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After my friend left the house, I ordered the broadcasting equipment I had prepared in advance and started finishing up my commission.

Honestly… I can’t help but think that my clients are all a bit perverted.

All sorts of strange sexual desires come out.

I finished one and thought I could finish another one in a fairly quick time, so I added two more slots and got two more suckers.

One asked me to draw a saint being subjected to lewd acts by tentacles, and the other asked me to draw a neko-mimi girl being humiliated by a dog.

…I was planning on using something a bit more normal as content for my broadcast.

I have to finish everything before the broadcast, so we can all be happy, right?

– You seem to be pushing yourself too hard. Take it easy and rest a bit.

“You can’t draw something so vulgar once the broadcast starts. If you don’t draw it now, you’ll be pressed for time later.”

– Aren’t you drooling right now? Working overnight is not good for your health, so stop now and go to bed.

“Drooling? Oh, that’s because I was drawing while thinking about you naked…”

I took a tissue to wipe off the drool, and the fox goddess grabbed my tail and yelled at me.

– You, you shameless!!! Didn’t I tell you to forget about it!!!

“How can I forget a masterpiece? Maybe my memory has improved since I transformed, I remember it even more clearly now.”

– Forget it. If you don’t forget, I’ll make you forget forcibly.

“How can I forget that feeling? I can’t forget it. If I forget, I’ll lose half of my life.”

– Sometimes, experiencing such a big loss isn’t a bad thing.

“You’re really talking nonsense today. Be quiet and focus. Fix your posture.”

As I scolded the fox goddess, she floated in the air as if she had no choice, and I started drawing again while looking at her.

Why am I drawing while looking at the fox goddess?

The difference between the drawing I made while looking at her and the one I made without looking at her is too big.

The fox goddess seems to have all the beauty in the world.

Even if I can’t capture all that beauty in my drawing, just capturing a small part of it makes the drawing incredibly powerful.

Yes, just like now.

“…I’ve never felt compelled to draw a fox spirit before.”

– Haha, do you understand now? The beauty of the goddess. Now, praise her! Admire her! Worship her!

“I don’t want to admit it, but I can’t help but be impressed by her. Well, it’s almost finished, so I should send it off.”

Ignoring the fox goddess who was exuding endless confidence next to me, I sent a message to my client, and not long after, my client sent me a grateful fanart of the character.

This is still an unfinished work.

“Thank you so much, author! You drew Sacks so beautifully. I’m really grateful.”

“Excuse me, but why did you name your character Sacks?”

“Huh, do you not know who Sacks is? It’s rare to draw Sacks without knowing who she is.”

That’s such a vulgar thing to say.

Struggling to hold back my words, I cautiously asked him again.

“Did you perhaps misspell the word and that’s how the name came about?”

“Oh, I see. Sacks is exactly what it sounds like.”

“???????”

“No, there’s a different meaning to the name Sacks. Sacks carry sacks around, so they’re named Sacks. It’s not Sex.”

“…That name could be easily misunderstood.”

“Well… that’s true, right? Since Sacks’ name is so similar to Sex, some other authors find it funny just hearing the name Sacks.”

Indeed, isn’t it strange not to laugh when you hear that name?

When you hear it from outside, it seems like anyone would laugh so hard that their ribs would pop out.

Quietly muttering to myself, I felt uneasy at the name “Saeks” and immediately sent him the completed work before shutting down the slot.

The tone of that conversation is really messed up.

Honestly, that name, was it intentionally chosen?

It’s a talented name that makes people uncomfortable to hear, damn it.

I didn’t want to think about that shitty Saeks anymore, so I just closed the slot and tried to clear my head to regain my composure.

“Ugh, that damn Saeks. It’s been bothering me since earlier, really messing with my head.”

– Don’t push yourself too hard. Haven’t you been sitting and working for 13 hours already?

“I just need to draw one more. I ordered it for quick delivery, so it’ll arrive tomorrow. I’ll work for another 12 hours, take a nap, and then start the broadcast.”

As the Fox Deity said, I am indeed pushing myself too hard.

I want to see the messed up Fox Manga no matter what.

Even if the Aga Factory Operating Machine disappears due to a contract I didn’t want, the sight of the Fox Deity will remain eternal.

Even with this body, if I can feel desire…

“No, damn it, why do I keep having these strange thoughts after changing bodies? It feels like my lustful desires have become stronger.”

