episode_0011

digamy.

I had no idea that the words “remarriage” would come out of my daughter’s mouth.

Why?

Why on earth?

okay.

That may be so.

Minah is now an adult.

It is time for independence.

This is the moment when the obligation to raise oneself disappears.

So, wouldn’t your father remarry for the sake of his life?

That kind of thinking. It’s definitely worth doing.

okay.

When Minah was in middle school… there was a time when she thought about remarrying.

My daughter’s elementary school graduation ceremony.

“Dad~~.”

The daughter did not mind this situation where only her father was present.

But I was so nervous.

Everyone came with their parents.

A father and mother move while holding their child’s hand.

Take photo.

They seemed happy and my daughter and I seemed infinitely unhappy.

It seemed like everyone was looking at us.

[Freak.]

[He said he left his wife somewhere and came alone]

[Is this a family with problems?]

I don’t know whether the people around me were whispering like that or not.

A kind of panic came over me.

I was out of breath and sweating.

I was so anxious that I felt like I was going crazy.

I was so scared that I couldn’t even move my hand.

“Why are you like this, Dad?”

But fortunately, I was able to endure it thanks to my daughter holding my hand tightly with a worried face.

“I’m sorry, Dad.”

After the graduation ceremony, I had no choice but to apologize to my child.

Because the man named Dad was sweating profusely without even coming to his senses.

After it was over, I grabbed my daughter’s hand and ran out of the ceremony hall.

“Why are you sorry, Dad?”

“After the graduation ceremony, I would have liked to take more pictures with my friends…but my dad told me to go out right away.”

The daughter smiled innocently.

“I am so happy that my dad came.”

That face.

That smile.

It wasn’t false.

My daughter was really thankful and focused solely on the fact that I came.

I was happy and sorry.

Something began to boil in my chest.

I lifted my daughter and hugged her.

“Ah…ah! Dad…!”

“Thank you dad……”

Tears are flowing.

“Dad… are you crying? Is there something I didn’t do well?”

“No…it’s not like that, my daughter…just because she’s so nice…dad…dad…”

Was it sadness?

Was it shame?

Or was it joy?

I was filled with complex emotions that I couldn’t put into words.

**

After that day, something inside me started to feel frustrated.

Thanks to my daughter’s big heart, there were no problems during the graduation ceremony.

But there was definitely a lack somewhere in my heart.

This is because I learned for sure on my daughter’s graduation day how a family without a mother or wife is treated in society.

In this country, family absence is fatal.

Therefore, it must be filled in.

After being hit by my ex-wife, I didn’t meet any women other than my college girlfriend.

I never wanted to remarry.

My daughter’s opinion was also important.

“Dad, I do whatever I want. I will do whatever my dad wants.”

Middle school grade 1.

Although he is young, he is mature and sensitive.

Fortunately, my daughter said she was okay with having a stepmom.

However, due to my own indecisiveness, it took quite a long time to make a decision.

And two years later.

I signed up for a marriage information company.

I signed up for the most expensive product.

He is a divorced man with a child, but fortunately he is a doctor from Korea University. I was also able to receive a higher salary thanks to my title as the director of a local hospital.

There were two conditions I wanted.

A woman who can love my daughter wholeheartedly.

A woman who doesn’t look at my money.

Then there was no problem with being ugly or ugly.

[Oh, hello. You look good. What do your parents do?]

[I heard you are the hospital director? What car do you drive?]

[Are you planning on moving to Seoul? I work in Seoul, so Gyeonggi-do is a bit difficult.]

Although the women were in good condition, even if I tried to mix up my words even a little, they rejected me.

It was worth it.

Everyone focused on asking about my assets and whether they could use them to their advantage.

Well…but maybe I’m a weird guy.

Marriage information company.

A place where men and women who have failed in marriage gather to try to buy marriage with money.

That’s because it’s so paradoxical to find a woman there who doesn’t want that kind of thing.

Maybe I met about 20 people?

This is slowly reaching its limit.

I approached the meeting with a glimmer of hope, but nothing came in return.

The problem was that the manager in charge of the marriage information company couldn’t catch me.

He carefully selected only the best members based on his standards and assigned them to me.

