episode_0097

– wk224n2: It seems like Hamshik really cherishes the mini hamster! He treats it like his own baby.

– qwerty2000: Saekmusae and Hamshik have a baby! Will there be winged hamsters in the future?

n Dog barking on Tuesday: Parrots and hamsters don’t mate…

N I like Monmusu: I heard they like eagles and lions

– Eric: Is the new house design intended by Saekmusae and Hamshik? ㅋㅋ Please help us decorate our new home~ [This is a support message.]

“Hehehe.”

Everyone likes that Hamshik takes care of Mini Hamshik. And they also like the house that Hamshik and Saekmusae made.

Although there were far more reactions like that than likes when I saw Min-ee-cheo, I still felt good.

It’s true that we’re cute, but I like this more than just saying we’re cute based on our appearance.

Of course, it’s not that I don’t like people saying that Hamshikki and Saekmusae are cute. I liked all those complimenting comments.

It’s just that it’s better if the compliment goes into more detail. Rather than saying, “Ham-shik is cute,” it’s better to say, “Ham-shik is cute because he eats a lot and is fat.”

So, together with Jihyun, I liked those comments, and I also replied to the supportive posts saying thank you and that I would buy and put various items in the new house.

So I spent the afternoon next to Hamshik, playing on my phone. Hamshik didn’t show any signs of waking up.

After reading a few comments, I pet Hamshik once. Then, whenever I change positions, I hug Hamshik tightly.

As time went on, I started to feel like I was seeing fish every once in a while while eating. But whatever, I wasn’t eating ham.

But sleeping like that only lasts for an hour or two. Even though it’s winter and the sun sets quickly, it’s strange to sleep until it gets dark.

I put my hand up to Hamshik’s nose.

“… … Jihyun, I don’t think Hamshik is breathing.”

I couldn’t feel anything in my hand. Even though Hamshik is small, I should feel the wind because I’m just as small as Hamshik. But I couldn’t feel anything at all.

“Um… … . Wait a minute.”

Jihyun also came over after hearing what I said and touched Hamshik’s body. Then she shook her head with a complicated expression.

“I think he died.”

“What? This is ridiculous! So suddenly?”

“I guess Hamshik is old… … . It might be fortunate that he didn’t suffer in pain and then pass away.”

“But still! I haven’t even said hello yet!”

I never thought the moment of separation would come so suddenly.

Of course, since Hamshik is old, I have been telling myself to prepare myself mentally.

I didn’t think it would happen today. Why did it have to be today?

“Hamshik, open your eyes. Okay? I’ll buy you something delicious. I’ll go buy you some macadamia nuts that you like. When Narin comes, let’s eat everything in a bowl today. So wake up… … .”

Even though I pushed Hamshik’s back this way and that, his body just shook and showed no sign of moving at all.

At this point, it would be time for Hamshik to kick me away or cry out loud, but he doesn’t do anything and just lies there quietly.

Feeling wronged by that, I cried and said bad things to Hamshik.

“Hamshik is fat. Pork hamshik. Hamshik, I teased you. You should have said kkieeeek. Why are you just sitting still.”

“Namina… … .”

The strength in my hand that was shaking Hamshik gradually disappeared. I tried to do as my mother said so that Hamshik would not have any regrets. But I couldn’t shake Hamshik any longer because I kept thinking about the times I couldn’t do it for him.

“There are still a lot of foods I haven’t eaten yet… … . I should have gone on more outings and such… … .”

I really didn’t want to cry. I just wanted to remember the good memories with Hamshik. Before I knew it, my throat got choked up, so I lay down on Hamshik’s back.

Jihyun patted my back without saying a word. Saekmusae also quietly came over and Hamshik lay down next to me.

Why did Hamshik go to heaven today of all days? Instead of trying to live a little more tenaciously.

You were so full until you had breakfast. Even after eating one cup of rice, you finished half of the rice we were eating.

Could it be that I made a mini hamster because I thought it could replace me since it looks exactly like me?

So maybe that’s why I left the mini hams behind without any worries. If I had known this would happen, I wouldn’t have made the mini hams.

