episode_0083

pregnancy.

It refers to the act of creating a small life, holding it in one’s arms, and holding it well for a long period of 10 months so that it can face the world.

Over the course of 10 months, the baby took shape and formed a heart inside the womb.

Having a child has always been a blessing.

Since it was the fruit of love, people were busy congratulating it.

However, if it is not the fruit of love, if it was created as a result of something that cannot be proud of to anyone, what will the people around and the person involved think?

People around me might have clicked their tongues.

The person concerned might have locked himself in his room and been pessimistic about his situation.

And I hoped so.

I hoped that people around me would see me and whisper that it was strange, that my behavior was rough, and that they would curse me and ask me what on earth I was doing. I hoped you would click your tongue.

After hearing this, my older sister gradually lost her place and wanted to stay at home to the point where she had to worry about even going out.

I’m not going to meet anyone else anyway, so what am I going to do when I go out?

Of course, I couldn’t run to my sister right away after sending that text.

I enlisted in February and was discharged the following year in August, and it was in June when my older sister sent me a text message.

So, I didn’t know what my sister was thinking or what situation she was enduring for two months.

They just send me texts asking me what to do.

Every time that happened, I just told my sister to wait.

And as time passed by just texting, I was able to meet my sister in person.

The only people who congratulate me on my discharge from military service are text messages from my parents.

My older sister didn’t congratulate me on being discharged from the military.

When I arrived home, what I saw was my sister who was speechless and at a loss and couldn’t decide what to say to me.

If only you hadn’t done that. He didn’t yell, and he didn’t ask why he was being so irresponsible.

If you hadn’t done that, I would have just enjoyed what I’ve always enjoyed since I went on vacation.

Because my sister lived up to it.

In terms of right and wrong, my fault wasn’t that big, so my sister couldn’t say anything.

To say that I packed it inside irresponsibly, I was confident in taking responsibility.

And at the same time, my sister didn’t say anything when I was inside, so she didn’t have anything to say to me.

“Hansol… ”

My sister’s eyes seemed empty.

After I returned from vacation, my sister told me that I was pregnant, and she repeatedly asked me if I wanted to have a baby, and I said no, so it might be natural.

“I went there. I am a civilian now.”

I said slyly.

But my sister gritted her teeth as if she didn’t want to say that.

“No, it’s not like that… ! Baby, baby… There is… Hey, you texted me saying you were pregnant… ! Uh, what should I do?”

My sister was shouting to me with a trembling voice.

“Quickly, quickly, if you want to make a decision, you have to do it quickly… ”

Let’s erase it.

My sister was saying that as soon as she met me.

No one will care right now.

However, as time passed, my stomach grew, and it was clear that the eyes of those around me would become strangely focused.

As a result, my sister was becoming more and more urgent.

I was pregnant, but I thought I could turn it around.

They were saying that there was still time to get rid of the child.

It’s not like he didn’t know why his sister was so anxious.

It’s still summer, but I found out I was pregnant two months ago.

Then, by the time I go to school, I will already be full, so how can I go to school?

For my older sister, who was planning to return to school, it was like a bolt from the blue.

That’s why it seemed like he wanted to talk about it again, even if it was in a hurry.

It seemed like he wanted to persuade me.

But what can I do?

I wish my sister could become a single mother like that.

“No.”

“… Why, why?”

When I shook my head and spoke stiffly, my sister looked at me as if she didn’t understand.

“How can you be like that?”

I responded as if I was dumbfounded and took off my Beretta.

Since I was a reserve soldier, I put aside the hat that I no longer need to wear.

After I said that coldly, my sister’s eyes opened wide.

“What… ?”

I felt good when I saw my older sister, who had a lot of things she wanted to say, but couldn’t say anything properly to me.

Because I literally felt like my sister was at my feet.

“Think about it. A child is also a life, so if you just erase it as you please, do you think anything good will happen? And they say that if you have an abortion even once, the chance of becoming infertile increases.”

