episode_0009

“Hmm.”

I lay on my bed and stared blankly at the ceiling. As I counted the stains on the ceiling, I suddenly felt embarrassed.

Come to think of it, I haven’t even cleaned up properly yet. The bed sheets are soaked in all sorts of liquids and are dyed gray, and somehow I feel like Lete’s teeth marks are still on the pillowcase.

‘I have to clean… … .’

Of course, we can’t continue like this, so we have to sort things out somehow.

Something was bothering me. I rolled around on the dirty bed, recalling the conversation I had had with Lete ten minutes ago.

-You, let’s form a partnership.

-Mueh… … ?

“Oh my.”

For some reason, my cheek feels cold. If it had been the physical ability of a normal person, it would have been a slap with such force that it would have completely burst the inside of my mouth.

I gently rubbed my left cheek, which was probably quite red, and let out a hollow laugh.

‘It was as good as it got.’

Was it a little, just a little? It was probably too much. He was talking about the cardinal with a really angry expression, and then he actually said, ‘You’re going to be my sect’?

-Die, really die… …!

“… … .”

Actually, I got hit here and there other than on the cheek, but this much was to be expected.

Rather, I was surprised that there was no other reaction besides swinging his fist.

I searched my memory carefully, recalling the moment when she paused before slamming the door on my door and leaving.

He looked at me with a very red face and resentful expression, but he bit his lip anyway.

-I’ll think about it and give it a try.

Finally, it was Lete who left after saying those words. I was so flustered by the unexpected answer that I couldn’t even react properly.

“Hmm… … .”

I let out a short sigh as I played with the sacred stone again.

What made my already dizzy mind even more complicated was a single moment.

So last night, while lying down, a very drunk Lete was talking to me… … .

-Let’s do it, let’s do it. Okay? Let’s do it.

-Let’s do it. If I really fail this exam, I’ll be in big trouble… … I’ll no longer be a candidate for saint. Are you going to ignore my face?

That scene at that very moment was engraved in my mind like a painting and could not be erased.

“Fucking bitch.”

I blurted out a swear word and then ruffled my hair for no reason.

Somehow my head feels hot.

Perhaps it was because of the irritation with the way the military Lete behaved so selfishly. Or perhaps he was tired again after overworking himself the day before.

“Haa… … .”

I tried to push away the ticklish feeling that was coming to my mind with such thoughts. I covered my reddened face with the back of my hand and closed my eyes.

*****

Meanwhile, Evan was peacefully napping on the bed covered in traces of sex.

Lethe crossed the halls of the headquarters of the Sun Church with a more ferocious gait than usual and a colder gaze.

Occasionally, people I encountered would try to say hello, but would notice my expression and quickly back away.

Suddenly… … .

She ground her teeth fiercely. At this moment, only one thing filled her mind.

-No, no, I won’t. I won’t make excuses. Don’t look at me like that. This time, I was, I was really wrong, Evan.

– I guess I was anxious because I thought the warnings might really pile up. That’s why I just did this. I’m sorry, I’m sorry.

Just a few dozen minutes ago, he was begging desperately for something completely different from what he is now.

And Evan’s disgusting face for making him do that.

And then, what? What you’re saying is, ‘How about we do it occasionally if we both agree to it?’… … ?

‘Should I really kill you?’

Lethe’s eyes sank coldly. So much so that one could sense the murderous intent.

After all, isn’t Evan’s suggestion proof that he wasn’t that uncomfortable with having a physical relationship with her in the first place?

And yet he brought up the Cardinal and the report. Not for any other reason, but purely to make fun of himself… … !

“진짜 그 개새끼.”

Patch, tsuzujeok-!

A chilling energy rippled through her body as she uttered a single word filled with anger.

As emotions become excessively agitated, divine power takes shape and blossoms.

It was to the point where I was almost on the verge of tears. Added to the anger, hatred, and resentment was a small sense of resentment and disappointment.

“… … Mr.”

Lete wiped her eyes with her sleeve. In other words, really… … . She sincerely apologized because she thought Evan might really be angry at her.

Although it is said to be a bad relationship, wasn’t it true that they were secretly close?

So, I put down my usual arrogant attitude. I should report to my superiors and bow my head if my actions had offended him.

‘But that wasn’t the case. You actually enjoyed it enough, right?’

Lethe’s eyes narrowed. In addition to her self-loathing, an unbearable desire to beat the bastard to the point of death began to boil over.

The divine power that had blossomed accordingly also gradually spread out in all directions like sharp lightning.

“… … after.”

Lethe soon returned such energies to her body. Controlling her passions is also one of the skills of an excellent candidate for sainthood.

No matter how angry I was, there was no benefit to openly displaying divine power in a place like this.

Evan Lane, well, I’ll get another chance to retaliate someday. I’m sure he’ll realize that this prank was a bit too much.

