episode_0019

I confessed to Jiwon.

Was this the right thing to do? I wondered.

If Jiwon doesn’t accept, what should I do, I thought.

Maybe it’s better to just let it go if it’s awkward.

Thinking like that, as I looked at Jiwon,

Jiwon just stared back at me with a blank expression.

As I finished speaking, both Jiwon and I blushed.

No, this wasn’t the expression I wanted to see.

“S-So, do you want to date me?”

Looking at me, Jiwon asked if I wanted to date.

I didn’t know how to respond to that.

Even though I didn’t think I liked him, I didn’t dislike Jiwon either.

Well, he did crack jokes like this often.

“You should regret not being a girl.”

If I were a girl, I would have scolded him right after the confession.

I had said things like this before.

I never thought it would actually come to this.

I didn’t know what to say in response.

I stared at Jiwon for a while.

Jiwon seemed to be waiting for my answer with a smile on his lips.

Damn it… Fine, let’s just say it.

“Yeah, damn it, I wanted to date you. Even if I try to remember your original self, you look pretty now…”

“And… damn it, because you seem like my ideal type right now, I confessed. Why can’t it work out?”

Upon hearing my words, Jiwon burst into laughter immediately.

Damn it, I felt embarrassed and wanted to disappear right then and there.

Why did I say such a thing?

I wanted to say it was a joke even now.

Should I say it’s a joke, a high-level joke?

I stared at Jiwon for a while.

“Fine, damn it, let’s date.”

I was slightly taken aback by Jiwon’s words.

Did he just ask me to date him?

“While we’re doing these courtship activities, if I pretend not to notice, who will take you away?”

Although there was something unsettling about Jiwon’s words, he still accepted me.

But… is this really okay?

“Ugh, I’m tired, let’s go.”

Watching Jiwon head home, I had one thing to say.

“Hey.. we’re dating, you know.”

“It’s probably going to be boring.”

Trying dating only resulted in being gaslighted by that older sister.

That’s why I felt like I could never do the dating thing everyone else does.

In fact, I’m still a virgin who hasn’t even held hands with a girl.

I started wondering if a normal relationship is possible for me.

“What do you mean?”

Unlike my worries, Jiwon didn’t seem to have any thoughts.

“Well, I find it really fun just being around you.”

“Ugly guys are naturally happy just looking at faces, right?”

His words sounded a bit strange.

But is it okay nonetheless?

“So, don’t worry too much.”

Saying that, Jiwon smiled and looked at me.

Yeah… I was worrying unnecessarily.

Even if I date Jiwon, nothing much will change.

“What do you want to eat for dinner tonight?”

I asked Jiwon what he wanted to eat for dinner.

Jiwon said he wanted to have meat.

Alright.. meat sounds good.

On a day like today, meat and alcohol seemed like the right answer.

Thinking so, I followed Jiwon towards the mart.

Arriving at the mart, we bought meat, alcohol, drinks, and some ingredients to go with the meat.

“Meat~ Meat~”

Jiwon hummed a song, expressing his desire for meat.

Well, we do eat meat often anyway.

But buying all these…

I felt like I needed to save money from now on.

I realized I’ve been spending recklessly lately and my funds are running low.

Should I start working part-time again?

With those thoughts in mind, I decided to head back home with Jiwon.

**

As soon as we got home, Jiwon suggested grilling the meat.

But it was too early to grill the meat, so I told him it wasn’t time yet.

“For now, go wash up.”

Since we had been out, I told Jiwon to wash up.

Furthermore, since there’s no need to go out now, it would be best to quickly shower and finish up.

Thinking so, I told Jiwon to hurry up and shower.

Jiwon replied with an understanding nod and went into the bathroom.

What the hell? You can undress properly in there, you know?

Has this bastard been blatantly undressing in front of me all this time to mess with me?

Although I had a moment of doubt, considering it unnecessary now, I put away the groceries I bought into the refrigerator.

After putting the groceries in the fridge and waiting for Jiwon…

“Jihoo! The hot water isn’t working.”

Ah… I forgot to turn on the boiler.

Turning on the boiler, Jiwon thanked me and started showering again.

Once Jiwon finishes showering, I should go in too.

