episode_0038

-Drip, drip, drip.

No matter how you look at it, this isn’t normal, right?

-Drip, drip, drip.

It’s not just the feeling of curiosity that makes me touch it, but rather a sense that something is filled inside.

“Y-You’ve gone too far!”

I shouted urgently.

-Drip, drip, drip.

Despite pushing Lily and Helena away, I couldn’t shake off the Mana Awakeners with my own strength.

“Stop…! Lily, Helena…!”

-Drip, drip, drip.

Lily and Helena, who wouldn’t budge no matter how hard I pushed. Looking into their eyes, I realized they were not in their right minds.

-Drip, drip, drip.

This is bad. It’s not about embarrassment anymore.

A sensation creeping up inside my body.

I kept backing away, but Lily and Helena were approaching me without removing their hands from my buttocks.

“P-Please stop, calm down a bit…!”

“Haa… haa… Amelia…!”

“Mom, mom, mom.”

Even my trembling voice couldn’t be heard as Lily and Helena pressed on.

In the end.

-Thud.

I was pushed against the wall. There was no escape now.

Enduring it, I finally…

“Huuu…!”

Unable to withstand the pleasure rising within me, I moaned as soon as the pleasure reached my brain.

-Gasp.

The hands massaging my buttocks stopped for a moment at the sound of my moan.

But it was truly just a moment.

-Drip, drip, drip.

Lily and Helena’s hands moved again.

“Haah…!”

My body jolted in an instant.

Lily caressed my left buttock, imbuing it with desire, while Helena slowly explored and indulged in the right buttock.

-Drip, drip, drip.

I had noticed their liking and obsession towards me, but did they want me in this way? Did Helena also think of me like this? Since when? Had she been holding back until now?

-Drip, drip, drip.

Why were they pushing me so forcefully all of a sudden?

Could it be… because of that earlier ‘Are you okay?’ when I nodded my head? Did that release what I had been holding back until now?

-Drip, drip, drip.

There was no time to regain my senses.

There was a wall blocking my escape, and I couldn’t overpower Lily and Helena. My body was weakening as the sensation continued to rise.

“Uh, huu, ah…”

Whether they knew my situation or not, Lily and Helena’s assault intensified.

It hadn’t been all alone during the four years I’ve been in this world. I had been consistent with self-pleasure once a month.

I thought I knew my body perfectly and had become familiar with the sensation, even getting used to my large and sensitive chest and body.

But the pleasure from someone else’s touch was much different than what I had imagined.

Only embarrassed moans echoed in the room as the pleasure approached me unexpectedly.

As my body relaxed and started to give in, Lily and Helena grabbed my buttocks tightly to prevent me from falling.

Meanwhile, Lily blew into my ear.

“Hoo~”

Helena’s nipples, which had been hidden due to her raised body, were now protruding, and she gently pinched the assertive nipple with her hand.

-Squish.

Struggling to hold back, the dam I had been holding back collapsed with the new sensation that came in simultaneously.

“Huuu…!!!”

The pressure I had been holding back came back even stronger, hitting my head, and finally, as my body relaxed completely, the pressure on my bladder that I had been holding back was released.

‘Ah…’

-Exhale.

Starting from my panties, the maid’s outfit was getting soaked in real-time. The sensation of the fabric sticking to my damp skin.

-Drip… Drip…

The maid’s outfit couldn’t contain the liquid I was spilling and it fell to the floor.

In the now silent room, the only sound was my urine hitting the floor.

-Drip… Drip…

At this age, I had become an adult who peed in front of Lily and Helena, feeling embarrassed. My strength was gone, I was peeing, leaking other things, and eventually tears were flowing.

“Huk… Hup… Huk…”

Confused by my pee, Lily and Helena seemed to snap out of it, as Helena quickly hugged me like a princess and rushed me to the bathroom.

As soon as we arrived at the dressing room, Lily and Helena quickly stripped off my clothes, not saying a word.

As we all entered the bathroom together, I spoke up.

“Leave.”

