episode_0613

The place we arrived at after following young Lucy was inside Lucy’s room.

The room that Benedick and Mira decorated for Lucy was like a princess’s room that many girls would imagine.

A variety of cute dolls. Soft bed. Furniture dotted with pink. A light pink canopy decorated the bed.

If any child entered this room, their eyes would sparkle and they would show joy, but it was not Lucy, the owner of this room.

My eyes are dry from crying too much. A body so thin that one wonders if it even eats. Scattered hair. Tightly closed lips. Lucy was dying alone in this room.

Her mother, who supported her with a smile no matter what the situation, is no longer there.

Although somewhat immature, her father, who had embraced her with passionate love, now hated her.

The servants of the mansion, who had always been paying attention to their owner, show signs of subtly ignoring her.

Even if people of various positions press the servants, the situation does not change. Because there is no one on her side anymore.

At least that’s what Lucy thought.

Will I be able to see my mother again when I die?

If I go to my mother who has gone far away, will I be able to hold her warm hand again?

Can I go to a place where there is someone who will hug me?

‘What are you going to do this National Day?’

The reason why a girl who was isolated and thinking about the word death changed her mind was the ugly darkness.

‘Of course I have to go to the royal castle!’

‘I can’t be stuck here forever.’

‘okay! If you catch just one guy, you’ll say goodbye to that arrogant kid forever!’

National Foundation Day. Hearty. Social venue. The scene that came to Lucy’s mind was Benedick fidgeting and Mira smiling at him. And while he was laughing while looking at the sparkling surroundings, he quickly covered his mouth.

Just ruminating on memories of the past made me raise the corners of my mouth, but the faint happiness engraved in my heart quickly turned gray.

I’m so unhappy, I can’t be any happier, why are you still smiling?

Why should I be the only one unhappy?

What did I do so wrong?

What am I doing worse than you all that I have to lose everything?

why?

why?

why?

‘…no.’

I hate seeing you guys happy.

I hate being the only one unhappy.

It’s not fair.

Shouldn’t you be as unhappy as I am? huh?

okay. If you don’t want to be unhappy, I will make you unhappy.

If I’m not the only one who can’t laugh, it’s better for everyone to cry.

When a twisted child said he wanted to participate in the National Day festivities, Benedick had false hopes.

I wonder if Lucy has let go of her hurt at least a little.

So Benedick accepted Lucy’s request. I visited the National Foundation Day festival, suppressing the feeling that I didn’t want to meet anyone.

It wasn’t difficult to make a place. The hero Benedick Aln was a knight who was welcomed wherever he went.

Even though he stayed in the mansion for several months, there is no one who disparages him.

“Allen Bag!”

“Are you okay?”

“I’m glad you woke up again.”

Behind the brightly shining Benedick, behind her father who was desperately trying to hide his uncomfortable feelings, Lucy realized once again that no one could like her.

We only exchanged greetings once, but their expressions twisted.

The person who was kind until she opened her mouth frowns.

The child who approached me pretending to be friendly clicks his tongue and runs away.

Without Mira, without her mother, without her only understanding, Lucy is alone.

“Haha.”

Unable to hold back the emotions welling up from deep within her heart, she burst into laughter and caught in her eyes the image of the king exchanging greetings with Benedick.

“It’s been a while since I last saw you, but you’re still cute. Lucy.”

“Even though I haven’t seen you in a long time, the king still smells strange. Is it because I gained a lot of weight?”

“Lucy!? What are you doing to His Majesty now?”

“Pig. It’s okay. Haha. I think it would be better to lock myself in the barn. Gulp King.”

Lucy liked all the emotions around her: embarrassment, embarrassment, anger, and contempt. The fact that everyone could become unhappy like this made her laugh.

So it moved more flashily. I raised my voice to attract everyone’s attention.

I shouted to make the people here even a little more unhappy.

“That is. That’s something you should never do. Lucy.”

After Benedick had sorted everything out. When they were alone, Benedick grabbed Lucy’s shoulders and urged her. Even though it was too late, I tried to correct Lucy’s mistake.

“Why?”

“Why doesn’t it work? Stupid Papa? Why can’t those idiots be unhappy?”

“That is not right. Lucy. Don’t you know?”

“Why do I have to do the right thing? I don’t want to hang out with those idiots.”

“Lucy. Just calm down a little and listen to my story. huh? You too Mira.”

“Mama is dead!”

Benedick was helpless in the face of the first rebellion shown by a good child named Lucy.

“Do not disturb. Stupid Papa.”