While lying on the bed and looking at my smartphone…

Among the bags I brought, something other than groceries began to catch my eye.

What’s this? Did Jiwon secretly buy snacks?

Feeling bored, I considered nibbling on some snacks and brought the bag to check its contents.

And inside it was…

“What the hell, ultra-thin?”

There was a condom inside the bag.

Why is this here, damn it?

Not only is it surprising that it’s there in the first place.

I don’t understand why it’s there.

I didn’t put it there.

Was it mistakenly included?

No, if it was a mistake, it would be difficult to return it.

Moreover, if Jiwon finds out about this…

“Did you buy this for us to do it?”

I’m definitely going to get scolded for this.

That’s why the only thought in my mind was that I needed to hide this item.

As I pondered where to hide it…

“Hey, I’m done showering.”

Jiwon came out saying she finished showering.

“Oh… okay.”

In my haste, I unknowingly hid the condom behind me as well.

Now I don’t know what to do with it.

Looking suspicious as I blatantly hid something, Jiwon watched me closely.

With an expression like “Why is he doing this?” she looked at me, then checked the plastic bag and glanced back at me.

“Did you steal a condom?”

“How the hell did you know?”

“Because I bought it.”

I immediately identified the culprit.

So, this guy was the culprit.

“Why did you buy that?! What were you thinking!!”

Upon my words, Jiwon looked at me and said one thing.

“We’re officially dating today, right?”

“Yeah.”

“So, aren’t we supposed to do it today?”

I really wanted to know what’s going on in this kid’s head.

Is it filled with just eating, gaming, and sex?

While staring at Jiwon like that…

Jiwon made a circle with her hand, raised her index finger, and repeatedly inserted and withdrew it from the circle.

She’s blatantly being seductive.

“No, so we’re not going to do it?”

Did our Jiwon learn about relationships from adult videos?

I don’t understand why she’s thinking about relationships like that.

“Jiwon, let me inject some common sense into your brain.”

“It’s our first day together, right?”

“Yeah.”

“So instead of jumping right into it, shouldn’t we wait until we truly understand each other?”

“Don’t we already know everything about each other? If you vividly remember the adult video stories, we’ve gone beyond being friends with benefits to being double friends with benefits.”

Damn, I wish she hadn’t brought up those adult video stories.

And it’s so hard to argue against that statement; it seems right, so I can’t say anything.

Sighing at Jiwon’s words, I handed back the condom.

Seeing how ultra-thin it was in detail, I sighed.

“Okay, I’m going to shower now.”

Upon my words, Jiwon acknowledged and went back into the bathroom.

**

After finishing the shower and starting to dry my hair…

Is Jiwon resting now?

It seemed like she was lying on the bed, possibly asleep.

Should I postpone the meat party to tomorrow?

I went through the trouble of buying meat, so it would be a shame to waste it.

Well, if she’s sleeping, there’s nothing I can do.

Right now, it’s better to rest than to eat this meat.

Heading outside can be tiring.

But more importantly, I need to move Jiwon to the next room.

No matter what, the homeowner should sleep in their own bed.

I told Jiwon to get up by pulling off the blanket covering them.

What was revealed when the blanket was pulled off…

“Hey… What the f*** are you wearing?!!”

Jiwon, who was in a white T-shirt and dolphin shorts until a moment ago, was now staring at me in the purple underwear set I first bought for them.

I don’t understand why they’re acting like this.

“What’s the problem?”

“It seems like there’s a lot of problems.”

Even though we’ve become close, showing your underwear…?

Why does it feel familiar?

Knowing this isn’t right, I immediately told them to change their clothes.

“We’re not married, so hurry up and change.”

Upon hearing my words, Jiwon started looking at me with a strange expression.

“I… even thought about marrying you.”

“……. ”

As I remained silent.

Jiwon said it couldn’t work out and got up from the bed.

Hold on, Kang Jihoo.

I know you want to contribute greatly to our country’s birth rate.

I also feel like doing that.

But. I know now is not the time.

Quietly watching Jiwon leave…

Watching them go…

“I f***ing don’t understand!!”

In the end, my last bit of restraint snapped.

It felt like everything had finally broken apart.