I Can’t Change Back (1)

My mind went completely blank.

‘Huh?’

What am I supposed to wear? What about school? How do I explain this to my parents? This isn’t my real body. I don’t know the first thing about a woman’s body. What do I do now? What do I do now? What do I do now?

‘Okay, calm down. Stay calm.’

“Get a grip, Lee Han-gyeol. Are you going to live like this?”

Let’s think of a solution. Should I try a magic potion? It’s a magic potion, not a mana potion, but still… will it work? It’s not like I have a choice but to try…

Magic potions restore mana. But there’s a reason they’re called magic potions and not mana potions. Mana is a type of magic, but not all magic is mana. In some cases, magic potions can restore the types of magic that aren’t mana.

The Awakened Center? Even if they could fix this, everyone would find out this woman is me, and I don’t want that. I’ll try the magic potion first, and if that doesn’t work, I’ll go there.

First, the magic potion…

Magic potions are expensive. That’s because their main ingredient, ‘magic stones,’ are expensive. But that’s usually not a problem, since the people who use ‘expensive’ magic potions are the ones who earn ‘expensive’ magic stones.

Unless, of course, you’ve just Awakened and ‘carelessly’ used up all your mana and now need a magic potion.

Ah, that works too. The Awakened Center provides magic potions for newly Awakened individuals.

‘But that won’t work for me.’

The Awakened Center provides magic potions, yes. But only after you register as an Awakener.

And for the record, you need to bring your ID to register.

It would be pretty interesting to show up with a man’s ID in this body.

Of course, people with Transformation traits sometimes show up to register because they’ve run out of magic and can’t change back.

They drink a magic potion, undo their transformation, and then register as an Awakener.

For those with Transformation traits, they usually get a special registration card with their transformed appearance on the back, in addition to the standard one.

After all, if you go wandering around outside a gate while transformed, who knows what might happen…

It would probably end like the bad ending of some mistaken-identity story.

But in my case…

…

I can’t just buy one with my own money, either. Magic potions can have side effects on non-Awakened individuals, so their sale is restricted. You can only buy them after you’ve registered as an Awakener.

‘This is so fucking complicated.’

No, wait. I just need to get my hands on one. I’m an Awakener now, after all.

Someone comes to mind.

My best friend—my ball-buddy, you could say (though I don’t have any balls right now)—Choi Shin-woo.

He’s an Awakener.

An Enhancement-type, from what I remember.

I should call Shin-woo right—

My voice…

I sent Shin-woo a message instead.

Me: Hey, I need a magic potion. Got any to spare?

Choi Shin-woo: Why? Did you Awaken?

Me: yep

Choi Shin-woo: For real? Congrats, man. What’s your trait?

Me: Elemental Mage

Choi Shin-woo: What element?

Me: Fire

Choi Shin-woo: Not bad. grats

Me: I actually have two traits.

Choi Shin-woo: fr? fucking jealous. what’s the other one?

Me: Transformation

Choi Shin-woo: whoa fr? that’s insane. what do you turn into?

…On second thought, I probably shouldn’t write ‘succubus.’

Me: Um, a woman?

Choi Shin-woo: ? no fucking way

Hmm, how do I make him believe me?

I wrote ‘Lee Han-gyeol’ on a piece of paper, placed it on my chest, and took a picture.

Then I sent it.

Choi Shin-woo: ??? for real?

Me: Yeah, but I’m out of magic and can’t change back. I need a potion.

Choi Shin-woo: ? lolololololol

Me: dude, please

Choi Shin-woo: lolololol ok. heading to your place now.

Me: ok thx thx

Choi Shin-woo: I’ll grab some booze and order food on the way. to celebrate your awakening.

Me: thx thx

Thank god. He’s bringing it.

First, I need to get dressed…

The clothes are incredibly tight and uncomfortable. Of course they are, with a chest this size…

My nipples brush against the fabric, sending a strange sensation through me. That’s weird. I never felt anything like that before.

I managed to pull on some underwear and shorts. The feeling was both snug and strangely empty.

