episode_0057

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Twinkle!

A woman with hair that shone as brightly as the sun appeared, accompanied by a bright light.

It was so bright that it blinded my eyes.

No, realistically it wasn’t like that.

It was just how I felt, nothing more, nothing less.

Because she was like a bright sun to me.

I almost lost my eyes to her light.

“Ahhh… … .”

Tears flowed.

It was tears shed because I couldn’t overcome my sacredness.

dump.

I prayed to my god.

‘Oh, my great Sun, hear my prayer and punish me for my wrongdoings.’

I offered up a prayer.

But my god, as if he did not want to hear my prayers, raised me up.

For a moment, the question “Why?” came out.

“Hey. Look straight.”

I raised my head at the voice and looked into her eyes.

Beautiful blue eyes.

Countless drops of blood in those blue eyes.

I was impressed by that blood and became her incarnation.

She accepted me as an incarnation.

I pledged to be loyal to her like that.

“Please punish me. It’s all my fault.”

I prayed to my god.

But my cruel god ignored my prayers.

“What the hell is this punishment? Punishment. Shut up and clean up first. The house is a mess.”

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My god told me to clean up.

As her disciple, I followed my Lord’s command.

“Okay, my God.”

Flutter.

He spread out a pair of torn wings and shook off the dust that had accumulated inside them.

I grabbed my cleaning tools and got ready to clean every corner of the house.

But my God stopped me from cleaning.

“No, you don’t clean. You go wash up first. Oh. I guess I have to clean the bathroom first. Tch, annoying.”

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Thump.

“Then, shall we begin?”

Gulp.

Inside what appeared to be a cubic object made of tempered glass was a squirming, purple mass.

A smoky smoke was coming out of its body, and my god placed a straw doll on top of it.

“Let’s see, the order is… … .”

My god uttered an unknown spell and reached out towards the purple mass.

Then, the purple lump disappeared and the straw doll grew larger and began to move around alive.

“Good, good.”

For a moment, I was surprised to see the straw doll come to life, but then I was relieved by the words of the god who spoke as if he had wanted this.

And my god commanded the straw dolls:

“You guys clean this house. First, the bathroom. Got it?!”

Nod.

“Okay, then hurry up and grab your tools and get moving!”

Nod.

The straw dolls gathered their cleaning supplies and headed to the bathroom.

There were all kinds of noises inside the bathroom, and they came out less than thirty minutes after they went in.

When I went into the bathroom, it was in the same condition as when I first saw it.

The moss in the bathtub was gone, and so were the grass and bugs.

“What the heck… … .”

“What are you just watching? Why don’t you go and wash up?!”

I was pushed into the bathroom.

And the door closed.

There was warm water in the bathtub.

“Excuse me, do I really have to wash it?”

But washing was scary.

I was afraid that if I washed here, all my mistakes would be washed away like dirt.

“Hey! You have to wash it! Or I’ll kill you?”

“Rather, you should kill me… … .”

“Shut up. Just wash if you tell me to. Got it?”

“… … Yes.”

But since it was all my God’s direction, I had no time to be afraid.

Swish.

I took off my clothes and rinsed my body in the shower.

I soaped it, rinsed it, soaped it again, rinsed it again.

My hair grew longer than I expected and fell down, almost touching the floor.

The wings got wet and could not function properly.

The wounds I had personally inflicted stung.

“Is this a punishment?”

The wound was bitter.

Blood flowed from the wounds carved into his body.

They soon became scabs, but I wounded them again.

It was repeated.

“Wouldn’t it be better to just drown your head in the bathtub and die?”

“Is it right for someone like me, who can’t even do one thing I’m asked to do, to be treated like this”

“Even when I was at , I couldn’t do anything properly, so do I deserve to be in this warm water?”

Cyan monologued.

He monologued again, hurting himself.

I scratched my arm, and because my fingernails were long and I couldn’t cut them, they got cut and bled.

