episode_0046

It wasn’t that easy to buy unplanned kimbap from a popular restaurant.

In fact, I almost didn’t make it, but fortunately, I was the last one to wait.

The problem was that even if I took my turn, I had to wait for 3 hours.

Anyway, if we go in right now, it’s bound to be ambiguous.

In that case, it might be better to wait outside for Mr. Baek to calm down.

‘Yeah…it would be better to just buy kimbap and say it’s late.’

I thought it went well.

Then I stopped by the pharmacy and bought painkillers.

Tooteuk.

Pop a gel-like pill containing a blue liquid into your mouth and swallow it.

I am used to taking medicine without water.

“Ha……”

Only when this migraine gets better quickly can I make normal decisions.

This pain, which feels like being stabbed with a soldering iron in the front of my head, clouds my judgment.

I lay down in the car.

The clear sky was gone and it seemed like it was going to rain before we knew it.

Procrastination. Gray clouds were passing frantically above me.

“It looks like it’s going to rain.”

Tootuk.

just as expected.

Rain starting to hit the roof of the car.

I heard that the weather on the island is quite unpredictable, but I had no idea it would be this unpredictable.

Tu-tu-tuk.

The sound of rain gradually took over the quiet space and now began to fill the entire space.

I opened the sunroof shade.

Rain was falling ceaselessly from the gray sky.

It didn’t look like the rain was going to stop anytime soon.

“Something…I don’t feel good.”

I don’t know how to go back and see Teacher Baek A-rin.

Perhaps Mr. Baek would think the same thing.

“Arin… could it be… she likes me… so she came to our hospital? ”

It was me who was really stupid.

Was it because the first image looked like a child?

Until a few days ago, she had a stronger image of me as a good, same-sex younger sister who always listened to me.

I think it was even more so because there was a big age difference.

If I hadn’t left the military early, we wouldn’t have met each other at school.

In some ways, I should have been suspicious from the moment she came to my hospital as a pay doctor.

When I think about it now, it was so strange.

She didn’t come to our hospital because she was bad.

Although it wasn’t Korea University Hospital, he was a specialist at a hospital that was famous in the province…so it also had a hospital in Seoul.

In short, he is a doctor whose abilities are recognized.

As soon as she heard that I was opening a practice and looking for a pay doctor, she quit her job at the university hospital and came here.

People usually say things like this are stupid.

Honestly, I like it.

Many of the Pay Doctors are strange people with no skills but only have high eyesight.

But Arin is a junior at my school that I can trust.

A hospital with two specialists.

One of them is an emergency medicine specialist.

There is nothing more powerful than that in a surgical hospital that handles trauma.

I thought it was strange too, so I asked.

But she told a very compelling story.

They say emergency medicine is very difficult.

I was easily persuaded there.

okay.

Let’s say that’s the case.

How long will it last?

The number of years is 10.

For 10 years, she never showed her feelings.

It may have been because I suffered from my father… but I don’t know why.

Her tone of voice is manly.

There was no flirtatious behavior of any kind.

I couldn’t drink and I didn’t like going to company dinners that much.

I just honestly did what I was told.

Arin was pretty.

If a man says that Arin is not pretty, he can be considered a liar.

‘Come to think of it, I even got a stalker.’

Yes. A few years ago, Arin also had a stalker.

[Sir… I’m sorry… a patient keeps following me home… ugh…!]

That might have been the first time I saw Arin using a female accent.

[I wanted you to take on the role of my boyfriend.]

It was a strategy to get rid of him by making him look like a boyfriend.

Actually, I said I should report it to the police, but they say that when you report a stalker, the police don’t respond as well as they say in the media.

I thought it might be a little dangerous, but fortunately, the stalker was simply a young man in his 20s who blindly believed in the proverb, “There is no tree you can’t climb without taking 10 tries.”

[No way…Sister!! No, right? Dating with an old person like that…!! see! Don’t you like younger people like me?]

The stalker’s reaction was natural.

But Arin’s reaction is more memorable than that.

[What are you, criticizing mine!!]

Actually, the stalker didn’t run away because of me at that time.

A scary face that would give even me goosebumps.

Living as if killing someone.

And a cry that is a mix of high and low sounds that can be torn apart.

[Hee…heeek!! Sorry…I’m sorry!!!]

Seeing Arin’s murderous face for the first time in his life, the stalker ran away and never came to our hospital again.