“…I will do it. Lucy.”

“Why? Because mama asked for it like that?”

“It’s not like that. I am you.”

“A lie. If I was that precious, there was no way I would have left you alone.”

“That is. That’s it.”

What would have been different if Benedick had come up with an excuse at this time?

Would anything have changed if I had burst into tears and complained that I had a hard time?

Would there have been hope if I had just hugged Lucy without saying anything?

“Hahaha!”

Now that I think about it, it’s a meaningless story.

“Ahahaha!”

Benedick stuttered and lowered his head.

“Ah. Really.”

Lucy took that hesitation as a positive thing.

“Trash father.”

“Lu. Lucy.”

“I really hate you.”

The once harmonious family collapsed like this.

From then on, Lucy continued to participate in social circles.

There were no goals such as wanting to meet someone, make friends, eat delicious food, or see pretty things.

She just wanted everyone to be unhappy.

Benedick, who was supposed to stop this, could not get closer to Lucy.

The guilt in his heart was so great that he came to think that even his own troubles were a punishment he had to suffer.

As each day passed, Lucy’s wish gradually became a reality.

Everyone became unhappy.

Even people in social circles. Benedict. Lucy herself.

“Haha. As I heard, you enjoy practical jokes.”

“Do you hope it’s a joke? yes. You probably want to desperately deny it. But what should I do with this? It’s all true.”

“…Where am I being gloomy?”

“It’s difficult to answer. No matter where you look, he is as inquisitive as a mold.”

“Huh.”

“If I had to answer, it would be. Uhmmm. ah. My eyes were so gloomy that I didn’t want to answer.”

“…Lucy Arlen!”

It was in this chain of misfortune that Renee and Lucy met.

Lucy, who wanted the social gathering place to be dark, approached the first prince, who was welcomed by everyone as if it was natural, and started a fight. To put him in misery.

Renee seemed to tolerate it a bit at first, but eventually, like everyone else, she became angry at Lucy and raised her voice.

Benedick rushed in just as there was a commotion and took control of the situation, but that did not mean that the atmosphere in the social gathering place would return. Lucy proudly achieved her goal that day.

“Lady Aln.”

It was when Benedick left to talk to the social host that Rene spoke again.

“Why? A gloomy loner prince? Are you sure you want to be friends with me? If that’s the case, I apologize in advance. I.”

“…sigh. Lucy Aln. Shut your mouth. At least I should finish what I want to say.”

Renee’s sincere irritation, who was already close to an adult at the time, was enough to scare young Lucy.

Lucy straightened her shoulders because she couldn’t be looked down upon, but her inner feelings were shriveled.

“Tsk. Such a mistake.”

“Hibbung.”

“ character. wait a minute. no. Please wait. Lady Aln. Clicking my tongue towards you.”

“Hibbung.”

“I was wrong. So please don’t cry. If you cry, how will you come out?”

“Who. Hehehe. Crying. Sigh.”

“Yes. You’re not crying. I’m not crying! I will admit it, please!”

Fortunately, Benedick did not return until Renee calmed Lucy down.

Although the area around his eyes was slightly red, he was spared the risk of causing the worst misunderstanding.

Renee, relieved by this fact, sighed towards Lucy, who was glaring at her.

“We got caught anyway, so I’ll stop pretending. Is it okay?”

“Are you allowed to do all of that? I guess you don’t know how to choose for yourself?”

“I understand that it’s okay.”

Lucy was both scared and amazed at the grunting Renee.

I’ve met a lot of people so far, but this was the first time someone kept talking to me like this.

Most people turn away after the first word, and even if it goes on for a long time, once they get angry, they usually pretend that Lucy isn’t there.

Renee was truly the first exception.

“I will ask you directly. Lucy Aln. What you want to say and what you end up saying are different?”

“…Yes?”

“What you think and what comes out of your mouth are different.”

That’s why Lucy couldn’t accept for a long time that Renee had discovered her secret.

“Among the people in the palace, there was someone who could read emotions through their actions. I was so amazed at what he was doing that I asked him to tell me how. So even if he tells you, he won’t be able to do it, so why not say that you’re willing to teach him? I was so excited by that proud expression that I did my best to learn and was able to make some guesses. That guy said what was the point of skills that couldn’t detect deception or read thoughts properly…”

“Heu. 녅.”

“Sleep. What! Why are you trying to cry! I did nothing wrong this time!”

“Ugh!”

Lucy, who heard Rene’s fumbling and realized the meaning of what he had said, burst into tears that she had been holding back.