episode_0071

Sunday, 12 o’clock.

Emily Swan finally confesses her feelings.

A heart that has been built up layer by layer, a heart that has been hidden for a long time.

I already know the ending, but I still have feelings that won’t be repaid.

If that’s the case, then this is better. That’s what I think.

I feel bad for myself, because I can’t even say it and it ends there.

With my wicked heart, I ended up hurting my innocent friend.

So Emily Swan decided to confess her love to her longtime childhood friend, Carlyle Schultz.

“I have something to say to you.”

A cool autumn scene, in the middle of a park in broad daylight.

Time seemed to have stopped. The air seemed to have stopped.

At least that’s what Emily Swan felt.

My lips are getting dry. I have no sense of standing.

And then, finally. Emily’s lips open.

“Mr. Carlyle, I… have always liked you.”

Emily Swan confessed.

I don’t know since when.

Yeah, maybe.

I think it was a very long time ago, a really, really long time ago.

“Yes, I… ”

Emily tried to force a vague smile onto her lips.

“I thought about this.”

A little cocky at one time.

Well, funny enough.

There was definitely a time when I thought that I would naturally get along with my childhood friend Carlyle.

I may be proud of my position as a childhood friend. I may be mistaken.

One day, she heard news from her father, the biggest supporter of the orphanage.

-That kid left the daycare.

-… That, yes?

The embarrassment Emily felt was beyond words.

-Seo, no way.

Well, Carlyle didn’t say anything to me.

It was only much later that I realized that the other person had been hinting at me, even though I didn’t know it at the time.

-I’m going to work. Finding my life.

Little Emily could not have realized at the time that this meant independence.

The girl later met Carlyle again at the academy.

But at that time, the other person had a girlfriend.

Emily was utterly embarrassed when she found out about this, quite by accident.

-Uh, huh…? Oh, I see…

Now that you’ve gotten your confession, you’ve started dating. That must be something to celebrate.

-Choo, congratulations, great job, Mr. Carlyle!

Even as I said that, I was shocked.

From then on, what should I say?

Time and time again, Emily Swan strangely missed her chances.

Maybe the first memory.

The memory of finding out that Carlyle, the childhood friend he thought was destined for him, was dating someone else.

At that time, the girl was so shocked that she hid her feelings for some reason. Locked them up tightly.

‘… You must never let it show.’

Yeah, of course.

Because Carlyle Schultz always has a girlfriend. If he misses a moment, if he hesitates a little, that’s when it happens.

If you show your feelings, it will only cause trouble and you may end up pushing her away.

‘… So let’s hide our feelings.’

It just so happened.

Above all, Carlyle didn’t seem to see me as someone worth dating.

That is, it is because he sees himself only as a friend.

At some point, Emily became complacent.

If I confess to my childhood friend Carlyle and it breaks off, I won’t be able to maintain even our current tenuous relationship.

With that thought in mind, Emily began to settle into fear.

Now that I think about it, there’s no way I could have made such a stupid choice. My hesitation led to this result.

“Oh, isn’t that funny? It’s because I like you… ”

The die has already been cast.

In fact, Emily Swan knows what kind of answer the other person will give her.

Fortunately, Carlyle listened to my confession silently. It seemed like he was listening sincerely.

And after a moment of silence.

“Sorry, Emily.”

Yeah, that’s the answer.

Emily bit her lip, even though she already knew.

Gently, gently.

But contrary to my concerns, I was worried that she might dislike me or feel burdened.

Despite such concerns, Carlyle Schultz’s expression appears calm.

“Thank you for liking me, Emily.”

That was unexpected. The Carlyle I knew was originally a kind person, but he was not a man who knew how to speak so kindly.

Yeah, maybe. It’s not hard to see that it changed because of someone.

“Still, sorry.”

After hearing the following words, Emily’s eyes widened, and then she lowered her head.

“… I see.”

‘… That’s the expected result.’

Still, it hurts a little. It hurts my heart.

Emily looked up again, smiling slightly broadly as if trying not to shed tears, and asked Carlisle.

“Are you busy today?”

Because it’s full of Bianca Shamal’s thoughts. Because it’s true.

Emily Swan said, smiling at Carlyle.

“Okay, go ahead. I’ll go back too. We’re going in the opposite direction.”

No rash words, no rash actions.

Rather, it could be hurtful to the current opponent. Carlyle recently looked back on his past self.

So, so.

It would certainly be right to tie and break in this case.

“Yeah.”

Carlyle also agreed with what the other person said.

So the man and the woman walk in opposite directions.

Thump- thump-

Emily, who had been walking little by little, finally stopped in her tracks. She stood there as if she was nailed to the ground.

Gulp-

Only then do the tears begin to flow.

Maybe it’s a little bit of relief, but it’s definitely more than that, my heart aches considerably.

