A Position I Cannot Yield (5)

I swiftly pulled Ethan’s wrist, which had been hesitating and wavering at my words, to my chest.

To my chest, which was one of Lilith’s most prominent features and had been extremely uncomfortable since I became a woman.

If it came down to a contest of strength, there was no way I could win against Ethan, so now, while he was caught off guard and flustered, was my chance to pull his hand.

At the same time, it was also the only opportunity to use my body as the most effective negotiation tool.

*Malkang.*

“……!”

“*Hmph…*”

As soon as his right hand dug into my left breast, Ethan’s face flushed, showing signs of embarrassment.

Indeed, it was effective.

After all, even in the original story, Ethan was the one who took Lilith first, so as long as he was a man, he couldn’t help but feel lust for my body.

I didn’t intend to give up my virginity, not even to maintain the Saint’s power that I would have to awaken later.

And I still wasn’t envisioning a future where I was getting fucked by a man and moaning.

However, if it was to maintain my position as Ethan’s exclusive maid, I could somehow allow him access to my chest.

Anyway, it was a useless body part that could only be used to tempt men. In that case, using it efficiently would be a better choice.

In the first place, touching my chest didn’t mean losing my virginity, nor did it mean getting fucked by a man.

I couldn’t say there was no discomfort, but if the opponent was Ethan, this much was barely within the permissible range.

Of course, if Ethan made unreasonable demands beyond this, I would have no choice but to give up the exclusive maid position and everything else, but conversely, if I could reclaim his exclusive maid position just by allowing him access to my chest, it was a fairly reasonable compromise.

…At least, that’s what I thought at that moment.

“W-wait…! Maid….”

*Malkang.*

“……!!”

I pulled Ethan’s hand, which was flustered and trying to pull away reflexively, a little further onto my chest.

Considering the difference in strength, there was no way Ethan would be pulled in like this, even if I was pulling with both hands. He probably couldn’t bring himself to pull his hand away harshly because of the hesitation in his heart.

Even if Ethan only had the average libido of a man his age, the feel of Lilith’s chest would be a temptation hard to give up easily.

“…Young Master.”

“M-Maid….”

“Do you feel it? This chest that Isabel doesn’t have, but only I do.”

“Ah, I get it…. I, I understand what the Maid is saying now, but….”

“It’s not just about Isabel. It would probably be the same no matter which maid you brought from inside the mansion, Young Master. This is my strongest advantage.”

“I-I knew that from a long time ago…!”

Since neither Isabel, Katarina, Aeria, Alicia, nor any other maid’s chest could compare to Lilith’s, in the current situation, Lilith’s chest became a more powerful weapon than anything else. At least, it was enough to completely block the future of replacing me with another maid in Ethan’s mind.

Still flustered, he placed his hand on my chest, which was being touched over my maid uniform, flushed, and avoided my gaze. I then pulled Ethan’s other hand as well, placing it on my chest.

*Malkang.*

“M-Maid…!”

…When I touched it myself, I didn’t feel any particular sensation, so I thought it wouldn’t be strange even if Ethan’s hand was placed on it. But once his hand was actually on my chest, I surprisingly started to feel a strange sensation.

It must just be because it was someone else’s hand, making it feel unfamiliar. It couldn’t be because a man was touching me, or because that man was Ethan.

Even if that were the case, I couldn’t stop now that I’d come this far. Since I had already allowed Ethan access to my chest, I intended to get a definite answer.

“Ethan Young Master.”

“Maid….”

“Try clenching your fist once.”

“Huh…?”

“I’ve gone so far as to offer you my chest, are you just going to stand there flustered with your palms open like a virgin?”

“…….”

Ethan, flustered about what action to take at my words.

But it seemed he didn’t want to simply pull his hands away either, his two hands still resting on my chest.

After burying both of his hands deeper between the mounds of flesh, I demanded that he squeeze my chest once more.

“Young Master. Do you intend to keep embarrassing me?”

“Ah, no…. It’s not like that….”

“Or are you trying to say that this much isn’t enough?”

“W-what are you talking about, Maid….”

“If Ethan Young Master intends to continue employing me as his exclusive maid, please listen to my words without any other thoughts.”

“……Alright.”

Finally, with a determined and serious expression, Ethan nodded, and with his hands still on both sides of my chest, I silently waited for his hands to move.

While waiting, wondering if his heartbeat might be transmitted through my chest, I felt an indescribably strange sensation from the mounds of flesh attached to my front.

Hands moving within my embrace. A strangely cautious touch, as if he didn’t want to hurt me.

…And for some reason, a girlish moan suddenly burst from my lips.

Ethan had only fondled my chest two or three times, but at the voice that burst out, even I couldn’t help but feel flustered. Ethan, looking even more surprised than me, quickly shook off my hand and stopped kneading my chest.

