episode_0211

“Oh, I made a mistake…”

How long has it been since he came into the room, grumbling?

As I lay in bed, hugging his thick, fluffy tail, the vivid memories of my actions began to flood back to me.

As soon as I got home, I glared at my mother who had greeted me warmly.

What’s more, he showed his jealousy by grabbing his mother’s large breasts.

Lastly, I hurt my mother’s feelings by saying harsh words to her.

Thinking back on it again, I buried my face in my tail and screamed at the thought that it was no different from an unfilial daughter’s actions.

“Gyaaah…”

Why did I do that?

No, even if I was jealous, why was I jealous of my mother?

Mom is not at fault. Honestly, if it weren’t for my mom’s genes, my heart would have been…

My aunt’s steep cliff flashes through my mind.

If I had been my aunt’s child instead of my mother’s child, wouldn’t I not have had hearts like these?

I carefully grabbed my chest with both hands and felt a soft cushion.

It’s not as good as my mother’s, but it’s still a texture that lets you feel the taste of touch.

I took my hand off my chest and nodded my head slowly.

Yeah, it’s big enough. It’s definitely not small.

There are only a handful of kids in my class who are taller than me. That means I’m above average!

When I asked Jihye, “Am I on the small side?” and she cussed me out, I guess she’s on the “big side” side?!

Thinking about Jihye, who had been swearing at me almost during the first period and feeling inferior until we left school, my confidence began to rise!

However, apart from my rising confidence, a feeling of anxiety began to eat away at my heart.

…What do I do when I see my mom’s face? I took my anger out on her when she did nothing wrong. What should I do if I’m really sorry?

He must have been eager to welcome his daughter back from school.

How heartbroken must she have been, telling her mother that she hated her and storming into the mansion?

A situation where you need to apologize, but you don’t have the courage to do so.

With guilt welling up from the depths of my heart, I rolled around on the bed, muttering apologies that could not be heard.

“Ugh… I’m sorry, I’m really sorry…”

Soon it will be dinner time, and if we leave it like this, what should be a harmonious dinner will become like walking on thin ice.

“You absolutely must apologize. There is nothing good that can come from having a strained relationship with your mother.”

Although she always appears kind and easygoing, Mom is the real power behind the throne in this family.

Because I didn’t know what would happen if I showed my dislike to such a powerful person, and I knew all too well how scary my mother would look when she was angry.

I started running towards the bedroom where my mother was to ask for forgiveness before it was too late, when I could turn back time.

“Hehehe… Heeek…”

After running hard for a few minutes, I soon arrived in front of the living room.

After I approached the door, I knocked carefully.

Knock knock.

[who?]

“Jin Ha-yeol, can I come in for a moment?”

[Okay, come in.]

The voice that came from inside was not the usual cheerful voice, but a droopy voice, as if the emotional wound was significant.

And at that gloomy voice, my guilt began to rise again.

…Let’s start by apologizing instead of making excuses as soon as we enter. I think that will ease this uncomfortable atmosphere a bit.

I carefully opened the door and went in, and soon found my mother lying on the bed with a blank expression.

A lifeless face.

Fox ears and tail droop limply.

Tears welling up around the eyes.

Seeing my mother’s appearance as if something was broken, I quickly ran to her and, suppressing my guilt, asked for her forgiveness.

“I’m sorry, Mom! I was really wrong!”

“No, it was my fault. I should have given her a little more of the big-breasted genes when she was born.”

“I, I think this is enough! Really!”

“I see? Thank you for thinking so.”

I let out a sigh of relief at the slightly relieved voice, but my face hardened at my mother’s next words.

“But Jinha, do you really hate me?”

“Yes, yes?! No way! Why would I hate my mom!”

“It was too bloody in the yard for that to be true… It was like seeing a mortal enemy…”

“Oh, no! What a mortal enemy! How much I love my mom!”

When I screamed again in embarrassment, my mother opened her mouth and wiped away the tears that were welling up in her eyes.

“Look, how can you say you like it when you’re screaming like this? Isn’t that just empty talk?”

“…”

A faint hint of playfulness hidden in the melancholy voice.

I noticed that the corners of my mother’s lips went up slightly, and then I said to her with a serious face.

