Ch. 216 MTF-Chapter 216
by AfuhfuihgsChapter 216
Once Again. (5)
I’m doomed.
I’m doomed. I’m doomed. I’m doomed. I’m doomed. I’m doomed!!!
“U-ugh, uuuu…!!!”
Unable to bear the embarrassment, I pummeled the blanket with both fists.
I’m crazy, I’m crazy, I’m crazy!
Why on earth did I react like that?
And in front of everyone, no less—actually crying my eyes out!
Th-they must’ve been really flustered…
It was rude to the listeners and to Toya as well.
I… I have to apologize.
But how?
How am I supposed to clean up after the mess I already made?
Should I take some time off to lie low…?
No—that would be the move of an amateur.
People who want to complain will complain no matter what.
If I don’t stream, they’ll gripe that I’m gone; if I do stream, they’ll gripe that I showed up.
In that case, better to go live and hear whatever they have to say.
“Toya…?”
Not here?
Sensing no sign of her, I let out a deep sigh.
She went to all the trouble of setting up that stage for me, and I cried like a fountain.
I distinctly remember Toya washing me afterward…
I’d sobbed so hard my whole body was slick with sweat and my face a mess of tears.
Maybe because I cried it all out, my head feels a little clearer now—
—not that I ever want to bawl like that again.
“Let’s start the stream.”
Best to rip the band-aid off quickly.
It’s not my usual slot, but—whatever.
Start. Start!
[Feels like the boss might take a week off.]
[First time I’ve seen her outright break down on stream… yikes.
Her mental state looked shot. There’s a live soon—she’ll still do it, right?
Please don’t ghost us again like last timeeeeee…]
└ But Han Yeoreum really overdid it this time… could’ve been a trauma trigger.
└ She’s trying to push through and go live again—respect.
└ If you look at it that way, aren’t all VSPE members the same? lol
└ Toya of all people should’ve known—kinda disappointing.
└ C’mon, she obviously meant well.
└ Meaning well doesn’t matter if the result was her crying, right?
└ I guess you’re not wrong…
[I’ve never in my life seen a human sob like that.]
└ Folks who called it WWE need to watch the VOD;;;
└ Even while she was weeping her heart out, chat kept spamming “don’t cry” lol
└ Joke around after you read the room, guys…
[Feeling weirdly down.]
[Honestly, I never got why people get sad when celebrities are sad.
But after seeing the boss cry, I’m kinda depressed too.]
└ Only Han Yeoreum herself can fix this, huh.
└ She doesn’t have to do a thing—I’LL take responsibility for her lol
└ Reported.
└ Our marriage license with the boss?
└ (Natsu, die right now, kon)
└ (Inari Pedophile-Exterminator Fist, kon)
[I was the type who never cared, but her stream yesterday legit put me in a funk lol]
[The boss looked like someone who’d never cry, yet she did…]
└ She’s shed tears before, but never flat-out sobbed like that.
└ First time is why it’s extra scary…
[Boss just went live?]
[(Natsu STREAM ON.MVI)
You’re not about to announce graduation or something, right? …Right?]
└ Taking a few days off is fine, but going live the next day is sus.
└ Is this her graduation stream?
└ If so, she’d plan it with the company and do it properly later lol
└ She quit without notice back as Han Yeoreum, though.
└ That was a totally different situation;;
└ You’re saying quitting because your gender changed overnight is the same as now?
└ If you think about it, this is an extension of that…
└ Please… just don’t say anything weird…
└ You don’t have to act normal; just don’t cancel the live or say you’re graduating…
└ Please please please please…
-Nat-chan!!!!
-You okay? Still feeling bad?
-I’m super sorry for startling you yesterday…
-It might’ve hit one of Nat-chan’s trauma switches…
-If you’re not well, you can rest, you know.
-Are you really all right?
The comment section’s mood was gloomy—no surprise after yesterday.
