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“You. You didn’t do it. Rape.”

A confident sound.

She spoke as if she knew everything.

‘What on earth…? .’

My mind is confused.

So many fantasies began to tangle with each other. Everything was the aftermath of that one word.

Why do you know?

Could it be that she is in the company of those who framed me? Is that why you want to kill me and nip me in the bud?

iced coffee. My head hurts little by little.

The brain is filled with negative thoughts. I couldn’t possibly picture a positive case.

“That… What are you talking about?”

I wasn’t as confident as she was. It was all I could do to avoid it. Fortunately, in this situation, the option of ‘avoidance’ was quite useful.

“Hmm… Literally? You really didn’t do it, right?”

His tone of voice is still strangely confident.

Is she looking at me now? Or do you really know?

He said that if you want to know someone’s intentions, look at their eyes.

Her eyes were pitch black. It was dark and dark again.

I’m not talking about the actual color, that’s how I felt. I couldn’t get anything out of that black light.

There was extreme variation in information.

She knew me, but I didn’t. All I know is the name ‘Liz’ and that that woman is a crazy bitch.

“If that were the case, I wouldn’t have been disciplined. It wouldn’t have been like it is now.”

“Hmm… is it? It doesn’t seem like it to me… You can be honest with me!”

“If you don’t think so, go to the academy and ask. Because they are the ones who issued the disciplinary action. Or mine… No, you should go to the Rudfeld family and ask.”

Of course, there was no way the Academy or Rudfeld would tell me. How would they, who are afraid of damaging their reputation, tell others about their secrets?

It was the same for me too.

I have already given up thinking that others will believe me. I also don’t trust others anymore.

I don’t know why she’s asking me that question.

It could be just for interest, or it could really be someone’s instigation. Therefore, I had no intention of saying any more.

“Really? It’s a shame. In my opinion, you don’t deserve to do something like that. What do you call this? Contemplation? Is it called contemplation?”

“… … .”

“In one word… You are not a rapist!”

She joked. The frustrating atmosphere was suddenly revived.

Maybe that smile is her sincerity, but I don’t think that’s the case.

“Okay… I really appreciate that.”

Still, I finally feel like I can breathe properly. My heart was still pounding uncontrollably and I felt a little uncomfortable.

I had been very optimistic so far.

Even though I had experienced such things, I was not an optimist.

I should have known that there was a strong possibility that they, the ones who blamed me, would exclude me. Like a fool, I was only focused on revenge and overlooked the obvious.

Thanks to her, I was able to realize one good fact.

“I hope you tell the truth someday!”

“… Well, there’s nothing to say that’s true.”

And it seemed like there was a need to know about her as well.

I never imagined that there would be someone who would express interest in me so openly, and not even hostility. There’s no harm in knowing something.

“Um… But these are all books about hermeneutics?”

“… … .”

“Why are you suddenly studying analysis? What… has there been some kind of magic that you want to release?”

“You have no idea.”

“Shall I tell you? I’m pretty good at analysis.”

“… … .”

“How about it? Isn’t it okay?”

She suggested refreshingly.

I still couldn’t read the statement.

**

Late evening time. Arrived at the dormitory.

Perhaps because I had a lot of work to do, I felt very tired.

In my arms was a book I had borrowed from the library, but I had no more energy left to spend on it.

‘If you want to learn, come to the [Magic Research Club]!’

Liz shouted that as she broke up with me. As if he was sincerely trying to teach me hermeneutics.

As she said, my mind was busy studying hermeneutics, but from the moment I met her, it was filled with only things about her.

“Ha… ”

Uneasy.

I had no idea that everything would work out well. However, this was an unexpected variable.

――Quick!

At times like this, I had to give my brain a rest. It was a bit of a waste of time, but there was nothing I could do if I stayed awake anyway.

I opened the door and went in, but there was one more unexpected variable.

“Are you here? You are later than you think.”

Cecil was in the room.

To be honest, I thought it would follow… I didn’t know it would come this quickly.

“Why did you come?”

“That’s right, let’s take a look at the master… hmm. I will correct it. I just came here to do my duty.”

watch. I was obviously going to say it was surveillance.

Yes, I understand everything.

