episode_0042

“… … Buy me that.”

“That? Crepe?”

“Yeah. Strawberry flavor.”

Evan nodded obediently at Elijah’s weak pointing and went to the store to buy some snacks.

“Yes.”

“… … .”

Strawberry flavored crepe that was handed down like that.

I took a big bite of the sweet bread filled with cream, and when I glanced to the side, Evan took a bite of mine without hesitation.

It tasted like grapes, but it had a strong aroma and was delicious, different from the tartness of strawberries.

Elijah felt strangely happy and slowly licked the crepe. To Evan’s eyes, it looked like a squirrel gnawing on an acorn.

I was looking at it and it was cute so I decided to feed it some more things. Of course, sweet drinks, but also small candies, jellies, and chocolates that I could put in my mouth.

Eventually, he stuffed so much into his mouth that Elijah showed signs of getting tired first.

“This, this is enough… … . How much more are you going to make me eat like this?”

“Doesn’t that pudding look delicious? Should I buy a small one and share it?”

“Aren’t you listening to me?”

No matter what he said, Evan was always at his own pace. He grabbed his wrist and dragged him around, and although he frowned, it didn’t really feel that bad, so Elijah followed along obediently.

The pudding on the stand Evan had pointed to looked really soft.

“Three fairy tales.”

Evan took care of all the calculations. Of course, as the daughter of a noble family, Elijah didn’t necessarily need to get anything for himself…

‘… … Let’s stay still.’

However, I did not feel like bringing up the idea of paying my own share first.

It was a tingling sensation that was hard to explain. The fact that Evan was taking the lead now seemed to clearly establish that this series of events was a ‘date’.

Elijah just kept his mouth shut and followed Evan around, always following him.

Should I call him an escort? Evan was surprisingly good at moving around with women.

This was the result of being taught half-instilled in Israfil since childhood, but it was something that Elijah couldn’t help but feel slightly uneasy about.

Because she didn’t know the relationship between Evan and Israfil very deeply.

Naturally, the guess led to one direction. Lete Heresia. As far as she knew, the woman who was most intimate and affectionate with Evan.

‘So, did you come out to play often…?’

Elijah couldn’t help but feel his lips drying up.

Perhaps it was natural. Even though they seemed to have a bad relationship, weren’t they the two who got along best with each other anyway?

It wasn’t at all strange that he and other candidates spent time together without knowing about it.

And because thoughts are not something that can be controlled by force, they cannot be controlled as desired.

In Elijah’s mind, images of two men and women were already being drawn on their own. A 100% fantasy based solely on imagination, without any basis.

I couldn’t help but feel depressed.

‘… … I am in a position to think like this.’

Apart from being upset, being faithful to self-objectification was a virtue.

Elijah shook off his thoughts with a deep breath. He was in no position to dare be jealous of Evan Lane.

I know what Evan’s ideal woman looks like. How could I not know?

It’s already been four years since I’ve been hearing his views on love so clearly.

At least ‘Elijah Reuben’ knew that he did not fit in.

It was not a romantic view that fit the general doctrine of the Solar Church, but that could not have any meaning in forming a relationship with Evan.

If you wanted Evan’s affection, it was a matter of working to live up to his standards.

Trying to force universal social conventions on others will only make them look ridiculous.

This was already a foolish love affair. Since it was buttoned up wrong from the start, the winning percentage was less than 1%.

‘ha.’

Even if the opponent was ‘that’ Lethe Heresia? Elijah was confident in his own beauty, but he wondered if it would surpass Lethe. It couldn’t be.

‘Eww…! …! This is driving me crazy, really!’

I felt like pulling out my hair right now. Honestly, it seems stupid to be suffering like this over just one kiss.

Elijah, who had been holding onto each of my pigtails and pulling them together, was about to cry out in frustration.

Phew!

“Ugh!”

Suddenly, Elijah felt the sound of water hitting his ears and instinctively closed his eyes.

Because there was an unidentifiable cold sensation touching her face. She realized belatedly that it was a stream of water flying from the other side.

Evan, holding a transparent stick with a childishly innocent expression, smiled mischievously.

“Look at this. It’s a water gun. It looks fun, so I bought one.”

“… … .”

Elijah blinked in bewilderment. He was so seriously worried, so what was he doing?

Of course, it was I who kept my mouth shut without saying a single word.

There was a moment when I started to hate Evan for playing pranks without knowing how people felt.

“Ugh!”

As if it had been waiting, a stream of water shot out, and Elijah, who was soaking wet once again, looked down at his shirt in disbelief, if not bewilderment.

It was summer and the weather was quite warm. That’s why I came wearing very thin clothes.

‘Rain, it’s going to rain… … .’

If I got a little more wet, I would have been able to faintly see the underwear I was wearing underneath.

Elijah raised his eyebrows and was about to let out a very upset voice.

Taaak!

“Off.”

Evan, who had come up to her side, tapped her head lightly with a cheap stick that seemed to be a water gun or something.