While Sian felt unfamiliar feelings for Lisa who treated him warmly, he also cursed and blamed himself for not being able to meet her expectations.

“Yeah. I’d rather die here. Now that my god is here, the constellations of North Pole won’t be able to bother me.”

I’m going to die right here, right now.

‘Very painful.’

with a splash.

When Cyan got into the bathtub, the water overflowed.

Cyan soaked his head in the bathtub.

Accordingly, her long, ashen hair floated on the bathtub.

Bubbling.

Cyan died in agony as his face was plunged into hot water.

But that doesn’t mean he took his face off.

It was because he thought that he, as a terrible sinner, had to accept this suffering unconditionally.

[The trait ‘Self-Reproach’ is strongly activated.]

‘Yes, that’s right. I have to die.’

Trash like me deserves to die.

It’s no use trying to be useful.

Even if you want to be like the constellation, you can’t.

Because that’s me.

Because I can’t properly do even one thing that others ask me to do.

… … During the few days Lisa neglected Sian, Sian’s condition worsened.

Since Enoch was kidnapped, her life has been one of atonement for her sins.

And since the quickest way to escape from that atonement was death, Sian began to long for death.

It was almost like the end of people who had lost everything.

“Hey! Hey, you crazy bitch!!”

Flutter.

“What are you doing there now!!”

But Lisa couldn’t just leave the ending of the plan alone.

So I knocked on the bathroom door about four times to make sure there was no strange behavior.

But during those four moments, when Sian didn’t say anything, Lisa felt something was wrong, so she went into the bathroom and rescued Sian, who was almost dead.

So, Si-an failed to commit suicide once again and lived.

“Ha, haha… … And here comes another life saved.”

Taaak!

Got slapped in the face.

I smiled.

Yeah, hit me more. More.

Please beat me up for not keeping that one word of yours.

I deserve to be beaten because I am a sinner who deserves to be punished by you.

So hit it.

Beat him to death.

After killing it, keep hitting it until it reincarnates.

Please hit me even in the form of a reincarnated newborn baby.

You must kill me because I have committed a great sin against you.

“… … But, why are you looking at me like that? At least, you. You, my god, my light, my sun. ”

Shouldn’t you be looking at me with those eyes?

… … Lisa looked at Cian with sympathy.

Cyan didn’t like the look in her eyes.

“Why. Do you see me like that? Isn’t it right for you to curse me, hate me, and beat me to death?!”

[Trait, ‘Self-Reproach’ is confusing.]

[Trait, ‘Self-Reproach’ is looking at you.]

“Come on, kill me. Beat me. Curse me, hate me, torture me, take me away for making me lose Enoch’s memory. Take everything from me.”

[Characteristic, ‘Self-Reproach’ looks at his own star.]

[Trait, ‘Self-Reproach’ loses reason.]

“Come on, kill me! Take everything from me! Is that not enough? Then I will make it so that you have much to take from me. I will atone for my sins even if it costs me my whole life. So please, don’t look at me with such pitiful eyes. Curse me and hate me!”

[Characteristic, ‘Self-Reproach’ is stirring.]

[Trait, ‘Self-Reproach’ enters the pupa state.]

Xi’an scratched the scabs that had formed on his body, drawing blood.

The wounds on her body grew darker and turned into scars.

And the same was true of the stigmata on the back of her hand.

“Just this much. I didn’t want to hurt Stigmata!!”

Sack. Sack. Sack.

A fingernail that scrapes away the stigmata.

Perhaps because of that, the shape of the stigmata changed.

[Stigmata, use of ‘Protective Power’ is not possible.]

[Please wait while the stigmata heal.]

Blood flowed from the back of his hand where the stigmata had been, mixing with the blood flowing from the other wounds.

The blood fell to the floor and hardened.

‘Fuck. What the hell is going on?’

