episode_0291

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Something hot went down the back of my neck and towards the top of my head.

I think I understand why the expression “grab it by the neck” came about.

Rough, unpolished language lingered in my mouth at random.

Like a racehorse waiting for the gate to open,

Like a bull who sees a cloth waved by a matador,

I wanted to pour out all my emotions to this tiny little girl.

“Have you heard many times that you can’t empathize?”

Seongah Kim pushed me without stopping.

“Stop it.”

“I guess it was the perfect hit.”

“Stop it.”

“If you keep interrupting like that, no one will like it…”

“Stop it!!!!”

A shout filled with all emotions took over the house.

The reverberation of the sound hitting the walls of the house buzzed and rang through the house.

Seongah looked at me with her mouth slightly open, like a surprised rabbit.

Actually, he was watching me from earlier.

But I guess it was only now that I caught his eye.

Rough breathing, a flushed face.

“Uncle?”

“What do you know? Do you think you know me just because we’ve been together for a while? Do you know the life I have lived?”

“Hey….”

“You damn thing, fuck! I went through all this trouble thinking I could enjoy fame and fortune, but I was swept up in this and that!”

“……”

“Did I say something strange? I ask you to act as a guardian first. But I did it. Is it okay if I sympathize with it, or is it temporary if I understand it? Am I your emotional buffet? uh? Say it!”

“That….”

“The more you talk, the angrier you get? Fuck, it came all the way here. Still, I’m trying my best to do well. uh? Are you trying to treat me like this? Or is this also the law of the world?”

“What does that mean?”

“It’s too much!”

The house rings again.

“Why am I the only one who suffers, understands, yields, understands, and sacrifices?”

“There is another bitch who made the mistake first, so why should she suffer the damage? Is pointing out something that isn’t right or wrong a crime that deserves to be punished and killed? uh? What do you think?”

“Mister, first, sit down.”

Since when did I wake up?

“I’m tired too, I’m having a hard time too, I wish it would be over when I die! Do you know that damn feeling when a different world unfolds before my eyes every time?”

“As soon as I wake up, I wonder where I am. Do you know how I feel about having to figure out what kind of person I am and be careful in case I touch a switch?”

A typhoon of words shook the house, and for a moment, I was blinded by the anger that rose to the top of my head.

My vision became dark.

Ah… it’s dangerous.

My body sways, along with the feeling of my blood drying up.

“Uncle!”

Before I know it, Seong-ah comes next to me and grabs my arm. shake it off

Vision returns. There are two images, but it is still visible.

I walk briskly to the front door.

I put my shoes on and open the door.

“Where are you going?”

Seong-ah, who had been watching me in the kitchen, runs to me in surprise.

“Just looking at it, I don’t think I can satisfy you. If you want to have a guardian who will do as you like, make one with that good magic.”

“Ah, uncle!”

“What will you know if you live your whole life as a high school student and die? Now that I think about it, that’s right. Is it my business?”

I just left the house.

You emerge onto a street dimly lit by streetlights. A silence, different from the noise inside the house, spread like fog outside the house.

It was a night when even the moon was obscured by clouds.

I haven’t decided where to go, but I’ll just take a step.

I don’t know if she was too scared to move, or because she had no regrets, but she didn’t chase me.

I’m rather glad. If it follows you persistently, it’s a hassle to remove it.

“Ah.”

Take a few steps, then stop.

Something came to mind.

I take out my cell phone from my pocket. Turn around and throw it.

A cell phone with a parabolic curve falls inside her house.

Even the small device that connected me to her is thrown away.

As I moved through dimensions, there were things I tried not to recognize.

[Unreasonable]

If I start complaining about the irrationality, my heart will break.

However, after pouring out all my emotions, I feel like ignoring it may not be the only answer.

“Wow, I feel refreshed inside.”

As I went through many levels, I felt like I had cleared up something that was frustrating and blocked.

***

After a commotion, Kim Seong-ah stood silently in the cluttered house.

“……”

I thought I found his weakness.

I thought I could get an apology if I bitten into it well.

I thought that then he would understand me more.

However, the result was different from what I expected.

“With nowhere to go.”

Still, she had a firm belief that he would come back.

Isn’t he the one who has no one to rely on?

Both of us are excited, so once we cool down a bit, we’ll open the door and come in again.

Yes, it will.

Thinking on her own terms, she returned to the table with a blank expression on her face.

Although there was a commotion, the food on the table was safe.

She sat down on the chair with a blank expression on her face and picked up her chopsticks again.

Put a piece of Spam in your mouth along with the rice.

A salty taste spreads in my mouth.

“No taste…”

Is it because it cooled down in the meantime?

She couldn’t understand at all.