It was worth it.

My specs were perfect.

The appearance was also perfect.

My stomach didn’t even come out, which is normal for people my age.

He also has good manners.

All the women I rejected contacted me asking me to meet them one more time.

He told me to make some concessions.

But I couldn’t give in.

Marriage wasn’t important to me.

For me to be happy.

It is a process of finding a gap in the family for my daughter to be happy.

I got divorced because of money.

Giving up on my conditions is worse than not doing anything.

I’m exhausted.

So I talked.

I said I would meet just one more person and be done with it.

The manager’s eyes were full of determination.

It seemed like I put a lot of effort into matching someone I liked.

“Hello. My name is Hyejin Kim.”

“Hello. My name is Cha Eunhyuk.”

A woman who was one year younger than me came out.

According to the manager, this person is also a divorcee with a daughter.

I decided to take a last look because I thought this person would be a better match than the member with better qualifications.

She was a woman with a calm voice and a calm appearance.

“The weather is nice. Shall we take a walk?”

Strangely enough, she was a woman who asked me to walk with her as soon as I met her.

So we started walking along the nearby lake path.

It was the season when cherry blossoms bloomed and withered.

Cherry blossom petals were falling like snow.

“Teacher, how did you get divorced?”

It was the first time someone asked me that.

I was so embarrassed that I stuttered.

“Ah…I’m sorry if I’m rude. It wasn’t what I wanted to hear. I brought this up to tell my story.”

Because of the cold weather, everyone was holding a cup of warm tea.

She grabbed the tea she was holding with one hand with both hands.

“I was beaten by my ex-husband.”

“…Yes?”

“I’m sorry. Still, in order for us to get to know each other more deeply, I think I need to tell you about the pain I experienced.”

There was a shadow on her face.

However, she did not appear to be a woman buried in that shadow.

“I thought people in their 20s were doing really well. I was lucky enough to be in my 20s with my cross-eyes, and I looked much younger than I do now.”

“You are still so beautiful.”

I could see his face turning slightly red.

“…So I got married according to the conditions. He was a handsome businessman. I thought I had everything on my wedding day. Other people were also jealous.”

“……”

She caught the falling petals.

“I found out after I got married and became pregnant. I…was a doll to show to my family.”

Swish.

Drop the petals to the floor again.

“There was another woman. When my parents-in-law objected, I pretended to be married and lived a double life with the woman I actually loved.”

Slurp.

She drank black tea because her throat was sore.

“The result of the investigation was assault. But I couldn’t get a divorce. I already had a daughter in my womb.”

“Then……”

“I lasted 10 years. Because of my daughter. But…my parents-in-law suddenly passed away. The day after the funeral was over, I asked for a divorce.”

She was smiling as if she were empty.

…I felt uncomfortable the whole time I was listening.

And the anger rose.

How can there be such a bad person…

Until now, I thought I was very pitiful, but I wasn’t.

“There is a lot of pain. So I don’t want to experience that kind of pain ever again. It came to mind as soon as I met him. Eunhyuk is not the right person for me.”

“Oh…no, I don’t do that.”

“You’re handsome and in good shape, and you said you’re a doctor, right? I think it would be better for you to meet someone else rather than me.”

She bowed.

“Let’s part ways here. Thanks to you, I enjoyed drinking warm tea while looking at the flowers. Thank you.”

“Ah…well…meal…”

“Is it necessary for two people with different purposes to even have a meal?”

she laughs

It was a lonely face.

What is it?

Are you giving up because you think you are too much for yourself?

“Then…I’ll go.”

A person with many wounds.

That’s why I’m a person who mistakenly thinks I’m a person without scars.

A person who blames himself more for his own shortcomings than for catching a good person.

okay.

Thump.

I held her hand.

“I finally met someone with the same goal.”

“…Yes?”

It’s this person.

“I finally found someone with whom I can talk a lot.”

“…Ah…ah……”

Her face was turning red.

Little by little, color began to appear on her face, which until now had looked like the face of a dead person.

“I can’t tell my story here. I found a good pasta restaurant near here. Would you like to hear my story there?”

“…Yes…I like it.”

So, for the first time, I had my first meeting with a proper remarriage partner.