Lisa, who couldn’t stand to watch Si-an’s behavior, tried to step forward, but her body wouldn’t move easily.

There was nothing wrong with the clone body, and it didn’t collapse, so there was no reason for it to not move, but it couldn’t move.

[Uses the relic, ‘Family Photo Album’.]

So, now that I can’t even speak, I tried to figure out why she’s having such a rash.

「”Ha, haha. Did you find it? That’s good. Thank you, Grigori.”」

Inside was a draft of a conversation with Grigori.

Cyan’s expression was extremely rotten, but he still had a lot of muscle left, so it seems like he was from when Enoch was kidnapped and found.

「”, Wait a minute. What did you say? What happened all of a sudden?”」

But then, as Grigori said something, Cyan’s pupils shook violently.

I listened more attentively and overheard the conversation between Cian and Grigori at that moment.

“[Iris made a mistake and Enoch flew to the Northern Continent. The captain of the guard there is also involved in the matter and is very worried. I’m sorry.

“Ah, no. If I had only taken good care of Enoch, Grigori wouldn’t have had to work so hard. He worked hard enough.”

[Yeah. Don’t worry too much about Enoch being kidnapped. Just rest easy. Lisa will rescue Nok soon.]

“Yes. I hope so… … .”

[Okay, I’ll hang up. If you need anything, contact me.]

“Yes. Thank you for your hard work.”」

Stop.

The phone call was disconnected.

The life drained from Cyan’s eyes.

「”I was there. I was there. I did my best… … .”」

bang!

His fist was aimed at the rock, and there was a crack in the rock along with a fist mark, indicating that he had been training hard.

「”What is this? I didn’t abandon Enoch just to gain this much power.”

“Try a little harder. Grow properly since you failed to protect Enoch properly.”

“You didn’t leave him at home for his growth, did you? But if you can only use this much strength, what are you going to do, you little brat.””

Knock knock.

He tore off the last remaining wing with his own hands and scratched his body.

I had a hard time eating because of the guilt, and I even stopped exercising.

And from that day on, I started to act in a frustrating way.

News, insomnia, depression, and not only that, I didn’t clean or train.

In addition, he attempted suicide with various objects.

After hearing the news that Enoch had lost his memory, it became even more frequent.

“”Die. You piece of trash. You can’t even do one thing properly, so what kind of tyrant are you trying to be?”

“You deserve to die. You deserve to die for not being able to protect the tyrant’s most precious thing.”

“It was easy. You could have just watched from the side. But you couldn’t overcome that greed and started this?”

“Because of you, he lost his memory and can’t even recognize the tyrant as his sister. Do you know why? It’s because you didn’t watch him properly.””

Cyan stared into space like he was crazy and muttered to himself.

I felt sorry for that kind of plan.

When I saw her mourning, blaming, and suffering as if her parents, brothers, and sisters had died, even though she was not even Enoch’s biological family, I had to find a way to comfort her.

But I couldn’t find it.

That wasn’t my specialty.

[Stigmata, the ‘power to protect’ cries out at the scars inflicted on him.]

[Stigmata, the ‘power to protect’ falls from Si-an.]

Scratch. Scratch. Scratch. Scratch.

“You can’t do that! You’re going to curse me, beat me up, and kill me!”

Scratch, scratch, scratch. Scratch, scratch.

“Otherwise… …Otherwise!!”

Scratch, scratch, scratch. Scratch, scratch.

“My sins are not atoned for!!”

Scratch. Scratch. Scratch. Scratch. Scratch. Push!

widely.

My body, unable to stand watching Sian scratch her body with her nails, moved of its own accord and grabbed her wrist.

I said to her, showing my temper.

[It’s okay, stop it. I’ve already forgiven you for your sins.]

Scratch. Scratch. Scratch. Scratch.

“No. You shouldn’t forgive me. Even if you forgive me, I can’t forgive you. Me. Me like this. There’s no way I can be forgiven. I’m a piece of trash who’s obsessed with desire and has betrayed even my close friends.”

