episode_0452

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I will leave the Murim Alliance.

A long discussion followed my declaration, but in the end, the Murim Alliance accepted my intention.

It was a story that would be welcomed with open arms from the perspective of those who were suspicious or hostile towards me.

The reason those sects were hostile towards me was because they judged me to be a Sejak of the Blood Religion, and there was no need to oppose since a Sejak of the Blood Religion was leaving the Murim Alliance on his own.

Even those who believed in me or thought they needed my power ultimately concluded that there was nothing they could do after a long discussion.

Because they didn’t have any grounds to trust me.

Can someone you can’t trust be put into an important operation?

It seems that they decided that it would be better to freely roam the martial arts world and respond to religious forces rather than remaining in the Murim Alliance and being involved in outskirt operations.

It would be ideal to create a complete unit by attaching warriors to the Five Marches, but to be honest, it would not be a bad idea for the Murim Alliance to deal with the blood religion alone.

The conclusion of the Murim League was much clearer than I expected.

As a result, he didn’t defend me, but he also didn’t take responsibility for the consequences of falling into a trap.

Although we have helped the Murim Alliance in many ways so far, it is also true that this incident has caused great damage to the Murim Alliance. It seems like they decided that the merits and demerits were offset.

To be honest, if the Murim Alliance wanted to place responsibility for this situation on me, they could have done whatever they wanted.

The conversion operation failed and only suffered a lot of damage, with half of the eighteen Arhats, who could be said to represent the Shaolin Temple, suffering injuries that required long-term treatment.

This is a situation where anyone would want to avoid responsibility by making a scapegoat.

Even in that situation, the Murim Alliance did not place responsibility on me.

What if it wasn’t the Murim Alliance but the Apostolic Alliance? They must have decided that they had found a weak spot and rushed in to suck out the marrow from their bones.

Even if it wasn’t a particularly malicious group like the Apostolic Alliance, if it was a group of quite a few people, they would have tried to place the blame on me.

The Murim Alliance is a group of historical political factions. I believed it.

After finishing my work with the Murim Alliance, I hurried back to my lodgings.

While returning to the Murimmaeng, he was isolated from the non-cheonmacha and his party due to concerns about possible escape. After arriving at the Murim League, I immediately attended the Murim League meeting, so it has been quite a while since I actually looked into the details of the party’s ranks.

Tang So-yeol, who had not regained consciousness for a long time, barely regained consciousness, so he couldn’t help but start walking faster.

Maybe there will be some aftereffects, or maybe I just barely regained consciousness and needed a longer time to shake off my injuries and wake up.

The party So-yeol faced with arrogance and worry.

“Hey, are you here? My disciple.”

…It looked like it had been taken care of properly.

Tang So-yeol stretched out Hyeok Kirin’s cheeks as if to show off. Hyeok Kirin’s face with enlarged cheeks was on the verge of exploding, but his body was still motionless.

A black cat’s hand was on Tang So-yeol’s shoulder, who was kneading Hyuk Kirin’s glutinous rice cake.

To be precise, I should say that I am giving a massage.

The black cat’s eyes were staring at the back of Tang Xiaoyeol’s head with such evil eyes that one could bet all one’s money on the fact that he was cursing harshly in his heart, but the hand that was actually moving was carefully pressing Tang Xiaoyeol’s shoulder.

Next to him was Yeo Il-ye, who was smiling bitterly and fanning Tang So-yeol.

“What is this now, teacher?”

Tang So-yeol pointed his empty cigarette pipe at me in an arrogant manner.

“Uh-huh, look at this stupid guy. Who on earth would show such a habit of speaking to a teacher and ‘saver of life’?”

I immediately understood the current situation.

Although I don’t like it because I am so energetic, it is true that the party’s zeal saved our lives. So, it seems like the party members have no choice but to listen to the party’s demands.

“Yes, teacher and lifesaver. I don’t know what to do with grace like Ha-hye. So, how are you?”

The answer came from a black cat.

“Anyway, a member of the Murim Alliance visited us earlier. Fortunately, there are no serious injuries, so all you have to do is clean it up like this.”

“This is a patient guaranteed by Dr. Murim Maeng, so take care of him with all your heart~”

I felt quite reassured after hearing the expert’s opinion.

It’s been an hour.

“Excuse me.”

It was at a time when I was sighing and letting go of my sleepy mind due to the party fever.

“Yeonhwa Sojeo of the Moyong family has come to visit.”

…An unexpected guest came.

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“I would like to join Hocheonan Daehyup.”

When we recaptured Botamun, Moyong Yeonhwa visited us and mentioned the possibility of Yook Sungjin.

however.

He took a step back when faced with Black Cat’s question about whether he would actually join the group and become a member of Seongjin Jin.

I understood Mo Yong Yeon Hwa’s concerns.

When the work of Shaanxi Bunta was completed, Moyong Yeonhwa kissed me and confessed her feelings, but chose to head home to rebuild Shaanxi Bunta.