I listed the bad points of what my sister said.

However, my sister spoke quickly in a trembling voice, perhaps because she had no intention of backing down or because she wanted to quickly ask for my consent.

“I have so much more to lose than that… ? I can’t go to school and have to stay home… Oh, what should I tell my dad and mom?! Who raises the child? Me, me? I haven’t done anything yet. And, I only studied… ”

My sister spoke as if she was pleading with me.

The damage and disadvantages of leaving the child are greater than erasing the child.

So, he was begging me to just erase it and pretend it never happened.

I shook my head.

It was clear that if I nodded and said I understood, I would become irreversibly distant from my sister.

The train that had already started running had to run as far as it could run.

There was no coming back.

So, it would be better to just run and not change the route.

“But that’s still true. How can you say that you’re deleting your child so easily? My sister’s life is life, but is she just a kid? My sister is also very selfish. You just studied? What’s wrong with having sex with me so well?”

“Hey, hey… ! You asked me to do it… ! I just accepted it… !”

“That’s it. So it’s not just me who gave permission to my sister, right?”

I said coldly.

My sister was speechless as if she was dumbfounded.

“It’s cruel, really.”

I said as if selling.

I knew that sometimes, you end up having a child you don’t want because you put your body through a lot of effort.

Sometimes it is better to erase it, but in fact, it makes people around you look bad.

“My sister is also very self-willed and self-righteous. You did it with a smile because you liked it and it felt good, but now you’re acting like a victim, like you had no choice but to accept it because I asked you to do it.”

“Oh, no… ”

“If you want to do that, do whatever you want. They’re going to blame it all on me anyway! is not it? Even though I came back like this, are you saying we should get rid of the baby?”

I let out a shocked voice.

“Don’t you think it’s really too much? I don’t know if you’re just thinking about getting rid of your child, but take a look around you. Because I live like that, my interpersonal relationships at school don’t become strained.”

I pointed my finger at my sister and raised my voice.

“And I’m saying this because not only is it your sister’s child, but it’s also my child. If you’re really going to kill it so arbitrarily, just cut ties with me. That’s what you say to me all the time. Look at this. If you look at the texts sent, it’s all like this. All you’re saying is that you want to get rid of the baby, and you haven’t even asked how I’m doing?”

I grabbed my phone.

As I said in the text, it had already been several months since my sister asked me how I was doing.

“… that! Sorry, but… !”

“Well, I’m sorry, but do you have something else to say? What should I listen to?”

I blocked him from saying anything else.

I just said what I wanted to say and vented my frustration.

My sister seemed to be trying to figure out what to do about this situation.

But even so, it was my older sister who was at a disadvantage.

“No, kid, the problem is that you and I are mine in the first place?”

My sister yelled at me.

I sighed deeply.

“ That’s it, it’s not a problem because you keep deleting it even though it’s just a kid! This is an ethical problem, but you keep saying things like that?! Just say it happened and live quietly!”

“It’s your child too… Hey, hey! Lee Hansol… Are you crazy? Really, this will ruin both my life and your life… ! I can’t carry my face with pride… !”

When I heard that, I ruffled my hair and sighed as if I was annoyed.

“Then, raise him by saying that he got it because his older sister lived a rough life. I will take responsibility for it.”

“Don’t say nonsense… We spend our lives trying not to have children… There’s no need to change two people’s lives… ”

I like it.

“Ji, just close your eyes once… ”

My sister prayed earnestly.

But I shook my head.

“I don’t like it.”

At those words, my sister looked like her world was falling apart.

In reality, my sister’s life is as if it had collapsed.

It felt good to think that no one would touch my sister anymore.

Who would want to date someone who had sex all night long and then had a baby?

How many people would want to date someone who even has another person’s child?

“… why… ”

My sister muttered in confusion, and I ignored her words and passed by.