episode_0333

Faybe lived a life far from play from a very young age.

I came out early in the morning and prayed for the various priests.

After that, I studied the Bible and sacred magic.

In the afternoon, I travel around the area to help others.

In the evening, I go to confession or study again.

After all the schedules are completed, the daily routine is to prepare for the next day’s prayer before going to sleep.

The treadmill without the word ‘rest’ was harsh for a child, but Fabi endured it, thinking that it was all a burden she had to bear.

The great Lord chose him, so he gritted his teeth and spent each day trying to prove that his choice was not wrong.

However.

However.

Everything that supported Fabi in the past was a lie.

The memories of the orphanage that came to mind that night when I was so tired and wished that tomorrow would never come did not exist.

The orphanage that Fabi missed was a place full of blood and screams.

The scene she believed to be warm was in fact a hell filled with only cold cynicism, cold corpses, and dried tears.

The title of saint that Fabi bore was also false.

The great Lord has never chosen anyone to become a saint.

The title of saint was a fictitious thing created for the people of the corrupt church to use.

All the weight she endured was not for the Lord, but for the corrupt.

Several months had passed since she found out about this, but Fabi still burst out laughing every time she remembered the truth.

How could one person’s life be so easily created, and one person’s life so easily denied?

Even though Fabi had an upright heart, it was difficult for her to simply accept the fact that her life was nothing more than a farce that someone had created.

What would have happened to me if there had been no one to support me at that time?

If it wasn’t for you, Lady.

If there had been no one who was loved by the great God.

If it weren’t for the Apostle of the Lord, who looks sharp on the outside but has the warmth of the sun inside, and has a will that is unimaginable in his small body, by his side.

Could I smile like I do now?

“Puhahaha! The idiot girl is such an idiot! Are you saying this is wrong?”

“It’s unfair! You can set a trap by changing just one letter!”

“Yes~ I guess it’s unfair~ I don’t think the young lady is stupid because she wants to be stupid~”

“Ugh! Ugh!”

Fabi, who was looking at Lucy, who had no intention of holding back her laughter, and Joey, who was expressing anger with her hands clenched, soon shrugged her shoulders with a smile.

What can you do by imagining something that never happened? It’s much better to focus on the now.

“Joy. Do you really think that’s true?”

“That’s right… isn’t it? Fabi?”

“Paybee. It’s difficult to give hints to an idiot. Idiots are cutest when they’re idiots.”

“Cute… No! Lady! Please at least add the word ‘young-ae’ at the end! Otherwise, call me by my name like Fabi!”

“I will think about it if it exceeds my score. Of course, there’s no way a stupid idiot can beat me.”

“Wow! Really!”

Fabi burst out laughing at the sight of Joy expressing her resentment, forgetting the duke-likeness she usually emphasized.

Playing with friends. It’s really fun.

If you hadn’t dragged me out, this wouldn’t have happened.

Is that all? You may have locked yourself in your room and prayed to ease your anxiety, but as your anxiety grew, you began to doubt yourself.

This morning.

Fabi woke up as usual and chewed her lips as her anxiety continued to rise.

I am so afraid of the cruel truth I will hear today.

I thought I was mentally prepared, but in reality, I wasn’t prepared at all.

Faby headed to Lucy’s room with anxiety that did not go away even though she prayed several times to protect herself from her shortcomings.

I moved my feet thinking that if I could be near her warm divinity, this anxiety would disappear.

However, even after Faby arrived in front of Lucy’s room, she was unable to knock on the door.

Several facts that had not occurred to her until she left the room were holding her back.

Wouldn’t it be rude to visit when you can’t find your place?

Wouldn’t you be uncomfortable if you woke up?

Could it be that I am disturbing you while you are washing or praying?

As the worries continued to grow, Faybe couldn’t bear to knock on the door.

I don’t know how Lucy noticed Faby’s concerns, but Lucy opened the door first and welcomed Fabie.

With a more noble appearance than ever before.

You won’t know.

The moment I saw your face, the anxiety in my heart disappeared.

Also, you probably don’t know.

How much I thought about it when you first asked me about my wishes.

And how happy I was when the name of this lacking person was called.

You probably don’t know this either.

How embarrassed I was when he brought me into the world, saying that if this was all he wanted, he would do as he pleased.

He had a hard time suppressing laughter when he went to see a half-asleep Joey, saying that there was something he couldn’t do with his reputation.

And how happy I was to play with you and Joey all day today, having fun with friends for the first time in my life.

If I were to ask you if you came out to relieve my anxiety, you would definitely deny it.

Although you are used to giving to others, you are not good at receiving gifts.

So I won’t ask.

Instead, keep today’s events in mind.

Be someone who is not shy about standing next to you.

I look forward to the day when I can repay you.

“Dear lady! We’ll see! Because next time I will win!”

“It was raining all day today, will it be any different next time? I don’t think it’s possible because Idiot is Idiot, right?”

“G. It’s not like we just lost?! How many times has Faybe won?!”

“But, Joy. That doesn’t change the fact that I was defeated by the Lady.”

“That’s the same for you too, Fabi!”

“Hey~ Idiot was a petty person who was happy after beating someone who played a board game for the first time today? He really looks like a noble~”

“Profit! Yi Iik! Why is no one taking my side!”

