Chapter 91: why tf are you there?

Was it because I was only focusing on his lips?

I wasn’t aware of the position of Oppa’s hands, so I couldn’t help but shiver at the unfamiliar sensation.

The feeling of our skins touching each other.

Except that this time, his hand traversed to a place that was a little bit more…intimate…

A place where almost no one had ever touched before.

“Eek… D-Don’t touch there…”

I pushed him away, trying to tell him not to do it, but he only let out a sly grin.

“Why not? It’s soft and it feels good too~”

The place where he put his hand on was inside my sweater.

He gently caressed my stomach, showing his intention to slowly go up my waist.

“…No means no.”

“But, I want to touch you.”

I knew you were drunk and all, but how could you say such embarrassing words so casually?!

“S-Stop…! T-That’s…!”

My hand that was trying to stop him gradually lost its strength as his fingers slowly started to slide up across my belly button.

And just when my body turned all stiff…

-Riiiiing

I, who had closed my eyes at this point.

And Oppa, who had his hand inside my clothes, froze.

Our eyes turned towards the desk.

Um… Should I check that…?

“…Wait a moment.”

I got up from the bed, brushing off Oppa’s hand.

If it was from one of my friends or just a spam call, I’d hang up right away, but the name that was displayed on screen was Manager unnie’s.

So, I signaled to Oppa to be quiet with my index finger before pressing the answer button.

「Hello, are you there?」

「Yes! Luka-ssi, is it okay to talk now?」

「Oh, yes, yes, go ahead.」

「About the VR error issue in the previous stream, I wanted to tell you about how to fix it…」

「Ah… Okay…」

Honestly, to hell with this, why should I even care about bugs like that? Or so, I wanted to think, but reality wouldn’t allow me to do that.

Because this wasn’t just some improvised stream.

I was someone who had an official contract with a reputable company, I couldn’t just do as I pleased.

Expecting the call to be quite long, I mouthed to Oppa to wait for a moment. After everything was over, I hung up the call and turned around, only to find out that my previous predicament was over.

Oppa laid there, sleeping, letting out soft snores, refusing to wake up even when I poked his cheeks.

“Haa…”

Before leaving, I kneeled in front of his bed and rested my chin on it, looking at his face.

“What the hell are you even doing?”

They said that alcohol was a mirror that would reflect someone’s desires.

Did that mean Oppa was actually really pent-up?

Maybe he was actually more interested in physical affection and things like that more than anyone, but was holding himself back for my sake.

Anyway… He’d remember what happened today, right?

I mean, he said with his own mouth that he’d never forget and all.

Like that, I stayed by his side for a long time.

Seriously, just try and say that you don’t remember. You’ll see what happens.

I swear I wouldn’t look at your face, even as Luka.

“Alright, I’m heading off to stream now.”

I whispered him a goodbye he couldn’t possibly hear, and kissed him softly on his forehead before getting up.

Ugh, I probably knelt down for too long.

Grumbling at the numb feeling in my legs, I put on my shoes again.

“Ah.”

Grabbing my aching head, I picked up my phone as I got up.

It was 11 pm.

Luka’s stream start notification was already buried down under.

I opened my fridge and picked up a water bottle, chugging it down as if I had found an oasis in the desert.

“Phew…”

Taking a deep breath, I opened up the stream, trying to remember what had happened before I fell asleep.

Uh, so…

Because I got drunk, Doah brought me home…

And then…

Scenes passed through my head one by one, as if it was a compilation.

Me, holding onto her when she said that she had to go home…

Then, we got on the bed together…?

Her moist, wet, light pink lips…

How I touched them and wondered how they could be so soft…

“Aaaaaaaaah!”

I knew it was dead night right now, but I still let out a loud scream.

Fucking hell, Han Taemin! What the fuck were you doing?!

I did something horrible to my girlfriend while I got drunk. Again.

Except that this time I remembered everything rather vividly, so my self-loathing was even stronger than last time. It began to eat away at me.

Seriously, what the fuck were you doing, Han Taemin-ssi?!

The more I mulled over the memories, the clearer they became.

「I will remember what happened today, no matter what.」

Seriously, what are you? A manhwa protagonist?!

