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All kinds of emotions are swirling beneath the deeply shadowed face.

Jealousy, envy, resentment, self-blame, regret, etc.

All of these dark emotions that sicken the human heart.

A maturity that does not match his age, which he always showed.

Her true appearance, hidden behind it, looked dangerous, as if it would distort at any moment.

A lot of that too.

“It’s so amazing.”

Yoon Si-hoo and Jin Ha-rin.

Two people who have grown up together since childhood stimulate curiosity with their different feelings.

How did that young guy become so stubborn?

Also, how did this young junior come to harbor such venomous emotions inside?

It’s amazing that two people who seem as polar opposites as light and darkness have remained close until now.

At this rate, I don’t think it would be strange if we ended up getting angry at each other at some point.

“Um.”

I am lost in thought for a moment while holding the doorknob in my hand.

Is it right to open the door and leave like this?

If it’s something you’ve been hiding so closely, you probably don’t want anyone to see it.

The situation has already become a bit awkward since the last rejection, so I wonder if this could be the final blow.

After thinking for a moment, I make a small move.

“Yoon Si-hoo!”

“Yes, senior!”

Intentionally raise your voice louder than usual.

So that she can hear clearly from outside.

“I didn’t collapse today, so I can go home alone, right?”

“Of course! I’ll clean up after everything, so you can go in first!”

The guy who answers in a louder voice as if he doesn’t want to lose.

That kid must have boiled and ate a train barrel when he was young.

It was right then.

Jin Ha-rin, who was startled by a voice coming from the slightly open door, came to her senses and began running quickly to the other side of the hallway.

Crack, clap, clap!

“Phew.”

I think my choice was the right one.

If you see him running around like that, it probably means he doesn’t want to show his current self to others.

No matter how much a family-like guild is your dream, you have to protect what you protect each other.

“Well, I’m glad.”

Today, I succeeded in protecting the privacy of my future colleague.

* * *

Run and run again.

“Ha, ha… !”

Even though she is a wizard, she is a hunter.

Looking at his physical strength alone, he was breathing heavily even though he was absolutely out of breath.

move away from them

After running around, we arrived at an empty classroom at the Faculty of Magic.

Jin Ha-rin is calmly catching her breath in the silence that has descended with the chill that hasn’t gone away.

Rough breathing gradually recovers, and the fog-like confusion in my mind gradually clears.

“… … .”

Eventually, she regained her original appearance and remembered the story of the two people she had heard outside the training ground a little while ago.

-“So, I will become an S-class hunter.”

It is no exaggeration to say that the youngest S-class member is currently receiving the most attention in Korea, no, in the world.

My childhood friend did not feel intimidated in front of him and confidently expressed his aspirations.

-“So that no more victims are unfairly driven out.”

An ambition that can only be described as a pipe dream.

“I feel stupid.”

young.

It’s like a child who falls in love with a movie where a hero plays an active role and writes down ‘hero’ as his future wish.

But isn’t Yoon Si-hoo an adult well past that age?

So it wouldn’t be too much of a stretch to call him an idiot.

Actually, it wasn’t that big of a deal.

Because his sense of justice has been extraordinary since ancient times.

-“Grandma, I will listen to you!”

From small things, like helping an old woman carrying a heavy load in the opposite direction.

-“It’s okay, Oppa will save you!”

The biggest thing is going to the scene of a sudden fire and rescuing a child.

Others praise me for being great, but…

Every time she watched this, she had to try hard to hide the irritation rising inside her.

Why are you setting this up for the benefit of others when you can’t even do your job properly?

“Tsk… … .”

She clicks her tongue and frowns.

It’s because it suddenly occurred to me.

It is said that his skills have grown rapidly and are now not much lower than his own.

At the same time, until the moment when he coldly refused to ask me to teach him.

“Why on earth is he and I…? !”

It was unfair.

Why does Yoon Si-hoo work and you don’t?

Is it simply because his efforts look amazing?

That sounds funny.

When it comes to effort, she doesn’t lose.

“I am trying my best… !”

Everyone is mistaken.

She is a genius who can understand ten things if you teach her one thing.

So, as a rule of thumb, she is ten times more efficient and doesn’t have to work as hard as others.

Every time I hear that, I feel nauseous.

Because I feel like my efforts are being belittled by their words?

That’s true, but the real thing is yourself.

Even though she knows that hearing those words is not a good thing, she strives for just that one word.

I shed blood and sweat to inflate the one thing I learned into ten, and the actions of trying to elevate my shabby self and fill my lack of self-esteem after hearing that I was a genius without putting in any effort were all the more foolish.

I feel even more foolish and foolish for not being able to let go even though I know it is a foolish action.

“Why on earth only to me… !”

hate.

I don’t want to catch up with him.

