episode_0022

The current time is 1 AM.

After stopping by home to change out of my damp clothes, I went back out to meet Seo.

We could have easily drunk at my place, but she insisted on going out to her favorite bar.

“Is this the place?”

“Yeah. But…”

“It’s closed?”

I took a taxi all the way here after the last bus had left, but the entrance to the bar was firmly shut.

All that greeted us was a notice saying it was closed due to the owner’s personal reasons, and the cold wind of the early morning street.

“Nothing’s going right,” Seo muttered, wearing a mask to avoid being recognized.

She still hadn’t snapped out of her post-nut clarity, so her voice was as dark as the closed-up interior of the bar.

“Want to just drink at my place? Or should we go somewhere else since we’re already out?”

“I don’t want to take another taxi. Let’s find somewhere else.”

I diligently looked around for a decent place.

The boisterous sounds of customers and flashing signs beckoned us, but unfortunately, none of them appealed to Seo.

“Ugh, there’s nowhere to go. It’d be a problem if someone recognized me, so we need somewhere quiet where we can drink on our own.”

“Should we just go to a motel?”

As soon as I said the word “motel,” Seo gave me a suspicious look.

“No, I just meant there doesn’t seem to be anywhere else for the two of us to drink.”

“…I guess so.”

Seo couldn’t really find anything to object to in my words, and we ended up deciding to go to a motel.

It was the early hours of Sunday morning, so I was worried about whether there would be any rooms left, but luckily there was one available nearby, and we managed to get in without a hitch.

“Oh? This place…”

I paused the moment I stepped inside.

A huge heart-shaped bed and pillows were centered in the spacious room.

The walls and tables were decorated with flowers and hearts, creating a suggestive atmosphere.

Come to think of it, it was advertised as a newly opened motel exclusively for couples. So, that’s why it’s decorated like this?

It’s my first time in a motel as it is, but having a setup like this laid out so explicitly makes me nervous for no reason.

Unlike me, Seo didn’t seem to care much.

“Seo, have you been to a motel often?”

“Why would I ever come to a place like this? I’m just going to the bathroom for a minute. Let’s go buy some drinks together afterward.”

“No, I’ll go buy them. You rest.”

“…Okay?”

“Can I just pick up some snacks from the convenience store?”

“No. I’ll order delivery, so just buy the drinks. I’ll give you the money for the drinks when you get back.”

Soon after, the drinks and snacks were ready, and our unplanned drinking session began.

There was a table in the room, but Seo had ordered so much food that we ended up spreading it out on the floor.

“Seo, soju or beer?”

“Soju and beer mixed.”

“Okay.”

“Give it here, I’ll mix it. Do you want soju and beer mixed, too?”

Seo filled the two paper cups and immediately downed her first glass.

By the time I had drunk about half of mine, she was already refilling her empty cup.

“Do you drink often?”

Seo shook her head at my question.

“Only when I feel like it sometimes. What about you?”

“I don’t drink often either, just when my friends call me out?”

Glug… glug…

She’s already emptying her second glass while I’m answering.

The aura of a heavy drinker was emanating from her as she filled her next glass without a moment’s hesitation.

“Seo, you’re a strong drinker.”

“I’m not a strong drinker. I’m just gulping it down because my head’s a mess.”

Glug… glug…

It’s hard to say she can’t drink when she’s already emptied her third cup and is pouring her fourth.

By the way, she must be really troubled if she’s drinking like that without any snacks.

“Don’t think about it too seriously. It’s fine as long as the viewers didn’t catch on, right?”

“It’s not that simple…”

“Then?”

“I told you. I just think I’m such a pervert. I know in my head that I shouldn’t be like this, but I can’t control myself…”

Seo probably hates people who act on their sexual desires instead of their reason more than anyone else.

That’s probably why she hated me so much after the middle school incident.

But now that she’s become that kind of person herself, she seemed to be experiencing a strong cognitive dissonance.

