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Two months have passed.

Two months have passed since Arin disappeared.

Two months.

It’s been two months since I haven’t seen Arin.

Two months.

Why doesn’t time pass like this?

Arin completely disappeared from me.

It would be correct to say that he went into hiding.

At first I thought I had done something wrong.

I didn’t know what had offended him, but I wanted to meet him and ask for forgiveness.

But I kept thinking about it while looking for her, but she didn’t come out.

Arin didn’t come out either.

It didn’t even come out that I did anything wrong.

‘How could you do this to me?’

I was angry.

I was so despairing.

And at the end of that despair came resentment toward Arin.

‘If you were going to disappear like this, why did you confess to me?’

A woman who completely shook my heart.

‘If I hadn’t said anything from the beginning, I wouldn’t have dreamed of a happy family.’

How pleasant love is.

‘It wouldn’t have been this painful if I hadn’t even started.’

How happy love is.

‘It would have been better if you hadn’t come to me in the first place.’

And…how cruel love is.

It was Arin who taught me everything about love.

She was a woman who taught me that all people should try to love.

‘Bad people……’

But she was a woman who also made me feel the pain of broken heart.

The happiest moment.

Happiness.

Love is.

The moment you try to get those things.

Arin disappeared like the wind in front of me.

iced coffee.

The word heartbreak also means love came to mind.

She probably made that choice to teach me about heartbreak.

“Thank you for your hard work.”

“Thank you for your hard work.”

It looks like it’s time to leave the hospital.

The nurses also say hello and leave the hospital door.

From my experience so far, when I focus on work, a lot of the pain disappears.

Some say that time is medicine.

So I worked like crazy.

Work during business hours.

After work, I repeatedly went looking for Harin.

But it is not forgotten.

The drug called time was ineffective.

For me, the white medicine was useless.

After work, I go into Arin’s room.

Haven’t cleaned anything up yet.

I sit down in Arin’s seat.

The scent of the shampoo she always used had not yet disappeared and remained faint.

[Whoa…]

I lean the back of my head against the chair and remain still for a while.

It didn’t last a day.

[…Arin…]

Arin, smiling brightly, comes to mind here.

This reminds me of Arin treating the patient with gentle hands.

[senior. How are you tonight?]

Arin occasionally asks about dinner suggestions.

Now I hear auditory hallucinations.

But I was stupid back then.

I declined all of Arin’s dinner offers.

If only I had known at that time that it was a signal from Arin…

If only I hadn’t been a little more dull…

Just like that… in Arin’s place after losing her owner, I constantly reviewed my own mistakes and regretted them.

After a while, I stood up.

Because Arin wasn’t there.

Because my own actions had no meaning.

****

prepare dinner

Since I lost motivation, I couldn’t dare to try something new.

There were many cases where a lot of food was prepared and served warm.

‘Minah is an adult now…it’s late these days…’

There were many cases where I entered university and came back late.

It is said that he served as the representative of the first-year department.

It’s a good thing that my daughter is in the student council.

Exaggeration is not something everyone does.

Only smart and social children can do this.

I was happy.

I was happy, but I hated myself for not being able to show that I was happy.

I felt sorry for my daughter.

He couldn’t be happy about his daughter’s success and the food became poor.

But thankfully, my daughter didn’t express any dissatisfaction with me.

“So…today, the student council president taught me a new jiu-jitsu technique…”

Minah tells a story about something that happened at university today.

I am truly grateful that an adult daughter shares her work with her father like this.

For me, it’s a fun way to end the day.

However, my eyes keep falling on the seat next to Minah, who is happily talking.

2 months ago.

The spot where Arin was sitting.

Two months were enough to get married.

Because all you had to do was register your marriage without having a wedding.

I wanted to merge our homes, become one loving family, and have a happy evening.

“…It was so difficult to move at first……”

Since Minah was the only one filling the sound at this table, Arin’s empty seat was even more disappointing.

It was sad and unfortunate.

“…Dad?”

“Uh…?”

Before I knew it, my daughter came up to my face and looked at me with worried eyes.

“Dad, are you okay? What’s wrong these days…?”

“Uh…that’s…”

I didn’t tell my daughter.

It’s because Arin disappeared.

Being caught in the fever of love and not being able to come to your senses.

This was because he was embarrassed that his old father was so blinded by women that he could not come to his senses.

“Dad…I’ve been losing weight lately…my face has become gaunt…what are you worried about?”

“No…it’s not like that.”

“Could it be…Arin…is it because of you?”

Startle.

I ended up showing a reaction that should have been hidden.

“…That’s right.”