Evan had only one thing to say to Elijah, who was looking at him with a dumbfounded expression.

“We came out to play.”

“… … .”

“Why are you making such a gloomy expression? I keep feeling sorry.”

Then, Evan touched my neck as if it was sore with a bitter smile.

Elijah’s expression became blank again as a sudden feeling of guilt came to his mind. He had been so troubled, but he had absolutely no intention of burdening Evan.

Shouldn’t you be the one who should be apologizing?

Elijah grabbed the hem of his skirt and bit his lip.

‘… … I’m sorry.’

I’m sorry for bothering you for no reason. I should have just taken care of myself like I usually do, but I’m sorry for causing trouble by being so presumptuous.

There were many things I wanted to say, but I was afraid to say them out loud, which made me hesitate.

Should I have just flirted and acted cute, like I always did, with the intention of playing with fire?

If that were the case, Evan would have hit my forehead like he always did. He would whine like that, and Evan would stroke me as if he couldn’t stop me.

‘Just about that much.’

I began to have a vague feeling that maybe that kind of relationship was the best I could have had with him.

They are close friends who bicker over useless things, but they still don’t hate each other.

Sometimes he would throw dirty jokes, and on days when he fought with Lete, he would mischievously tell her to come to him.

Yeah, if only we had maintained that relationship─. I wouldn’t be in so much pain as I am now.

“… … Huh, uh.”

Elijah had to forcefully hold his breath as his breathing suddenly became more rapid. Hyperventilation was a symptom that came with excitement.

It’s always been like this since I became aware of this feeling, so I tried not to stand out.

I thought that if we kept our distance, these feelings would naturally subside.

That wasn’t it. Once I admitted it, and the other person found out, the intense emotions came rushing in like a torrent and made a mess of my head.

Maybe Evan hanging out with her now is a last minute consideration for her old friend who she had feelings for without even knowing it.

Once you get past this stage, you may find yourself not wanting to be intimate with yourself anymore.

There was no basis for it. It was a vague fear. That’s why my vision became even more blurred. In an instant, tears welled up in front of my eyes, which had turned ashen.

“… … Ah… … .”

Elijah felt a heavy hand resting on his head at that very moment and let out a deep sigh.

Beyond the blurry vision, at the end of my gaze that was looking at the ground, I saw someone’s feet touching it.

Evan didn’t say anything. He just stroked his hair absentmindedly as usual.

Elijah felt his heavy breathing calm down just from that. The distracting thoughts that had filled his mind and made it blank evaporated in an instant.

Instead, another thought came to mind.

‘One step.’

It was another greed.

Just one step. What would happen if I took just one more step forward from this state?

It was a crossroads where I hesitated, worried that even this gentle hand might leave me.

and.

“What, should I hug you?”

“… … .”

The words Evan spoke the next moment were what shook off that hesitation.

A single word that shook away the inner weakness that had been clinging to Elijah’s ankle. She decided not to think about anything else.

Immediately after, I think he just ran up to me and hugged me.

For now, that was the best treatment.

*****

A day has passed. The high sun has set, and although it is summer, a cool night breeze is starting to blow.

“… … Hehe.”

It was a very satisfying date. Elijah, who was leisurely walking with his luggage on his back, couldn’t help but let out a hearty laugh at the sudden feeling of happiness that came to him.

Evan, who was walking behind him, looked at him as if he was seeing something very strange… … .

I honestly didn’t care. I remember a few hours ago, I was hugging Evan’s arms and crying like a baby, so why am I renewing this?

Elijah simply turned his head to look at Evan with a bashful smile.

“That was fun, Evan. I’m super happy with today.”

“… … Is that so?”

“Yeah, dinner was really delicious too.”

As I gently stroked my stomach, I thought about the dinner menu. It was a truly enjoyable meal, as it was seafood that was not commonly found in the Hispanic Mountains.

Was it because I had shed a sea of tears? My intense emotions soon calmed down, and I had a lot of fun playing in the water with that stick, so I had no regrets.

A cool breeze blew, gently ruffling Elijah’s purple hair.

Elijah turned around with affection shining on his clear eyes. As he approached with quick steps, Evan did not avoid him but stood still.

The corners of Elijah’s mouth went up playfully.

“Why don’t you avoid it?”

Evan shrugged and answered.

“If I avoid it now, I think I’ll cry again.”

“… … You’re not crying?”

“No, I would have 100% cried.”

Elijah frowned, and Evan burst out laughing. But he didn’t back down or avoid them at all.

Is it because it’s the last one? I felt annoyed at how unexpectedly he followed my wishes.

It would have been nice if you had treated me this affectionately in normal times. Of course, as a prerequisite, you shouldn’t be the one to act all naughty first.

‘… So what?’

It was a story that didn’t matter now. From now on, it would matter even less.

It was a quiet moment. As the distance between us became shorter, if you listened closely, you could almost hear the sound of hearts beating.