To my surprise, a voice I had never heard before came out of me, sharp and cold, unlike my usual warm and affectionate tone.

Perhaps because we were in the bathroom, my voice echoed louder than usual, and Lily and Helena, who were coming in, seemed frozen in time.

After some time, Lily and Helena left the bathroom, closing the door behind them.

“Sigh…”

-Clunk clunk.

-Sigh…

Although I thought the water was hot, I didn’t feel anything special as it flowed down my body. I just let the water wash over my dirty body.

I cleaned my body thoroughly and then sank into the bathtub.

My already weak body melted in the hot water.

I tried to think, wrapping my knees with my hands, but my knees wouldn’t bend completely due to my chest.

“This damn chest.”

I stretched out my legs, lay back, and closed my eyes.

“Phew…”

I couldn’t get my thoughts in order.

Amelia. Lily’s maid, the maid executed by Helena.

In fact, I had thought a lot while living as Amelia for four years. Whether the affection and care I received from those around me were for me or for Amelia.

But while playing the game, I made all the decisions myself.

Immersed in the character of Amelia, I thought about every choice, every path, every future that came with meeting Lily.

I thought of myself and Amelia as the same person. I believed that having received Amelia’s memories and emotions, I was no different from her.

That’s why I loved Lily, empathized with Helena, and thought we were heading towards a happy future.

Lily, whom I met at the age of 8. I knew she didn’t receive her parents’ love and considered my love special.

She was obsessed with me, thought of me as her mother, liked me, and loved me. But I didn’t know if she really thought of me as a person, not just as a mother, until now.

Helena, who was originally a witch.

I thought the reason she fell was that her heart was fragile and she had no friends to share her feelings with. So I empathized with Helena, indulging in her antics.

I thought we had become friends, but she saw me as more than a friend.

It was clear that Lily and Helena’s actions were something I couldn’t do if they saw me as just a mother or a friend.

They had to see me as one person.

It’s confusing. As Amelia, who liked Lily, I loved her as a mother, not seeing it from that perspective.

The same goes for Helena.

No, if you think about it, I’ve been taken care of like Lily, like a mother, and I’ve been indulged in and received her playful antics. That’s why Helena has never looked at me with those eyes.

But suddenly, something like this is happening, and my head feels like it’s going to explode.

Could it be that Lily is getting married then?

It was 100% sincere.

‘Ugh…’

But thinking about it again.

Is this a bad thing…?

Homosexuality. I distinctly remember seeing a few related words while playing the game.

Even though it’s the medieval era, homosexuality wasn’t a major sin. The public opinion may not be favorable, but it’s not a crime punishable by death like in the old medieval times.

Lily.

How much effort did I put in to save Lily? Beautiful, cute, kind, pure, talented, and eventually becoming beautiful.

She could be called a beauty in all directions.

I don’t know when she started thinking of me that way, but the fact that Lily thought of me with such feelings makes me secretly happy.

That’s how well I took care of Lily.

Even if I were to accept it, it would take some time for Lily to grow up.

She’s 12 years old. 12 years old. A child who only exists in my heart.

Even if I were to find out about Lily’s feelings, I don’t think my perspective on her would change.

Of course, she may be an adult in this world now, but with the modern knowledge I have, it’s psychologically difficult to have such emotions towards a 12-year-old.

But if Helena, who has become an adult…

Lily can’t be, but Helena can? That somehow seems like a path to ruin. My intuition, having seen death 100 times, is telling me.

Honestly, I want to live with Lily and Helena without worries. I want to receive their love.

Lily has just become an adult, become the head of the Estelle family, and will soon go to the academy.

The youngest Mana Awakening, talent recognized by the dragon. Lily’s future is so bright.

Helena is the same. Although she was a witch in the game, now Helena is just a woman with a tender heart.

Seeing how she has become a formidable magician while training with Lily, I still believe that her future is bright.

But I don’t want to ruin their futures because of me.

Dreaming of a beautiful future with them, loving each other and moving forward will surely bring happiness, but the ending won’t be good.

Because I’m going to die in as little as 6 years.