episode_0039

It’s not the illness that’s the problem.

I know the rules of this world because I have knowledge of the game.

From the start, Amelia was destined to live like this.

Whether it was decided by the game company or by a god, I will die in 6 years.

A terminal patient.

In reality, before becoming Bing, I was just a game addict with no dreams or future, so this life was incredibly happy for me.

A life where someone liked me, wanted me, and helped me when I needed it.

I thought I should become a necessary person in this world.

And make Lily as happy as possible.

So, even though I became a terminal patient, I am satisfied. With my second life.

I know I shouldn’t delve any deeper.

If I deepen and grow from here, it will be even sadder when we part ways.

I already know the emptiness of losing someone you love.

That’s why I prayed to become a game addict.

I was too careless. Until now, I only thought about Lily not dying, the relationship with Helena, and now, only a happy future with Lily and Helena.

But it was wrong. The premise was wrong. ‘I’ had entered the future I was thinking of.

From the start, the word ‘together’ shouldn’t have been included.

I am an existence that must leave anyway. An existence that disappears when the curtain falls.

If the relationship between Lily and Helena deepens here and they can’t escape from it, their future will not be happy.

An unhappy future awaits them, like my original self.

I was forgetting as I enjoyed being liked, wanted, and having fun with Lily and Helena.

Lily and Helena. I like them too. I don’t know if I love them yet.

No, in fact, I briefly had such feelings while thinking about a happy future.

But even if I realize it now, I shouldn’t accept their love.

I have already gone too deep.

I sometimes feel like I should leave Lily and Helena right now. But the future is too uncertain.

As Helena changes, Lily takes the lead, and the past changes with the assassination of the ghost, the future is flowing in an unpredictable direction.

If I think I will disappear and Lily and Helena will die, my heart won’t be able to bear it.

So, I should move to avoid a dark future while maintaining a distance from Lily and Helena.

Ah, I don’t know.

I think I’ve become too lax recently because I’ve been so happy. I’ve been forgetting what kind of world this is.

I need to remember, think, and act now.

No, I just want to throw everything away and live happily with Lily and Helena.

I want to live selfishly. Without thinking about what happens after I die.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately, and my body feels like it’s floating. My back feels sore.

-Ouch.

What’s this? Why does it hurt so much?

Even if I stayed in the bathtub for a little longer, why is my head hurting so much, and my back too?

My back?

Oh no.

It’s serious.

An injury.

A light shower is fine, but I was told not to stay in the water for too long.

As I opened my eyes for a moment.

“Ah… my goodness…”

The clear water that was almost transparent had turned red.

There was still thick blood flowing from my body, spreading in front of me.

‘I have to get up.’

It seemed too dangerous to stay submerged in the water any longer.

As I held onto the sides of the bathtub to get up, my vision suddenly shook.

‘Huh?’

I realized that my body had only recently recovered. In other words, my body was currently at the level of a level 1 slime.

A tired body, injured wounds, and a head full of thoughts.

With all these conditions overlapping, it was impossible to prevent dizziness.

Before I knew it, the hand holding onto the bathtub had lost sensation.

My body had already gone out of my control, and before I knew it, the ground was in front of my eyes.

“큰일…”

– Thud!

==

Lily and Helena were more nervous than ever.

Lily was scratching between her fingers, and Helena was biting her nails.

They were both staring blankly in front of the bathroom door, having never heard Amelia’s voice like this before.

“We’re in big trouble.”

“This is serious.”

Lily and Helena knew. Amelia never gets angry no matter what. She always stays calm and thinks rationally, no matter the situation.

Lily had never heard Amelia speak in such a tone, not even once in the past.

But today, just now, Amelia got angry. And it was intense.

“Gulp.”

Despite the seriousness of the situation, Amelia’s scent filled the room.

– Gulp.

Only then did Lily and Helena look at their hands. The sensation was still vivid in their memories. A grip that was clearly different from the touch of their chests.

And at the end, a mark of a star appeared, drawn on their hands.

The scent of that star filled the room and was slowly emanating from their hands.

“Lick.”

“L-Lily?”

“Oh, no. I, uh.”

“Do you really want to do that in this situation…?”

Lily licked her own hand without even realizing it, and Helena looked at her with a disdainful gaze for such behavior even in this situation.

But.

