episode_0195

The principal’s office looked like it was before the incident.

All the furniture was in good condition, and there wasn’t a single spot of dust.

It felt like I was looking into Professor Chang-Hoon Jeong’s office.

That professor cleaned his office as diligently as his personality.

I waited for Jung Chang-seong to look at the frame.

I knew what those pictures were.

It seemed to be a photo of the graduates who had graduated so far.

In addition to that, there were graduation albums tied up in bundles that seemed precious.

There were many other interesting things, so I looked around like a child for a while.

“Isn’t the principal’s office very clean?”

“Yes? yes. It’s really clean.”

Changseong Jeong’s voice was so sad.

Because of that, I was so embarrassed that I was smiling like a child.

Well, I was stupid. This was Changseong Jeong’s workplace.

And probably many students died or became infected here.

In such a situation, saying that the principal’s office is clean would be like self-mocking.

If there was chaos because of the situation, there would be no way the principal’s office would be clean.

Changseong Jeong cleaned the picture frame for a moment, then put it into a bag and said.

“When the incident occurred, the principal’s office was locked. So, when I opened the door again, it was clean.”

“Is that so… ”

“Unfortunately, fortunately, the incident occurred after the school vacation, and I was usually good at educating the students.”

“Ah.”

“I did the best I could, but I keep regretting it. Wow, my story was long.”

“No, it’s okay. Because you might get lost in sentimentality.”

“Did things go well?”

“Oh, uh. that is… About half of the cases were successful, but I’m not sure about the other half.”

“My younger brother said that Yeji has the power to make the impossible a reality.”

“… ”

“So, I believe that you will easily achieve what you want. The story is… How do you prefer to do it?”

Changseong Jeong laughed and said that he could do it sitting down or standing up after that.

But I wasn’t conscious enough to properly answer that question.

I don’t know if other people would know, but there was no way in the original the strict professor would have evaluated me like that.

They probably looked down on him for his dragon power, but said he didn’t have the intelligence to go along with it.

That’s what I was thinking, but when I heard this compliment, I felt something strange.

No, come to your senses. That way, you’ll at least say something.

“Can we sit down and talk? I’ve always thought the principal’s office chair was soft.”

“Ah, is that so?”

“I’ve thought that way since I was in elementary school. Wow, it’s really soft.”

“Are you embarrassed?”

“… What, what is it?”

You are being treated “. It was different from what I heard in Busan.”

“… ”

“I heard that you always received special treatment, so I thought you were used to praise and such.”

That’s it, it had to be different.

The special treatment mentioned there also includes convenience.

But most of it was just food.

Since I was fed delicious food every time I worked, I thought it was normal and ate whatever was given to me.

So, this kind of pure praise or something like that was rather awkward.

I don’t even know if I’m qualified to hear that in the first place.

It was just my obsessive struggle to survive that led me to this point.

The same goes for meeting Noh Chang-hoon and meeting Kang Si-woo.

I somehow ended up here, but I was never a good person or anything like that.

Rather, it would have been nice to say it was vicious.

… Of course, only on the Internet.

After thinking about it for a while, I decided to tell a few things to only Changseong Jeong.

For a moment, I thought that would be okay… As expected, there was no one to talk to other than Jeong Chang-seong.

If I tell Professor Chang-Hoon Jeong something like that, he will remember it and try to use it.

It was obvious that Noh Chang-hoon and Kang Si-woo would not accept it properly because they had prejudices.

I grumbled a little.

“Aren’t you being treated too undeservedly… Because I want to. I don’t think I’m the type of person to listen to praise.”

“Is that so.”

“Special treatment only in Busan… It was just part of the deal. We were provided with a generator, food, and drinking water and guaranteed convenience.”

“Did I misunderstand?”

“That’s not true. Because Kang Si-woo always took care of me and fed me heartily, I ate better than others.

If that’s special treatment, then it’s special treatment.”

“… ?”

Jeong Chang-seong’s gaze was strange.

It was a bit ominous, as it looked like the face of a detective who had something on his mind.

I paused for a moment, then said what I had been thinking about ever since.

“Anyway, I’m not the type of person to be respected or called a hero, so I’m a little embarrassed.

It’s not that I feel bad, but I often wonder if it’s worth it.”

“That… Yeji. The special treatment I was talking about was not like that.”

“… Yes?”