[Senior…Thank you. Thanks to you, I was able to chase the stalker away.]

[Ah…uh…um…yeah.]

I didn’t tell you because I thought I would be scolded if I said I kicked him out with my own strength.

Anyway, my relationship hasn’t changed much since then.

Just seniors and juniors.

It was nothing more or less.

No matter how much I ask them to work overtime, the working hours are much more relaxed than those at the emergency room at a university hospital.

It takes over an hour to get to the center of Seoul, but it is still a new city in the Seoul metropolitan area.

Add to that the fact that she was beautiful enough to attract stalkers, so I was sure she would have a boyfriend.

But I didn’t ask her if she had a boyfriend.

This is because it is rude to ask for such privacy when you have not told it yourself.

Since she dressed up very femininely, I thought she must have a boyfriend.

……

Now all the puzzles have been put together.

The reason Arin came to my hospital.

Why she didn’t get a boyfriend.

The reason you silently listened to my request.

He was doing it because he liked me.

Just like his manly tone… he was waiting patiently.

10 years.

Although it may seem short, it is actually an incredibly long time.

The fact that he was next to me without saying a word and hiding his feelings for me all this time… was amazing.

If it were me, I wouldn’t have been able to do it.

Why haven’t we talked about it until now?

If she had told me she liked me at the beginning of her visit to the hospital, things might have been a little different.

But now the story is different.

The current Arin is too much for me.

I am a divorced man.

He even has a daughter.

On the other hand, Arin looks good, has the right attitude, and even has a good job.

A divorced man with children is looking for such a special wife?

If I say I want Arin, everyone will swear at me.

You’re a thief.

You don’t know your topic.

Anyway, what should I do now?

How should I act towards Arin to get out of this predicament?

If you pretend not to know, they will think you are being foolish.

But do you want to have a serious conversation?

In the end, if I refuse, Arin will be very disappointed.

There is only one option she wants.

But I can’t choose that option.

What should I do?

What should I do……

Buuung.

Ring your cell phone.

They say the kimbap is ready.

I put the chair back in place.

‘okay. First of all, you can’t avoid it…you have to face it.’

okay.

Things happened.

Somehow, it was going to explode someday.

This doesn’t mean you can just think about it.

What I have felt in my life so far is that nothing is solved by avoiding problems without solving them.

If you try to avoid it, it only makes things bigger that you have to solve later.

‘it will work out somehow.’

I drove the car to the kimbap restaurant.

When I buy some kimbap and go back to the resort, Arin is waiting for me.

It must be resolved in the best possible way.

It can’t be done just by thinking about it now.

I just trust my intuition.

That sense of being able to persuade her to suit the situation.

****

Thump thump thump.

I knocked on Arin’s door.

But there was no response.

“Arin!! I bought kimbap!! The kimbap here is delicious!!”

Thump thump thump.

I tried calling out loud and knocking on the door, but there was no response.

Buuuung.

A text message arrived.

[I want to rest alone in my room today.]

This is a dry text from Arin.

I stopped pounding.

okay.

There will be many thoughts.

You might hate me for rejecting you.

You might not even want to see me.

In times like these, you need to give yourself some time.

[okay. Then I won’t disturb you.]

I stepped away.

It was still raining heavily.

****

It’s dinner time.

I sent a text message to Arin asking her to have dinner.

[I want to rest alone in my room today.]

It was the same answer.

……

‘I think this thing is tightly sprained…’

But there was nothing I could do.

Because the choice she wants is not something I can choose.

‘I have no choice but to wait.’

The second day of the trip flew by so quickly.

****

Third day of travel.

The rain was falling even harder.

Like a storm.

morning.

[I want to rest alone in my room today.]

lunch.

[I want to rest alone in my room today.]

……

If this continued, he was going to say that he would go to the airport alone.

I became a little anxious.

This is because her attitude did not change over time.

But I couldn’t think of a way to convince her.

There was only one thing I could do.

It was an effort.

“Teacher Baek…! Did you buy kimbap today too? I hung it on the doorknob, so eat it when you remember! It’s really delicious!!”

“You haven’t eaten anything since lunch yesterday. I left snacks and beer in front of the door, so be sure to eat them!”

I did that and when Arin came out, I didn’t do anything low-level to catch her.

I simply hoped that by showing her that I was trying, she would open her mind a little.

And dinner.

The night of the third day, when it was still raining heavily.

A text message came from Arin.

[Seniors. I want to go swimming.]