episode_0085

“On probationㅡ”

I’ve heard a lot of stories about it.

At the tea party I hosted, there was a daughter who got reprimanded by her parents just for dropping a teacup… Well, the fact that he freaked out and said “hee!” just by making eye contact with me was a bit of a shock, if not a bit shocking.

Well, this is probation = more like a yellow card or less than a red card that evil girls receive from their parents when they commit an ‘evil act’ that goes too far.

So I guess I should reflect now.

“I know, but-”

So far, I have done quite a few things that I think the world would call a villain.

But every time, my family was on my side.

They said she was a villain, but she didn’t harm an innocent person for no reason.

in short. My family is infinitely generous to me.

But I barely stayed overnight… ?

Of course, I’m not saying that drinking and staying out is a good thing.

Instead of going to the academy, she just lays down in bed, and when she gets tired, she walks around the huge castle-like annex, eats a snack, and gets a massage from the maids.

“This is probation… ?”

It would be no exaggeration to say that it was my favorite job.

No matter how much you grow up doing everything you want, you still have basic common sense. I think it’s wrong to drink and stay out.

That aside…

“Ah, good.”

I rolled around on the bed, hugging the soft doll.

A truly happy time.

“What should I do? I can’t reflect at all.”

Let me give you a rough idea of the situation.

[ah. also.]

Nazar said as if he knew it would happen.

Why does it seem like I’m the only one who doesn’t know?

Is staying out with Cecilia that much of a problem?

Of course, the fact that I even kissed her is a secret I can’t tell even if my mouth is torn.

The kiss was a little deeper than I thought…

I shook my head, feeling like my fever was rising just thinking about it.

[That’s right, the duke was worried about the young lady.]

It’s not that I didn’t think of that. But after that, my father said that I, as the princess of the dukedom…

[The duke is not the kind of person to care about such things.]

It was only after listening to Nazar’s explanation that I understood.

In my past life, I couldn’t go out at night because of the curfew. Things got a little better after I entered college, but I was worried about my children because of the general curfew. But would the curfew at that time cause an annoying scandal? At least he wasn’t worried about me.

“…I see.”

My dad encouraged me and told me I could do whatever I wanted.

“You were worried about me…”

It was something I didn’t even need to hear from anyone else.

However, according to my father’s words, only a little. It’s only a little, but… it reminded me of my father from my past life.

“Ha.”

I sighed and put my hands on my chest and thought about that day.

The expensive alcohol was quite tasty, but not enough to worry the family.

and…

Naturally, Cecilia came to mind.

“Friend… .”

Even thinking about her, my heart was beating regularly.

Love is like constantly wanting to see you, kissing you, feeling like you can’t even breathe… .Well, I think I heard that… .

“… Not at all?”

Of course, I miss you as much as I am your friend.

The kiss… .Cecilia likes it, so I can arrange that.

It felt exactly like that.

But a deep kiss…

That’s something different from being called a kiss.

“Of course—isn’t it love?”

Although Cecilia was important, it was not as important as her family.

If the family is against it, if they are sad…

‘Of course I will be against it…’

I shook my head and enjoyed my healing life again.

*

How many days have passed?

“Hmm…”

Today again, I was lying in bed.

“Did you sleep well?”

I suddenly opened my eyes at the sound of a beautiful voice tickling my ears.

Although I was shocked in my heart, I turned my head away while feigning calmness.

Cecilia, who had whispered in my ear, straightened her posture with her back to me.

“What’s going on?”

I stretched my hands up and then forward.

“I came because I missed Marianne.”

Then Cecilia clasped my hand. Then he gently hugged me.

I ended up being hugged by her in a haphazard manner.

‘no… . I was just stretching, I wasn’t asking for a hug… .’

I just pursed my lips at the sweet scent and somehow sweet feeling I felt in her arms.

Why?

It wasn’t my first time being held in Cecilia’s arms. On the contrary, I hugged him from time to time, to the point where I felt like he was too attached to me since I was young.

Still, my heart was pounding once. It was a soft, sweet hug. I was embarrassed by the comforting feeling of wanting to leave my body to the warm embrace and soft hands that wrapped me comfortably.

If you think about it, it’s natural. It’s been like this ever since I was young. Have we become too familiar with each other, at the level of attachment dolls? Then why is my heart beating so crazy? Wanting to forget everything and just be in her arms, I shook my head and put my strength into my arms.

“We saw each other a few days ago… .”

It was when I spoke a little sullenly while holding Cecilia’s shoulder and distancing myself from her.

Cecilia had a very pitiful and pitiful expression.

“How many days? Two weeks have passed. Marian.”

“2 weeks… ?”

I opened my eyes round. It seemed like I had done something wrong to come out like this. She kissed my forehead.

