IF. How to Subjugate Her, Broken (4)

I don’t know how she understood the word ‘Noona’ either.

Whether she thought I was suffering because I couldn’t overcome the pain of heartbreak, or whether she thought I was missing my family, none of that matters at all.

What’s important is the fact that she didn’t push me away.

Even if it’s pity, that’s fine.

Normally, women can’t reject a man who seems dependable on the outside but appears weak only to her.

…Of course, that’s only when there’s some interest, though.

“…”

No answer comes from her.

Because I didn’t ask anything.

But there is a reaction.

The tighter I hug her, the more I can feel her body stiffening.

Whether it was fear, terror, or arousal, there was only one way to find out.

“…Ah…”

Moving my arm slightly, I place it on Seo Haeun’s chest.

If it were up to my desires, I’d want to squeeze it tightly right now, but I resist for a moment and rub my face against her neck instead.

The sweet scent of shampoo and her skin digs deep into my nostrils, and my whole body becomes filled only with the thought ‘I want to do it’.

…But not yet.

“Ah, wait. Kang Joo-hyuk-ssi…?”

“…Ah, my head.”

I can’t keep up the drunken act until the very end.

Because if I let myself go under the influence and do it by mistake, there won’t be a next time.

So, finally coming to my senses, I touched my forehead and sluggishly sat down on the edge of the bed.

“Ah…”

After letting out a sound like I was suffering from a hangover, I pretended to be startled and took a deep breath.

Then, pursing my lips, I stared at the terrified her with vacant eyes.

…Seo Haeun, who had been fearing she’d be pounced on any second, gradually calmed down as she saw my vacant eyes.

“…Um, excuse me. Kang Joo-hyuk-ssi.”

“……Did I fall asleep?”

“W-Well, yes.”

Acting clueless and speaking in a flustered voice, she awkwardly moved away from me, slumped onto the bed, and nodded.

As if I was in big trouble, I sighed deeply, ran my hands through my hair messily, covered my face with both hands, and did a dry wash.

“Haa, shit… This is driving me crazy. Ah, I’m sorry.”

“No, well… Joo-hyuk-ssi was very drunk too, so it could happen…”

“…I didn’t do anything weird, right?”

“You didn’t, you didn’t…”

As her embarrassment gradually subsided, I could feel the lingering drunkenness in her pronunciation.

I hadn’t slept soundly after drinking; I’d only managed about an hour before waking up, so it made sense.

“…Did I really not do anything?”

“W-Well… You did talk in your sleep though…”

“What did I say in my sleep?”

“F-From behind, you suddenly hugged me… so I was startled…”

“…I’m insane, really.”

Making my messy hair even messier, I bowed my head and pretended to blame myself.

Seeing my back like that, she hesitated, then tapped my shoulder as if it was okay.

…Haha, shit. Is she trying to comfort me?

I don’t need that kind of comfort.

“…Joo-hyuk-ssi, do you happen to have… an older sister…?”

“I have a cousin who’s older, but we’re not close.”

“Ah…, then. Did you date someone older…?”

“…Well, we didn’t date. It was just…”

“…”

I didn’t lie.

It’s true that I have cousins with whom I had a very bad relationship.

It’s also true that I dated a lot of older women when I was a rookie.

How she accepts that fact is up to her.

…That I’m just a lewd bastard pretending to be pitiful because I wanted to hold a woman I liked.

She’ll never know that until I tell her.

“…Look, I understand, Joo-hyuk-ssi. I… get lonely sometimes too…”

“…Haeun-ssi, did you have someone you were seeing?”

“No, it wasn’t like that…”

I stare intently at her face, trying to comfort me with her hazy eyes.

That color is so red.

…Is that really a flushed face because of the alcohol?

If so, will that red blush disappear the moment she sobers up?

“…Really, none?”

“Yes, there’s n-, Kyaak…!”

I push the relieved her against the wall, bringing my face close until just before our lips touch.

Instantly, her drunkenness gone, she screamed kyaak, startled, but

“…”

…Her cheeks had become even redder than before.

Right. Drunkenness doesn’t disappear easily.

People don’t just get drunk on alcohol; they get drunk on the atmosphere too.

“…Ugh…”

I grasp her delicate chin.

There’s nowhere to escape, but she can scream.

In this studio apartment with absolutely no soundproofing, even a little raise of her voice would have the neighbors bursting in.

But Seo Haeun doesn’t scream, even though I’m right in front of her face.

