episode_0043

“The broadcast was fun again today. Thank you all for praising and supporting me! I’ll wrap up today’s show now! See you next time!”

Park Yuna waved goodbye to her viewers, and today’s streaming session came to an end.

This was a time to soothe loneliness and boost self-esteem with the kindness they offered.

But as soon as this time ended, the loneliness she’d momentarily forgotten would rush back in.

“…”

Her fingers hovered over the keyboard.

The search term she typed into the internet was ‘child actress Park Yuna’.

She used to just need her three-letter name, but now, after several years, she had to specify ‘child actress’ to find information about herself.

[Child actress Park Yuna sweeps the Youth and Child Actor categories at the Year-End Awards]

[‘Is she really a middle schooler?’ Park Yuna’s acting is hard to believe for a child actress. Director Im: ‘Park Yuna will drive this movie’s success.’]

[Genius child Park Yuna makes her first variety show appearance this year. Equipped with looks, acting ability, and a knack for variety.]

Articles praising her lined the search bar.

When she was active as an actress in middle school, loneliness was a distant concept for Park Yuna.

Everyone on set was warm to her, and when she came home after filming, her mother was waiting.

[I’m home!]

[Our daughter worked so hard again today! I’ve made dinner, so let’s eat quickly.]

[Mom, were you bored while I was gone?]

[Of course. I’ve been waiting to watch dramas with Yuna.]

[Really? I was dying to play with you too!]

‘Those were the good old days…’

That time, when she lacked nothing in terms of money, fame, and popularity.

What made Park Yuna happiest was none other than her mother’s affection.

As she had to raise her daughter alone due to her husband’s passing, her mother’s affection for Park Yuna was extraordinary, and that acted positively, becoming nourishment for her success as a child actress.

[‘Acting to give happiness to her mother,’ child actress Park Yuna reveals filial piety in an interview]

So, like the title of one article, it was never unnatural for her to act for her mother.

The income she earned brought financial and psychological stability to the family, and her mother’s love for her daughter only deepened day by day.

“…”

The problem arose when she finished middle school.

[Genius child Park Yuna suddenly announces her retirement ‘I want to live the life of a normal student’]

Unlike the article title, it wasn’t because she was particularly tired of her acting career.

It was just that as her position as an actress grew, so did her work, and she regretted the amount of time she spent with her mother decreasing.

She had earned money that ordinary people would struggle to earn even if they worked their whole lives, so Park Yuna thought that all that was left was to live happily with her mother.

[Mom! I’m home!]

[Okay. You worked hard. Order whatever you want to eat.]

[Oh, Mom. Are you busy again today? Should we watch a drama together for the first time in a while?]

[I still have work to finish. I’ll be working in my room, so knock if you need anything.]

Her mother had very different ideas from her daughter.

[Mom… we have a lot of money. Don’t you think you don’t have to work so hard…?]

[You don’t know, but the world is a scary place. You have to create a fixed source of income because you never know what might happen.]

The method her mother chose was business.

To further solidify the foundation of her life.

And to fulfill her long-unfulfilled dream of becoming a businesswoman.

But as her mother said, the world is scary, and you never know what might happen.

Her business attempts failed several times.

Even at this point, Park Yuna believed that she would have more time to spend with her mother as before.

However, unable to let go of her lingering feelings, her mother became even more immersed in her business, and at some point, Park Yuna was spending more time alone at home.

[I retired because I wanted to be with Mom….]

It was too late to regret it.

Her mother only fulfilled her minimum duties as a mother and always prioritized her business over her daughter, without showing the same affection as before.

In the end, the business item she had invested in with the thought that it was her last one was a huge success, and she was able to earn more wealth than when her daughter was earning it for her.

[Mom… can we have dinner together today?]

[I’m busy again today, so I won’t be home until after eleven. Order whatever you want to eat, and don’t wait up for me.]

Park Yuna still spent more time alone at home than time with her mother.

It was impossible for her to soothe her loneliness with friends.

This was because her striking looks and special background as a celebrity sparked jealousy among her classmates, making her an outcast at school.

She didn’t have time to make proper friends when she was busy with acting in middle school, so she had no one to keep in touch with afterward.

[Am I going to die alone like this every day…?]

Her mother’s affection was everything, so Park Yuna’s heart began to fester rapidly from the moment she didn’t feel it.

Naturally, her longing for her middle school days also grew.

[It’s because I retired… Since I don’t earn money anymore, she’s lost interest in me.]

When she was worrying alone at home in high school, she came to that conclusion.

To regain her mother’s love as before, she had to earn money again.

However, her mother’s standards had become much higher than before, so in order to get her attention, she needed even greater wealth.

[But how can I earn that much money…? Unless I marry a very rich man.]

This was how Park Yuna came to dream of marrying a wealthy man.

Of course, she knew it was a far-fetched dream, so she only imagined it in her head and never thought of putting it into action.

Even after becoming independent after graduating from girls’ high school, all she did was soothe her loneliness with internet broadcasting.

Occasionally, like a teenage girl, she would end up imagining being chosen by a prince charming.

Then, she happened to learn of Han Jihoon’s existence.

A golden opportunity to regain her mother’s affection and attention, which she thought was realistically impossible.

The excitement it gave her numbed Park Yuna’s reason, leading her to step onto the wrong path.

