episode_0109

“Hey! What are you doing here?”

“…Ugh, what are you doing? I’m reading a book.”

“Ol~ What kind of book is this? The other kids are waiting.”

“Ha, okay. You can just go.”

It was really hard, and it was my friends who helped me endure the thoughts of wanting to die every day.

My hopes for living in a small room with the help of money from the rest of my family were no different from theirs.

Isn’t it said that parents and friends have the greatest influence on personality formation?

Because they were the reason I was able to live without going astray. I believed what he said because it really helped me a lot.

I didn’t have many people I could call friends. I wasn’t the type of person to take the initiative to make friends, and I was going through such a difficult time that I didn’t have time to do so.

“…Hey, don’t worry. We are there, right?”

“Baby, why are you crying! There are us and a pretty girlfriend!”

“….Ha. thanks. Really.”

The few people I can call ‘friends’. I could say they were the second saviors of my life.

Friends during school days are friendly and comfortable, but there are times when conflicts arise.

Some people go through conflict and end up never seeing each other again, but there are also people who overcome conflict and become even closer.

However, although we remained close through middle school and high school, we never fought during that long time.

We joked around a lot and laughed a lot. We never crossed the line.

When we went on a trip by ourselves during vacation. I remember having honest conversations while drinking alcohol that I had secretly brought with me.

“….I had a really hard time. I’m talking only to you.”

“Ha… me too. There were some really difficult times.”

Alcohol can break people, but it can also make people more honest.

We were drunk and sat quietly and talked to each other. The things I’ve been through so far, the days when I cried silently under a bright mask.

Although we pretended to be strong, we were all delicate children. That day, we cried, laughed and talked together and became a second family.

The more pain is shared, the less it is, and the more laughter is shared, the more it doubles.

We became pillars of support when each other was having a hard time, and we seriously scolded each other when we tried to go astray. Such great friends who joke around and laugh when they need to laugh.

Because they are the few friends I have left. I was fortunate and grateful that they were such kind and kind people.

“You idiot, contact me! Don’t just call your girlfriend!”

“Okay, I got it.”

After successfully completing the college entrance exam, we decided to go on a trip. I couldn’t go because I suddenly had to help out.

After shaking off all the weight and walking my friends away with excited faces. I called my girlfriend.

Sweet.

-hello?

“Yes, it’s me.”

-huh! You know it’s you! So, why did you call?

“…just. Because I want to hear your voice.”

-Hehe…what is it~

I had a girlfriend. My girlfriend was so beautiful and so kind that every time I walked down the street, I would look back at her.

The first time I met her was when I went on a blind date that was popular among my friends.

I sat there just to fill the space, and she also sipped her drink, probably just to fill the space.

When I first saw her face, I thought a goddess had descended. He looks like most celebrities, and after chatting with him for a while, he seems very kind-hearted.

To be honest, I wasn’t unlikable. However, isn’t it necessary to be of the right class to develop a crush?

Because I was just an ordinary human being, and she was a goddess surrounded by blessings. I gave up early.

“Phew…”

Unable to endure the atmosphere of insiders, I ended up going outside the chicken restaurant and getting some fresh air alone, under the pretext of going to the bathroom.

Because… I felt more comfortable this way. To be honest, it was still a bit difficult to meet people other than my friends.

“Hey… Can I join you?”

“…Yes?”

That time when I was lamenting myself. She was standing next to me. When he asked if I could stay with him, I hesitantly said yes.

“Hehe… A place like that is a bit uncomfortable, right?”

“….Yes. I feel a little uncomfortable.”

“Me too… I just came out to find a seat. Ugh..”

“”………….””

There was a deep silence between us. I had never held a woman’s hand, let alone a girlfriend, so I didn’t know what to do, so I just stayed quiet.

She looked back and forth between me and the street without saying a word.

The weather was a little cold too. I tried to ask her to come in. Because she also shivered a little as if she was cold.

“Hey… now…”

“Um…over there! Do you have a girlfriend…!”

“….Yes?”

“That…that! I like that one…! If it’s okay, I can too…!”

“Ah…No, that’s not it. Why me…?”

