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Yena, who made many mistakes, used to say something every day.

Whether it’s when you drop a plate or when you fall while running.

I was deeply saddened that I had stopped him from saying things I couldn’t hear now, but when I heard them again after a few years, I felt a new emotion. as soon as-

“I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry,” exactly as I wrote on the photo postcard.

Surprisingly, he bowed first and came in.

“… … … … ”

There was a faint hesitation in my childhood friend’s voice, trembling in the morning air. I met Yena’s eyes thoughtfully.

When my heart was shattered by my first suicide, it was a very beautiful blue-gray color, but now it is an ordinary indigo color and I am dissatisfied with it.

‘… It’s as expected. ‘Are you considering it a bad dream?’

The first death was experimental in nature.

To check whether I could safely return to the save point as the constellation promised, and how she would react if I died right before her eyes.

-The reason she returned in such a short period of time on purpose was because she wanted people to think it was just a dream or a delusion, so Yena’s current attitude is a success.

“Sorry?”

“-Yes! Sorry. My, I was wrong. Don’t make me say it twice!”

Even though she apologized, it was like Yena that she didn’t give in to me…

Because she is like ‘Joo Yena’, I don’t feel indebted to her at all. It’s a long way from being corrected. How many times must I repeat this before I can become a human being?

I hope it doesn’t get to the point where I touch her directly… … .

“Don’t be funny. Are you sorry for coming now?”

“Ugh, ugh.”

Anyway, I have to focus on what I have to do now.

When he provoked her with a bitter smile, the girl closed her mouth for a moment and glared. The response is the expected range.

“I’ll go when I’m done with my errands.”

As soon as I take advantage of that opportunity and turn around, I get bitten!

“Hey, Shin Jeong-gyu. Our conversation isn’t over yet!?”

As I was going down the stairs, Yena grabbed the back of my clothes and stopped me.

I felt a bit of agitation in my shaking hands, so I was somewhat satisfied.

“No. You’re right. You must not stay in the restricted area even for a moment. All together. Right?”

“… I gave in first!? Can’t you just accept it?”

“Why should I receive an apology for which I have no reason and no reason? Wow, this is ridiculous. Is this the new bullying?”

There is no reason why Jena should apologize to me at this point.

From her perspective, spitting harsh words and slapping her face yesterday was just ‘meddling’ as usual.

“It’s all because of you! Ugh, what were you thinking by sending me something so unpleasant… ? This is a postcard I gave as a gift when I was in elementary school-?”

It shows a postcard crumpled in cold sweat to the point where the letters are blurred.

Apparently, around the third grade of elementary school, she received a set of postcards from Germany as a birthday present.

The reason I didn’t throw it away like any other gift after our relationship fell apart was because I was reminded of Yena holding it with a bright smile on her face.

-But are you feeling bad?

This is an outrageous remark that denies the self who loved me and wanted to protect me.

I grit my teeth and immediately grab the postcard. Joo Yena crosses her arms and scolds as if she is pathetic.

I guess he thinks he has gained momentum.

“Hmm, do you think you were an asshole yourself? Take it right away?”

“Yena.”

Unlike before, he answered in a friendly, yet relaxed voice.

Yena’s face turned peachy as she twisted her loose blonde hair and looked away.

“Ugh, why-? Come now and die… … .”

Hmm, hmm. I cleared my throat and stopped talking.

It shows the front facing the Rhine River at sunset and covers the phrase “I’m sorry.” And open your closed lips.

“I sent this postcard because I wanted to get along well with you from now on. It happened to be in the drawer. If you recognized this postcard, I was going to say I’m truly sorry.”

okay. It will be very different from what you expect.

This postcard was not sent as a sign of remorse right before his death.

It is now an apology written by Choi Woo, sent as a precious postcard filled with memories, to resolve a long-standing conflict.

As usual, I sacrificed myself first.

-Yes, it turns out that I had no intention of dying.

“Huh?”

Yena’s proud indigo eyes wave up and down.

“I just wanted to take the time to have a deep conversation. I thought it was time to resolve our mutual misunderstanding.”

“Now, wait! Me too-”

“Joo Yena, as expected of you, my attempt offends you. I understand.”

Without hesitation, I tear up the postcard and shred it.

One postcard breaks into pieces and falls to the green floor like cherry blossom petals.

Memories are carved. Jena knows well the meaning of this act.

“Why-?”

Yena asks in emptiness as she holds on tightly to the paper in her hand that is blowing away in the wind.

Although it is not as much as when witnessing a suicide, the shock appears to be quite serious.

“Why? If I think about it carefully, there hasn’t been a single happy thing since I met you. Let’s live without pretending to know again.”

“-Can you go to school if I don’t have a home? Can you pay the rent?”

surely… I was indebted to you.

But you might be able to think about it from another direction.

“In other words, it means getting away from this damn city and you, right? I’m really going.”

The strength of the tugging on the clothes I was silently holding became stronger, so I shook it off and went down the stairs.

When I glance back, Yena is just muttering a few words.

“… You promised. Yakso-ok-”

Tears formed like dew drops around my eyes.

It was a tear that would dry up quickly, but it was important that it was a rare tear. Even when Yawn yawns, Yena completely ignores it.

‘You’re pretty when you cry with your mouth shut.’

To me, it was the most beautiful expression.

***

In any case, Joo Yena is a complete woman.

Although I heard words that cruelly ended a 12-year relationship, there was no moisture in the eyes of the blonde who returned just before class.

When my classmates talked to me about my new hairstyle, I accepted it with a smile, and I passed the math test I wrote unexpectedly.

-As if nothing had happened.

But there’s no way it actually doesn’t exist.

There is only a small hole in the dam, but it is getting wider.

Lunchtime [Literature and Information Department] club room.

A space provided in the new building, not the old building, which was my oasis.

Here, it is impossible to blow wind instruments such as horns or flutes. The study room is so close that small talk is impossible.

I’m just absentmindedly looking through school magazines from a few years ago.

It was nominally the Department of Literature and Information, and many newspapers and magazines from the old building were moved back here.

[Group hallucinations occurred at I… Cause unknown]

[A ghost story about a dancing man-eating clown… … ? Be careful of the sewers.]

[Mass suicide by illegal immigrants in Mexico… [Under investigation]

There were a lot of bloody incidents from the past, so they were immediately covered up.

Is this city really a good place to live?

[喝(Go)!]

[The constellation ‘The opposite of the one who lives is suicide’ was too harsh on Jena!]

That’s not something the guy who egged on would say, right?

I’ve known this guy for less than 24 hours, but I know he has a shameless personality.

“Yena’s heart doesn’t break like that. I’ll guarantee it. And while death can make him regret it, other things are also possible. I’m going to make sure.”

[??????? 0_0]

A constellation that has adapted so well to the world that it even sends emoticons that are not meant to be used. They didn’t necessarily tell me the reason.

After a while, there is a loud knock on the door.

smart.

All you have to do is open the door and come in, but he has an overly sincere personality.

It’s probably someone I know.

“Regular senior. You asked so hard that I had no choice but to come… excuse me… .”

“Welcome. Dahyun.”

A black-haired girl wearing a headband peeks hesitantly. Her impression is blurry, but when she dresses up, she is definitely a beauty.

Former club junior, Jeong Da-hyeon.

He seems to be paying close attention to Yena because he has a history of harshly scolding her. I approached without hesitation.

“Would you like to help me?”