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Unlike marriage, engagement carries weight, but it is not an irreversible choice.

Unlike marriage, which is an official announcement of a relationship.

The engagement was merely an act of announcing that something was going to happen.

That’s why, even if an engagement is broken for some reason, it usually doesn’t work out.

There have not been many cases where this has been officially announced or actions and procedures taken to achieve this.

‘In my case, it was more than just a promise between me and Elicia.’

Since it was a family promise, it was better to resolve it gently.

Could it be because I felt a strong sense of skepticism in the North, including in Elysia?

Since I felt no interest or excitement from the North at this point, I just nodded dryly and agreed.

‘That would be better.’

The moment I say that I don’t want to end it smoothly for the sake of revenge, a public opinion war that only discusses negativity begins.

This was nothing more than an act of shouting that one was more justified in order to put down the other person.

I decided that there was no need to do it because no matter what the outcome, there would be no benefit and my reputation would only be lowered.

‘There’s no need to do something so useless.’

So I nodded to the Lord and said I would do so.

When I told him that I would just let it go, he looked at me again as if he was surprised.

He added one more thing, as if he liked my reaction.

“If you want, I’ll find you a new fiancée.”

I smiled awkwardly at the mention of a new engagement and shook my head in refusal.

“I’m sorry.”

***

After leaving the head of the household’s office, I immediately headed towards a place where ‘Siren’ might be.

There was no particular reason, it was just rude to invite (kidnap) someone to my house and then leave them there.

So, by the time I was looking around the places she might be to get a feel for the situation.

“Your hair is really pretty. What’s your secret?”

“I don’t know.”

“You were born with it… I’m jealous.”

Lorraine and Siren are heard talking in the park.

As I walked towards them, thinking that we had become close already, I saw Siren being ‘brushed’ by Lorraine like a cat.

‘… Something is strange.’

In the original work, Siren was portrayed as a cruel, murderous spirit who could not understand human emotions.

The siren in front of me was just a pretty girl who didn’t fit that description at all.

It’s a bit strange to see this.

The sun spirit that was in my arms jumped out onto my shoulder and started barking at Siren.

Is it because Siren was experimented on by warlocks?

Or is it because it blossomed after eating the negativity of so many people?

The sun spirit expressed his hostility by muttering and snickering, as if he did not like such a siren.

I approached Siren and patted her head as if to tell her to calm down.

“… Ah!”

As soon as I approached, Siren clung to me as if she had first met me.

There were so many eyes watching me that I tried to take Siren off, but she hugged me so tightly that I felt like she would never let me go, so I gave up and just left Siren alone.

‘It’s better than being hostile…’

Considering the majesty and power that the Great Wizard possesses, it would be better to build up favorability towards him.

I spoke to Siren, soothing the spirit that was whining on my shoulder and telling it to go away.

“Are you feeling okay?”

At my question, she glanced up at my face and nodded calmly.

Then he speaks to me in a small voice.

“It’s warm… It’s okay now.”

It was an answer that I didn’t understand, but the important thing was the part where he said it was okay.

I patted my head to say, “Okay, then,” and then fell into deep thought for a moment.

‘I think it would be better to keep it like this.’

If you kick him out of the mansion for no reason and he gets caught by a warlock, it will lead to serious problems.

It seemed like it would be better for me to take it with me until it stabilized.

The only problem was that, even though we had just met, he was showing an incomprehensible obsession with me.

I think this dependence is like a newborn chick recognizing the first thing it sees as its mother.

I concluded that it was because I was similar to my mother, who had saved me after suffering for a long time.

I think it’s because he’s still mentally unstable.

Just as chicks grow up to become more independent, I decided to leave Siren alone for now, judging that she would naturally change her dependent nature as she became mentally stable.

*

The worst curse that blossomed after swallowing the despair of thousands, the Great Mage Siren.

I guess it’s because in the original, Siren was a strong enough enemy to bring destruction to the main characters.

There were many instances where she was described only in terms of her strength rather than explaining who she was.

That’s why, although her goals and beliefs were mentioned, her human aspects, such as what she likes or dislikes, were not written.

