Lamentation

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<Side : Muse Symphony>

“Clergy must maintain their purity.”

A long-standing misunderstanding and slander against the clergy. To put it bluntly, I’m here to tell you that this rumor is completely different from the truth.

Where did this misunderstanding originate? The most likely origin lies in the Magic used by the Priests.

Among the Magic of the Priests, there are some that can only be used if men remain virgins and women remain chaste. However, there is also a theory that this malicious misunderstanding arose because some Clergy obsessively forced this upon others, rather than just themselves.

Before I became a Priest, when I was just a knight, it was just a story I would brush off and ignore, but now that I myself am the subject of this misunderstanding, I feel quite strange.

Of course, I’m not a virgin. I’ve already been with Lacey, and… actually, the only reason I lost my virginity was because I tore it while riding a horse. I remember being startled when blood suddenly flowed from my crotch while I was learning to ride.

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『Month of the Cross – 27th (Morning)』

“Too much has happened. This is really hard.”

The Lord put on such a serious face and told me to stay in the Healing center until the missing person case subsided, but it was all for naught, as I was able to leave soon enough.

I heard that the missing person case had been resolved, and all the missing vagrants had returned without any problems. They didn’t say that the culprit had been caught, but seeing that I was able to leave, it seems like it was resolved well.

“But is it okay for me to come out this quickly?”

It’s a hundred times better than being stuck in that stuffy Healing center, but they didn’t tell me, the victim, everything. I wonder if there’s a reason, but it’s still annoying that they locked me up and then told me to leave whenever they wanted.

“If Lacey were here at times like this, we could at least share a drink and vent… I miss her.”

I had already told the worried junior Priests that I would be going to the Church sometime today, so they didn’t need to come and pick me up. I changed into the Clerical Robe I had prepared in advance and headed to the Church.

So, what did I do while I was in the Healing center? I gaze at the blue sky filled with white clouds and sink into thought for a moment.

“I should probably cancel the lecture…”

Even though I may look fine on the outside now, the attack targeted me, the High Priest. Whether it was audacious or they had some kind of backing, I thought it would be better to cancel this lecture, where I would be bringing outsiders into the Church to seek advice, because of the attack.

Of course, I’m not suspecting Justis, the head of the orphanage, but I decided to temporarily suspend any actions that could endanger the safety of other Priests, including the possibility of a one-in-a-million chance, even after the incident subsides.

The Checkpoint for bringing in outsiders will probably be operated more strictly as well. Anyway, I wrote a letter for that purpose and sent it to Justis by express mail.

It’s probably arrived by now. He’s someone I managed to invite with difficulty through Clarice’s connections, but it’s being canceled for such a trivial reason… Nothing is working out.

And of all people, I was the one who was attacked, and with sexual harassment at that, and Lacey was conveniently away… I absentmindedly recall him as I fidget with the ring on my left ring finger.

“Where did you go without saying anything to me, Lacey…”

The engagement ring he gave me. He said he spent a whole month rolling around in the deserts of the Empire to find the materials to make it, and I can’t even begin to fathom the sincerity contained in this ring.

Just hoping that Lacey would return safely, my steps, which had been lost in thought, stopped abruptly in front of the Church.

–Creak…

I open the Church door wide and continue the steps I had paused for a moment. I feel relieved at the sight of the Church, which is the same as always.

The Stained glass reflecting the sunlight and illuminating the floor in rainbow colors, the Organ that I personally maintain every day, and the noble statue of the Goddess.

Yes. This makes me realize that I have returned to my daily life. And even the fellow Priests who have blended into the scenery. The Priests, who had confirmed that I had entered, stopped what they were doing and rushed towards me all at once.

“Muse Priest! Are you feeling alright? Is there still anything wrong with you…!”

“We were really worried about you, Priest! Are you sure it’s okay for you to return to work?”

“You don’t have to rush back to work. You can rest a little longer…”

Welcoming faces, all filled with words of concern and sighs of relief. Thanks to their worried words, I was able to relieve some of the burden on my mind. But…

“Thank you all for your concern. As you can see, I’m fine. I’m not hurt anywhere.”

