episode_0028

“As soon as you see it, get ready to high-five with Jesus.”

“Don’t worry, even if you spread your legs in an ‘M’ shape, you won’t see anything.”

In the end, because of a moron who couldn’t put on one sanitary pad, I decided to help.

When I asked how I could help, Ji-won brought an eye mask from her room.

And while putting that eye mask on me, she said, “I’ll control it, you just move your hands.”

That’s practically impossible, right?

Who can do such a thing…

“That would be me. Doo-ba-doo-ba, doo-bee-doo-bam.”

Truly pitiful~

So pitiful beyond belief.

Damn, I might burst into tears and cry like a baby right now.

I want to be mad about this, but knowing Ji-won’s situation, it’s hard to get angry.

In the end, I decided to help, took out a sanitary pad, peeled it off, and touched Ji-won’s leg.

“Eek…!”

As soon as I touched her leg, a small moan escaped Ji-won’s lips.

Why does this sound so… suggestive?

Is my brain malfunctioning?

Ji-won’s recent moans started sounding like something straight out of an intense adult video.

Even though my dick… hasn’t been active lately, what if it reacts like that?

For now, rather than worrying about that, I just want to finish this nonsense quickly and go to sleep.

Thinking that way, I slowly lifted a sanitary pad between Ji-won’s legs.

Touching Ji-won’s thigh, I placed the sanitary pad where I thought was her groin area.

Is this the right way to do it?

I’m not entirely sure. But with the feeling of just putting it on as it is, I raised my hand…

-Swoosh.

“What the hell?”

It feels like my finger went somewhere?

And it feels moist too…

“Hey… this can’t be…”

“Ahhhhhh!!!!!!!”

Confused, I asked.

Ji-won started hitting my head and then bounced back to her room.

“Damn… it’s moist… warm and moist!”

Although I didn’t faint from that level of damage, right now, I feel like I want to faint.

“Moist!! Damn moist!!!”

**

Amidst the commotion, I ended up spending that night wide awake.

“Moist…”

The sensation still lingers in my hand.

Feeling a lingering sensation in my hand that shouldn’t be there makes me feel strange.

No matter how many times I slap myself to snap out of it.

Strangely, I can’t seem to regain my composure as the events of that early morning start replaying like a Blu-ray.

“I still… feel a moist sensation in my hand.”

I wiped with a tissue, washed my hands several times.

Yet, my hand still retained that slightly penetrating and warm sensation from that hole.

And even when removing the eye mask, my fingers felt a bit moist.

It was showing signs of hysteria.

Even if it wasn’t intentional, I should apologize for something like this happening.

I don’t know what to say or how to enter the room.

Should I go in and say, “I’m sorry!”?

Even saying that feels like I’ve done too much wrong.

Just this one thing is enough to warrant an apology, so I don’t know what to say.

Standing in front of Ji-won’s room, debating whether to knock or not.

“What are you doing?”

A voice came from behind the door.

“Um… Can I come in for a moment?”

After my question, Ji-won stayed silent for about 3 seconds.

“Yeah…”

She said softly to come in.

Entering the room, I checked on Ji-won.

“So… um… what were you doing?”

I can’t find the right words to say.

I sat near Ji-won after staring at her for a while.

I don’t know what to say, but maybe uttering some magical words to restore our relationship could fix things?

“Hey, Kim Ji-won.”

“Yeah?”

“Let’s go eat.”

지원이 quietly nodded in response to my words.

What’s going on? The guy who would have gone crazy hearing those words, where did he go now?

The guy I knew, Kim Jiwon, where is he…

**

Feeling too lazy to go out, I ordered a simple tonkatsu delivery.

I’m not sure what else to talk about while waiting for the delivery.

It took 1 hour for the tonkatsu to arrive.

By then, I should probably have some conversation with Jiwon.

I don’t know what conversation would be good.

After pondering for a while, I decided to stay quiet.

“Ah… uncomfortable.”

Jiwon said, holding her skirt tightly.

Why is she feeling so uncomfortable?

Thinking maybe she was wearing something uncomfortable, I asked about sanitary pads.

“I struggled after reading the instructions.”

“It just feels really uncomfortable.”