What kind of line was that?! Were you a novel protagonist that was about to regress?!

Okay, to be fair, if the situation was cooler, I wouldn’t mind it that much.

But, I was dead drunk while kissing her, then I went all Hehe~ I’ll remember everything~

“Ughhhhh…”

I let out the sound of a mourning animal as I hit my head against the wall.

Fuck, how could I even talk to her now?

Maybe I should just go off the grid.

That aside, I heard Luka’s cute voice coming from the phone.

「Ah! Chat! You know we’re doing a Christmas special? Right?」

「O-Of course… Everyone will be busy with their lovers, but if you’re free, won’t you come watch Luka-tan…?」

「T-The other members will be here too, so it’ll definitely be fun!」

Her stream was no different than usual.

Luka kept her distinct character intact as she invited the Pink Army to come and watch the Christmas stream.

As expected of a pro, I guess.

While I was here, getting all dizzy from the reality check, unable to come to my senses…

Doah had been streaming for hours.

I pressed the back button and exited her stream.

My mind kept wandering around.

I had never missed her stream before.

But today, all I could think of was her lips, I couldn’t register what she was trying to say.

Weakened both physically and mentally, I started searching for something to get my mind off it, and surprisingly, where I ended up was…

「A star floating in a far, far place.」

Honestly, I just clicked on it and listened to it for no reason.

I didn’t even know what this song was.

But that didn’t matter because the singer sounded so good.

「Thinking of you as I fall asleep.」

I didn’t end up going far away from Luka, just next door.

To another CLOSER member’s stream, Leah’s.

Each member pursued a different direction in their streams. For Leah, she sang a lot.

Her chats were all expressing that they were enjoying their song with emojis rather than words.

Only when the song ended and the accompaniment completely stopped did they flood her with words.

[kya!]

[I love you Kim Leah!]

[leah-nim is sooooooooo good at singinggg ;-;]

As she read the chat, her green-haired avatar frowned before looking to the left.

The glasses suited her character perfectly.

「Thank you, for listening so intently today as well.」

「Then the next song is…」

As Leah tried to move on to the next song right away, her chat clamored and tried to stop her.

[Please talk to us Kim Leah!]

[why don’t you rest a bit before continuing…?haha]

[LOL a real stream that sings to the extreme]

Unable to win against people’s outcry, Leah minimized her karaoke layout and returned to her waiting screen.

「Ah. But I still don’t know what to talk about when I do a zatsu.」

Tears welled up in Leah’s eyes.

「Everyone’s saying I’m no fun…」

As she muttered in a pained voice, Leah’s fans kept trying to make her talk, saying that it was absolutely not true.

「But, compared to the other members, I’m really nothing..」

「How can they keep talking while streaming like that?」

「It doesn’t seem like they go out and about that much either.」

「Yet, they’re still able to keep telling interesting stories. They’re really amazing.」

Leah’s stream, which I watched properly for the first time, was very calm.

She didn’t exaggerate her excitement like other streamers and vtubers did.

Rather than an internet stream, it gave off an atmosphere closer to a radio show instead.

Like a late-night emotional radio show with only a few listeners. Except that there were over 7,000 of them here.

「C-Can I sing again now?」

Starved for their long-awaited chatting time, the fans bombarded her with a violent amount of questions.

[Lucario: Nooooooooo]

Everyone was spamming no, so I sent one too, but…

「Wow! Luka! Thank you for the raid!」

At that moment, about 5,000 Pink Army came over from another world.

[Luka: leah! sing for us quickly~]

When Luka said she wanted to hear Leah’s singing, the Pink Army moved as one to hype her words in the chat to realize her will.

Using that as a cue, Leah immediately played the accompaniment.

The calm sound of a ballad-style guitar resonated, and the chat was once again filled with light sticks emoji.

Apparently, Luka ended her stream early today.

It was 11:30 pm.

Only 3 hours and 30 minutes had passed since her stream started.

Wondering if she had sent something to me, I checked my phone and flinched when I saw what was written there.

[why tf are you there?]

…I literally only typed a single message.

How the fuck was my luck this rotten?