Ch. 89 MtF – Chapter 89
by AfuhfuihgsChapter 89
**Yeoreum in Japanese Is Natsu. (1)**
**[Ichinose Natsu <— Pretty sure it’s Han Yeoreum]**
**[(Audio clip: A voice calling Natsu “Yeoreum”)
Toya brought her from Korea, and her name’s Yeoreum? That’s all the proof I need.]**
– So “Han-nyeoreum” was real after all…
– But Han Yeoreum was a _guy_. Natsu is a _girl_.
– Doesn’t matter. Just slap on a “twin sibling” plot twist and it all makes sense.
– Twin sibling?? How old do you think Han Yeoreum is, lol.
– There are cases where people change genders after becoming adults, statistically speaking.
– Didn’t Han Yeoreum say he had no siblings?
– FYI: twins aren’t typically called “siblings” in Japan.
– That’s Japan’s thing. In Joseon (Korea), they _absolutely_ are.
– (Han Yeoreum isn’t a girl.png)
– He _is_ a girl though, lol.
– Who would’ve guessed that reaction image would become reality…
– LOL
**[Do you _really_ believe Natsu is Han Yeoreum?]**
**[So many delulus in here, lmao.]**
– It’s obviously him. Toya’s Korean VTuber friend is named Yeoreum—how is this _not_ Han Yeoreum?
– Or maybe Toya just got close to Natsu _because_ her real name is Yeoreum.
– “Got close because their names matched” vs. “is literally the same person”
– She freaked out and ended the stream the moment her name was heard—come on, it’s obvious.
– Anyone would panic if their real name got revealed on stream…
– (Han Yeoreum suspicion intensifies.jpg)
– (Ichinose Natsu suspicion intensifies.jpg)
– Let’s just combine them, same person anyway.
– (Han Yeoreum: “But I’m pretty!” meme)
– I can’t believe that meme turned out to be true, lol.
– Gaygaygaygay…
– If she’s a girl now, that’s just normal attraction, right?
– (Inari FBI Alert.jpg)
**[If Ichinose Natsu _is_ Han Yeoreum, we’re done for.]**
**[I thought I’d never get aroused by Han Yeoreum, but if Natsu is Han Yeoreum, then I totally did. Fml.]**
– Take notes.
– No point keeping it. Time to snip.
– If you snip, I’ll buy you a burger.
– snip
– snip
– snip
– (Han Yeoreum loves burgers.jpg)
– snip
– One of these people is definitely Han Yeoreum, lol.
– Isn’t it worse if you were attracted to Natsu?
– Honestly, both are problematic lol.
– It’s “pedo vs gay,” no winning.
– It’s a trap card either way.
– (Inari FBI Alert.jpg)
– (Han Yeoreum isn’t a girl.jpg)
**[The most logical reason Ichinose Natsu is Han Yeoreum:
“Because it’s hotter that way.”]**
– lmao
– I seriously don’t get what’s supposedly “hot” about that.
– You’re telling me you _don’t_ find the idea of prideful Korean Han Yeoreum becoming a Japanese girl and getting trained by Toya hot?
– That’s… a massive stretch, dude;;
– This got real nasty real fast.
– Even Inari would run from this level of delusion, lol.
– But man, if it _were_ true, it’d be hilarious—guy disappears and comes back as a Japanese VTuber.
– He didn’t run away! It was a surprise reveal!
– What kind of surprise? He ditched his viewers and left, lol.
– Do you even know he got his contract terminated by Streamhouse?
– They dumped him, not the other way around, fyi.
– Whether it’s Han Yeoreum or Natsu, as long as it tastes good, right?
– gaygay
– Why gay? She’s a girl now. That’s normal attraction, lol.
– In Hell Joseon (Korea), if you change genders, you’re neither man nor woman, don’t you know that? lol
– She’s Japanese now though?
– “Japanese now”? What, nationality changes when you go on vacation?
– If Han Yeoreum’s twin is Japanese, they could both get dual citizenship ㅇㅇ
– Kimchi + sushi combo, huh…
– What kind of combo even is that lol
—
**”Yeoreum, are you okay?”**
“…Not at all.”
