episode_0153

When I heard that I had acquired abilities, my body leaned forward.

The experiment log found at the hospital clearly stated that there were success stories.

It was clear that the military would have continued the experiment, so I had a feeling that it would happen… .

It’s much better than I thought… ?

Even though he was defeated badly by Yeoreum, it was clear that he had the ability.

It would be correct to see the difference as a difference in training rather than strength of ability.

So what is the number of people with acquired abilities?

What is the success rate?

Way?

This was important information that could not be overlooked since the military had revealed its ambition to expand its power in earnest.

“Explain it properly.”

“…….”

I grab the hair of the person who is still crying and cannot stop crying.

I forced eye contact and spoke with sincerity once again.

“Please explain.”

“…Yes.”

They say sincerity communicates.

I put a lot of sincerity into it, and the other person seemed to understand my earnest feelings.

He began to speak in a trembling voice.

“That… something….”

“Who, when, where, what, how, why. Everything related to the military and experiments, in accordance with the military and military principles.”

He rolls his eyes and shakes his head.

From the embarrassment on his face, I could tell that his comment a moment ago was a mistake due to overflowing emotions.

“You were forcibly experimented on?”

“So… . yes… .”

He speaks informally, takes a quick look at me, and then speaks louder.

For now, it looks like we’ve had enough of suppressing the momentum, so from now on, we’ll just have to calm him down.

Since they say they were forced to undergo experiments, they obviously don’t have good feelings about the military, so even with a little coaxing, they’ll give you information.

“Think about it, why would I ask about the military? Why are you destroying drones?”

“…Are you really planning to be hostile?”

I nodded and continued persuading.

“I think it’s just one more line. You don’t want to be forced to spend your whole life in an experiment or in a group, right? When did you know you would be experimented on again?”

“Now that I am a capable person… .”

“What if the number of capable people increases in 10 or 20 years? Is there a guarantee that they won’t experiment on talented people at that time?”

“That’s… .”

As expected, the other person was unable to reply that it would be okay.

Although I am not just, this may be the need to act just on the outside.

trust.

The belief that I will not encounter anything absurd when I join this organization.

That belief arises from everyday behavior, and since experiments were conducted on group members, the military could never give that belief.

“You say it’s unfair? Think of it as a joke and say it.”

“First of all, it’s late, but shall we start with the full statement? I am strong. What about you?”

“…Hyeji Lee.”

* * *

The time is after the disappearance of the former battalion commander.

Obviously, the new battalion commander named Hyeok-su described the incident as a disappearance, but the truth behind it was felt by the citizens, including Hye-ji.

Labor increased and food intake decreased.

Verbal language and assault also increased, and it soon became normal.

Both to the perpetrator and to the victim.

Hyeji used to get drunk especially in worse situations.

Her body was dull and even her face was ugly, so as a soldier, Hyeji was no different from a beggar who only ate too much.

“Hey, you could eat a little less.”

Even though I did the same thing, I was teased sarcastically.

No, it was mostly like that.

“…Yes.”

‘Fuck.’

There was nothing Hyeji could do other than swearing in her mind.

You said you studied a little hard?

Are you good at Photoshop?

Whatever it was, it was completely useless now.

Pretty things wandered from place to place, cleverly finding their own way.

Some of the lesser-made ones sold themselves, but some of the more attractive ones made snacks on their own even if they didn’t do that.

Labor is easy and comfortable.

For example, it involved transcribing official documents to be posted to residents.

She was confident that she could write a letter more accurately than anyone else, but it was something she was not allowed to do.

‘It’s unfair… .’

Even though it was unfair, I couldn’t do anything.

There were no people who spoke out for her.

‘Everyone is only thinking about how to survive for themselves.’

For humans in the extreme situation of survival, there was no leisure for others.

So she did the same.

Selfishly.

The experiment started with elderly people.

I don’t remember exactly why, but the soldiers took the elderly away, saying they would be managed separately.

And a few days later, news of his death arrived.

One of the soldiers who went to battle returned with his wounds hidden.

After all, that soldier managed the barracks for the elderly.

Of course, no one believed that.

Even though I didn’t believe, I believed.

I had to believe it.

“You bastards that aren’t as good as these dogs!!!”

Children who lost their parents lost their senses and ran wild, but it was not the soldiers who stopped them, but the citizens who shared the same room.

A few who lost their parents.

When that minority causes problems, the majority will feel uncomfortable.