‘… It just wasn’t meant to be.’

Today, Emily’s unrequited love, her long-cherished first love, finally came to an end.

Knowing that fact, Emily closes her eyes on the street.

Then, for a moment, he remembered the letter he had taken care of without thinking, in his arms.

***

Sunday, 12 o’clock.

Thump- thump-

The sound of a beating heart.

Vita Shamal just took her last pill.

I can’t say that I didn’t hesitate. To be honest, I didn’t take the medicine at lunch for no reason. I could have taken it in the morning.

‘But… it’s over.’

I’m closing my eyes now. When I open them, everything will be back to normal.

My complicated feelings have gotten better now.

‘Okay, that’s the end…’

Bianca Shamalo’s time, her life as a woman.

I feel calm now.

After keeping her eyes closed for a while, Vita opened them both.

Gum- Gum-

I blink my eyes.

For some reason, the visible eye level doesn’t seem to have changed.

But he himself was originally short.

I hate to admit it, but it’s not strange that our perspectives haven’t changed.

‘Still, since I’ve already turned into a man, it would be nice if I could grow taller.’

Vita was grumbling for no reason.

“Hoo- Haa-”

Of course, it’s nerve-wracking. The change of gender is not a trivial matter at all.

Taking a few deep breaths, Vita looked down with determination.

‘… … ‘

and.

The gaze hardens.

‘You didn’t go back…?’

Isn’t the first thing that comes into view the curve of the chest?

Yeah, really.

Didn’t go back.

Vita’s mind just stopped in a daze.

After standing there for a while, I run to the mirror in a somewhat hurried manner. I touch my face with my hand.

As expected, the face hasn’t changed at all.

“This, this can’t be happening… ”

Long, reddish-blond hair, and detailed facial features.

A cute and pretty girl with a slightly cheeky vibe.

‘Bianca Shamal’ appears.

I’m at a loss for words.

‘Why, is it still the same…?’

I definitely took all the pills. Without missing a single day, definitely until the very end.

Vita checks the number of pills to see if she missed any, but of course there was no way.

I ate it all without missing a single thing.

Even on the school trip, I always ate it even in the midst of all the chaos.

Why didn’t you go back?

So, really.

It couldn’t be like this. It’s incomprehensible.

I kept seeing things and holding onto hope.

Why on earth?

Wasn’t one hope to take the pill again and turn into a man?

Because that’s all I can think about.

Because I think that’s right. Because it makes sense.

I just finished organizing everything about Bianca Shamal.

Didn’t you go back?

‘I’m still a woman…’

So, Vita is very embarrassed.

The first thing that comes to mind is the effectiveness of the red pill.

It was a prescription he received from a large hospital, and he even personally requested and obtained it from a renowned doctor there.

As expected, the probability of the medicine being strange is quite low.

‘Then why?’

Vita stood there in front of the mirror for a while, dumbfounded, before starting to get dressed.

‘I think I should go to the hospital.’

Because that’s the only thought that comes to mind right now.

The train back home is still a long way away.

We were supposed to leave at five, and it’s only twelve now.

So Vita hurried to the hospital. She had an appointment scheduled for today.

“Oh, you’re here.”

A familiar sight of a female doctor.

The doctor was so calm. Vita paused for a moment and spoke with an urgent expression.

“Seo, teacher…! I definitely took the medicine… ”

“You didn’t go back?”

“Yes, yes… !”

“You finally understand,” Vita nodded.

That too, many times.

“I wonder if the medicine you gave me was wrong…?”

It may have been a little rude to say that.

The doctor gives a definitive answer with a serious face.

“There is no problem with the medicine. I can guarantee you that.”

“No, then… ”

“Let’s calm down a bit. Should we sit down and talk?”

As he said that and offered her some hot tea, Vita could only accept it with a blank expression.

***

“That can’t be… true.”

After hearing the doctor’s story, Vita just repeated those words.

With a blank expression, he forced his lips to move.

The reason the medicine didn’t work.

The reason is that, without realizing it, his mind and identity had become that of a woman.

But the doctor actually said this.

“Think about it carefully. I think you probably know the reason yourself.”

“That’s it, what the… ”

My head feels so dizzy.

Vita shook her head.

‘I don’t know, I don’t know…’

The important thing now is that you haven’t turned back into a man. What do you know?

‘Then, I…’

Now, what about your original self? Has Vita Shamal as a man disappeared?

‘Nonsense, that’s impossible…’

First of all, Vita can’t admit it.

Well, he himself has lived much longer as a man and has a lot of memories.

Because it’s so natural to just go back to being a man. It’s the way the world works.

Suddenly the doctor spoke.

“Miss Bianca, no, Vita-kun herself. Did you really want to go back…?”

Words that cannot be understood.

“That’s…what… ”

In that moment, all thoughts stopped.

What on earth is that, what on earth is that statement?