Our great Ruudfeld matriarch will be afraid.

I was afraid that one stain on the country would greatly damage the family. That’s why he must have caught her so quickly.

“Then why didn’t you just come with me?”

“I did it because I had something to take care of.”

It looked like she might have something to say after that, but she kept her mouth shut.

I’m guessing, ‘I don’t like accompanying you, Master.’ I think it was around that time.

Anyway, her thoughts didn’t matter to me.

Sleep, I had to sleep.

Rest was absolutely necessary if I wanted to use tomorrow even remotely efficiently.

I immediately lay down on the bed.

Cecil will take care of everything. He was a perfect person in terms of his abilities.

Not long after leaving, I quickly entrusted myself to the horse.

**

sleeping That too, completely deep.

The boy in front of Cecil did so.

“Saaeaeek… .”

The moon, which had risen high, gave off a soft light, illuminating the room through the window. The boy’s long hair was shining along with the light.

The boy’s appearance completely matched her memories of the past. It was as if the boy had literally gone back in time.

The maturity on her face changed to cuteness. My hands, which had been calloused, became soft. Yes, just like when I held her hand one day.

“What are you thinking right now…? ”

No, no. You shouldn’t harbor these thoughts.

No matter what anyone said, he was a person who touched ‘taboo’. The boy she remembered from the past no longer existed in this world.

Memories have now become memories. It meant that it was a reality that could never be reached again.

taboo. It’s taboo…

Just thinking about it makes my hands shake and my teeth grind. It was because he thought of his younger brother.

Her younger brother is suffering even now.

And he had to suffer for the rest of his life until he died. Because of those who touched the ‘taboo’.

Yes, like that boy who is sleeping right now.

‘sister… Now I… Are you going to die?’

The image of my younger brother shedding tears comes to mind.

The moment she saw her younger sister, whom she had always thought would be bright, weakened, Cecil felt her heart break.

――Suuuugh

Her hands began to move slowly. With the boy’s neck. And soon it arrived.

If he continues to strain his hands like this, the boy will suffer. Just like her younger brother.

And soon the boy will die. Just like her brother would do.

“Ha… ”

However, her hands soon lost their aim. Cecil could not kill him.

‘Cecil will always follow me, right?’

It was because it brought back memories with the boy.

These were things that I had to erase and deny now, but I just couldn’t do that.

‘Cecil! Take my word for it! I… Because I didn’t do it!!”

It was because the boy’s scream came to mind.

She had never seen him cry like that, so that moment was still etched in Cecil’s mind.

But Cecil couldn’t believe him.

Because all the circumstances really pointed to him. Because no one there believed in him.

Her senses trusted him, but feelings were just feelings, and more subjective than anything else.

She has positive feelings towards him. There was no way that her sense could turn him away.

In the end, it was like this.

Duke Rudfeld, that is, Cecil’s master, entrusted the handling of the boy solely to Cecil.

It was okay to kill him, and it was okay to leave him alone.

I just told them to kill me immediately if I noticed anything suspicious.

Even if Cecil wanted to kill him, she couldn’t.

In fact, if left alone, the boy might have died alone. It never occurred to me that a boy who lost both legs would be able to live alone.

But Cecil gave him food. And that too every day.

why?

To be honest, she herself couldn’t understand her own feelings.

No matter how hard she tried to figure it out, her insides were so twisted that it was impossible to untangle herself.

That’s why I wish he would speak honestly even now.

He said he did it right. They say they are all like that.

Then I would be able to kill the boy without any regrets. Everything that was frustrating will be relieved.

I hated the boy.

How can he sleep so comfortably in front of her? Why can he still trust the woman who abandoned him?

If the boy had been as alert as possible to her, she would have felt at ease.

“Hu… .”

It was a meaningless fantasy, and it was already over.

The boy came back to the academy. I don’t know why.

All she could do was watch.

It was always like that.

Her life has always been passive. Stupidly, I couldn’t make my own decisions unless someone told me to.

――Wheewooung!

A strong night wind blows through the closed window.

Cecil closed the window in case the boy was cold. It was an act that came about unconsciously.

The moon was still bright and beautiful.

That’s why Cecil continued to look at the moon. Because there is nothing better than when you feel frustrated.