After that, Moyong Yeonhwa, who had been hovering around me and my group for a while, showing regret, stopped hanging around me and my group at some point.

That’s why I decided to give priority to the work of Shaanseobunta.

But what happened so far?

The eyes of Moyong Yeonhwa, who came to see me today, were full of confidence instead of the hesitation and worry that always existed.

“What about Seomseobunta’s work?”

“It’s a shameful story, but I was kicked out.”

“Yes?”

What really happened? Only a gentle smile appeared on the face of Mo Yong-yeon-hwa, who said she was kicked out.

“So, I hope the Hocheonan Grand Association will accept it. I will try my best to never become a burden. If you wish, you can have me as a member of the Jinbeop unit.”

“I will soon leave the Murim Alliance and move independently. There is also a high risk of being targeted by the spirits and people of the blood religion. And yet you still want to follow me?”

Mo Yong-Yeonhwa nodded without saying a word.

It seems that he has completely made up his mind without needing to ask any more questions.

Moyong Yeonhwa joins the group.

Considering the future actions, there was no reason to refuse.

It was true that it was difficult for Oh Seong-jin alone to deal with the spiritual creatures of the blood religion with high combat power.

Since Seo Moon-yeon personally recommended Mo Yong-yeon-hwa to join, there is no need to doubt the effectiveness of strengthening the team.

“Can you give me some time?”

However, accepting Moyong Yeonhwa as a member of the group was not something I could decide on my own.

“Of course. You can wait as long as you want, so please think carefully and come to a conclusion.”

“Thank you.”

I left the reception room and gathered my companions.

“What did Moyong Yeonhwa and Sojeo say?”

“He said he wanted to join the group.”

As I watched my companions showing calm eyes, I realized that they had already anticipated the current situation and were preparing to take it one step further.

Looking at that.

I lowered my head.

It was an apology to Heukmyo and Yeo Il-ye, and at the same time, it was an apology to Hyeok Kirin and Dokgo Iseol, who make up the Five Elements.

“…Senior?”

“Eun-gong? What are you doing?”

“I’m sorry.”

At the surprised looks of my companions, I calmly opened my mouth.

“To be honest, before I left Shaanseobunta, I confessed my feelings to Mo Yong-yeon-hwa. I just kept my mouth shut because I said I was leaving for my hometown to rebuild Shaanxi Bunta and give opportunities to my subordinates.”

There was silence for a moment.

…Probably my companions also had some suspicions, but hearing the truth directly from my own mouth must have felt different.

“Because I have two lovers, please forgive me for brazenly conveying Moyong Yeonhwa’s intentions even though I know what Hyuk Kirin and Dokgo Iseol Sojeo have in mind.”

I considered myself a charlatan.

I treated myself as a ciderpath who just did what I wanted and went where I wanted to go, and I thought I actually behaved that way.

however.

Actually, I wasn’t a very strong person.

He was not a person who could face adversity without giving in and open his heart proudly.

In fact, I was a weak and cowardly person. Not wanting to be hostile to his blood relatives, he created the illusion of blood-relative love and ran away, and even tried to ignore the obvious traps and walked in on his own feet.

As a result, he and his party fall into a trap.

Tang So-yeol fell to save me and my companions.

It was only after being toyed with by a blood master who treated me like a tool from beginning to end that I realized this fact.

And I also realized that the work that my weak heart had been ignoring was not just about the blood religion.

Dokgo Iseol, a relationship from the time when he was Yongjimaeng.

And even Hyuk Kirin’s heart, which he came to know during Oh Seong-jin’s training.

While I accepted Heukmyo and Yeo Il-ye as lovers, I also accepted Eoyeongbuong and Dokgo Iseol as companions, and I also remained silent about Hyeok Kirin, whom I got to know through Oh Seong-jin.

What did Heukmyo and Yeo Il-ye feel when they saw me like that? And what kind of feelings did Dokgo Yi-seol and Hyeok Kirin feel?

I was acting indifferently, repeating the wrong thing, and this must have been disappointing to my lovers, Heukmyo and Yeo Il-ye, and it was also forcing Dokgo Iseol and Hyuk Kirin into an indefinite wait.

Nevertheless, I have been able to fight against the spirits of the Blood Cult so far by carrying out the Five Marches with my companions.

This was only possible because my companions were patient and considerate of me.

I have finally realized this obvious fact.

There was silence for a while.

“Senior.”

And the one who broke the silence was a black cat.

“Don’t be sorry, just be honest. What does your senior think about Mo Yong Yeon Hwa?”

“I think I would like to accept it if I could accept it as part of my group. Because it is difficult to deal with strong spirit creatures with Oh Seong-jin’s power alone. However, if even one person objects, I plan to reject Mo Yong Yeon Hwa’s offer.”

“Really?”

“Okay.”

This was sincere.

Because my companions were very understanding and patient with me.

“Eun Gong. There is one thing I would like to ask.”