The two people’s gazes met like that. And just like that─. Elijah lifted his crow’s foot.

Quietly, without any words. Just plainly.

She closed her eyes lightly.

side-

Half a beat later, a very faint, tiny sound echoed between the two.

Evan didn’t dodge, and Elijah felt relieved, but his heart ached.

A kiss where lips met for a moment and then parted. To put it simply, it was just a kiss. If I had to call it something fancy, it would be a bird kiss.

“… … Evan.”

The appearance wasn’t that important. Elijah smiled weakly with a hazy expression.

“I like it. This is the only ‘first’ I can give you, at least.”

Kissing the man I had in mind was an indescribably thrilling experience. It felt like the electricity tickling my lips was melting my hair into a sticky paste.

And also, it was miserable, because I guessed that I would probably never feel this happiness again.

Suddenly, tears seemed to well up in his eyes again, but Elijah gritted his teeth and held them back.

“… … Oh, really. I’m doing all sorts of things, really. It’s embarrassing. Seriously, I don’t even know how I’m going to see your face starting tomorrow.”

“… … .”

“Anyway, you don’t need to worry about it anymore. That’s it for now. I’ve neatly folded my attachments.”

Elijah coughed in vain and blushed, tapping the dirt floor with his toes.

And then he continued talking calmly.

I will talk to Isabel separately, so there is no need to spend a week with her.

Of course, there is no need to sleep together. Since this is an important time, there is no reason to take risks by mixing with someone of lower status, right?

“Ah, of course, even if it weren’t for that reason, you wouldn’t want to sleep with a slut like me. You probably wouldn’t even feel lust for it. I know.”

“… … .”

“… … Anyway, hmm. Do you get what I mean? Evan.”

Elijah raised one eyebrow slightly, then awkwardly slapped Evan on the chest.

“More than anything, I don’t think my mentality can handle sex out of sympathy.”

He slowly clenched his fist and then released it. Elijah hid his trembling fist by clenching it with his other hand.

She looked up at Evan, trying to force a half-hearted smile, and Evan nodded slowly with an unreadable expression.

“Your baby understands everything, Elijah.”

“… … .”

And at those words, Elijah’s heart pounded so hard that it felt like it was going to fall.

I didn’t make tea.

“… … Okay, then.”

She answered brightly, trying to cover up the twitching corners of her lips with a smile.

“Let’s go back to being real friends starting tomorrow. I will make sure that nothing is uncomfortable, so I… … .”

To be exact, I tried to answer but failed.

“… … well… … ?”

Her words did not continue. They could not continue.

Thud!

The sound of a thick hand roughly grabbing something, Elijah felt an intense pressure from the back of his head and was helplessly dragged forward.

“──Uh, yeah!?”

Evan grabbed her viciously while simultaneously teasing her lips and thrusting his tongue into her.

The left hand that held her chin prevented her from resisting. The right hand that grabbed the back of her head prevented her from running away.

“Sigh… … ! Swish, slurp, slurp!”

There was no time to come to his senses. Elijah was caught up in a thrilling pleasure that shook his mind without even realizing what was happening to him.

It’s different from a fresh kiss just before lips meet. From the moment saliva is directly mixed, it is considered a ‘sexual act’.

“Eek, ugh… …!? Huh, ugh.”

It felt like my soul was being raptured by the thrill and thrill that was forcibly amplified by the divine nature.

Elijah realized that his legs had lost their strength, but he could not fall down as he pleased.

Because Evan put his arm around her waist, supporting her, as if he had expected it.

Another ten seconds passed like that.

“… … Ugh.”

The deep kiss, so sticky that it was almost impossible, ended, and only then did Evan let Elijah go. She collapsed as if she had been waiting for it.

Hazy, open purple eyes, and a mouth that drips silver lines that might be mine.

‘What, hey, what is this… … .’

Elijah couldn’t help but tremble all over his body at the pleasure he felt for the first time in his life.

and.

“Let me say it again, I completely understand and comprehend what you’re saying, but.”

“… … Hehe.”

Evan looked down at her with a twisted smile and ran his hands through his hair.

Elijah felt his lower abdomen tingle at the sight of those creepy eyes. It was a sensual sensation he had never felt before during sexual intercourse.

In the midst of a wave of stimulation that threatened to drive him crazy, there was nothing Elijah could do.

All we can do is wait.

“I don’t know why you thought I would naturally follow your wishes.”

The verdict of A from B’s point of view.

and.

“Let me tell you one thing while I’m at it, Elijah.”

A predator’s decision from the prey’s point of view.

finally.

“I’ve never once not lusted after your slutty body.”

From the perspective of a single female, the selection of a male she likes.

“… … Hibap.”

Elijah dropped his reddened face down with a comical hiccup.

Because if I looked at Evan’s face any longer, I felt like my uterus would collapse.

Elijah Ruben, twenty years old.

Her first love, which seemed as if it would go out at any moment like a candle in the wind, was revived.