Squeak-

Lethe opened the door to the residence she had arrived at and stepped inside, sighing softly.

Anyway, I was a bit tired today.

The night before, I had a lot of alcohol to drink without any response… … and I had been exercising vigorously with Evan until almost dawn.

“… … It hurts.”

Of course, my lower back started to hurt terribly. That was because the man had no consideration for me at the time and was just showing pity by hitting me however he wanted.

Even that was good, and it was also Lethe who melted with an ecstatic expression.

‘No memory, no memory.’

She knew that it was best to erase such dark history from her mind as soon as possible.

She suddenly felt hot and fanned her face with her hand, took off her clothes, and went into the bathroom.

At that time, that feeling that made Evan seem lovable was just an illusion of the brain that arose because he was drunk.

“으.”

Still, it was difficult to forget the fact that I had slept with him.

As soon as I took off my underwear, a sticky white fluid came out with it.

‘Did we just fall asleep without any follow-up?’

Lete’s expression changed as if she had chewed something. After all, how could two guys, a virgin and a pity girl, suddenly sleep together?

Well, I’ve covered my uterus well with the contraceptive method I learned when I was young. I don’t think there will be any problems, except for the slight discomfort between my legs.

Chalang-

After having no choice but to throw only her damp underwear into the laundry basket, Lete soaked herself in the bathtub where she had filled it with hot water.

In the middle of the bathroom where steam was rising, a blush appeared on her cheeks.

“Hiyaa… … .”

A peaceful feeling where the pain that had been aching throughout my body, especially my lower back and pelvis, had completely disappeared.

Just now, as she thought of Evan, her once fierce eyes returned to softness. The corners of her lips were curled with the utmost happiness.

Lethe, who buried her body deep enough in the water to breathe without any problems, narrowed her eyes.

At this moment, the feeling of my whole body warming up was heavenly.

When you take a bath, all kinds of thoughts naturally fill your head.

It felt like a pebble named Evan had been thrown onto the calm waters of happiness.

Lete frowned as she placed her hand on her lower abdomen for no reason. It was only now that the humiliation of her own behavior was starting to grow.

I’m not talking about the time I hung onto Evan so viciously. Rather, let’s go back in time a bit and go to his room while drunk…

-Let’s have some rice cakes, you little shit.

“… … Ugh.”

Lethe closed her eyes. Her face, which had turned red for a different reason than before, tried to hide it by sinking it under the water.

What more can I say? I was just so embarrassed and ashamed.

‘Even if you say it, it must be… … so shallow.’

She bit her lip as she splashed water with her hand. The person who used vulgar language the most was always Evan Lane.

This time, the tables have turned. Is it true that alcohol makes people this bad?

If someone saw her, wouldn’t she look like a slut who was desperate to sleep with that guy?

The tips of Lethe’s ears slowly turned bright red.

‘… … That’s not it. That’s not me, it’s just that, that was the only way.’

It was a decision made for my own safety. Evan Lane is a man I really hate, but there is no doubt that he is a rare material(?) with no alternative.

A position that must be avoided as much as possible due to accumulated warnings. A path that has no way back.

So what can we do then? Is there no other way than to go straight? In the end, there was no other choice.

‘Yeah, that’s right. That’s it. I… … did nothing wrong. I’m not vulgar. I’m not obscene.’

She rationalized it as she gently squeezed her wet, ivory hair.

On the other hand, I thought back to that hot love affair with Evan. I recalled the feelings I had back then.

In other cases, he makes excuses, saying that he is simply looking back at his actions from a cool, objective perspective.

About ten minutes passed like that.

“… … .”

Perhaps because she had been soaking in the bathtub for too long, Lete realized that her body had become quite seriously hot.

“… … Ah… … .”

At the same time, he was able to become aware of where his right hand was.

She looked down at my lower body with hazy eyes. Under the bath water, my index and middle fingers were also in the crack.

Lete, who had pulled her hand away without saying a word, kept her mouth shut and stared blankly at her fingers.

How much had he put in? Lete roughly thrust her fingers, which were wrinkled to the point of embarrassment, into the water.

with a splash……!

Her pupils dilated and twitched, as if she was having trouble believing what she had just done.

Lethe let out a sad voice, pulling hard at my bangs with her remaining hand.

“Mr. Baal… … !”

A high-level swear word that I had never uttered before. However, after spending so much time with Evan, the two syllables were naturally ingrained in my head.

Lethe finally admitted it. She was broken. Broken by Evan.

Evan Lane─. corrupted himself.

“Oh, oh. Now, now I can’t get married… … .”

Also, since I had come to know that ‘great thing’ back then, I could no longer be completely satisfied with my own fingers.

Letting out a self-deprecating laugh, Lete flicked her index finger with the tip of her tongue.

It was salty.