“The results of the meeting are condensed and delivered separately. Whatever you ask for, he gives it to you without hesitation. Something like that… ”

“Special treatment… Did you say that?”

Now I feel like I understand what Jeong Chang-seong means.

So, it was natural for me to receive convenience and eat delicious food.

Since they worked that hard, it was right to treat them that much.

In reality, what could be called special treatment was something else.

Even though I don’t need it, it’s like the meeting results that Kang Si-woo always told me about.

Changseong Jeong nodded, then closed his mouth.

It seemed like he was slowly choosing what to say.

Those cautious eyes were looking at me.

“My younger brother said that Yeji does not seek self-interest from such special treatment.

But now I get it. You didn’t think of it as special treatment.

They probably just thought it was a nuisance. Isn’t it?”

“That… Right?”

“You don’t think you should be treated well, so you don’t even know it’s treated… ”

“… ”

“You must have been putting it off and putting it off because you really needed something.”

I slowly avoided Jeong Chang-seong’s gaze.

Yeah, whatever. Women’s products. I gave it to others and then, when I really needed it, I asked Kang Si-woo to give it to me.

It was troublesome to collect what was supplied, and it was troublesome to use it.

When I had the right amount of time, I looked for it and if it wasn’t there, I asked for it.

Thinking about it now, it seemed like a treat in its own way. There was a special treatment aircraft.

Giving more even though the supplies have been used up is impossible in this situation.

“Yeji… How much do you value yourself?”

Jeong Chang-seong’s eyes were so sharp.

I couldn’t say anything as if my mouth was stuck.

No, that. It wasn’t that I had nothing to say.

I always put my survival first.

Even when fighting mutants, if it seemed difficult, I gave in, and it was the same when fighting Kang Si-woo.

So, it was absurd to say that they didn’t value me.

But it wasn’t like there was nothing to point out at all.

I always pushed my body in first.

When I think about it now, there were a lot of things I could have done with less injury.

It’s not like I didn’t have the brains to do that.

On the contrary, your brain worked well when you needed it.

“If you listen to the history or summarize it… It seems like he lives just to die.”

Jeong Chang-seong’s words drove a wedge there.

I was feeling a strong loathing for my past life.

Doing nothing all the time, wasting my life and wasting my parents’ backs.

So I pursued a different course of action.

The same goes for serving as bait for Captain Han on his way to Busan.

It’s the same as going in with Noh Chang-hoon to catch Baron.

The reason I worked harder than anyone else on campus was to break away from my previous laziness.

Of course, there were many dangerous things along the way.

If it weren’t for this regenerative ability, it could be said that it would have already died.

For someone struggling to live, it was bound to be a very strange move.

It seemed like there were probably a few more overlapping here.

When you killed your younger brother with your own hands, you tried to commit suicide because you thought life wasn’t worth living.

That’s Yeji Lee. The original owner of the body.

The fact that I am suffering from mental illness right now is also the same.

It certainly seemed like some introspection was needed.

I don’t remember clearly what happened during those two weeks.

I didn’t look closely because it passed by quickly.

But it seemed like it might have something to do with this.

They have strangely low self-esteem, suffer from auditory hallucinations, etc.

“… Ugh!”

“Are you okay!?”

Changseong Jeong hurriedly got up from his seat.

I smiled and gave a hand signal saying it was okay.

My head hurt and my neck was stiff, as if I had approached something I shouldn’t remember.

Still, it was okay. I don’t know if it’s okay to think like this…

I felt like I would remember perfectly if I almost died one or two more times.

Because that’s the way it is with flashes of light.

I said hastily to change the subject.

“I’ll think about things like low self-esteem or something like that. Listening to the story now, it seems serious.”

“… I’m glad you knew. Still, Yeji has a husband, so she has someone to rely on.”

“Haha… Yes.”

“Are you okay… Is this correct?”

“It’s okay. It’s often like this. Oh. There are some things I found out after going to Jinju.”

Fortunately, Changseong Jeong did not question me further and listened to what I had to say.

To organize my thoughts, I told him everything I had found out.

The industrial complex forces thought to be cannibals were actually people who raised livestock and farmed.

Hamodan abandoned his forces and entered the forest.

Besides that, we talked about various other things.

A story about a civil servant, or a story about shooting at a barricade.

When I talked to him like that, he seemed to calm down a little.