I feel like I won’t be able to maintain my current life if I catch up with him for even the one thing I have.

That’s why I feel sorry for Kim Do-jin.

I hate him for wasting his time teaching Yoon Si-hoo and rejecting me.

At the same time, I was desperate.

I feel like he can completely relieve me of this anxiety I have.

She managed to control her emotions and headed straight home.

And the next day.

After finishing training as always, she went straight to Kim Do-jin.

“Senior.”

“Uh, why.”

“Talk to me for a moment.”

It was a trick she was sure to get.

Someone who will give me giant wings that will allow me to fly farther and longer.

* * *

I go into an empty club room, turn on the light, and make coffee.

Coffee is awesome.

Give her a cup of coffee made with perfect water control.

“Now, drink.”

“Thank you.”

Jin Ha-rin takes a sip of coffee as soon as she receives it and smiles pleasantly for a moment.

It’s really amazing.

It may seem like they are picky and picky about what they eat, but when you look at them, they eat just about anything.

She asked, feeling puzzled by my gaze.

“Why do you look at it like that… ?”

“No… , I suddenly realized that you are not a picky eater as you appear to be.”

what.

Is this rude?

“Ahaha… , sometimes there are people who misunderstand.”

Fortunately, it doesn’t seem to be too bad.

“Actually, it’s nonsense.”

She smiles sadly.

“There’s no way I could be a picky eater given my circumstances.”

“Ah… … .”

I forgot about it for a moment because it looked so sophisticated.

The fact that she is living at the house of her childhood friend Yoon Si-hoo.

“Oh, don’t misunderstand! Both of Sihun’s parents are kind to me.”

Just as the atmosphere was about to become solemn, Jin Ha-rin hurriedly waved her hand and spoke.

what… , I expected that to happen.

Because the chances of someone with a personality like Yoon Si-hoo being born from parents who are in the same class are very low.

Both of you must be personalities.

That’s why I took away my son’s childhood friend, who suddenly lost his parents and became an orphan.

but.

“I understand that feeling. No matter how good you are, you can’t help but be noticed.”

“Ah… … .”

The junior looked dumbfounded, as if he didn’t expect me to sympathize with him in that way.

Well, how many people can understand that feeling?

“It was like that. Senior too… .”

“Yes, that’s right.”

At least I know better.

What is the sadness that orphans experience?

You can’t just be grateful to someone who treats you well, and you can’t receive that feeling.

Everything given to me feels like an illusion, like a mirage, and I feel anxious every day.

“This is my first time.”

“What?”

“Talking with someone who understands exactly how I feel and sympathizes with me.”

“What… , Compared to the past, there are more orphans, but if anything, there are fewer children than children with parents. No one wants to show off that they are orphans.”

When he answered in a sour manner, Jin Ha-rin’s eyes widened slightly.

“Not to mention that, senior… , you’re not particularly shy… ?”

The question is strange.

“… Why should I be ashamed of that?”

“That is.”

“Even though I had a hard time growing up without my parents, I grew up like this, so I should feel proud.”

“… … .”

It’s not wrong.

But this is a realization I gained after a lot of time had passed and my mind had grown.

“Actually, I said that, but in the past, I was also embarrassed and unfair about being an orphan.”

I was like that too when I was young.

What on earth are our parents doing that made them abandon their children at an orphanage?

What on earth did I do so wrong that I couldn’t grow up like others and had to grow up in such a sad way?

Because of this sense of victimization, my interpersonal relationships were not very good, and my personality continued to become dirty.

“But what can you do? It’s not like we want to live like this.”

“Yes… Joe.”

Jin Ha-rin nods her head with a more depressed expression and agrees with what I say.

But for some reason, the depressed expression looks more lively.

“Hey, senior.”

“Yes.”

“Fact… , Yesterday, I heard a conversation between my senior and Sihu.”

what.

Why are you confessing that all of a sudden?

Open your eyes slightly wide and raise your voice.

“That was it? I had no idea. I guess you came to the training ground at night?”

“Yes… . I had something to study at the library, so I stayed there and was worried that I might collapse again.”

“Yes, yes. That’s possible.”

She continues.

“Sihoo was like that at that time. I want to change the world by becoming an S-class hunter… .”

“It was like that.”

“What do you think, senior?”

There is a deep look of anticipation on her face as she asks that question.

It looks like I have the answer you want.

Eyes filled with even stronger desire turn towards me.

“Please be honest. What did you think when you heard that?”

“Uh… , well.”

What did you think?

Without thinking much about it, I express the thoughts that came to my mind at that time.

“I was still young and didn’t know much about the world, but I thought I didn’t know much… De?”

Then she laughs.

Like a person wandering through the desert with a burning thirst and discovering an oasis.

Very bright.