*

Ding-dong—

The doorbell rang.

I swung the door open, and our eyes met.

“…Lee, Han-gyeol? …Is that you…?”

“Yeah, it’s me. Come in.”

Choi Shin-woo.

I don’t remember his exact trait, but I know he’s an Enhancement-type who mainly focuses on physical strengthening.

We went to middle and high school together, but he Awakened in high school, dropped out, and started working as an Awakener.

He’s tall, in the mid-to-high 180s, and handsome. And since he’s an Enhancement-type, he’s got a great body.

He’s always popular whenever our old school friends get together. I’m so damn jealous.

But the bastard just stood there, staring at my face instead of coming in.

“Get in here already, you asshole.”

“Is that really you, Han-gyeol? Holy shit. You’re fucking gorgeous. Can you just not change back?”

“Shut up and give me the potion.”

“Alright, here. You twist it open like this.”

“Thanks.”

It was a transparent liquid that gave off a faint blue glow. I knew it was a low-grade potion, but it would be more than enough for someone who just Awakened.

As I chugged it down, I glanced at Shin-woo. The bastard was still staring at me.

“Hey, can I touch your boobs?”

He must have thought I couldn’t answer while drinking, because he wasn’t filtering himself at all.

Fortunately, I was able to express my feelings wordlessly by raising my middle finger.

Hic.

After finishing the potion, I let out a small burp and checked my condition.

I felt like something had entered my body, but at the same time, maybe not…

‘Did my Essense replenish?’

Ding!

[Essense: 0/1210]

A sense of dread washed over me. But I had no choice. I had to try.

‘Undo Transformation!’

[Insufficient Essense. Cannot use ‘Skill (A) – Undo Transformation’.]

Not a chance in hell!

“Nooo!!”

*

It’s bitter.

The soju is bitter. The pork is delicious, though.

“Isn’t there usually some kind of condition to change back? Not that you have to, of course. Living like this doesn’t seem so bad.”

“What are you talking about?”

“Seriously, is there no condition? There usually is.”

“I don’t know… I guess I’ll have to go to the Awakened Center.”

There is one, but I can’t tell him.

“Tsk. Right. Can’t be helped. Anyway, you did Awaken. Congratulations, Lee Han-gyeol.”

“Thanks.”

Our paper cups clinked together.

“If you’re so thankful, can’t you let me touch them just once?”

“Fuck off.”

“Alright, alright, you bastard. Congrats!”

That’s right. No matter what, I had Awakened. This was just the beginning.

…It’s sweet.

The soju is sweet.

*

The room was slowly spinning even when I stood still, and it felt good.

“Hey, my tits are fucking huge, you know? The clothes make them look a little puffy, but they’re actually huge.”

“They look it. Here, pull your shirt tight against your body. Let’s see.”

“Alright, hold on. How’s this?”

“Whoa, they’re massive, you bastard. They look fucking huge like that.”

“And they’re so pretty. I’ve seriously never seen boobs like these.”

“I can believe it.”

“And you know what’s even more important?”

“What?”

“They’re pink.”

“…Huh? What is? Your nipples?”

“Yeah. My nipples are pink. The color is so fucking pretty.”

Neither of us could stop laughing.

“Seriously, can’t you just show me? I brought you the magic potion, you know. That stuff’s pretty expensive. I won’t touch. Just let me see.”

It didn’t work, but I was still grateful. And he did order all this food to celebrate, so maybe I could be generous just this once.

I giggled and said, “Alright, just looking, no touching, okay?”

“Okay, okay.”

I slowly took off my shirt. And there they were, my magnificent breasts, revealed in all their glory.

“Whoa…”

“What do you think? Fucking pretty, right?”

“Wow, they’re really pretty. And they’re really pink, huh?”

“The texture is insane, too. So soft, so squishy.”

While I was grinning from ear to ear, squeezing my own breasts, Shin-woo just stared at them blankly, sipping his soju.

I glanced down and, whoa, his lower half was really standing at attention. When did it get so big?