“Z, prove it to me? How much I love you, Mom?”

After I made up my mind and approached her with a strange aura, my mother looked at me with interest.

“Oh my? You’re really going to eat me up? Okay, why are you proving it? Where is the proof of love between parents and children, you stupid daughter.”

F*ck!

“Aaah!!!”

Then, as if to let me know that it was all an act, he poked me in the back of the head with a hammer, and in an instant, he changed the gloomy atmosphere and left me with a warning.

“I’ll close my eyes and let it slide this time, but there won’t be a next time. If you do this one more time, I won’t let you off easy, okay?”

“Yes, yes hehe…”

As I swallowed hard at the thrilling atmosphere that felt like walking on thin ice, my mother patted my head and asked me a question.

“By the way, I have a question. Can you answer it for me?”

“Oh, ask, Mom.”

“What on earth did Jaeseok say that made you say his chest was small? The Jaeseok I know isn’t the kind of person who would care about something like that.”

“That’s…”

I sighed deeply and told my mother everything that happened at school, and upon hearing this, my mother tilted her head and slowly opened her mouth.

“So, when I asked whether big or small was better, you said big is better?”

“Yes, and the novel that Jaeseok was holding in his hand was filled with characters with huge breasts…”

As I spoke in a dejected tone, with my ears and tail hanging down, my mother nodded and said.

“Hmm, then I guess you could think that way. But you know.”

Mom paused for a moment to think about something, then quickly figured out the core of the misunderstanding.

“What was the purpose? Are you sure about your heart?”

“Huh?”

“No matter how much I think about it, it’s weird. Isn’t Jaeseok like your dad? If he had known he was asking about your preferred breast size, wouldn’t he have avoided the question?”

“Huh, huh?!”

I am dumbfounded by the unexpected words.

By any chance, did you simply answer whether you like big or small like your mom said? Not breast size?

For some reason, I thought that might be the case.

Jaeseok, this guy has shown a rather conservative side since he was young.

“Then…”

“I guess it just means that they like big things. After all, men like big things. Giants, dinosaurs, and finally transformations. They say that all of these are things that men are crazy about.”

“Ah.”

He let out a sigh that was like a final utterance.

Are you saying that I was seriously worried about something like that?

Are you saying that all the hard work and worry I’ve put in up until now was in vain?

As I smiled blankly with a blank expression, my mother comforted me by patting my back.

“Don’t read too much meaning into men’s words and actions. Men are much simpler animals than you think.”

“Well, isn’t Jaeseok a little different? He was different from others since he was little.”

“Your dad was also different from others since he was little. Although it has a slightly different meaning from Jaeseok.”

“…”

A wedge-breaking remark.

I was speechless and just laid down on the bed. My mom giggled at me and stroked my soft tail.

“Empty your mind. Love isn’t as complicated as you think. You need to empty your mind.”

“…I think I really thought too much, just like my mom said.”

“You’ve done it a lot. I always say that you’re smart, but you have too many distracting thoughts. If you think about it, this is why this happened again, right?”

I nodded quietly at my mother’s words.

I guess I was overthinking it.

I thought I found Jaeseok’s hidden hobby when I saw him holding a light novel.

Looking at the characters that appear there, I thought that Jae-seok’s ideal type was like that.

As my mother said, I even thought about adding the object ‘chest’ to the word ‘geugeoikseon’.

“I feel like I’m the only one who’s really weird.”

“Phew, then? Then, from tomorrow onwards, try to think a little more simply.”

“I should do that. I feel like I’ve lost a lot…”

So, under my mother’s advice, I promised myself to keep my thoughts as simple as possible from now on, but unfortunately, that promise was broken the very next day.

3rd period break.

As I was going to Jaeseok’s class to play and sing Lulu Lala as usual, I heard a quiet conversation.

“Hey, childhood friends are a symbol of defeat, right? Honestly, do you think you’d look like a girl if you’ve been friends for so long?”

“Hmm… Now that I hear you say it, I guess that’s true.”

…Mom, I guess I can’t think of simple things. How can I not have random thoughts when I hear things like this?

I can’t do it.

My head began to fill with all sorts of fantasies again.