– Of course. Humans desire but restrain themselves, while animals, unlike humans, do not restrain themselves. Your vulgar thoughts will trap you in delusions if not stopped midway, as animal instincts are strong. Especially for yokai.

“That’s a real problem, then. If the mating season comes, it’s really screwed, right? Or rather, am I voluntarily getting screwed?”

– You’re asking only obvious things since earlier. Oh, and let me tell you in advance, when the mating season starts, it’s best not to have males around. They will definitely mate with anyone regardless of the species.

Don’t have males around when the mating season starts… huh.

How strong must they have made my sexual desire for me to babble such nonsense.

I’m going crazy, really.

“Except for becoming prettier, there are only penalties, damn it, you crazy woman.”

– Penalties? What’s that? Is it something you eat?

“I mean disadvantages, disadvantages. How come after becoming a woman, all the advantages disappear and only disadvantages remain?”

– Disadvantages? Mating is just a basic instinct of animals that want to reproduce. Are you really calling that a disadvantage?

“I’ll become promiscuous? Become obsessed with colors?”

Losing my mind and getting annoyed, the Fox Deity cautiously opened her mouth to me.

– Well… isn’t it ‘common sense’ that animals have that level of mating desire? And, fox yokai even seek out the partner’s energy…

“So, how to stop the mating season?”

– Animals don’t go against the natural order like humans do. I believe you understand what that means.

“There’s no way to stop it at all, damn it.”

I had planned to finish the drawing today, but I just couldn’t bring myself to draw it.

If the mating season starts, it’s confirmed that I’ll become a female.

Me, who used to curse the TS Amata Clan as gay every day… now facing the danger of becoming a female.

“This can’t be happening, damn it.”

Was denying the reality in front of me amusing to the mischievous eyes?

The Fox Deity approached me in despair and offered warm words of comfort.

“Hehe, it would be easier to give up, wouldn’t it? Think about it. You can gain vitality and plenty of pleasure. Isn’t it killing two birds with one stone?

“Killing two birds with one stone is bullshit. It’s hitting the jackpot. Two in one shot! Wow!”

“I simply cannot understand you. Why do you avoid the way to gain pleasure and vitality at the same time? Just grab that exorcist full of vitality that you met earlier, and there would be no problem living your life, right?”

“Yeah, there would be no problem living my life as you say. But, my dignity as a man is shattered. Didn’t I say it at the beginning? I wanted to dominate the fox spirit, not to be dominated as a fox spirit.”

“But right now, she definitely looks like a female, doesn’t she? She was like that just a moment ago. Enthralled by that tremendous vitality, shamelessly wagging her tail around…”

“Aaah!!! Shut up!!! Stop with that damn female talk!!!”

…There was no way to win this argument.

No matter what I said, the actions I took earlier were all evidence against me, and although I only said I was going crazy, now I really was about to lose it.

Ugh, I really didn’t want to resort to this method.

You started this, Fox Goddess.

I endured as much as I could, but all the wrongs were on you.

I went to the kitchen, took out a kitchen knife, and said to the Fox Goddess.

“Hehe… Hehehe… Even like this, can you still call me a female?”

…You’ve gone completely insane. Did you really hate hearing that female talk that much?”

“Yeah, I’d rather die than live while hearing that female talk. It’s something that only needs to be done once, so it should be fine, right?”

This time, there was no one to interrupt. As I tried to bring the knife down on my wrist, the Fox Goddess finally realized the seriousness of the situation and knelt down, begging for forgiveness.

“I-I’m sorry… Please don’t commit suicide… I didn’t know you would feel ashamed of becoming a woman.”

“You’re only kneeling outside your knees? Is that all you think you did wrong?”

As I chuckled and raised the knife again, the Fox Goddess, realizing the severity of the situation, began to kneel down to my knees, begging for forgiveness.

“I, I’m sorry… How can I make amends! Just put that down and let’s talk about it!!!”

“If it’s not too much to ask, I’ll listen as long as it’s not too unreasonable!”

Seeing her stubborn and confident attitude, I found her quite cute, so I smiled brightly and told her the way to make amends.

“Apologize.”

“…What?”

As she seemed to deny reality and asked again, I opened my mouth once more and told her the way to make amends.

“Apologize sincerely, and if you do it naked, you won’t cause any more suicide incidents. Isn’t it a good solution?”

The Fox Goddess’s eyes started to shake violently as she looked at me.