episode_0034
by fnovelpia“Sigh….”
“Oh, oppa….”
“Uh-huh….”
“Oh, oppaaaa….”
“…Huff.”
My barely awake brother looks surprised as he gazes at me.
We were both exhausted and just fell asleep after roughly tying up the condoms and leaving them aside in our nakedness….
“W-what’s wrong…?”
“Oppa…I’m sorry for waking you up since morning…please hold on a bit…my stomach hurts….”
“Oh…oh! I’ll get it right away.”
Even in pain, as my brother frantically looks around trying to cover my naked body, I couldn’t help but chuckle.
“Ouch…ahh…!”
I didn’t expect it to act like poison.
It was my period.
“Here’s some water! Are you okay? Should we go to the hospital?”
“Thank you….”
Last night…my brother and I did it.
Was it intense…?
I’m not sure.
We had bought condoms in bulk, but only used one.
And after all the seduction, we ended up crying and fighting….
I truly despised myself for being so pretentious.
Why did I seduce him. Like a fool.
*
“Mmm…why does breakfast taste so good.”
“Yeah…you’re right. It tastes exceptionally good today.”
“Working hard…gulp. No, no. Really…ugh…!!”
“Huh…? What? Oh…yeah. Let’s pretend you didn’t hear that!”
The conversation took an odd turn.
The already awkward atmosphere turned even more uncomfortable, almost like a cold winter breeze returning.
Suddenly, the food lost its taste.
Although the meal was undoubtedly delicious, I continued eating, swallowing our unspoken words, eager to move past this moment.
“Phew…ouch….”
“Ugh. Jihye, should I just carry you?”
“It’s okay. I can walk.”
Walking felt suspiciously awkward.
As we entered the elevator, I felt a strange sensation enveloping me, almost causing me to collapse.
Feeling someone pressing against my waist and pelvis, I wouldn’t have been surprised if I had actually fallen down.
My legs felt like jelly, moving unsteadily, and anyone watching would think I was drunk, knowing the inside joke only close friends share froze me.
I wanted to curse. Just let it all out, refreshing.
“Ugh…oh….”
“This won’t work.”
“Ugh!?”
After stumbling a few steps, my brother simply lifted me up in his arms.
A classic princess carry.
“Ah…oppa, please put me down….”
“No. You’re in a lot of pain right now.”
“Ugh…this is embarrassing….”
My brother is definitely trying to embarrass me to death.
“Just hold on a little longer. We’re almost there.”
“…No way…!!”
Covering my face and ears, I almost made it, but with the reassurance that we were almost there, I loosened my grip slightly, finding the place suddenly crowded.
[On Oppa’s neck, there was a mark that couldn’t be hidden and revealed itself.]
You have to like this. You have to dislike it.
“We’ve arrived. Wake up now.”
“Uh… Uh!! I hate you, Oppa!”
He embraced me, taking weak punches without strength.
“I’m sorry. But I can’t help it.”
“I don’t know… idiot.”
“Hmm… Going to Jeju Island like this is a bit… Where should we go?”
Seeing only a weak side, Oppa gave up even the tonkatsu.
Ending the first day like this, not coming on the second or third day…?
“Oh… No. I must eat tonkatsu.”
“No. If you can’t even get on a boat, how can you get on a plane?”
It can’t be helped.
Just when Oppa finally got a vacation, the foundation for creating memories with him, our fate, and a deeper relationship are disappearing.
“Oh… Please, Oppa. I’m really okay.”
“No. Let’s just go home today. I’m worried.”
“Uh…”
“Jihye.”
There’s nothing to say.
Even if I insist here because I’m worried, I’ll just be rejected again.
“Jihye?”
“Yes…”
“I know it’s disappointing. But I’m disappointed too. Still… we can have fun at home. It’s not scolding you for being sick, and what you did wasn’t alone, we did it together… Why are you struggling and feeling depressed alone?”
Because I forced it.
I even made up words that shouldn’t have been said just to give myself value.
So… I deserve to be punished.
I barely held back the words rising to my lips.
“That…”
“I love you. I can’t convey my true feelings with just ‘like.’”
“…I understand. Very much, without any lies.”
“Then… understand me. Understand my heart. Our unchanging continuation.”
“…Yes. I understand.”
“Yeah. Jihye, you’re beautiful.”
Saying these things, born to love each other… it’s not some kind of wordplay.
Born in different families, we met inevitably in an unstable fate, and by chance, we met my brother-in-law, lived with him for a few months.
And then suddenly became a woman…?
