episode_0085

I feel defeated.

I found a drawing that looked like a dog, but if it wasn’t a fox beast, would it feel like this?

Losing what you wanted in an instant makes you feel very empty.

“Fuck.”

He quietly lets out a word that expresses his shit.

Then, I look at the 4-day, 3-night trip to Japan in my hand and think.

Give me back my three boxes of cup ramen.

I can stay for 8 days without a problem just by eating cup ramen three times a day, so why are they giving me a 4-day, 3-night trip to Japan that I can’t even eat?

I have no intention of going out at all.

There is no such thing as sex just by watching a fox beast, a fox with a great baby, being cooped up in the house and being humiliated and copulated, so why do you have to look for sex outside?

It’s not fun, cool, or sexy out there.

If I do anything, everyone will attack me like a horny animal, so why should I go out?

“Ha…”

As I let out a deep sigh of frustration, Hyukjin came closer and patted my back, perhaps trying to comfort me.

“Hey, think positively. Rather, this could be an opportunity, right?”

While saying absurd nonsense.

How on earth can I think this could be an opportunity?

Even if you just leave your home for a short time, you are exposed to these great dangers. How much worse would it be if you were in Japan, which is much further away.

When I raised my eyes as if asking what kind of bullshit I was talking about, Hyukjin showed me news about the upcoming Comiket on my smartphone.

“They said it would be held for the first time in a long time. From what I heard, many artists who draw fox figures are also participating. Wouldn’t it be better to just go there and take a quick look, rather than trying to search for it on the Internet?”

“…How do you know that many artists who draw fox characters are participating?”

“There is a way to know everything. Wouldn’t I know more information than you, who is stuck in a corner of your room, drawing pornographic videos and masturbating while watching manga every day?”

“I can’t believe it because you’re saying this when you only watch furry.”

Although I said it in a voice that I found hard to believe, I was definitely moved.

These days, the seeds of the fox beast have dried up.

Whatever you do, you can be a magical girl, succubus, monmusu, furry.

Even if I gritted my teeth and searched for a day, I was at a loss to find even one fox beastman with the worst drawing style, so the news that a large number of illustrators who professionally draw fox beastmen were participating effectively shook my resolve not to go out.

What should I do?

Should I wait until later? Or should I go and buy it myself?

However, some of them didn’t come out no matter how long I waited. If you think about it that way, wouldn’t it be right to go and buy them in person?

…If you think about going, you’ll lose more money than you can imagine.

Should I get a little more commission?

After finishing all the commissions I received, I wanted to use this opportunity to draw some personal works.

I’m worried.

The pros and cons of traveling and not traveling are very clear.

The advantage of going is that you can get Manga, a shitty fox beast, but the disadvantage is everything else.

The advantage of not going is that you can live a life full of romance and leisure while drawing personal pictures. There’s only one downside: you can’t get Manga, the fox beast.

I weighed the two carefully, but the pros of one were strong enough to outweigh all the cons, so I decided to just go on a trip to Japan.

Personal work is important, but having your daughter drawn by someone else is even more important.

“I can’t stand 3 months’ worth of daughter-in-law.”

There are three weeks left until the trip.

After working hard for 3 weeks, you get 3 months worth of daughter-in-law? Isn’t this the creative economy?

I must be a genius.

“It’s going to be quite busy for a while. No, is it just everyday life now?”

Smiling helplessly, I wrote the commission promotional article as usual.

[ 19) Commissions/outsourcing accepted. (All abnormal sexual desires are possible except gore and BL)]

—–

Time passed and it was the day before the homework broadcast.

Although it was only 6 days, there were many changes during that time.

First, the number of people applying for commissions related to Ilwol characters has increased significantly.

Posting a pornographic picture of a haughty wizard character being restrained and humiliating him must have had a huge impact on the related community, and many people submitted commissions to draw pornographic pictures using other characters.

How happy I was to draw ordinary pure love pictures without any sexual desires.

Although I was less happy than when I drew the fox beast, I was still able to draw without feeling emotionally drained for the first time in a long time.

And the second one.

“…I’m embarrassed, can you stop taking this off? I think it would be really embarrassing if I wore more, right?”

[When did you never say it was okay? Wear it a little longer. Only 15 minutes have passed.]

Although it was only for a short time, he was able to wear women’s clothes.