Yeo Il-ye looked at me and opened her mouth. The quietly shining poisonous eye seemed to pierce my inner thoughts.

“Is that the only reason you want to accept Moyong Yeonhwa as a member of your party?”

That’s all.

I took a deep breath.

Even though I decided to no longer ignore my feelings and reveal them, it wasn’t an easy thing to say.

“Probably, I think not.”

I looked at the black cat.

“When I first met the black cat, I only thought about using it. But as I gradually went on various adventures, this thought occurred to me. I think that woman like that back alley wild cat can become someone who can be loved by everyone if she just trains herself a little.”

After that, I looked at Yeo Il-ye.

“The relationship started off as a bad relationship, but after seeing your actions after gaining enlightenment, I felt like I wanted to help. Even now, I can’t clearly explain what I wanted to do at that time.”

Next was Hyeok Kirin.

“It must have been difficult just to go back and forth between two social statuses and live as a cross-dressing woman, but seeing her always bright and caring for others made me have her back.”

Finally, my gaze landed on Dokgo Iseol.

“Dokgo Iseol Sojeo is also the same. Although he came to see Yong-maeng, not Ho Cheon-an, he was unable to reject Lee Seol and So-jeo. This is proof that he ultimately could not ignore the feelings of Lee Seol and So-jeo, who loved Yong-maeng.”

So I decided to admit it.

“Looking back, I think I was drawn to your charm that shines like jewels. I just couldn’t find the courage to reach out.”

Because I have to go back someday. Because a talented and beautiful female master and a warrior with low status and no fundamentals do not get along. Because there was an enemy named Jeongcheol.

Because it felt more comfortable to maintain an ambiguous distance as a colleague.

That’s why, despite the fight between Black Cat and Yeo Il-ye that took place in the west, I simply chose to remain silent.

In fact, I was afraid of putting it on someone’s mind, so I kept putting it off.

I am trash.

“I had this kind of person in my heart and that kind of person on a subject that I didn’t even have the courage to raise. How can I raise my head to you? ”

A piece of trash who only has feelings for many people, even though he couldn’t muster up the courage to choose anyone.

After I finished speaking, there was a terrible silence.

In the end, I was admitting that I also had feelings for Mo Yong-Yeon-Hwa, and I was saying to the people who were in love with me that I hoped they would accept Mo-Yong-Yeon-Hwa like that.

The black cat looked around at the group. No, it wasn’t just the black cat. I could feel the companions exchanging glances with each other.

I looked at him and lowered my head.

It was because I felt that I was unworthy of watching that.

“What should I say….”

The black cat stepped forward.

“First of all, I’m happy.”

…What the black cat said was completely unexpected. When I raised my head in surprise, I saw the smiling face of a black cat.

The black cat, so beautiful that it dazzles every time you look at it, was smiling brightly.

“Even though he accepted my confession, he never said anything good about me. So, I was anxious inside. Didn’t they just become lovers because they couldn’t handle the pressure? Maybe I’m the only one who likes seniors.”

Was that what you were thinking?

I really did something bad.

“You said you wanted to help me and Sojeo Yeo Il-ye and Sojeo Hyeok Gi-rin, right? hmm. Personally, I think the senior actually wanted to help Sojeo, Dokgo Iseol. Wouldn’t the same be true of Moyong Yeonhwa and Sojeo? In the end, he gave enlightenment to Moyong Yeonhwa and Sojeo in Shaanseobunta.”

Did you know everything?

I lowered my head in regret and embarrassment.

“Just as my senior saw me and had the thought of wanting to help, I too, no…everyone here wants to help him.”

“Yes. That’s right. Duke Eun…is going through a more difficult time than ever before.”

Yeo Il-ye received Black Cat’s words.

“I am here because I want to help such people.”

“Me too.”

“Me too.”

Hyeok Gi-rin and Dok-go I-seol nodded as if responding to Yeo Il-ye’s words.

“Let’s do it with Moyong Yeonhwa and Sojeo.”

The black cat got its teeth stuck.

“There are still a lot of people, and I need the power of Moyong Yeonhwa and Sojeo to solve my senior’s problem… I don’t feel like it, but what can I do? I am the one who hopes that my senior will resolve this matter and be happy.”

“…I’m sorry.”

The black cat raised its head, which kept falling.

“Promise me instead. I will no longer give my heart to others. And if everything is resolved, I will love you more passionately than anyone else.”

The eyes of a black cat that I was forced to face. I could see affection for me in those eyes.

Have I ever received this kind of affection? And at the same time, was this affection not properly seen or accepted?

I looked at Yeo Il-ye, Hyeok Kirin, and Dokgo Iseol.

It was easy to read the affection in the eyes of the three people.

I was so thankful and at the same time, it was undeserved affection for someone who couldn’t even control his own heart.

So I decided.

“I promise.”

After completing the matter with the Blood Lord, I will give back double what I have received so far, or even more.

…All I could give was at best a vague promise.

That alone put smiles on the four faces.

The smile was brighter than ever.