She screamed quite readily when startled after I pushed her hard against the wall.

…Now, even though our lips would touch if I just leaned in a little.

She doesn’t turn her head away.

Of course, she didn’t close her eyes either.

I swept my palm down over her eyelids, covering her eyes mixed with tension and excitement.

“…Mmph…”

Her lips were soft.

Her flushed face was so cute and alluring that I couldn’t possibly close my eyes.

Likewise, she half-opened her eyes, glanced at my face, then shut her eyes tightly again, letting her hands, which had been gathered at her chest, droop to the floor.

…I took her limp arms, draped them around my neck, and gently pulled the her pinned against the wall towards me.

“Chu… ugh…”

…I still couldn’t put my tongue in.

This woman was really like a child.

Her lips moving slightly, unsure of what to do, was so cute.

For a moment our lips parted, then when they touched again, her whole body trembled as if electrocuted; it was incredibly lovely.

…I felt fortunate enough to think that I didn’t force it under the influence.

It’s erotic.

I want it more.

Not just for tonight.

For longer.

“…Mmph…, Puhah…”

After sharing a fresh kiss, loud enough to hear our heartbeats, we slowly separated from each other.

Saliva stretched long between our lips then broke, and she, her ears bright red, looked at me with dazed eyes before immediately turning her head away.

…That sight was unbearable, so I immediately brought my lips to her ear and nibbled her hot earlobe.

“Aueh…”

Her voice, unsure of what to do, tickles my ears.

…Haa.

This woman is driving me crazy.

Has she really never kissed anyone before?

Why is she so cute?

“…Hoo. Ha, haa…”

“Ugh…”

After moistening her ear stickily, I stroked her bright red cheeks and swallowed hard.

Having seen the eyes of a man filled with instinct, her pupils darted around frantically. She spoke in a crawling voice and bowed her head, shrinking down.

…I want to take this woman, who neither rejects nor accepts me, somehow.

I want to hold her right now.

But,

I didn’t want to hold her just for today.

“…Haeun-ssi.”

“……”

“You really don’t have a boyfriend, right? …If you do, tell me now. I’ll pretend it never happened.”

“……I told you I don’t. I’ve never had one… either…”

“…Stop lying. How could a woman like you have never dated before?”

“W-Well… I just said I don’t have one, why are you scolding meee…. Ah…”

Whether she was truly innocent or trying to drive me crazy by seducing me, I couldn’t tell from her words. Completely losing it, I grabbed Seo Haeun’s delicate shoulders firmly.

Right there, I pushed her down onto the bed. I climbed on top of her, unable to even make eye contact, and placed my hand on her ample breasts.

“…Really none? You don’t have a boyfriend and you’re not trying to seduce me?”

“I d-don’t, I told you. And when did I-“

“Stop talking nonsense, Haeun-ah. …Looking like this, with breasts this big, did no one ever make a move on a woman like you?”

“…Just because someone makes a move doesn’t mean they date…”

“Then why are you accepting me?”

“……”

She shuts her mouth tightly, pettily.

…But it doesn’t matter.

Because ‘no comment’ usually implies a positive meaning.

“…If you hate this, say so now. Scream if you want to scream.”

“B-But then the next room would hear…”

“……”

…This crazy bitch.

That means she doesn’t want the next room to hear.

How much,

how much does she want me to pounce on her.

Really,

this lewd bitch….

“Kya…!”

My hand, which had been groping her chest, grabbed the hem of her pajamas and pulled it up sharply, revealing her breasts, about to burst her bra, before my eyes.

Even at my openly instinct-driven gestures, she covered her mouth, the scream about to burst out, and avoided my gaze with a tipsy face.

…I cowardly pushed her hand away forcefully and asked her.

“…This is your last chance. Push me away if you want to.”

“……”

“If you keep shutting your mouth, I can’t hold back either. …I’m drunk right now, so my head isn’t working properly.”

Seo Haeun, who didn’t answer my question until the end and just rolled her hazy eyes around.

“…You’re the one who made me drink a lot… got me drunk…”

…Throwing all responsibility and fault onto me.

At the same time, she entrusted everything to me.

Those alluring lips.

Her collarbones beaded with sweat.

Her ample breasts, which I wanted to bury my face in right away.

…That she’d never dated anyone,

her pure body itself.

“Ah…”

…Having come this far, to hold back any longer…

would be disqualifying me as a human.

And disqualifying me as a beast too.