I slept well, but the worries swirling in my head were still there.
I considered checking out the community posts to see how people were reacting, but I was too scared I’d see something like _“Natsu = Han Yeoreum”_ and break down.
So instead, I was letting Toya comfort me while I wallowed.
Koyuki had been watching me nervously since she woke up, so I asked Ragu-sensei to take her home.
It really was all my fault…
“You said before you didn’t care if people found out.”
“That was… I mean, I didn’t think it’d happen _like this_…”
“But no one’s _certain_ yet, right?”
“…Yeah, that’s true.”
They weren’t certain. But I gave them enough clues to start guessing.
If I’m being honest, even if people figure out I’m Han Yeoreum, nothing really changes.
I’m still Han Yeoreum. And I’m also Ichinose Natsu.
So why—why do I hate the idea of people knowing Natsu is Han Yeoreum so much?
Why?
“Because I ran away.”
“…”
“It’d look so pathetic for someone with no excuse to just show up again like nothing happened.”
Because I was someone who ran away once.
I ran from the viewers who waited for my streams, from the company that supported me, even from my own home.
And after all that, what did I end up doing? Becoming a VTuber again. It’s almost laughable.
That’s why I didn’t want people to know that Ichinose Natsu is Han Yeoreum.
No big reason—just pure, simple fear.
“If there are people who’d hate you for it, then there are probably some who’d still like you, too.”
“…”
“C’mon now. You never used to care about stuff like this. Breathe, Yeoreum. Breathe.”
He was right. As I kept streaming, I learned to stop letting that kind of thing get to me.
Nestled into Toya’s arms, I let her gently pat my head while I quietly took in the comfort.
How did I manage to survive all that time alone before?
I’d seen videos on YouTube about how “humans need warmth from others” or whatever, but I never thought I’d be living proof.
It felt a little like being treated like a kid, but… I didn’t mind. Not right now.
“If you’re this scared, doesn’t that just mean you _really_ care about being a VTuber?”
“…Ah.”
His words hit me like a brick to the back of the head.
I _did_ care. But I hadn’t realized that’s _why_ I was scared of being exposed.
That’s right. I didn’t want to disappoint the people who loved Han Yeoreum.
If someone who disappeared without a word suddenly turned up as a VTuber again, they’d be shocked. Maybe hurt.
It might sound like an excuse, but I was torn between holding on to Han Yeoreum and letting her go completely.
“And you’re still Han Yeoreum, right? Maybe that’s why it’s so hard.”
“…Yeah.”
Han Yeoreum is Han Yeoreum.
From debut to my final stream, I was always me—not anyone else.
If I really wanted to hide, I would’ve changed my name back then.
Hearing Toya’s words cleared my mind a little.
Like I’d finally untangled at least _one_ thread in this huge mental knot.
“Thanks, Toya.”
“No need to thank me. If you’re ever worried, just talk to me—I’ll listen to everything.”
We were the same age, but Toya always felt so much more mature than me.
People say your mind follows your body… maybe I’ve gotten mentally younger along with getting physically smaller?
I let out a little sigh as I sat up, and Toya gave me this sad puppy face, likeshewanted to keep holding me.
Honestly, it always felt like Toya just wanted to cuddle me forever…
Even if I’m small, it’s not like I’m _that_ easy to carry, right?
“Ugh, I seriously wanna carry you around forever…!”
“If you do that, your leg muscles will atrophy, and that’d be super dangerous.”
Most people underestimate the value of walking, but for someone like me, walking is one of the best exercises I can do.
Since I can’t do high-intensity workouts, walking is pretty much all I’ve got.
Well, that and stretching.
Sometimes I’d follow those morning kid’s stretch routines on TV, and Toya loved it so much I started doing it more often.
…Let’s ignore the fact that the show was meant for _children_, okay?
“Anyway, thanks. I feel better now.”
I glanced down at my twitching toes and let out a deep breath.
Before the change, I was Han Yeoreum. After the change, I’m still Han Yeoreum.
That means Ichinose Natsu is Han Yeoreum too.
Which means I need to take responsibility.
For running away from my viewers.
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