After Joy, whose face was as red as the sunset, ran away, saying to wait and see. After seeing that Joey had disappeared, Lucy turned her head towards Fabi.

“Paybee.”

“Yes. Lady.”

“Are you mentally prepared? I’m worried that Fabie, who is timid about a subject full of fat, will be locked in her room.”

“It’s okay. Really.”

No matter what I hear, I will be able to smile as long as you are next to me.

“Pretentious with a poor topic.”

The destination Lucy took Faby to was a restaurant on Academy Street.

As soon as the store employee saw Lucy, he approached her with a mechanical smile and guided them to a room on the second floor, saying there was an empty space.

“Are you here? Two minutes.”

“Ah. It’s finally here. Come quickly and sit down. I have a lot of stories to tell.”

John, the bishop of the main church, and Caria, Lucy’s informant, were waiting there.

After the waitress closed the door and left, Karia, who had performed some magic, rested her chin and looked at Faby’s face.

“How much does our saint know?”

“…before.”

“Ah. are you okay. You don’t have to answer, so just listen. Corruption in the church? You know a little bit, right? What about her being a false saint? oh. Do you know this too? What about your own terrible past? Hey. You know this too, right? That’s amazing.”

Fabi felt suffocated as the words continued to flow without even giving her time to reply.

Smirking eyes. A voice like a thorn. Subtle tone. A playful hand gesture.

When viewed separately, seemingly insignificant things were combined into one, making even Fabi, who was accustomed to political rhetoric, feel burdened.

“Do it in moderation. Madame. It’s so ugly to be jealous of someone who is younger and prettier than you.”

“I’m not particularly jealous. what. Anyway, I’m sorry. Holy woman. Because I lived a rough life, measuring people became a habit.”

“No. it’s okay. It wasn’t a big deal.”

“Hmm. Really?”

Caria looked Faby’s face up and down as if assessing something, and then raised the corners of her mouth.

“What I will tell you today will only serve to reaffirm what you know. Beyond that, there is still insufficient investigation, and there are many sensitive issues.”

Fabi easily understood the meaning of the word sensitive.

You’re probably talking about the people in the corrupt church.

If you know that someone is involved in corruption, no matter how calm you pretend to be, it will inevitably be revealed, so be cautious about that.

“Please understand. Holy woman. I will definitely tell you when the time comes.”

Fabi, who heard John’s hard voice, raised the corners of her mouth with difficulty.

It’s something that can’t be helped. Because I am still a person who lacks much more than what I have.

“Saint. Are you ready to hear the story?”

“Yes. Yes.”

“Then place your hand on this crystal ball. I’ll take you back to where you started.”

…if that’s where I started.

no way.

Fabi, surprised by the unexpected words, quickly turned her head to the side.

Lucy, who was frowning as if she didn’t like something, looked at Faby’s gaze and nodded silently.

really.

Are you really saying you found that orphanage?

That hellish place?

Fabi, who was staring at the crystal ball with her eyes closed, felt warmth next to her and took a deep breath.

are you okay.

What’s the problem with you being next to me?

I only see now what I will have to face someday.

are you okay. Fabi.

I’m sure it’ll be okay.

The moment Fabi finished mentally preparing and placed her hand on the crystal ball, her vision flipped over.

When Faby barely came to her senses in the aftermath of the teleportation, she was kneeling on a field.

Here.

Faby stood up shakily, and her eyes fell on a building built so far out that it could not even receive moonlight.

It is neatly maintained as if people had lived there not long ago, but it is actually empty inside.

The building of the orphanage has not changed at all from what Fabi remembered.

dump. Fabi, whose legs had lost strength, sat down on the grass and looked blankly at the building.

A vacant lot where I thought I played with my friends, but in reality it had never been used except to bury a body.

I thought there was no shortage even though it wasn’t rich, but in reality, the restaurant didn’t even give me a single piece of bread.

I remember talking with my friends under my breath, but I was originally in the bedroom where I was afraid to even breathe because if I made even the slightest noise, I would be beaten to the point of death.

The prayer room was thought to be filled with hymns, but only the screams of children were heard.

Fabie, who was recalling false memories and true nightmares at the same time, heard the sounds of laughter and screams sounding alternately in both her ears, and ended up puking on the floor.

‘sorry! sorry! sorry! I’ll do my best, so please don’t hit me! please! Je…aaah!’

‘I don’t want to die. ‘I don’t want to die.’

‘no. Not in the prayer room. I don’t want to pray. ‘I’m like a god’

‘Why aren’t you sick!? Why only you…’

“Paybee.”

Fabi came to her senses after hearing a sweet voice seeping into her ears, and slowly raised her head as the warmth enveloped her.

Red hair that glows even in the dark.

Eyes as clear as jewels.

A smile as reliable as always and shoulders that look bigger than ever.

The moment Fabie faced Lucy’s face with her back to the moon, she felt her nightmare fading away.

“Have you forgotten how to stand up on your own two legs? Or did you gain so much weight that you couldn’t even stand up?”

“…Hehe. no. It can’t possibly be like that.”

Fabi got up again from the floor and prayed on the cross hanging around her neck.

Great Lord. Please give this lacking person the courage to face the truth.

Please give me the strength to move forward without breaking down in the face of the harsh truth.