Considering that as soon as I put it on for the first time, I threw it away in a fight, it was truly a huge change.

but.

“I really want to wear it with jeans or dolphin pants… It’s like dressing up as a woman, so I feel like something inside me is being ripped away.”

My tolerance for shame increased, but I did not adapt, so wearing women’s clothes was just as difficult for me as it was the first time.

Phew, just wait for the homework broadcast to end. If I wear women’s clothes again, then I’ll be a dog, dog.

As I was sighing and suppressing the boiling shame, the fox god shook his head and opened his mouth.

[She seemed fine the last time she was wearing a nun’s uniform while going to confession or something, but she doesn’t understand why she’s being so upset now.]

“The nun’s uniform was still quite plain! It wasn’t an outfit that emphasized femininity like this!”

When I pointed to the black nightdress she was wearing, the fox god rested her chin as if thinking of something and shook her head again.

[Well, considering the way you were wearing that outfit, it was an outfit that emphasized femininity quite a bit.]

“…Wait a moment. You can compare it right now.”

At Foxine’s words, I took off the night dress I was wearing and took out the nun’s clothes that were in the closet and put them on. When I stood in front of the mirror, I realized that I felt ashamed differently than before.

Large breasts that cannot be hidden even with loose clothing.

I kept being conscious of that part and felt like I was wearing women’s clothing, so I ended up throwing off the nun’s clothes I believed in and ended up wearing sweat tops and dolphin pants as usual.

I feel better now. I feel at peace.

Haha, what should I really do anyway? During the 1st anniversary broadcast, you already have to wear a very revealing shrine maiden costume, and doing it like this with only one day left would be very difficult.

When I arrived today, two sets of shrine maiden clothes were spread out on the bed.

One side is a shaman uniform that is too high-level to be broadcast, and the other side is a shaman uniform with only moderate exposure.

…Why on earth did I order such an outfit to enjoy wealth and fame?

Moreover, what on earth were they thinking when they custom-made that extremely vulgar shrine maiden uniform?

Cursing myself for designing such costumes in the past while thinking, ‘A fox beastman must be a loser!’, I picked up a relatively plain shrine maiden uniform.

No matter how much I think about it, wearing those vulgar clothes is impossible.

It’s absolutely impossible, but even if I were to become a female, wouldn’t I never be able to wear those clothes?

Deciding that if I ever had to go out, I would take it with me and burn it, I slowly began to put on my shrine maiden uniform.

White top and red skirt, like an authentic shaman costume.

The difference is that there are slight grooves on the sides of the skirt to expose the sides and part of the thighs.

I was embarrassed because I felt like I would look sexy wearing it all, but I suppressed my shame and succeeded in wearing all the shrine maiden clothes.

So, fully dressed in my shrine maiden uniform, I carefully entered the bathroom and looked in the mirror.

“Pretty…”

In the mirror, I was able to find a fox shaman who was more beautiful than any fox beast I had ever seen.

The shaman’s uniform shows faithfulness and purity, but in contrast, the lewd female body with graceful curves gives off an erotic feel, showing off her unexpected charm.

Is that all? The furry ears and thick, luscious fox tail not only make you feel cute, but also stimulate the desire to touch it.

A beauty that every man, even gays, would look at with fascination.

Even though I felt ashamed of myself like that, I smiled in satisfaction.

“If I look like this, I can definitely turn those crazy lolicons into normal sexual desirers.”

If this doesn’t suck, it’s Buddha who has surpassed gays.

no? Maybe even Buddha would say this looks ugly?

[Naugh haha]

Yes, you say it sucks.

The Buddha in my heart said so.

Okay, it sucks even more than I thought. It sucks…

“I’m really fucking embarrassed. The shame I can endure is the limit… I need to get rid of it quickly…”

Out of shame that came later, I tried to get out of the bathroom and take off my shrine maiden uniform.

By some coincidence, Hyukjin, who came with chicken and beer, ended up wearing a shrine maiden costume at just such an unfortunate time.

Tuk.

Hyukjin drops the chicken and beer in his hands as soon as he sees him.

The guy expressed his honest evaluation in a serious tone rather than his usual shallow tone.

“Pretty.”

After hearing those words, I felt shame, anger, and an unknown, mysterious heat, and threw the frying pan at him.

“Get out now!!!!!”