This damn guy could handle it alone but asked me for help?

I felt betrayed and angry for a long time.

I couldn’t express my anger right now; I was on the verge of losing it.

Fine.. She’s sensitive right now, I should understand. I should understand…

Understand my ass?

Since dawn, I’ve been feeling like shit, will this be forgiven?

I felt like I was about to explode in anger, but somehow managed to calm myself down.

I received a message that the tonkatsu had arrived and brought it as it is.

“Hey, let’s eat.”

Jiwon tried to get up from her seat upon my words, but I quickly brought the meal to her.

“Just sit and eat.”

Jiwon nodded quietly in response to my words, thanking me softly.

At least the food seems to be going well.

So I told Jiwon quietly to eat, and she started eating the tonkatsu little by little.

She eats well.

If she didn’t eat, everything would be ruined—the country, the world, the universe…

“Sorry.. I can’t eat.”

She was fine until now, but just now, everything fell apart.

Why is she doing this? I asked if she was okay.

Jiwon just nodded silently.

I’m not sure if she’s really okay.

I’ve seen her leave food before, but leaving it like this…

It’s not breakfast; it’s lunch, so she shouldn’t leave it at all.

Maybe the shock at that moment was really significant.

Thinking like that, I told Jiwon to rest for a while.

What to do with the tonkatsu… I can’t throw it all away…

In the end, I decided to pack up the tonkatsu in Lock & Lock and give it to Jiwon when she feels better.

But it’s really the first time she’s refused to eat.

Damn it.. Why leave it like this?

I feel worried for no reason; it seems like I should stay by her side.

All the anger I had just disappeared somewhere, leaving only worry in my heart.

Eventually, I came up with one solution.

“Hey, come to my room.”

“Huh?”

Jiwon looked surprised, got up, and came to my room.

I made her lie back on the bed and set the electric blanket to 3 degrees.

This should be warm enough.

I also placed warm water next to her, saying, “If you feel unwell, call me. I’ll be right here.”

Jiwon nodded slightly in response to my words.

I really don’t know if she’s okay.

**

I don’t understand why Jihoo is acting like this.

He usually just gets angry.

I thought we would be awkward and angry with each other because of what happened early this morning.

But now he’s taking care of me.

Could it be that he’s taking care of me because I’m sick?

At that thought, my heart fluttered for a moment.

I thought there was no one else but Jihoo who would take care of me like this, and I felt sorry for no reason.

I kept thinking that maybe I’m bothering Jihoo because of me.

Even though I kept saying I was fine, thanks to Jihoo telling me to rest, I didn’t feel guilty.

I always cause trouble for you.

Why are you taking care of me like this…

“Thank you… Jihoo.”

“Shut up and go to sleep.”

Even though the words were harsh, the intent wasn’t.

Knowing that, such Jihoo was even more lovely…

Jihoo was grateful.

Because it hurts.

Maybe he’ll do things I couldn’t ask for normally.

With that thought in mind, I looked at Jihoo and spoke.

“Jihoo.”

“Why?”

“I… I’m anxious. Can you hold my hand?”

“Sigh…”

Jihoo sighed briefly.

But soon, he sat on the bed and cautiously held my hand.

“Okay?”

“Yeah…”

As our hands intertwined, my heart started pounding like crazy.

I’m really holding hands with Jihoo.

My heart raced wildly, but soon a sense of relief washed over me…

And slowly, my eyes closed.

If I fall asleep, will Jihoo let go of my hand?

I worried, but strangely, compared to when I was in the room earlier,

I felt sleep coming more easily…

Unable to fight the heaviness in my eyelids,

I slowly began to drift off.

“Jihoo… Please… don’t let go of my hand.”

Please… don’t abandon me.

“Don’t chase me away…”

Perhaps due to falling asleep,

I unknowingly muttered strange words.

Seeing me like that, Jiwoon didn’t just hold one of my hands but both, firmly.

Then, leaning in close to my ear, she whispered gently.

“Don’t chase you away.”

“I won’t leave you. Sleep in peace.”

With those words, my eyelids drooped unknowingly,

And I fell asleep.

Jihoo… won’t abandon me.