“…….”

“…….”

Our eyes met, but an awkward silence flowed without conversation.

Is this enough? Have I done what I needed to do…?

Ethan probably thought he had touched it enough and pulled his hand away. It absolutely had to be that way.

Because I, too, didn’t want to allow his touch on my chest any further.

For some reason, if Ethan were to touch my chest any more, I felt like an indescribably strange and unbearable feeling would well up.

“Now, do you understand?”

“…….”

“If you would take me as Ethan Young Master’s exclusive maid…. This much, very occasionally….”

“Maid, that’s enough.”

“……Huh?”

“It seems the Maid still misunderstands something about the conversation Isabel and I had, so let’s clarify this part first.”

“……Huh?”

…A misunderstanding?

That I’m misunderstanding?

“To state the conclusion first, so things don’t go strangely awry, I never offered Isabel the position of my exclusive maid.”

“…Huh? But when I clearly heard it, Isabel received an exclusive maid offer….”

“The exclusive maid offer I asked Isabel about was, an offer asking her to become your exclusive maid, Lilith.”

“…My exclusive maid…?”

Realizing something was amiss, I remained seated on the floor and listened intently to Ethan’s explanation of the situation. Only after hearing his entire explanation did I realize that I had completely misunderstood the entire situation from the beginning.

What Ethan had offered Isabel from the start was an exclusive maid position to be assigned to me, who would become a low-ranking noble. And that her duty would be to act as an assistant maid, in case I, as a student attending the Academy, couldn’t fully carry out my duties.

“…T-then…. The Young Master trying to cast me aside and make Isabel his exclusive maid was….”

“I told you it was a misunderstanding from the start, Maid. Why would I take any maid other than Lilith as my exclusive maid?”

“Ah, earlier you said I made an offer that hurt your pride….”

“I thought you were angry because having Isabel assist Lilith hurt your pride as a maid. I thought it might look like I was hiring someone else because the Maid couldn’t properly do her duties.”

“T-that….”

“I would be nothing but grateful if Lilith would continue to be my exclusive maid. …In fact, I was quite pleased by the offer to remain my exclusive maid even after receiving the status of a baronet’s noble daughter.”

“…….”

“I was worried that my past experience as an exclusive maid during my time at the Academy might be a burden to the Maid…. But it seems that very worry made the Maid anxious.”

…It was all a misunderstanding?

That Ethan tried to make Isabel his exclusive maid.

That I thought I hadn’t properly performed my maid duties for Ethan over the past three years.

That Ethan was looking for an opportunity to remove me from the exclusive maid position, that was all a misunderstanding?

‘…Then why on earth did I make Ethan touch my chest?’

Bursting into Ethan’s room, immediately declaring I was wrong and prostrating myself on the floor.

Grabbing Ethan’s wrist when he approached to clear up the misunderstanding, and pulling it to my chest.

And in that state, even telling him to knead them, what was the reason I made him touch my chest…?

‘Exclusive maid or not, this is just a crazy pervert….’

“Ah, aaah!”

“M-Maid?!”

“H-haa, haa, haa, haa….”

Along with a scorching feeling that made my face flush, my heart began to pound fiercely, but in a completely different sense than before.

I didn’t even have the composure to look at Ethan’s face, which I had been watching just moments ago.

Because I had misunderstood all by myself, accelerated all by myself, and offered a strange and perverted method as a solution all by myself, I was utterly ashamed of myself just now.

“Aaah! Aaaaaaah!!”

“M-Maid! Calm down! I completely understand that the Maid could have made such a misunderstanding!”

“P-please forget….”

“…H-huh?”

“Please forget, Ethan Young Master…. If the Young Master cannot forget this shameful past, I, I can no longer be the Young Master’s exclusive maid….”

“Ah, yes! I’ll forget! I’ll forget every single thing Lilith did today, without exception!”

“Haa, haa, haa, haa….”

He says that, but there’s no way he could forget. Even if I were in Ethan’s shoes, it would be a sight I could never forget.

His exclusive maid, who had served him for over three years, suddenly prostrating herself before him, and even offering her chest, begging him not to fire her.

As long as that guy Ethan was a man, there was no way he could forget this scene.

Still, to somehow endure the present shame, I would have no choice but to just pretend Ethan had forgotten.

“T-thank you….”

“Oh, you should rest for today, Maid! First, you need to calm your startled chest… ah, no, your startled heart…!”

“Yes….”

“Yes. Go on and rest, Maid.”

“…I will withdraw.”

In the end, having created the worst dark history ever with this incident, I, with heavy steps, had to ponder one lesson.

…The bitter lesson that when having a conversation, one must always listen carefully to the other person’s words until the very end.