“Come on. It’s not a big deal, you’re only a pervert around me. It’s okay, I’m telling you.”

“Still…”

“Wait a minute, drink slowly! At least eat some chicken with it.”

I hastily stopped her from immediately refilling her glass after downing another one.

Even if she’s feeling down, I couldn’t let her drink five glasses of soju and beer in a row without any snacks.

“…”

But Seo hung her head and didn’t move an inch.

Was she upset that I stopped her from drinking?

I got worried when she didn’t show any reaction even after a minute and asked, “Are you okay?”

“…kay.”

“What did you say, Seo?”

“I’m not okay!”

Her voice suddenly rose in volume.

Her eyes were completely unfocused as she slowly lifted her head.

“…Are you drunk?”

“I’m not drunk!”

No sooner had she replied than she filled a paper cup with soju and downed it in one gulp.

What followed was a glare at me that looked like she wanted to kill me.

“It’s all because of you…”

Seo, with the pile of delivered food between us, crawled toward me on all fours.

The moment the lioness, who had been approaching her prey, pounced, I squeezed my eyes shut.

“It’s all your fault!”

She came into my arms and started sniffing me.

“Sniff, haa… sniff. Haa… It’s because of this that I became a pervert…”

“So, you weren’t lying when you said you weren’t a strong drinker.”

I’ve never seen her drunk before because I’ve never had a chance to talk to her, let alone drink with her.

I never imagined she would change this much.

She must have just been running recklessly because she was mentally broken and kept drinking non-stop without any snacks.

“Hey! Why did you order chicken? It’s going to mix with your smell!”

“You’re the one who ordered it.”

“That’s right!”

Even as she answered loudly, she clung to me like a sloth and wouldn’t let go.

“Wait a minute, let go of me. Why did you drink so fast when you can’t even handle it?”

“Because it’s hard to be sober…!”

I should just give up on trying to pull her away since she’s screaming and clinging to me.

I thought it would be better to just stay still and hope that her mood would improve.

“…”

The motel room is as quiet as a library.

I’m just looking at the all-star lineup of delivered food, including chicken, pizza, and pork feet, but I don’t really feel like eating any of it.

Is it because I’m drunk? The body in my arms feels warmer and more comforting than usual.

As I was quietly enjoying the warmth, Seo put her forehead on my chest and said, “…You know. Do I disgust you?”

“Why?”

“I’ve been cursing and hating you since middle school, and now I’m causing you trouble. Like right now.”

“I don’t mind.”

“You can be honest. Don’t you loathe me?”

“No. I’m happy to be closer to you like this.”

“…”

Silence fell again.

I had no way of knowing what the other person was thinking.

I could only hope that if she was feeling down, my scent would make her feel better.

I wasn’t the one who spoke first in the continuing silence this time either.

“Really, you don’t find me disgusting? So, what you said about it not mattering if we dated… you meant that?”

“I told you back then. I wasn’t joking.”

“Even though I’m a woman who secretly jacks off while smelling your underwear?”

“Yeah.”

“I… I’ve even secretly rubbed your sperm on my underwear and worn it home before.”

“That actually makes you seem like an even bigger pervert, so I like it.”

“Tch. You’re really hopeless too…”

Seo let out a hollow laugh and suddenly stood up.

“Where are you going?”

“Wait here and don’t move.”

She left with those short words and went into a small room on one side.

Do motel rooms usually have a small room attached to them? Is it just this place?

There was no way I could come up with an answer even if I thought about it, since it was my first time visiting a motel.

‘…How long do I have to wait?’

About ten minutes passed in silence.

Finally, the door to the small room opened, and Seo appeared.

In an outfit that I hadn’t expected at all.

“Seo, Seo?”

She was only wearing her underwear.

The problem wasn’t just that it was a bra and panties.

It had an adult design with intricate embroidery, but that wasn’t the problem I was talking about.