Unlike my words, the Priests’ gazes were not the same as before. The former Priests had eyes filled with admiration or a bit of jealousy, the kind of eyes that ordinary humans might have. The current ones had a slightly different look in their eyes.

The ability to grasp the truth hidden in the gazes of others, which I had developed, unwillingly, when I was a knight, a middle manager, or the head of a group. When I look at the Priests’ eyes again with this so-called trick… Emotions hidden beyond the welcoming expressions.

Some send gazes of pity and compassion. Since I had a fiancé, it’s an emotion that anyone would feel if I were sexually harassed by someone. Of course, I would have felt the same way, and this is understandable to a certain extent.

Others are relieved. Relief at my safe return without a single scratch, or relief that the ordinary daily life of the Church has returned. This was also an emotion that was naturally felt. However…

There were those who were expressing feelings of disgust. The object of disgust was none other than me. Why? I’m the victim, the wronged party. This point alone was completely incomprehensible.

Could it be that they also believe in silly stories like ‘Clergy must maintain their purity’? Because of that, they think that I lost my virginity when I was attacked? It’s an absurd assumption. But if it’s not such an absurd story, it’s impossible to explain why they’re sending such gazes towards me, the clear victim.

“Haha…”

“Muse Priest?”

“Are you really okay?”

“If you’re still uncomfortable, you can go home now.”

A hollow laugh escapes my lips. They say that people pay more attention to one criticism than to ten thousand compliments? I felt a sense of emptiness for some reason. But I couldn’t be gloomy just because of something like this. I can’t push away their worried hearts with just one look.

“Ahem. No, I’m really fine. More than that, I need to take care of the backlog of work that piled up while I was away. And there’s something I need to tell you.”

Clearing my throat, I straightened up the chaotic atmosphere and told the assembled Priests about the Church’s policies that I had thought about while I was in the Healing center.

“First of all, I’m going to suspend the evening prayer meeting for the time being. Prayer for the Goddess is certainly important, but there may be thugs who are targeting us in the meantime. The Goddess wouldn’t want us to get hurt because of prayer for her. Therefore, for safety reasons, we will temporarily suspend the evening prayer meeting, and our Priests will leave work early. The prayer meeting will be restarted after the situation has calmed down.”

“R-Really?”

“For safety… But what if the Goddess doubts our faith because of that?”

“Wait, wait a minute…!? Don’t say that! The Goddess will definitely understand!”

Some smiled at the words of leaving work early, some Priests with deep faith protested my statement and gave me even more hateful gazes, and some Priests were embarrassed as they tried to stop him. Various reactions appeared. Of course, I had expected this much.

“I understand your objections. But you guys are more important to me. I don’t want more victims like me to increase. For the same reason, the lecture that I was going to do with Justis is also going to be canceled. The Lord’s side will also be extremely sensitive to the entry of outsiders for the time being, since this kind of thing has happened.”

In order to quell such resentment, I used the fact that I was attacked in reverse. The real meaning contained within it is… ‘If you don’t want to be attacked like me, follow my words’.

It’s a rough method that exaggerates the Lord’s words a little, but there was no more effective way than this to persuade them one by one.

The Priests who heard my words each had subtle expressions, but they didn’t offer any more opposing opinions. Perhaps they also felt it implicitly. Something like the fear that they could also become victims.

–Clap…!

I clapped my hands together to change the heavy atmosphere and continued the interrupted story. I said I wouldn’t do the evening prayer meeting, but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t do anything else.

“The time for praying to the Goddess has been reduced, so shouldn’t we offer prayers more purely and more sincerely for the reduced time? In that sense, let’s clean up this Church, which is the Goddess’s Temple. Everyone, go out and buy some cleaning supplies to let everyone in the Territory know about the news I just told you, okay?”

“Y-Yes? Suddenly?”

“Ah… Come to think of it, we were running low on cleaning supplies.”

“Then will Muse Priest remain here?”

I sent everyone on errands. I don’t need to force everyone to go, and of course I know that it’s much better to form a buddy system for safety reasons and have a few people stay behind together.

