㅠ When you wake up later, send me a KakaoTalk message!!!! Just prepare to be scolded!!!!!!!]

Even after that, seeing the exclamation marks and tear signs, it seemed like he was quite anxious.

Hyunwoo lifted his drowsy body from the sofa and moved his fingers.

[Hyunwoo Kim: I’m sorry. I put it on silent and forgot… I didn’t even know there was a call. I was sleeping all this time and now I woke up… Are you very angry?]

I wrote a quick reply and picked up the cup with the intention of having a glass of water or something, but immediately the notification sound rang. He must have been holding his phone all day, waiting for a call.

[Jeong Hye-ji: Hehehehehehe you idiotㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ I was so worriedㅠㅠㅠ He thought he was deadㅜㅜ Thank goodness!!!!! Did you sleep well????? Are you refreshed?]

Surprisingly, other than worrying and asking how I’m doing, I don’t get annoyed at all.

He continued his conversation briefly and ended by saying that he would wash up and contact me again.

As Hyunwoo soaks in the warm water, he thinks back on his studies just now.

For her, violence is effective. However, only if there is a condition that comparable positive emotions have been accumulated.

In that case, even though it was a bit of a hassle, it was necessary to continue acting like a friendly boyfriend for a while. No, the more thorough the better.

I collect my thoughts one by one while feeling the stream of water.

Hyunwoo seemed to know what he had to do right away as he left the bathroom.

Even though it was something I had not planned on until just now…

This evening, I pick her up from work.

Build up as much as possible from positive emotions, which will become an axis of ambivalence.

In order to fall headlong to the ground, a spectacular flight was required.

Hyunwoo’s eyes sparkled after he finished thinking. Now that I knew what to do, there was no more hesitation.