“Then I’ll take that.”

Lily’s finger pointed to the star-shaped puddle on the floor.

“T-That’s…!”

“Since we have to clean up before Amelia comes out anyway. You said you didn’t want to, so I’ll keep it.”

“W-What are you talking about! When did I say I didn’t want to! I meant we should think about the situation! Let’s split it in half.”

They both sat on the star puddle and used magic to pour the star water into their respective bottles.

After cleaning the room, Lily and Helena sat on chairs, waiting for Amelia to come out, discussing the events that just took place.

“What should we do?”

“Yeah. I’ve never seen Amelia that angry before…”

“Yeah… She seems really upset…”

“Ugh. I couldn’t stand it!”

“Even if Lily didn’t start it first.”

“What?”

“You started it first, and then I joined in!”

“No, you touched Amelia’s butt first!”

“You started it first!”

“…”

No matter how much they tried to shift the blame, the deed was already done. They both knew they were at fault.

They were just chatting to pass the time until Amelia came out, unable to bear the silence.

“It’s taking a long time.”

“Yeah.”

“We can’t even hear the sound of the shower. Could she be taking a half-bath?”

“If that’s the case, we’re in big trouble… What should we do? If we go in now, we might not be able to turn back.”

Amelia shouldn’t stay in the water for too long because her back wounds haven’t completely healed yet, but she still hadn’t come out of the bathroom, making Lily and Helena anxious.

As they debated whether to ignore Amelia’s words and enter the bathroom, a loud noise from inside the bathroom pierced their ears.

– Thud!

The sound wasn’t from something falling.

Lily and Helena immediately realized that the sound was Amelia falling over and rushed into the bathroom.

When they opened the bathroom door, they saw Amelia.

Amelia was lying on the floor in front of the bathtub, and blood was flowing from her, staining the water in the tub red.

“Amelia!”

“Amelia!”

==

Upon opening her eyes, the last thing she wanted to see was the ceiling of the medical room she never wanted to visit again.

But it wasn’t as severe as she thought. Opening her eyes, she saw the ceiling. Not a pillow like last time.

Her back was a bit sore.

She had been foolish to take a half-bath without thinking, causing her head to ache.

“Ugh.”

As she struggled to get up from the bed, Lily and Helena were the first to catch her eye.

In the medical room, Lily and Helena were sitting on the floor.

Is there a dogeza in this world too?

The dogeza posture does seem to have a strong impact.

In truth, I had already forgiven them before fainting. The problem is whether I can accept Lily and Helena.

Limited time, and the future of Lily and Helena.

“Let’s talk about it later.”

Decision made.

Right now, Lily is still too young. Helena is still unstable.

Let’s wait until Lily grows up and matures, and Helena’s heart stabilizes before talking about it.

And until then, let’s live a life without regrets.

“Lily, Helena.”

As soon as I finished speaking, Lily and Helena turned their heads towards me.

Their expressions clearly showed a sense of apology. That’s enough.

Actually, it wasn’t that bad. It was just sudden and overwhelming, which made me scared and surprised. Looking back now, I think I was slightly excited too.

But that doesn’t mean it’s a good thing. It was really scary.

Lily and Helena’s eyes were like those of a predator, staring at me as if they were going to devour me. Just thinking about it now makes my stomach rumble and ring.

How scary must it have been for my stomach to tremble like that. Phew…

“We forgive you.”

“…!”

“But from now on, I won’t allow you to touch my body.”

-Thud!!!

Although it wasn’t actually audible, Lily and Helena’s expressions were as if they could hear the sound of their hearts dropping.

What’s with this déjà vu again.

But this time, never again.

“Understood…”

“Yes…”

Absolutely not about this…

-Drip.

Lily and Helena, shedding tears like a puppy who lost its mother.

Never going back on this…

-Nodding.

Opening and closing their mouths, Lily and Helena slowly nodded their heads.

“Sigh…”

Then, as they got up and tried to leave the medical room with their shoulders almost touching the floor, I spoke up to them.

“Instead, ask for my permission first.”

-Swoosh!

“Amelia!”

“Amelia!”

Lily and Helena, who were in a low-speed mode just a moment ago, suddenly turned their bodies in a fast-paced mode and ran towards me, only to stop abruptly.

I smiled at their actions and spoke.

“Hug me.”