Did you really want to go back?

Well, that’s only natural.

“Literal meaning.”

But the doctor’s expression was so serious that it didn’t seem like a joke.

The doctor was already sitting right next to Vita. He slowly wrapped his hand around hers and spoke to her.

“Actually, a few days ago. I had something to say… ”

“… ”

I think I know a little bit about Vita too.

At that time, there was someone I was trying to say something to but didn’t say anything to.

-No, no. That story next time.

The doctor was clearly about to say something but stopped himself.

“To cut to the chase, I thought you wouldn’t come back, Vita-kun.”

That’s how the story began. Vita had to listen to the doctor’s secret and the story of her life in a daze.

“There’s nothing strange.”

The warm body temperature of your hands.

Before I knew it, Vita was locking eyes with the doctor.

Warm red eyes and flowing silver hair.

A female doctor named Rosa told me, somewhat unexpectedly, about the twists and turns of my past life.

So, to sum it up.

Rosa Baumkuchen, the daughter of a large hospital director and a fairly prominent female doctor, is the same as herself now.

That she had turned into a woman.

“So I know. All that hardship and confusion in your heart.”

So, we’ve been doing research on the red pill.

After a while, Vita finally left the hospital in a somewhat dazed state.

Because I still can’t believe it.

Because right now I don’t understand exactly what the hell is going on.

Actually, maybe.

If you think about it carefully, you might find out.

It certainly could be, but not here and now.

‘I have to go to my room first.’

So Vita started walking faster and faster.

A clouded mind, a state of confusion. Many thoughts clash.

-Did you really want to go back…?

The one thing the doctor said kept lingering in my head. Vita felt even more so.

***

A female doctor named Rosa may be her senior.

-How is it? He’s handsome, right?

She smiled happily. She even said that she was married and had a husband.

That was so amazing. I couldn’t believe it.

Honestly, a little bit.

At that time, I was thinking to myself.

After all, she thought that Carlyle was better for her than the man in the photo.

“Gasp…Gasp… ”

The distance back home.

My breathing is gradually becoming more difficult.

My head feels so dizzy.

‘… No, I.’

His will was clearly to return to being a man.

A drug that helps you escape from false reality and face the truth.

That’s the identity of the pill.

Because people cannot decide their gender at birth.

However, even men can be feminine and vice versa.

Isn’t the red pill the medicine that was developed for those people?

Vita herself accidentally took the drug and has been taking it again to get back on track.

But in the end, I still remained a woman. I couldn’t go back.

‘So, why…?’

Vita keeps thinking about why she couldn’t go back.

[If you have a strong will, you can go back on the 3rd week of taking the medicine, exactly on the 3rd week…]

That’s why I say.

Go back to being a man.

I think that intention was definitely there. But why didn’t he go back?

Vita can’t figure it out.

If I think about it, I think I know, but I don’t feel like doing it.

I feel scared.

But, I have to. I have to find out.

The action has already taken place.

Still, my head became increasingly confused, and I barely managed to return home, staggering.

Flop on the bed-

Lie down with a light body.

The doctor’s words come to mind.

-Think about it yourself. Maybe you already know.

There is only one case where the mind becomes a woman, so even if it is unconscious, some kind of will is expressed.

From then on, he started telling his story right away.

It was quite interesting to hear, but also quite new.

Vita’s head feels dizzy.

‘I still… don’t know.’

Try, keep going.

I try to ignore it, but at the same time I feel like I need to know.

There is a fierce conflict.

I have to find out.

But I have a feeling that I shouldn’t do that. I have a scary feeling.

With her eyes tightly shut, Vita feels as if she is falling somewhere.

It’s over, everything.

What should I do next? Why am I still a woman? Everything feels bleak.

‘How do I…’

So let out a sigh.

Vita checked her phone to check the time.

It’s only 2 o’clock.

There’s still time left before the train leaves, but since it’s come to this, I don’t even know if I should go home today.

Then, last night, Vita discovered a text message that I hadn’t seen before.

The sender is Emily.

-Bianca, I’m going to confess to Carlisle. Tomorrow, on confession day.

There was definitely content underneath that, though.

After reading just the first line, Vita held her breath.

***

Sunday, 2 o’clock.

-Ka, Carlyle…!

After breaking up with Emily.

It was with a somewhat heavy heart that Carlyle walked away.

-Gasp, ugh…

Emily runs up to him and hands him something.

All of a sudden, without explanation, without any explanation.

He only placed a crumpled letter in his hands.

Emily Swan hesitated for a moment, but then closed her eyes tightly and opened them again to speak to him.

-I don’t know if this will atone for my mistake even a little, but…

-You’ll all know when you see it.

After leaving those two words.

Emily disappeared again.

And Carlyle Schultz immediately opened the letter.

[Hello, Emily?]

The letter began like this.