The reason I’m sending everyone away is a bit due to personal feelings. I became a bit emotional because of the emotions beyond the gazes that I felt from the Priests just now, and I impulsively blurted it out.

“Someone has to stay in the Church. And in the first place, I was attacked in the middle of the night, so there probably aren’t any morons who would come to attack the Church again in broad daylight. If they did it again, the Goddess’s divine punishment would befall them, right? So don’t worry about me, and everyone, go and come back.”

“Understood. Muse Priest. But you still have to be careful!”

“Ah… Then what should I buy?”

“Where should we start looking?”

Worry and indifference, disgust and pity. Admiration and deviation. After all the Priests, with their swirling emotions, left, the Church became quiet.

I approached the very center of the Church, where the sunlight was gathered, and knelt down. It felt like a warm, soft blanket was wrapping around my body, a cozy and fluffy feeling.

In order to organize my complicated feelings, in order to offer a prayer to the Goddess. I close my eyes tightly, put my hands together, and chant the Prayer.

“Hecate Goddess. Forgive me for having just harbored impure thoughts. Punish my narrow mind for not embracing my colleagues. Please do not forgive our wicked act of reducing the prayers we offer to the Goddess because of our lowly greed.”

I recite the Prayer again with a heart of repentance and atonement. In addition to that…

“It is an impudent request, but please protect the path of Lacey Glyss, who will become the spouse of the Goddess’s lowly servant. Please allow me to see her again soon.”

My love, my benefactor, and my spouse. Lacey will also be back soon, now that the situation has calmed down. So, earnestly hoping that she will return without any mishaps, my eyes close again under the warm sunlight, and I feel like I’m about to fall into a languid sleep.

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<Side : The 10th Apostle, Muse Symphony/10th Rank – Buer>

[Muse… I’m going to put it in♥]

[Ah, Grace♥ Give me more of your semen♥ Fill my Womb with your semen♥]

[Yes, Muse♥ Everything is for our mother, the Goddess♥]

[Of course, Grace♥ My love, everything exists for the Goddess. You, me, and everyone in this world. Kkya-hat♥]

Ah… Are you watching, ‘me’? I’m so happy like this♥ I’ve officially married Grace, and soon, when this world is dyed in the Goddess’s colors, I’ll be pregnant with Grace’s child, and I’ll also carry the Goddess’s child♥ I hope you’ll one day come to know this joy of serving the Goddess with Grace♥

I’m going to make a song for the Goddess from now on. I’ll infuse my Magical power into every melody and tune, and I’ll make and play a song that corrupts all the humans who listen to it into the Goddess’s Slave Incubus, a song that makes them climax, Ejaculation, and despair just by listening to it♥

So Muse. Don’t bother struggling in vain, obediently succumb to Grace’s Dick, obey the Goddess’s Cunt, and accept your predetermined fate♥ At this point, you already belong to the Goddess. The Goddess is holding the strings of your destiny.

[Resisting is meaningless. Yes, I’ll play to mourn my poor past♥ You’ll help me, right? Grace♥]

[Hooht♥ Ohooht♥ Muse’s Cunt is so tight, it feels like my Dick is melting♥]

[Hehe, Grace is such a fuss♥ The Goddess’s Cunt is much better than someone like me, but seeing you do this, I think we’re really compatible♥ Okay, then I’ll play. Listen carefully. Mu, se♥]

–Pang♥ Pang♥ Pang♥ Pang♥

–Squelch squelch squelch squelch♥♥

–Slurp slurp slurp slurp♥♥

–Kiss… Chyu-rururubbrbrbrb♥♥

–Byuryuryuryuryuryut♥♥ Beutbyubyubyutpyupyut♥♥♥

–Pshuuuuuuut♥♥♥

You can hear the harmony of countless sex acts♥ I am your future and your present. The Depravity that will surely come someday. I’m a perverted Succubus who proudly shakes my Dick even though I’m a female, and likes to suck Dicks while sticking them in my Cunt♥ I love you. My pathetic past, Muse♥

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