Mina’s sigh.

okay.

It must have looked pathetic.

An old man… an old man… losing his mind because of love.

How ugly is this?

A feeling of heat rises in my face.

My face heated up with shame.

“Dad…what’s wrong…was your sister such an important person?”

“……”

I didn’t answer.

This is what my precious daughter asked.

That’s why I hesitated.

“I have to forget it now. The person is gone. I mean, I abandoned my dad.”

“……”

“The kind of woman who runs away overnight, leaving behind a wonderful man like her father… she is a bad woman.”

“…Arin…isn’t like that.”

Minah is slightly surprised to see me defending Arin.

I don’t think my facial expression was that good.

“I’m sorry…Dad…I spoke too harshly.”

“……”

A long moment of silence follows.

When Minah saw my face, she could no longer speak easily.

Something was creeping into my head.

Something I wanted to do but held back.

When what I was hiding from Minah was discovered, I thought there was no need to hide it anymore.

“I’m sorry. daughter. Would it be okay for Dad to come out on the weekend for a while?”

Minah’s face became stiff this time.

It has become quite…serious.

“Arin…is your sister that important?”

“I’m sorry, daughter……”

“Me? Aren’t I important to Dad?”

Minah looked like she didn’t understand my behavior.

I understood why Minah appeared like that.

I was able to say something like that.

That’s because I didn’t tell Minah that I was dating Arin.

It should have been hidden until the end.

But I couldn’t hide it.

This is because my body and mind are already broken to the point of being a wreck.

“I’m sorry……”

All I could say was that I was sorry to my daughter.

A sad face.

But his expression says he has no choice but to do it.

My daughter, who had been urging me, could no longer speak.

An expression that seems to give up everything.

A body without strength.

A man who has fallen limp… not a man who was proud and strong not long ago… but a shabby man who lives without any hope.

Mina hugged me like that.

“Dad…please…it’s painful to see you like this…so…”

gulp.

I can hear Mina swallowing her saliva.

“Now…for my father’s sake…I’d better forget about Arin…”

At that moment, I felt like the wires connected to my brain were suddenly disconnected.

“Dad…Dad?”

Tears started flowing like crazy from my eyes.

The facial expression remained the same.

Only tears were flowing.

“Dad…Dad…Don’t do that…It’s strange…It’s strange……”

“Uh…uh…so…me too…why me…”

I tried to stop.

But it didn’t stop.

It flowed like water.

It’s not something you squeeze, it just flows naturally.

I covered my eyes with my hands.

But it continued to flow.

“Mi…I’m sorry. Why am I doing this…”

“Dad…please…come back to the way you were before…”

Mina hugs me.

Mina’s face is buried in my chest.

Minah starts crying.

You begin to feel hot water on your chest.

Today’s dinner began as a comedy and ended as a tragedy.

****

[If Dad… wants it that way, I… won’t be against it.]

I got my daughter’s permission.

Instead of spending time with my daughter over the weekend, I found time to visit Arin.

[I don’t understand, but…]

Because I was dying, I had no choice but to give permission.

[I didn’t think my dad was that kind of person…]

The daughter’s face was sad as she reluctantly gave permission.

[Still…I believe that my dad will soon return to the way he was before.]

Still, she is my daughter.

[I’ll wait, Dad.]

Someday you will understand.

Yes.

Arin left me.

But I still want her.

I felt like I would feel relieved if I at least made an effort to find it.

Because I felt like my heart would explode if I didn’t do anything.

[Buuung.]

The place I drove to was Busan.

“They said Arin’s father was here.”

After some investigation, I was able to obtain the address of Arin’s father.

He is the one who disowned Arin.

‘If there is even just one point of contact…’

If I can get even the smallest clue…

I came down like this to hold on to even a glimmer of hope.

His room was in a shantytown on the mountain.

It was Arin who fed him.

‘Since I cut off ties… I guess I had no choice but to come to a place like this.’

After climbing the same stairs for a while, we arrived at Arin’s father’s house.

“Are you there? ”

smart.

“Who is it?”

Suddenly.

A white-haired man with a red nose and a foul odor opened the door and came out.

Although he is a man…he strangely resembles Arin.

This man…her father was right.

“By any chance…Teacher Baek A-rin…are you here?”

As soon as the name Baek Arin was mentioned, his face became deeply frowned.

“What are you? Why are you looking for that bitch?”

“I am a senior at school and my employer. He disappeared since 2 months ago…and we are looking into it.”

My honest answer.

The man, who glanced at that desperate face, quickly smiled and said.

“The bitch who abandoned her father is gone.”