Strangely, although Oppa was already handsome, he approached me in a way that made my heart flutter, and strangely, I felt more attached to him, who found it difficult to approach me.
Very strangely, my heart trembled once again.
At the moment of attachment, when we forcibly stuck together and slept while spinning strange arguments.
It seemed like a fantasy.
Feeling like I would be happy, the unfamiliar feeling of stability, and the situation becoming tender were so alien.
So. Strange. Just strange.
It was just alien and strange… but for some reason, I was happy.
Even now… I am happier.
“I’m sorry for being stubborn.”
“No. Let’s live without secrets. It’s not an impossible thing, we acknowledged and accepted each other, so we reconciled, right?”
“Thank you for reconciling.”
“Hmm… Is that how you come out?”
I’m just grateful to Oppa.
I received love, received sincerity.
Two is enough for me. It’s a huge gift. A great happiness.
So, I shouldn’t let it slip away.
I wish we had started with marriage.
From there, I hope we stubbornly have a baby.
“Just… in many ways. Thank you for everything. Just accept it. My beloved Oppa.”
“…I got it.”
Darling, honey-like old-fashioned nicknames honestly aren’t necessary. We don’t need nicknames.
If anything, Oppa.
This one word is simply the maximum term of endearment I can use for Oppa.
“Cute. So cute. Will you be cutting into my heart again tonight?”
“…Yeah. Sure thing.”
“Got it~”
Regardless of the outcome, I’m grateful to yesterday’s me and also thankful to my brother who continues to cherish me.
Especially yesterday… It may feel slightly scary just thinking about it, but they say there’s a reason why they call it a first experience.
And in the end, there might have been an additional factor that made the delightful moment turn into tears.
So today, I will endure.
Tomorrow will be better, and the me the day after tomorrow might not be tempted again, right?
With exhilarating thoughts, it seems like my pain is gradually fading away.
“Ugh….”
“Oh… Sorry. I tried to keep it to a minimum.”
First things first… Let’s start with some national criticism.
My brother isn’t at fault.
He takes such good care of his car, so could the issue really be with the suspension of this fine vehicle?
Is it because of these dirty, unsightly, and ignorant regulations that not only enforce restrictions but also permanently fix them, causing me to suffer like this due to the speed bump set here, which easily exceeds 10cm, more like 20 degrees?
“I need to file a complaint about this… I’ll try to get some sleep. Sorry for not being able to chat.”
“Oh. No, it’s okay… And the pain is wisdom, not your fault at all. It’s ours. Or should I say I messed up alone?”
“No. Thank you.”
A complaint of about 5700 characters, resembling a cover letter or perhaps even a novel, with a meticulously drawn map attached as a file, was sent off before sinking back into the chair.
Brother’s house.
My home where I can return.
“Huh…? Oh, brother!?”
“When I see a patient, I immediately help. Especially if it’s someone dear to me.”
“You won’t let me down, right?”
“Yeah. Of course not.”
Not even getting out of the car, as soon as something happened, he was already waiting outside for the elevator.
“Wow….”
“…What’s with the ‘wow’?”
Once the princess is in my arms, all I can do is use these small fingers and my upper body.
“Kiss… Can I do it now since you’re not here…?”
*Smooch.*
Even though lifted, a kiss is still possible.
A kiss… Not as heated or exciting as back then, but just feeling sweet is satisfying and nice.
“What floor are you on~?”
“Umm… 12th floor?”
“Alrighty then~ Ding-dong~ 12th floor it is~”
Since I was being held, it was hard to press the button, so I pressed it instead.
This situation is quite amusing.
“Ding-dong~ 10th floor.”
No one was there. Did another elevator come first, and did they take that one?
“Ugh….”
A random thought crossed my mind.
“I’m not heavy… am I?”
“…? Light as a feather?”
“It’s not fun at all. I’m heavy. Really!”
I can feel the weight of my chest right now. What’s the average weight based on my physique and body standards?
“Oh, you’re really light. Just kidding. Does shaking make you heavier?”
“Ugh….”
Stopping my dangling feet, I wrapped my arms around his neck.
Brother smiled mischievously as we reached the door.
“Phew… We’re back! Ugh… Ahh.”
Opening the door, it felt like seeing a place long forgotten, but I couldn’t just shout and laugh recklessly.
My whole body was engulfed in muscle soreness.
“I’ll lay you down on the bed. Just a moment…”
Like a prince, my brother took off my shoes and lifted me up again.
“Um… I want to go to your bed, brother.”
“Got it.”
“Yay! Ugh…!”
“Shh… Maybe we shouldn’t speak.”
The muscle soreness persisted even by lunchtime.
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