“…”

The more she thought, the greater the loneliness grew.

Park Yuna picked up her phone for no reason and opened a messenger app.

An empty friend list and chat list.

Besides her mother and relatives, the only numbers she had were the landlady, the MCN official, and Han Jihoon’s number.

‘I’m a complete loner…’

Building new relationships was not easy even in college.

The negative experiences she had at home and at school during high school made her passive, unlike how she appeared on the outside.

She felt like the girls were jealous of her looks, and the boys seemed to approach her only with impure intentions, so she couldn’t treat anyone comfortably.

Communicating with others through internet broadcasting was only a temporary measure and did not fundamentally relieve her emptiness.

‘My mom is the only one for me. I’m going to go back to the way we used to be. The only way to do that is to marry Mr. Jihoon…’

“Marrying Mr. Jihoon…”

She hadn’t specifically pictured it in her head until now, but she suddenly wondered what her married life with him would be like.

What would it feel like if he truly loved her?

Could she fill the emptiness in her heart caused by her mother’s absence with his affection?

‘…This isn’t the time to be thinking about this.’

She shook her head and stopped her wandering thoughts.

As long as she was sinning against him, it was right to think about how to become a good wife with the minimum amount of atonement, rather than what she would receive from him.

‘And above all, I have to focus on seducing him right now.’

She threw herself onto the bed and took off all her clothes as if molting.

Sitting in a comfortable position with her legs spread, she brought her hand to her vulva and began to gently stimulate it.

“Heuh, euuh….”

The clitoris gradually hardened, and the pleasure also grew little by little.

Even when she first tried it yesterday, this sensation felt unfamiliar, but now she had become quite accustomed to it and was able to touch her genitals naturally.

Squish, squish, squish.

The squelching sound coming from her wet vulva.

It was a signal that her body had begun to feel it in earnest, but Park Yuna was not satisfied with just this and tickled her nipples with her remaining hand.

To beat Han Jihoon, she needed to become accustomed to even stronger pleasure.

“Heueung, euht, haa….”

‘Good. It’s definitely more bearable than yesterday.’

In fact, the internet information that women can experience fewer orgasms if they repeatedly masturbate is unfounded.

But Park Yuna, who blindly followed the article, was unexpectedly seeing results.

Rather than becoming desensitized to pleasure, it was closer to building the strength to forcibly endure it.

Squish, squish, squish, squish.

She diligently rubbed her clitoris with her fingers and carefully massaged one of her breasts.

The more she stimulated the most sensitive part of her body, the more pleasure gradually spread throughout her body.

Her waist, which had flinched at the unfamiliar feeling during her first attempt, was accepting it relatively stably.

‘Just a little faster…’

Squish, squish, squish, squish.

“Euht, heueung! Haa…!”

Her breath became rough as her speed increased.

Nevertheless, her reason was not becoming blurred, so the elation that she would be able to satisfy Han Jihoon also grew.

‘If I go on like this…!’

She recalled her first experience with him a few days ago.

This was also to simulate it in her head, but when she stimulated her lower body like this, she naturally thought of what happened at that time.

‘He didn’t look like it at all, but he was so forceful when he did it…’

His movements were so intense, as if he only regarded women as tools for sexual gratification.

It was the first time she had ever been treated so roughly, but instead of getting angry, she was swept away by the pleasure she was experiencing for the first time and couldn’t think of anything.

‘But it’s different now! I’m going to completely satisfy Mr. Jihoon!’

The culmination of feelings built up as she moved without rest.

She forcibly endured it and endured it, and only unleashed it when she really reached her limit.

“Haa… haa….”

‘Okay. If I practice like this, I can definitely satisfy Mr. Jihoon.’

A faint smile appeared on her face, already feeling a sense of accomplishment.

The practice continued after that, and finally, the day the two met again arrived.

===

It was a similar evening time to when I visited Park Yuna’s house last time.

As the promised time drew near, I visited her house after a few days.

“Mr. Jihoon!”

“Excuse me.”

“Be prepared today!”

As before, she launched a declaration of war as soon as she saw me.

It was written on Sex Wiki that she had been practicing with masturbation and had obtained meaningful results, and she definitely seemed confident.

“Yes, I’ll look forward to it.”

“But what are you holding in your hand, Mr. Jihoon?”

At her words, I handed her the plastic bag I was holding.

“Apples. I ordered them online, and they put in a few more at their discretion as a service. I brought them because there are too many for me to eat alone.”

“Oh? Really? Thank you…”

She blushed and spoke as she took the bag from me.

“It’s the first time I’ve received something like this from someone I know. It really makes me feel like neighbors. Hehe.”

I just brought them because I don’t eat fruit often, and I was worried they would rot before I could eat them all, but I felt embarrassed hearing her say that.

That was also why I immediately changed the subject.

“Shall we get started then?”

“Ah, yes! This time is for real, so don’t say anything else, Mr. Jihoon!”

“You’re full of confidence. I guess you practiced properly.”

“Of course! I can handle Mr. Jihoon’s now!”

Her face was already full of a sense of victory.

But what she would feel today was not the joy of victory, but the pleasure of defeat.

“What kind of practice did you do?”

“Haa, how can I say that! Don’t just stand here, let’s go to the bedroom quickly!”

She grabbed my arm and headed to the bedroom.

And so, another compatibility test began.