Some listeners were even afraid I might graduate.
…Well, that’s on me.
“I’m fine. Yesterday I was just moved… and a little overwhelmed, so I ended up crying.”
I met their gaze—camera-wise—and spoke clearly.
Yes, I messed up, but the mistake was crying so hard I couldn’t continue the stream, nothing more.
So I’ll say it proudly.
“On that note, there’s something I want to tell you all.”
-No!
-Do you have to say it now? Can’t it wait?
-Please don’t get serious on us…
-Just laugh and say it was a prank, Nat-chan.
-You’re not about to drop a bomb, right?
…Can’t say anything apparently.
Abort mission.
Seems I committed a capital crime.
Given my prior record, nobody could be sure I wouldn’t vanish again.
All my fault: who can guarantee the runaway won’t bolt twice?
“I’ll go all-out on this live—make up for the last one. And I’m not graduating. I won’t run away anymore.”
What listeners needed was certainty:
certainty that I’ll never quit;
and the relief that certainty brings.
Once I said it, comments poured in like rain.
-We believed in you, Nat-chan!!!
-As if you’d crumble from something that small ww
-I was worried, but if you’re not quitting, that’s enough lol
-Glad you seem to have sorted your feelings after that cry ww
-Nat-chan! Nat-chan! Nat-chan! Nat-chan! Nat-chan! Nat-chan!
-lol
【¥1000】
[Double-length stream today, Nat-chan?]
“Uh, can’t promise, but… I’ll try my best.”
Some worried comments popped up, but overall the vibe was positive.
Thank goodness—they do trust me.
If I were going to run, I’d have ghosted like last time.
I’m not the type to flee with a grand proclamation; I’d slip away without telling anyone.
“Anyway—time to sing!”
-All of a sudden?
-lololol
-Honestly, I’d rather see you like this 草
-A VTuber who breaks into an utawaku the day after ugly-crying… lol
-Technically makes it two days straight of utawaku, right?
-Yesterday was more crying than singing (笑)
-Are you re-doing “A Midsummer Night’s Dream”?
-wwwwwwww
Doesn’t matter what I sing, but… better to redo the song I botched yesterday.
Half determination, half enlightenment.
Ah, whatever. I already self-destructed; might as well enjoy it.
I surrendered to the backing track and started humming along.
…
“Phew—”
-You’re really giving it your all, Nat-chan ww
-By the way, some of these songs I’ve never heard—what are they?
-Yeah, what are they…
-Can we say it out loud, Nat-chan?
-Feels like we’ll get in trouble if we do lol
“You can say it. Just, you know, don’t go too far in that direction.”
Rather than clamp down hard, it’s better to loosen up a bit and let things mingle.
Since I’d decided to carry my previous life’s past with me, I had to make both sides get along.
So today I sang every original song from my Han Yeoreum days.
There aren’t many, so I sprinkled in favorites too.
【¥1000】
-By the way, Toya’s not here today?
“Ah—looks like Toya stepped out for a bit. Must have plans.”
-Gasp, trouble in paradise…?
-How could there be? It’s Toya’s place lol
-Nat-chan and Toya fighting? Impossible 草
-No collab scheduled today, right?
-Toya’s missing this? Nat-chan’s singing, come on wwww
-lol
Toya will probably catch the VOD later anyway.
In any case, I sang my heart out today.
Maybe because I cried out all that baggage, my body felt lighter than usual.
I felt like I could go onstage for a live concert right this second.
“Well then—that’s all for today.”
Feeling like you could and actually doing it are different stories, though.
Besides, I kinda wanted to message Toya.
-Huh? Why end so soon?
-I just got here—don’t leave, Nat-chan!!
-You started earlier, so finish later!!
-Good job, Nat-chan~
-Late-arriving Natsumin in tears wwwwww
-Watch the archive, you guys~ lol
-Natsukare~
-Natsukare~
-lol
[Stream has ended.]
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