Chapter 109: To be honest, I’m scared.

It’s a familiar ceiling.

My body still felt the effects of the medicine; I was very groggy.

It was as if glass walls had been erected above and below the waves of emotion; fear, pain, and sadness couldn’t branch out, but calmly submerged into the ripples.

Amidst that, what caught my eye was my dad and Seol Yoon, who were very worried about me, and one empty space for a person.

This was a scene where I should have been sad, but because my emotions were stripped away, I was okay.

Only after sleeping soundly once more did everything start to function normally.

I keenly felt anew that human emotions could be controlled by medicine to any extent.

How different is a bonsai-like life, lived on a bed with all emotions stolen by medicine, from a life lived passionately striving for something.

Considering the vastness of the universe and the smallness of humans, perhaps those two lives are essentially not very different.

“Unni, your hands are so cold.”

The most primitive method; Seol Yoon tightly held my hand, sharing her body heat, and made my hands warm.

“You didn’t go to school today either?”

“What a delinquent student.”

“Today is Saturday, unni.”

“Is it?”

Dad went to work even though it’s Saturday.

I smiled faintly.

It’s true that a person can do nothing in front of a gun, but to feel uniquely scared in front of a gun is a bit funny.

Most people in the world can easily kill me.

Whether they use a tool, or just their bare hands.

I am that weak and small.

A precarious life that would end if my neck bones were merely twisted.

So, this world is clearly built on goodwill and trust.

It’s not a grand story.

If there’s no belief that I won’t harm you and you won’t harm me, nothing can begin.

Even sending a child to kindergarten or entrusting them to school.

If a child were to be murdered at kindergarten…….

Sometimes, I find this world terrifyingly scary.

It feels like if even one thing goes wrong somewhere, everything will collapse.

Any value I’ve believed in can be overturned overnight.

That’s why it’s such a world where it’s hard to love anything.

“I… I took off my clothes while the stream was on, didn’t I?”

This isn’t a story about suddenly developing a strange exhibitionist tendency.

When I couldn’t breathe, I threw off everything pressing on my chest to survive.

Among them were clothes, and also fake breasts made of silicone.

Did I not take everything off completely?

I should have left at least one piece on.

Otherwise, I’d be suspended for violating nudity regulations.

If I get suspended…….

Even if I don’t get suspended, I probably can’t stream anymore.

Because the fact that I’m a liar has been exposed to the whole world.

“I’ve been caught.”

“That everything was a lie.”

Everyone will point fingers at me, curse me, and won’t cut me any slack anymore.

It’s nothing particularly special.

It’s just returning to the lonely state I was in before I started streaming.

“They said there’s nothing wrong with your body, so you can be discharged right away.”

“Shall we go eat something delicious together?”

When Seol Yoon is with me, I feel much more at ease than when I’m alone.

A reliable younger sister, much bigger and stronger than me.

We stopped by a decent restaurant and ate grilled beef.

In a separate room where we wouldn’t see other people.

Thanks to Seol Yoon offering it first, I also had a drink of alcohol.

I’m not an alcoholic.

It’s just sweet.

If I hadn’t done something stupid from the beginning, there wouldn’t have been a problem.

Why did I do such a stupid thing?

Making the choice to show a fake appearance.

I just shouldn’t have shown it.

I always create problems for myself.

I want to run away.

“Seol Yoon-ah.”

“When I apologize, will you stand behind me?”

“I think it’ll be too scary to do it alone.”

“It doesn’t matter if it’s not behind, beside me is fine too.”

“Even in front is good.”

“Thank you.”

But I won’t do something like making you stand in for me.

How can she cause incidents so often?

What Ex-Legend caused this time was a collaboration of two shocking incidents.

One was that she was a PTSD patient to the extent of having a panic attack while watching anime.

The other was that her famously ‘bursting’ chest, the source of her gaming prowess, was actually fake.

At the time of the incident, the situation was serious, so few people made an issue of it.

Due to the heavy atmosphere, it was a situation where no jokes, ridicule, or questions were permissible.

[Author: ㅇㅇ] [Wait, were those cosplay fake bobs????]

[Isn’t this fraud?]

─[Read the room before you spout nonsense, someone almost ded.]

└[FR, isn’t that a f*cking psychopath?]

However, after the manager posted an announcement on her behalf stating she had been safely hospitalized and there would be no major problems.

People began to seriously discuss the fraud.

[Author: ㅇㅇ] [Isn’t this deceiving the viewers?]

[How could she deceive them about that?]

─[Seems like she has PTSD from a stalking experience, I think we should understand even if she disguised herself.]

└[Didn’t she just disguise herself because she liked it?]

└[Sh*t, if you’re sick, does that mean you can deceive people?]

└[Did you suffer any loss from being deceived??? You enjoyed it too.]