The difference in absolute numbers was obvious.

“I’m sorry, but shouldn’t the living live?”

“What…? You bastard, is it okay for you to talk like that because your mouth is open? Say it again.”

“…Take a look around.”

The man who was mad as hell turned his head at those words.

The eyes of countless people looking at you.

Many eyes were on him, but no one made direct eye contact because he secretly avoided their gaze whenever he looked at them.

“Mister… I understand how you feel, but accidents are inevitable, right? We have to live too.”

The man, who seemed scared and took a step back, has not been seen since.

‘It’s not just me…’

Crowd psychology was quite useful.

If we took turns blaming each other, no one had to feel guilty.

Of course, Hyeji was also among them.

Even after that, people occasionally disappeared.

Search to supply supplies.

The people selected as porters for the search had a high probability of doing so.

At that time, I had no idea that these deaths were due to an experiment.

When the old people disappeared, I imagined that the situation in the military was so serious that I had to wear a Goryeo funeral, and I was just desperate not to be kicked out.

People who were dissatisfied with the military’s behavior disappeared one by one through whistle-blowing.

Next was the drawing.

“Due to unavoidable circumstances, I will perform the porter duties through a lottery.”

The lot seemed fair.

Sometimes it was a middle-aged man, and sometimes it was a woman who had just become an adult.

It’s just that all the pretty women survived and came back unharmed.

He looked a little tired somewhere.

“It’s okay… ?”

“…Yes.”

“How about outside… ? Is it serious?”

“Well, that is… so… a little…?”

Even though he looked embarrassed and started talking back, at first I thought ‘It must have been just an illusion’ or ‘I must have just been lucky’, but the more the incident repeated, the clearer the truth became.

To them, a pretty woman is a talent they don’t want to kill.

Insignificant men and ugly women were all just expendables.

And when Hyeji’s number 28 was called,

She was able to realize her reality a little more clearly.

“…Where are you going?”

“Just follow me.”

Determined to play the role of porter, she headed deeper inward rather than outward.

“They said it was a search.”

“Just shut up and follow me.”

A fairly aggressive soldier.

The soldier seemed to have lost his temper after that and started swearing softly.

‘You fucking idiot-looking bitch.’

Even though he was swearing, the soldier also seemed very anxious.

My hands were shaking like aspen trees,

However, he did not stop chain-smoking.

“… I brought you.”

“Come in.”

As soon as the door opened, I realized something was wrong.

A zombie tied up with its limbs bound.

No, previous deaths.

There were no wounds on his body to say he had been attacked by zombies outside.

“Aaagh!!!”

He catches her as she tries to run away, screaming like a girl, and stops her.

For the first time in her life, a large man’s hand was squeezing her,

She was unable to resist that power and was helplessly overcome.

Hye-ji is tied to the bed like the man who turned into a zombie.

A doctor wearing a white coat appeared at Hyeji’s bedside with a syringe in his hand.

“This is your first time with a woman?”

“Yes, that’s how it happened. By the way, you must succeed now.”

“What did the captain say?”

“… He thought he was scammed.”

“It will be really different this time, so don’t worry.”

Where can you feel trust in those eyes that look at the syringe as if it were loving?

The doctor approached Hyeji and began a brief explanation.

It’s like asking for consent from a patient before surgery.

He started muttering as if making excuses for himself.

“Experiment No. 57. Your name is…?”

“This is Lee Heji.”

“Yes, Miss Hyeji Lee.”

The soldier answered instead, but the doctor continued speaking while looking at Hyeji.

“Miss Hyeji, think about it. Is there any meaning to living such a miserable life?”

I had known for a long time that there was no such thing as meaning.

Throw away everything you can, including pride,

I couldn’t find much meaning in life if I had to live as ugly as possible.

I want to die.

I want to die, but I don’t want to die.

No, it’s better to die.

It was an answer I repeated several times, but the ending was always the same.

“Ugh…!! Ugh!!!!”

“So, I will end your miserable life. Don’t you agree?”

‘no! ‘I don’t want to die…!!!’

I try to express my intention by moving my eyes from side to side as much as possible, but the doctor smiles brightly and covers my eyes.

“It stings for a moment~”

Deeply—

A needle digging into my forearm.

One after another, another syringe stabbed my forearm again.

“U—-Uuuu!!!!!!”

After experiencing extreme pain, Hyeji lost her mind.