It felt like it was all my fault, so I clenched my fist to crush the small hamburger that was lying next to me.

… … But Hamshik treasured it. There’s no way I could throw it away.

“Jihyun, what should I do…? Hamshik can’t come back to life?”

“… … Sorry. Unless a miracle happens, that’s… … .”

“You’re a biology idiot. You can’t even survive on ham.”

“Okay… … .”

I also know that a living being that has reached the end of its lifespan cannot be brought back to life.

But I just threw a tantrum for no reason. As if that made it not my fault.

To make things even worse, Jihyun didn’t even say anything to complain. She just patted my back.

Ah. I knew that Hamshik could die, but I have no idea what to do after he dies, so I don’t know what to do.

Why can’t Hamshik just stay healthy and live like this? Not like a zombie, but just become a hamster fairy.

Or maybe it would have been nice if you had become a ghost like Ahyeon. Why doesn’t it appear?

That made me angry, so I grumbled while looking at Hamshik’s face, who was calmly closing his eyes. I said it while trying to make it sound like I was grumbling.

“I guess Hamshik doesn’t feel bad even though there are so many foods he can’t eat. He turned into a ghost and won’t come out.”

“That’s right. I guess it’s because Namin did so well.”

“Did I really treat Hamshik well? There are too many things I didn’t do for him.”

“Hamshik would have been grateful if you had done just that.”

Even though I was sobbing as I spoke, Jihyun was there to listen to me and listen to me softly. Thanks to her, I was able to calm down a little bit.

I also felt so sorry for Hamshik that I couldn’t cry. Am I less sad? I feel like I should be sadder.

In the midst of all this chaos, I heard the sound of someone pressing a password and opening the front door at a familiar rhythm.

It was getting dark and it was time to get off work, so it was probably time for Narin to come home.

If Hamshik had been there, he would have heard the footsteps a long time ago and gone out to the front door first. Then we would have all gone out to greet him together… … .

“Sister’s here. What, why aren’t you turning on the lights… … . Huh, what could be going on… … ?”

Maybe it was because we, who always came out to greet her, didn’t come out to greet her, and the room was dark. Na-rin’s voice was filled with anxiety.

Because I couldn’t just sit there, I opened my mouth, even if it was in a hoarse voice.

“Narin, Hamshik is dead. What should we do now?”

“Ah… … .”

Click, the sound of a light turning on was heard. At the same time, the room became brighter.

However, the newlywed home that Hamshik and Saekmusae had worked so hard to build was so cozy that the lighting was only half-lit.

Hamsik won’t be disturbed while he rests.

Narin also didn’t take out the hamshik here, but lay flat in front of us and examined the hamshik’s condition.

Jihyun sentenced Na-rin like that.

“No breathing, no pulse. I don’t know how many hours have passed, but I think I feel much more at ease thanks to Namin.”

“Yeah… … .”

Narin let out a heavy sigh and carefully reached out her finger into Hamshik and Saekmusae’s newlywed home and stroked my head.

“I’m lucky that no one around me has died, so I can’t imagine how Na-min feels. Ham-shik wasn’t just a pet to Na-min, he was a little brother. But if we leave Ham-shik alone like this, it’ll be ugly.”

“Even if it gets ugly, ham diet is still ham diet… … .”

I knew what you meant. All living things decay after they die. In the end, only bones remain.

But I was annoyed by the fact that Narin was saying such things, so I gave a weak rebuttal.

“But we can’t leave it like this. Let’s hold a funeral for Hamshik.”

But thanks to Narin’s gentle explanation, I was able to quickly understand.

Hamshik wouldn’t like to have his body left here like that either.

Hamshik wakes up in the morning and grooms himself, and he hates being told he’s fat. He’s taken care of his body to make it look pretty.

I don’t want to show myself rotting or becoming a mummy.

“Ah… … . Okay. First, let’s hold the funeral… … . Can’t I call Ahyeon too? I didn’t even get to say hello to Hamshik. Please call Hamshik even if he’s a ghost.”

“I will.”

So I decided to do as Narin said. It might have been a bit of a request, but Narin readily agreed.

I wish Hamshik would show up so I could at least say goodbye.