episode_0185
by fnovelpiaThe deepest mental world.
A space where everything is black.
“… Who are you?”
Ronica, who was freed, looked at Seongju.
I had encountered him before when I was resurrecting Andro, but the feeling and atmosphere was completely different.
Not even emotionless.
It is not without color.
Bright orange.
It is clear that the atmosphere is difficult to approach on the outside, but in my opinion, it is a color that gives off a friendly yet firm feeling.
‘Strange feeling.’
[…] … … .]
The woman’s eyes met.
The eyes seemed somehow sad.
There was a coldness that permeated his life, but it was tightly hidden in the eyes looking at him, and those were eyes filled with a burning warmth that he had never received before in his life.
so… I didn’t hate those familiar eyes looking at me.
[…] … Ronica.]
“… Do you know me?”
[How can I not know you?]
Shuuk~
The huge body of the castle lord shrank.
Seongju, who had suddenly returned to the size of an ordinary person, bent his knees and was at eye level.
Unlike Caesar, there was no hostility. It felt friendly, as if we had been together for a long time.
Is it the same for her too?
Seongju stretched out his hand with a faint smile.
Talk.
It rests lightly on Ronica’s shoulder.
[My daughter.]
“… … … !!?”
Ronika’s eyes opened wide. With just one word, everything stopped.
I didn’t understand.
What did you just hear?
Nevertheless, my hands were shaking and my chest was pounding uncontrollably.
[I’m sorry for not being with you. Still, I’m glad it’s growing well.]
Although Ronica was anxious, she couldn’t help but ask.
I spit out the words I had forgotten.
“… … … Are you your mother?”
[…] … Do you want to call me mom?]
“… My mother is dead?… … .”
Grumble.
My eyes became moist without even understanding. This is a world in the mind. Even though it wasn’t real, the tears were hot and the hand on my shoulder was warm.
That’s why I feel it. How much the woman in front of you values you.
I was confused because I felt like I was confronting a truly lost family member.
daughter.
How long has it been since you heard this word?
It feels like a dream.
It’s like a created illusion.
A word now forgotten.
Words I thought I would never hear again.
Is it really such a blessing to hear someone call that word warmly?
[Daughter.]
Come on~
[…] I’m sorry for not being able to tell you the truth. Your real parents are separate. You were raised by an ordinary family.]
A terrible look.
An unsightly appearance.
The appearance of being unable to control oneself.
It was covered as if a woman was covering it.
I could tell without having to say anything more.
Mother’s arms.
It was something more than could be expressed in just one word: warmth. There was something soothing about just being held.
There is a resonance that connects together.
The heartbeat is heard.
Even though their hearts were not actually beating, they both heard the same heartbeat.
In a voice that doesn’t come out.
I asked back as if muttering.
“… … Is it true?”
[…] That’s right.]
When I heard the answer, tears came out again. Even though I wanted to, I couldn’t.
So I buried my face for a moment.
Sigh.
The feeling of touching your hair.
A woman strokes.
A very natural expression of affection.
However, something melts away at the expression of affection that feels like it is my first time feeling it.
A warmth that is different from that of black people.
It feels like a hug.
As if this was where it was supposed to be.
I want to stay like this forever… .
but.
Tuk.
“Please tell me.”
He pushed the woman away for a moment.
Sweet words.
It’s so sweet it’s hard to swallow.
I want to believe that those words are true, but I still can’t understand it.
You can’t blindly follow it.
The truth must be heard.
Because I am no longer a spoiled child.
[…] Like this… … You’ve grown so much. Then ask. I will answer everything.]
Even though she shed tears, she held her head high and asked questions.
“You saw me once before. It wasn’t this warm back then… It felt like I was seeing a completely different person.”
When saving Andrew.
The eyes of the woman who looked at her that day were cold and indifferent to the point of being cold. No matter how you look at it, it was not the way she looked at her daughter.
I wanted to ask that question.
Why are there differences between then and now?
Seongju made a sad expression again.
[that… I’m the same, but I’m a different me. I lost my feelings to protect you… … .]
“You’re losing your emotions?… .”
[Even before I gave birth to you, I had a power that made it impossible for living things to exist, and I was something other than a human obsessed with power.]
“That white skin… Are you undead?”
[As a human being, this is the price of touching gold. I gained strength, but in return I became no longer human.]
“… So did you lose your feelings?”
[That’s not true. I didn’t have any problems. But not you.]
“… … … .”