The confession was so sudden, I felt like my head was going to explode. Why is such a pretty and kind person… to me, who has nothing special to offer?

Thump-!

“Eh…Eight! If you don’t like it, then we’re dating!”

“Yes….Yes?!”

She suddenly wrapped her hands around me and looked up at me. Her face was so beautiful that I had no choice but to answer.

That’s how I suddenly escaped from Mosol. Also, a woman who was not suitable for me confessed to me first.

To be honest, at first, I thought it was someone who approached me targeting something of me. Well, we were just talking and she was a much better person than me.

However, my girlfriend told me that she really only cared about me and confessed to me.

When everyone else was only looking at her face and body, I was the only one who focused on her words and eyes.

In fact, it was a nonsensical answer, but the truth was explained by the fact that we have never fought since we started dating two years ago until now.

She was so devoted to me, cared for me and loved me. I tried my best to repay that love.

Before we knew it, we had become a couple who received envious looks from those around us. Well, mostly it was envy of me, not her.

“….I need to help you with some work from now on, so I’ll call you later,”

-huh! love you!

“Me too.”

I really couldn’t be happier. Even though my parents were gone, precious people were filling the empty space.

Several days have passed. Time passed so quickly as I was helping out at a place where I worked part-time a long time ago.

“Oh my… thank you so much. I didn’t know it would take this long…”

“Thank you. There is something the boss did for me.”

The owner was the owner of a small store where I first worked part-time when I was having a really hard time.

He gave me food after starving for several days because I had no money, and also gave me a job. And he is the one who gave me countless advice and comfort. It was really helpful to me.

The boss gave me a huge amount of money as compensation, so I expressed my gratitude.

Phew… the job is finally over. I thought it would be over soon, but there was more work than I thought and I didn’t even have time to call my friends.

It’s probably been a few days since your friends came back, so I don’t think they’ll criticize you for calling too late.

Let’s see… Maybe I should call my friends. At least they would have had fun without me. I need to hear the story.

Toorururu.. Sweet.

“Hello…”

-Uuuu…! Who…who…are you…

“…Minsu’s mother?”

I tried calling my dear friend, Minsu, but it was not Minsu who answered the phone, but Minsu’s mother.

As soon as I heard Minsu’s mother’s voice crying so painfully and desperately, I started to feel anxious.

And at the same time, my vision was fixed on the screen and voices coming from the small TV.

-…This is unfortunate news. Teenagers headed to a pension in Gangwon-do due to a gas leak…

-Ugh… Minsu… Minsu…!

Minsu’s mother sobs for the world to go away. The location of the disaster on TV is a pension in Gangwon-do.

And… the place the friends headed to was a pension in Gangwon-do. The name is… OO Valley…

-The disaster occurred in OO Valley, Gangwon-do. Due to the homeowner’s mistake…

“…………..Ah.”

When I heard the news and headed to the funeral home. What welcomed me were the smiling faces of my friends beyond their graduation photos.

An infinitely calm atmosphere. My friends’ parents are crying for the world to go away.

“Hey…listen…”

It can’t be like this. How… could this be…

Tears flow and obscure my vision. However, the friends in the portrait picture surrounded by pretty flowers were smiling so brightly.

-Son… son…! No way!!!!

-Huh…huh…ugh…

-……How can the world be like this?

-Ha…haha… Is this a dream, honey…?

The police came and looked at the parents, who were crying and clinging to them, with mixed feelings.

The reason the friends left was because of a gas leak due to the pension owner’s omission of inspection. My friends were said to have died while they were sleeping without knowing the cause.

“Hey…listen….”

My friends were so kind and precious that it’s safe to say they were my second family.

The world was so cold and indifferent. Lights that appeared in my dark life. The angels who gave me those warm hands have left.

dump.

I sit down and look at my friends smiling through the portrait photo.

I remember the words that came to me first, even though there was only darkness, and told me to be a friend. I remember the warmth of his hand on my shoulder.

All the days I spent with them. Hot and cold days. All of our memories of crying even over trivial things.

Scattering away, disappearing.

“Aaaa…!!!”

I had to leave my second family like that, in such a vain way.