The alcohol and a sense of mischief were bubbling up inside me.

“Freeze. Trying to pull a fast one?”

I grabbed Shin-woo’s dick. Damn, this bastard was well-endowed. I was jealous. Tall, big dick, big muscles.

Shin-woo flinched in surprise for a moment, then—

Slap!

He grabbed my breast. Then he flinched again and gave it a gentle squeeze.

Squish!

As I felt the sensation in my breast, the dick in my hand gave a powerful throb.

“Hey, let go.”

“You grabbed first. You let go, you bastard.”

“On three, okay? One, two, three.”

I let go. But the bastard was a beat too slow.

“Wow. Look at this guy. Can’t get enough, can you? Disappointed?”

“Yeah, I am. They’re so fucking soft.”

I giggled, teasing him. This was fun.

“Be like that old miser, take a sip, take a look. You know the story, right? Nah, it’s not like they’ll wear out. Just watch while you drink. Cheers.”

Our paper cups clinked.

*

The world was spinning. Really spinning.

And it felt just as good. I felt like I was on the verge of danger, but today, it was okay.

Farewell, everyone!

I’m casting off all the assignments and exams of this world to find my own happiness!

I hope you all find happiness too!

I glanced at Shin-woo. This bastard looked like he’d already left this world.

We’d finished all the food, so I told him to use my breasts as a side dish to look at while he drank. Just how much did he have?

His eyes were half-lidded as he propped his chin up with his left hand, his right arm kneading my breast.

What the—when did he start doing that? How long has it been? Ugh, I’m dizzy. But he’s pretty good at it.

“Hey, you okay? Go sleep if you’re tired.”

“…I can still touch them more.”

“What are you saying?”

“Seriously, don’t change back. It’d be such a waste of those boobs.”

“Whatever. And actually, I do know how to change back.”

At those words, Shin-woo’s eyes shot open.

“What is it? You knew this whole time? You’re enjoying this, aren’t you? You don’t want to change back, do you?”

“Don’t be ridiculous. Ugh, should I tell him or not?”

“Tell me. I’m already kneading your tit. What’s there to hide?”

“Oh, there’s plenty. And now you’re touching my nipple?”

“Tit, nipple, same difference.”

“Ah, this bastard.”

He was rubbing my nipple, switching between his thumb and forefinger, then his forefinger and middle finger, going through all the permutations. You’re going to wear it out, you asshole.

I glanced down and saw that the peak of his taut, gray sweatpants was wet. If I focused, I could see it twitching slightly.

But even so, its majestic form didn’t falter. At this rate, he might as well be pissing precum.

“Hah, fine. My transformation trait is actually… a succubus.”

“…A succubus? Like, the one I’m thinking of?”

“Yep, that one.”

“The one that approaches sleeping people, has sex with them, and sucks out their life force?”

“Yep, that one.”

“…But you’re a guy. A guy transforming into a succubus…”

He trailed off before bursting into laughter. I don’t know what he found so funny. Actually, now that I thought about it, it was pretty funny.

I burst out laughing with him. But the bastard was still touching my breast even while he laughed.

He finally stopped laughing and said, “But isn’t there a male version of that?”

“That’s an incubus. I’m a succubus.”

We both exploded into laughter again.

Shin-woo finally managed to compose himself.

“So what does that have to do with you not being able to change back?”

Oh, a friend is a friend, after all. He was still trying to find a solution for me.

So I explained it briefly. I was drunk, so I was probably rambling, but I explained it briefly nonetheless.

About the ‘Essense’ needed to undo the transformation, the ‘Essense Absorption’ needed to get the Essense, and a few details about ‘Essense Absorption.’

And the conclusion.

“So, to change back, I have to have sex with a guy and have him finish inside me. Pfft—”

And I laughed. Ah, this was hilarious.

But Shin-woo’s expression was different.

It was serious, his face flushed from the alcohol. But if you looked closely, his eyes were a little unfocused.

Shin-woo drained the soju in his paper cup and said, “Then do it with me.”