[The collection of that power resided in you as if it were running away, and if left unchecked, you could have gone crazy as soon as you were born. I might have turned into a monster. So, it was sealed so that it would not be affected by it.]
“… Please tell me more… … .”
[I was the only one who could control that power. It is a huge energy composed of tens of thousands of soul personalities. So, I divided your personality so that you would not be swallowed up by the power, and as one of the divided personalities, I have been watching you here, keeping an eye on your soul so that it does not leak out.]
“Are you here alone?… … .”
[…] okay. However, the seal is breaking little by little. If you break further here, you won’t be able to bear it now. I’m delaying it.]
“Suddenly… It’s so unexpected that I don’t know what to say. Why are you telling me that now? .”
[I couldn’t tell you even if I wanted to. We should have met when you gained control of this place. Because I can’t escape from here. Then I would have released this seal and helped you.]
“I see… then… then… … really… .”
Ronica clenched her fists and gritted her teeth for a moment to hold back the overwhelming emotions.
I understood everything.
Although he had no parents who gave him love.
Nevertheless, my loving parents existed here.
… I didn’t want to appear weaker.
My mental world is shaking.
You are being influenced by yourself.
I calmed my trembling heart as much as I could.
Only after that did I bring up the previous question again.
“… Are you really my mom?”
warble.
The woman stroked his cheek.
[love. Daughter.]
“For me… Have you been hiding like this and protecting me alone? … .”
[Because I loved you. And I will always love you.]
“Really?… .”
[love.]
“Really?… … .”
[love.]
Deep.
Hug again.
[love.]
“Qu… … .”
There are so many things I want to say.
There are a lot of things I want to hear.
[love.]
The words that sound like a spell fill me with pain.
[love.]
Tuk-tuk.
With a pat on the back.
[love.]
lovely voice.
A voice full of love.
The one word I needed most in my life.
[love.]
“… … … .”
If I tried to answer, I felt like I would burst into tears, so I couldn’t speak.
Wow… I bury myself so that no sound can be heard.
I barely whispered it under my breath.
“I love you… .”
[…] … … I love you.]
For some reason, it felt like something wet had fallen on my head.
The warm water soon overflowed and formed a puddle.
The puddle filled up as if it had met a waterfall and became a river.
Buds bloom and flowers bloom.
A beautifully filled mental world.
It feels like a dream.
stop.
I fell asleep in my mother’s arms.
*
Lord of Necropolis.
Zane’s other personality.
She smiled humorously as she stroked Ronica, who was asleep in her arms.
Ronica’s image is blurring.
In other words, consciousness is becoming blurred.
Ronica, who is asleep, is swallowed up by unconsciousness and loses her form here. If you leave it like this, you will wake up again in the original world.
Seongju laid his hand on Ronika for a moment.
Paaah~
Warm light surrounded Ronica.
[When you wake up again, you will not remember what happened here. I was simply talking to you out of my greed… I’m sorry.]
Sreuk.
Ronica’s memories were buried in darkness.
It’s not time yet. Ronica cannot completely control the mental world. If it had not been Caesar’s item, she would not have been able to come here.
In other words, stronger mental strength is needed.
He would be a big hindrance.
If you try to control your inner world hastily, you may not be able to handle the power implanted in you and run wild. That situation must be prevented.
That is why I exist.
I suppressed my greed. I resisted the urge to continue talking and caring for him.
[But I cannot completely erase your memories due to my greed. So, if you are one day, you will remember this day and come visit me… .]
Her monologue continued.
[It won’t be easy. so… If you are having a hard time, ignore everything and ask for help from someone outside. She is also me. Even if they seem heartless, they won’t turn you away if you ask for help first. ‘If it were me, how would I have treated you?’ I will give you at least some help.]
Suk~ Suk~
I keep stroking Ronica.
[Of course, these words are meaningless to you, who can’t even hear them and will forget your memories… .]
Sreuk.
I belatedly separated Ronica from him.
[Anyway, we had a good relationship. He will make your spirit stronger. He will be of greater help to you than to me.]
Swish~
Suddenly, Seongju turned around.
Because I know that if I hold on like this and continue talking, there will be no end.
[…] Just grow like this.]
Shalalak~
Soon, Ronica’s figure disappears.
In that dark place, the lonely farewell that only I remembered ended.
Instead, I looked at the other intruder.
Caesar.
He was just floating in the mental world.
[Do you deserve to be killed? If I kill you now, Ronica outside will misunderstand. Above all, you are the threshold that my daughter must overcome. There was more hidden than I thought. Consider yourself lucky. If we meet again, I will completely destroy you.]