└[FR ㅋㅋ]

─[This is a victory for the surviving ‘Flat Chest Alliance’ ㅋㅋ]

└[She’s flat.]

─[You were a total cutting board.]

└[Tap tap tap tap tap tap]

└[? What are you hitting/typing?]

└[Must be the sound of chopping ingredients on a cutting board.]

└[That’s not it.]

└[?]

[Author: ㅇㅇ] [I told you, those bobs on that height didn’t make sense, hahaha.]

[Loli-big-bobs don’t exist in reality.]

─[Yeah, we all know you were completely fooled.]

─[This bstard seems like the same bstard who panted every time she turned on her cam…]

└[The IP is just coincidentally the same, I’m a different person.]

─[Flat lolololol]

The logic of those denouncing her was that she was wrong because she deceived.

The logic of those defending her was that it was understandable because she was a patient.

If she were a celebrity, it wouldn’t have been easy to survive, but the ethical standards in the internet broadcasting world were quite lenient compared to those for TV or movie personalities.

Isn’t the internet broadcasting world where the trend of ‘pure fun,’ meaning ‘if it’s fun, that’s enough,’ began?

[Author: ㅇㅇ] [The reason Ex-Legend had no choice but to disguise herself.fact]

[(Broadcast clip of her saying she was shot and almost died)]

[(Broadcast clip of her having a panic attack while watching anime)]

[What had remained a mystery until now has been clearly revealed by this incident.]

[Ex-Legend was shot by a stalker, almost died, and survived.]

[That’s why she became a hikikomori and consistently showed a defensive attitude on stream.]

[(News article about a broadcaster murdered by a stalker)]

[In this situation, can we really blame Ex-Legend just for deceiving people about her chest size?]

[We should blame the stalker, blaming the victim is ridiculous in my opinion.]

Long shield posts were continuously and periodically uploaded across various communities.

Because there were a few desperate people eager to defend her.

And in reality, people weren’t as hostile or lacking in understanding as Seol-ah thought.

It’s just that some always-angry people are loud and talk a lot, so it seems that way.

[Author: ㅇㅇ] [Yeah, it’s the fault of the b*stards who got fooled ㅋㅋ]

[Our Ex-Legend unni did nothing wrong!]

[(AI-retouched screencap of her cam where her chest is changed to be flat as a cliff image)]

─[Seeing her face, suddenly it feels like she did nothing wrong.]

└[It’s true she did nothing wrong ㅋㅋ]

└[Agreed.]

─[Should we let it slide because she’s pretty?]

─[It seems like having no bobs suits her better too.]

─[But if her bobs were faked, isn’t her face also just makeup?]

└[If there’s a technique to do makeup like that, please distribute it.]

└[Could a hikikomori otaku room-corner shut-in Ex-Legend really be good at makeup?]

There were also people who said to forgive her because she’s pretty.

Although this didn’t seem like it would have a very positive effect on public opinion.

Separate from such posts, it’s a clear truth revealed by numerous studies that the better-looking receive lesser punishments.

[Ex-Legend has started a stream.]

[I am sorry.]

The evening after the incident occurred, the stream turned on.

Because it was such a big incident, people from other platforms, and even those who don’t usually watch internet broadcasts, flocked to it.

50,000, 100,000, the viewership rose to a whopping 150,000.

People rushed in from all over upon hearing news of the issue.

10 minutes after the stream started, the screen, which had only [I am sorry.] written on it, just like the title, finally switched to the cam screen.

Striking blue hair.

Yes, only now did people realize.

The hair she had shown until now was always a wig.

And probably this hair too.

A girl in a black suit jacket and black pants.

She bowed deeply from the waist.

“I am truly sorry for deceiving all you viewers until now.”

“It was too scary to reveal my true self in front of so many people, and it still is.”

“This might sound like an excuse, but I never had any intention of gaining more popularity or attention with it.”

“I will take responsibility and retire from broadcasting, and all donations will be fully refunded.”

“Once again, I am sorry.”

[This stream has already ended.]

Gathered people, said her piece, and then fcking ran!

No, I’m telling you to see if the viewers are actually angry!

I’m saying it was fun, she’s pretty, so that was enough!

But Seol-ah, who lacked the courage to look at public opinion and the chat window, just chose to fcking run!

<[No, why quit streaming all of a sudden?]>
<[Waaah don’t go, waaah don’t go, waaah don’t go.]>

<[No, public opinion is so good, what on earth did she see?]>

<[I’d bet my wrist that btch didn’t look at the chat window at all.]>

<[Aww, seriously, such a chicken-hearted btch.]>

<[Coward hahahahaha.]>

<[Ex-Legend! I love you even if you’re a cliff!!!]>

<[If you’re part of the ‘Flat Chest Alliance’ who actually likes her more because she’s a legal loli, hit like hahahahaha.]>