I really had no idea how to deal with Siren.

‘Is it okay if I just do it well?’

…I don’t know.

If we recall what we saw in the human relationship quotes video (shorts), it also said that you shouldn’t be too nice.

I recalled something I had seen in a relationship book (blog), and it said that you should filter out such people, but it was also written that you should treat them well, so I didn’t get the feeling very well.

So, while I was gently patting Siren’s head and waiting for her to calm down.

Lorraine, who was next to me, made a suggestion to me in a soft voice, making a ‘hum hum’ sound.

“Since Siren Yang is also new here, how about we have a cup of tea together?”

At that question, I just laughed and nodded.

First of all, I had promised Lorraine in the sewer, and since one of the tea’s effects was mental recovery, I thought it might help.

“These days, I live off the pleasure of drinking this.”

I handed the car over to Siren, who was still clinging to me, and spoke to her, leaving Lorraine, who was looking very happy next to me.

“Want to try a drink?”

Siren nodded cautiously at my suggestion and then cautiously accepted the car.

Even though it was in a teacup, it should have been hot, but she drank it, holding it in her palm as if she liked it hot.

“… It’s warm.”

With those words.

Siren continued to drink warm tea and smiled faintly.

*****

Elysia frowned in the bitter cold, staring at the hallucinations that were tormenting her.

[If only you had made the right decisions, our family could have survived.]

Since it started snowing again in the North, the hallucinations and auditory hallucinations that had been plaguing him for a long time have returned.

Even though I received medicine and magical treatment to solve this, rather than getting better, they gradually became clearer.

I desperately searched for Damien Itajuncha, the only thing that could alleviate these symptoms…

Even though I’ve checked and drank hundreds of cups of tea.

It was impossible to find a car that had a similar effect, let alone one that came close to it.

That’s why my lips became dry, my shiny hair became dull, and dark shadows indicating deep fatigue settled around my eyes.

Although we don’t call a living thing a corpse, when I see myself looking like I’m dead, I feel like I’m no different from a corpse.

‘No, maybe a corpse would be better. At least, a corpse wouldn’t have hallucinations or anything.’

That’s why I was laughing in vain, thinking that the corpse was better.

I could see the snow falling outside gradually getting heavier.

It’s been a long time since I’ve seen snow pour down this brutally.

I instantly held my breath because I knew all too well what kind of result this would produce.

Many people starved to death because they could not go outside.

In the name of efficiency, parents end up stealing food from starving children.

It was the never-ending blizzard that made someone’s death a given.

My mind becomes more complicated and my confusion increases.

A strong headache comes on, the hallucinations in front of you become more vivid, and you start screaming at yourself.

[Your Majesty, the children are starving. Please help them just this once!]

As he was gasping for breath, feeling despair approaching, a large number of people stormed into his office and alerted him to the emergency.

‘Wake up…’

If it collapses like this, everyone will die.

So, I decided to pull myself together and move forward, and at that moment, I was walking to the conference hall with a large number of people.

“Your Highness, the children are starving. Please help them just this once! ”

A woman holding a child with a pale face ran into the mansion, fell to the ground with her head down and called for help.

Those words were so similar to what I had heard in the past that I wondered if they were intentional, so I just blankly stared at them.

Those who were next to him said this to him with stern expressions.

“It’s true, but you shouldn’t help them. The moment rumors spread that you helped them, not only will there be problems with fairness, but many people will also start to beg for help from their families. ”

“Please, Grand Duchess, make a sexual judgment. If you make the wrong judgment, everyone will die. ”

So they called the soldiers around them and threw the woman out into the cold, screaming, as they had done in the past.

As I watched all of this, I couldn’t help but wonder one thing.

… and what has changed since that day.

The moment you realize that nothing has changed despite all your efforts, despair sets in and it takes your breath away.

I kept throwing away inefficient things in order to change and move on, but I started to question whether that was really right.

No matter what I do, it doesn’t change and it doesn’t shift.

As I was forcing myself to gag to catch my breath, a thought that I shouldn’t have suddenly occurred to me.

I wonder if things would have been different if Damien had been there.