Scratch. Scratch. Scratch. Scratch.

“No one should forgive me. That’s the right thing to do. So, hurry up and hit me. Kill me. Even if you forgive me, I can’t forgive myself, so hurry up and torture me!!”

Scratch. Scratch. Scratch. Scratch.

[Calm down. I forgave you, and because of that, you survived your failed suicide attempt, so calm down, get dressed, and sit here. I’ll listen to your story.]

Scratch. Scratch. Scratch. Scratch.

“Hahahaha! Hahahahaha! Hahahahaha! Hahahahahahahahahaha! ”

Cyan started laughing like crazy.

I don’t know what’s so funny.

“Yes. You forgave me, and I didn’t forgive myself. But does that mean my sins will disappear? Because of my greed, I couldn’t keep my promise to you, I neglected Enoch, got kidnapped, and now I’ve lost my memories. The traces of that still remain. Will my sins live on? No, my sins haven’t disappeared. They can’t disappear.”

[Incarnation, ‘Sian’ curses himself.]

[Failed.]

“Why, why are you so interested in someone like me? Please kill me. The traces of my sins still remain and torment me all night long. So can you stop killing me in peace? Stop, I want to live. I want to run away from sin.”

[Incarnation, ‘Sian’ attempts self-harm.]

[Failed.]

“My sins have not disappeared at all. The traces still remain, and I, who created those traces, have been left unpunished and abandoned. If my sins are forgiven and that’s the end, then can Enoch? Can he? The moon, my light and half of the sun, regain his memories? It’s impossible. So Sian. Stop it and die. A traitor like you must die to reduce your sins!!”

[Incarnation, ‘Sian’ attempts suicide.]

[Failed.]

“Sian. You, too, should die. Yes. That’s right. But, why does Your Majesty hate me so much for dying? You’ve killed many people before. Why are you doing this to me? Huh? Please answer me. Huh?!”

[Trait, ‘Self-Reproach’ is about to wake up from its chrysalis.]

“I will always be just a young caterpillar. I will never be able to become a butterfly. I have already shed all my wings. How can I become a butterfly? There is no butterfly in this world that cannot fly. As a butterfly without wings, I am just a mutant who is very far from the butterfly species. It is a problem in itself that a mutant like me has any hope of living.”

[Trait, ‘Self-Reproach’ awakens from the pupa.]

[Exclusive trait, ‘Unforgivable Self-Regret’ awakens.]

“No one will forgive me. They can’t. Because that’s my sin problem.”

Incarnation, Cyan has awakened a special trait.

But its exclusive characteristics were very distorted.

Kwak.

I don’t know what happened to her in the meantime, but it was largely my fault for leaving the incarnation alone.

Just as she had abandoned Enoch in the house, I had abandoned her, so neither of us could say anything to each other.

But. But, trying to run away like this is against the rules.

At least, if you want to be forgiven. If you want to reduce your sins.

Shouldn’t we live hard while we’re alive?

[cyanogen.]

“Stop, kill me.”

[cyanogen.]

“I don’t want to live anymore.”

[cyanogen.]

“I wanted to be like the tyrant. But I knew I couldn’t be.”

[cyanogen.]

“Because a traitor and a piece of trash like me can’t become like the tyrant who grew his power to protect someone. This power that was grown just for me has a different meaning from the tyrant.”

[cyanogen!]

“Why are you calling my name like that? If you have something to say, just say it. Just say it like I did.”

[… … .]

“If you have nothing more to say, can I just die? I want to be comfortable.”

Phew!

At those words from Xi’an, he threw out the fist he was clenching.

I couldn’t stand it any longer, my teeth chattering at her stuffy words.

“Keuk… … .”

And then Cyan fell.

I grabbed her by the hair and made her look into my eyes.

It meant to look straight at me with both eyes and focus.