episode_0290

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Seongah’s face crumpled.

Looking at that face, I remember the first time I came to this house.

I see the tower of trust and friendliness that was built up collapsing.

“I have no idea what you want to say.”

It’s a stiff voice, similar to the words I just said.

“You’re not pretending not to know?”

We fight back without hesitation. When I thought about it, I wondered if I had ever had this kind of emotional battle while wandering through dimensions.

“Then why don’t you go to school?”

“That’s it… Because the bad guys keep coming.”

“…Nope.”

There were no enemy raids on any other day except today.

“……”

Seongah put down her chopsticks. A dissatisfied gaze is cast at me.

It reminds me of old memories, and the young gaze of that similar enemy makes me pause for a moment.

However, as always, I was the type of person who had to say what I wanted to say in order to be relieved.

“I told you. If I become your guardian, I’ll say bad things about you.”

If we end the conversation here, it will not be good for Seong-ah.

“…Yes.”

She nodded, probably remembering that time too.

But his expression was still stiff.

“Time doesn’t always wait for you. There are things you must do at your age.”

What my superiors told me, I pass it down in the same way.

“I know that you lead a different life than other children your age. But, you have to do what you have to do. You’re an adult now.”

“Adult?”

Her retort cut through my words like a sharp knife.

“What is an adult?”

She didn’t hide her upset.

“…….”

In response to her question, numerous definitions of adults came to mind and then disappeared.

“Everyone is like that. I am an adult now. You must take responsibility alone.”

Seongah smiled bitterly. It was a mixture of loneliness and fatigue that was extremely pessimistic.

“After my mom and dad died, my aunt said that. Study hard at school. It is the duty of a student.”

“So I worked hard. I can’t say I did well, but I still tried to live like a student.”

The growing emotions made her body tremble.

“But do you know what they say about being a senior in high school? They say I’m an adult now. From now on, I want to be independent on my own.”

“No one told me anything about what I should do when I grow up. How to manage a house, how to cook food, how to save money, how to make and break relationships!”

She raises her voice.

It was a cry full of injustice.

“Whenever you leave me alone and tell me to just study and live like a student. Have you decided on your career path? What does this house look like? Now you too are an adult. Just say this!”

The clenched fist hit the table.

“Me, until I started living with you. I didn’t even know how to take care of the yard. I didn’t even know how to repair a house. food? More than what I’ve made in 5 years. There was more of what the uncle made, and it was delicious.”

Tears form slightly at the corners of her eyes.

It wasn’t sadness. It was an injustice.

She slammed the table twice more. The table shook and the dishes shook.

“Meanwhile, the damned guys keep coming. I also want to ignore it. I don’t want to fight with them while my body hurts. But, if I turn away, other people die. There’s bloodshed, suffering, and losing loved ones. So I have no choice but to step forward.”

“Because there is no one to remember me, I survive each day with the mental victory of protecting the dreams and hopes of others…”

Wow, tears came down.

“Seong-ya.”

As I watched the explosion of emotions before my eyes, I cautiously called out her name.

“Mr. It’s really too much.”

Her anger was directed at me.

“I told you. The only person who remembers that I am a magical girl is my uncle. But why don’t you understand me? The guardian’s role is not just to scold the child. It is the role of a guardian to care for, understand, and comfort others.”

My mouth was closed.

“But why are you talking about me as if I’m a bad person or a bad child who doesn’t do what I should do? You know. They are watching from the side to see what kind of life I am living.”

“…But, I’m worried about you.”

It might be right to comfort her as she said.

However, if she passes it off like this, she will just repeat the same life again.

A life that cannot move forward and continues to spin in a familiar life.

Even that treadmill would sink into the swamp as time passed.

Therefore, I think this conflict is necessary.

I tried to persuade her with a softer voice than before.

“Worried? Did you say you were worried?”

She snorted.

“If you really cared about me, you should have asked questions instead of questioning me. Are you worried that you’ve already decided that he’s a bad kid and are asking?”

She smiled crookedly.

“That’s why I asked at first. It was you who lied.”

I set the facts straight.

Seong-ah also said it, and her eyes widened slightly, as if she had missed it.

And soon, I narrowed my eyes.

“Yes. I guess what you’re saying is correct. I’m a bad kid.”

It was a feeling of déjà vu.

Perhaps that was why suddenly, a feeling of displeasure rose from deep within my heart.

“Don’t talk like that. If you really didn’t want to go to school, you should have at least told me. Seong-a, you are the one who said you would go to school but skipped it. And it was you who tried to deceive me with lies until the end.”

Suppress your frustration and convey only the facts.

“…annoying.”

Very genuine emotions were conveyed.

So Seong-ah and I stayed silent for a while with the food in front of us.

I desperately bit my lower lip to silence the old memories that were suddenly dragged out.

However, despite my efforts, Seong-ah seemed unable to tolerate ‘losing’ like this.

“If I just say I’m sorry, what’s the point? Do you have to win to feel relieved?”

It was something I often heard somewhere.

The anger that I had tried so hard to suppress began to creep up my chest and into my throat.

Did he realize that the attack was effective?

Seonga continued to attack in that direction. Maybe I know it instinctively.

Still, I thought I could bear it. This isn’t the first time I’ve seen someone lose their temper and express their sad feelings.

I felt bad and felt a sense of disappointment in my heart, but I was confident that I would not let go of my partner.

“Surely you treated your ex-girlfriend this way too?”

If only I hadn’t heard these words, which were full of sarcasm.