It didn’t destroy his spirit. The position of the king and the external situation of awarding medals to Ronica saved his life.
Instead, he reached out to Caesar.
Sigh~
[Are you just manure? Become an irresistible presence to my daughter.]
This is a safety device.
I planted a few keywords.
I can’t threaten Ronika.
Obey Ronika’s words.
You are just fertilizer.
If you reject it, it will be painful.
Never do anything like this again. Or it may not pose a direct threat.
That’s how I changed my unconscious mind.
Even so, he is a smart person.
You will become aware of your unconsciousness and have many thoughts. It will be a great fear because we cannot properly foresee the uncertain future.
Even for Caesar, it would take at least several years to forcefully replace the altered unconscious prohibition.
The prohibition of the castle lord is that strong.
Probably not even close to Ronica.
Caesar will become stressed as he thinks too much about problems he cannot solve. It will be entirely his pain.
I didn’t kill him, but maybe this is a more appropriate punishment.
He needs to suffer more.
therefore… .
She banished Caesar from her inner world.
Ronica and Caesar returned to reality.
Forgetting everything about the mental world.
*
‘Ronika? ‘Why do you do that?’
The disciple suddenly flinched.
It was a slightly unnatural situation. Because the disciple wasn’t nervous.
In other words, something may have just happened in the contact with Caesar.
If that’s the case… .
Caesar right now…
‘… ah! huh. Nothing. ‘I was surprised by the static electricity for a moment.’
The answer came back in one second.
The answer seemed to be nothing.
… … Was it no big deal?
I don’t feel anything unusual.
Since it was such a short moment, it is difficult to judge it arbitrarily.
The disciple is fine.
Rather, it feels like something has become more comfortable… … .
okay. I guess it was a mistake.
“… … … .”
However, Caesar, who was awarding the medal, was in a daze for some reason.
“… Your Majesty?”
“Huh!… Huh. Oh, no. Cadet Ronica. I have high expectations for you. I hope that you will continue to shine in any adversity for your return.”
“Yes. Thank you.”
Sigh~
Caesar, who had awarded the medal, withdrew.
It looks a little suspicious… Is this too much to worry about?
Or is there something there?
Clap clap clap.
Whatever it was, the ceremony was over.
I hear people applauding.
“I’ll just leave my luggage. I hope everyone enjoys the remaining time.”
Afterwards, Caesar pretended to be relaxed and turned around.
I keep my poker face, but somehow I feel confused. Or, fear?… In any case, it seems like there are no plans to dig into Ronika any further.
Good hit and run.
I have a good feeling. I wasn’t going to put up with it if they kept making modifications.
however… What are you thinking? How did he evaluate his disciple after today’s meeting? Did he just watch because he was curious about his disciple’s power? Was there another purpose?
I feel uneasy because I don’t know what’s inside.
So, let’s think simply.
If you become an enemy… .
I will kill you without you even having time to think.
“Well, then, today’s friendly competition will end here. There are still a lot of songs and food prepared, so please enjoy the banquet leisurely-”
The main event is over.
The host immediately cleaned up the scene.
People turned around and started heading back to the banquet hall. Even after the friendly match is over, the banquet continues until night.
‘Negro. ‘Did I do well?’
‘Good job.’
‘Heehee~’
The disciple smiles proudly.
In a one-on-one match, he defeated a 5-star peak fighter and became a 7th-level hero. How could you not be happy because you have reached your dream?
With this, Ronica’s name will spread far and wide… That wouldn’t be bad either.
Is that why?
Grumble.
The guy is crying.
Tears are flowing down my cheeks.
what?
Why?
‘Why are you crying?’
‘huh?… what? Why are there tears… Did dust get in?’
The disciple wiped his tears as if he had no idea what was going on and smiled as if telling me not to worry.
I’m suspicious for no reason… .
‘I’m really fine! ‘Do you feel strangely refreshed?’
Really no problem.
A bright angel smile.
I can feel the wonderful disciple’s desire not to make anyone worry. Even after looking at it closely, I don’t see anything out of the ordinary.
Am I overreacting?
It could really have been dust… .
[Artrot. What about you?]
[What do you mean?]
[The actions my student just showed. Wasn’t there something suspicious?]
[It was a little strange. Just like the person who was yelling earlier.]
[…] … … .]
I don’t know.
Everything feels uncomfortable today.
Please, I hope it’s not a big deal.
We went back to the banquet hall, with our guard up.
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