The area of the panties was so small that almost all of her lower body was exposed, but that wasn’t it either.

The reason I said it was unexpected was because the parts that should have been covering her nipples and vulva were all open.

“Suddenly what is this… where did you get these clothes?”

The bra covered her neck and chest like a halter neck, but there was a big heart-shaped hole in her cleavage.

It was an outfit made solely for that act, useless for anything other than sex.

“…”

Seo, with a drunken look on her face, walked past me and plopped down on the bed.

As the sunken mattress rose again, her breasts, indecently exposing her nipples, jiggled heavily.

“When you went to buy drinks earlier, I went into that room and found a bunch of these clothes.”

I guess it was a room where they kept a collection of suggestive outfits since it was a motel exclusively for couples.

I still didn’t know if this was normal or if this place was unique because of my lack of experience.

“Do you know what I was thinking when I went in there?”

“What were you thinking?”

“I really don’t understand women who wear these weird clothes and flirt with men. They’re beasts obsessed with sex. But guess what else I thought?”

When she asked with her expression instead of her voice, an answer soon came back.

“It would feel good to wear these perverted clothes and smell you while doing it.”

A bitter smile spread across Seo’s lips.

“It’s ridiculous, right? I know. I’m being perverted to you, but all I can think about in my head is lewd thoughts. Do you really not loathe me, even though I’m this two-faced and lewd woman?”

The same question as before.

But I felt like the hidden meaning was a little different from before.

If it was just a lamentation from self-loathing earlier, this time it felt like she wanted me to say that I didn’t hate her.

Of course, from my point of view, I wanted to give Seo the answer she wanted.

Furthermore, I wanted to help her not be anxious anymore and accept her changed self.

So, instead of answering the question, I strode up to the bed and stole a kiss from her lips.

“Mmph?!”

I hugged Seo tightly, who was trying to break away in surprise, and pushed my tongue into the gap between her lips.

Her tongue struggled desperately to avoid being touched, but I stubbornly followed it and mixed our saliva together.

“Hmph, slurp… mph! Hey, what are you… mmmph?!”

I had done it impulsively, but the feeling of pressing my lips against someone else’s was very special.

The strange sensation of someone else’s tongue touching the sensitive area of my tongue.

That experience, which I was feeling for the first time, sent a thrilling sensation through my entire body, and soon a sweetness followed that I couldn’t taste in any expensive food.

“Mmmph, slurp… s, stop… haa…!”

I could smell the alcohol, but it wasn’t enough to cover up the current elation.

It was like the barrier that had been covering my world had been lifted and the world was becoming clearer.

It might sound a little strange, but it was no exaggeration to say that I felt like I was reborn.

“Mmph, hmph… haa! W, what are you doing all of a sudden…”

She asked me like that, unable to make eye contact with me.

I knew that it was a sudden outburst.

But my bad brain couldn’t think of an effective way to shake off Seo’s self-loathing other than this.

“Think about it, Seo. Would I kiss someone I loathe?”

Seo is my first love.

I gave up after middle school, but I’ve started to like her again recently as we’ve gotten closer.

I’m too shy to actually say the same words out loud.

But even if I can’t persuade her with eloquent words, if I’ve done even this much, my sincerity should be fully conveyed.

Now Seo won’t say any weak things-.

“…I can’t believe it.”

Disappointment washes over me at the unexpected answer.

She doesn’t believe me even after doing this much, what else can I do?

At that moment, the corner of Seo’s lips slowly rose as she looked up at me.

“Show me with your body.”

“What?”

Her gaze, which was slowly moving down, stopped at my lower body.

To be exact, at my crotch, which was swollen without my knowledge from the kiss earlier.

“I still can’t believe you don’t loathe me… so show me with your body.”

Seo’s expression and voice as she said that were lighter than before.

My heart also became lighter, but the rod between my legs became heavier than ever.

“Okay. If you can’t believe me, I’ll make you believe me with my body.”