Rolling around in the annex, it became brighter when the sun rose.

When the sun goes down, it gets dark… . It feels like more than a week has passed since then. I had that feeling, though.

But I can’t help it. Nazar also said that I should get some rest and did not contact me while I was on probation.

I listened to her complaints for a while.

“Isn’t it really too much?”

From what I heard, since he was on probation, Cecilia was also banned from entering.

‘Okay, two weeks isn’t that long, but it’s not short either… .’

I was a little surprised, but when I saw Cecilia looking up at me with a sad face, I just stroked her head.

‘It’s a bit difficult.’

Right now, I was wearing fairly short pajamas.

In short, Cecilia’s hair, which cut my knee, is gently tickling my legs and thighs.

‘Was I weak to tickling?’

It seems like a strange sound is coming out. I didn’t know because I’ve never been tickled before.

“It’s heavy.”

I said sullenly.

“Ah. Sorry.”

Cecilia immediately got up and sat down next to me. Then he lifted my body lightly and made me sit on his lap.

Is there really a need to leave this wide bed and put our bodies together like this?

“Don’t you like me too much?”

“That’s right. I love it so much, Marian.”

…I meant it sarcastically, but if you say that, what can I say?

I pursed my lips and then just closed them.

Honestly, if I was in a bad mood, I would have cold-heartedly kicked my friend or whatever.

But it’s not that I feel bad, he likes it like this… .

Is there any reason to refuse… ?

“You must not bite your lips.”

Cecilia stroked my lips gently.

“I do what I want with my lips.”

“Hmm. It doesn’t work…”

At my words, Cecilia smiled softly as if she thought I was cute. It was beautiful, but somehow, it felt like it would be eaten if I let my guard down.

The moment I realized something was wrong. My body fell onto the bed. Not only that, she even held my arms up with one hand.

I was embarrassed on the inside, but I spoke clearly.

“What are you doing?”

“I’m sorry, I inadvertently.”

He smiled meekly and pulled me into his arms, as if it had been since he had laid me down.

It’s good that she woke up, but she was closer than before, so I could hear her heartbeat. And the way she was rubbing her face against my shoulder, it was as if she was saying, ‘I’m sorry, I was wrong, please forgive me.’

‘I guess I became a little more sensitive because I was breaking through the barrier. I’m really sorry…’

Cecilia muttered softly, making my shoulder tickle.

‘Barrier? Now that I think about it, his outfit. Unlike usual, he looks like an assassin… like a spy?’

no way. Probably not. Even thinking about it, I shook my head, feeling absurd.

Still, I didn’t do any serious self-harm, I just chewed my lip inadvertently, but the fuss was too much.

I narrowed my eyes.

“I hate obsessed people.”

“…I see. This is an obsession.”

Cecilia smiled bitterly.

‘huh. After all, I have to say what I have to say.’

It was when I touched her shoulder with the intention of getting up.

Her fingers ran through his hair, caressing his ears and lobe. It’s as precious and gentle as touching the most precious thing in the world, and if you let your guard down, a moan will come out… .

“…ugh.”

I covered my mouth with both hands.

Maybe it’s because it’s my first time experiencing something like this. Every time her hand touched me, a strong feeling ran down my spine.

Soon her face came closer.

He kissed my forehead, the area around my eyes, and all over my face as if marking.

“It’s so precious, how can I not cling to it if it gets hurt…? . huh? Marian.”

She whispered in my ear in a soft voice. It was a soothing, soothing voice, but she made a fuss as if she had suffered a serious injury just by chewing her lip, so I flinched without knowing.

“No. I didn’t even harm myself… .”

“Marian.”

She said in a firm voice.

I tried to close my mouth again, but her fingers parted my lips slightly.

“Ah. As expected, you got hurt.”

I thought it tasted a bit fishy and there was blood in my mouth.

“Let go…”

I tried to speak calmly, but my pronunciation was slurred and I felt bad, and that was when I tried to slap her hand away.

Her lips covered mine.

“……!”

It was a kiss as strong as a crashing wave. Her tongue came in without hesitation through the gap, and in an instant, it began to take over everything I had. As if saying that I missed you wasn’t a lie, I felt a longing as if I was tasting everything inside of me.

‘Now, wait a minute.’

Isn’t the progress suddenly too fast?

I lost consciousness from a kiss so intense.

I instinctively pulled back, but behind it was the bed and I ended up being crushed by her.

He was rubbing himself, but instead he hugged him tightly and kissed him more deeply.

In the end, like a prey caught in a net, I couldn’t resist and had no choice but to helplessly accept her love.

‘Why is this like this… .’

But soon I couldn’t even continue thinking like that.

Kissing was something I couldn’t get used to until I got used to it. He couldn’t do anything other than grab her back with his hair that had turned completely white.