Chapter 92: Things that never change (8)

When was the first time I met Laura?

In my dream, I went back in time.

When I first met her, she was a haughty little brat with few words and venom in every sentence.

I think that was about the extent of my impression.

She’s become quite talkative and her personality has softened now, but back then, it was quite difficult to become close with Laura.

It would be more accurate to say that I had almost given up.

But at some point, I came to my senses and she was always seducing Suhyun.

Even though she has the Eyes of Charm, it didn’t take long for Laura to become a female.

And this story is about how she had countless relationships with Suhyun.

Thinking about it, I haven’t been able to catch Laura and Suhyun having a relationship since the incident at the fortress ended, starting in the fall, so maybe she was being careful during the pregnancy stabilization period.

Well, if that’s the case, she should be pregnant by now.

I’ll figure this out gradually.

“Ah, didn’t the Hero have someone he liked?”

“She’s just like a friend.

You already know that you’re the one I really like, right?”

Her attempt to erase memories related to pregnancy, and the nausea she showed me recently.

Perhaps because I thought Laura was pregnant, the dream started to show me increasingly unpleasant scenes.

Laura glances at me for a moment, then continues to seduce Suhyun, and Suhyun answers Laura, saying that I’m just a friend and that there’s no other relationship between us.

There’s no lie in those words, but for some reason, I felt annoyed.

“Ugh… wait a minute, the baby in my belly…”

“The period you have to be careful has already passed, right?

Or are you pretending to be innocent because Sera is watching?”

“Hehe, really.

Anyway, she’s an outsider, so she’ll be too busy pretending she didn’t see anything, right?”

The panting voices of Laura and Suhyun.

Feeling the moaning sounds, I was lying on an old inn bed before I knew it.

And from the next room, I kept hearing the squelching sounds.

It’s the scene when I was misunderstanding the Hero for a long time, when I was misunderstanding that he had corrupted the heroines with the Eyes of Charm.

The difference is that back then, I only heard moaning sounds and the creaking of the bed, but now, even though there’s definitely a wall, I could hear all kinds of lewd sounds and voices disparaging me.

I know it’s a dream, but I felt a sense of defeat for no reason.

“Ugh…”

Why do I feel so bad?

Suhyun and I are friends, and when you think about it, he’s Laura’s husband.

Rather, isn’t me getting worked up just a nuisance?

Even with those thoughts, I lay in bed and quietly curled up.

From beyond that wall, I can still hear moaning sounds.

What kind of play are they doing, what form of love are they sharing?

The more I imagine, the more my body becomes soaked with sweat.

Was spring this hot?

Without realizing it, my hand started to move downwards.

Come to think of it, how long has it been since I comforted myself?

I haven’t felt much sexual desire since I became this body, and I’ve just been taking it as it comes.

A strange feeling comes with the sense of defeat.

What kind of emotion is this?

I wanted to know the answer, but I was too busy panting while moving my hand, so I couldn’t even think about anything else until I woke up from the dream.

In the end, my fingers were moving busily like a monkey who had just discovered pleasure.

The good thing is that it was in a dream, so when I woke up, my body was just damp with sweat, and there was nothing else wrong.

In the first place, if I did such a thing with this creaky body, pain would come before pleasure.

Let’s try not to think about how the servants who were washing the bedding asked if I was in a lot of pain last night.

The important thing is that I’m going to meet Laura today.

Currently, my fashion is a white dress with a string tied around the waist, giving a ribbon-shaped point in the front.

You might say, why is she putting so much effort into just meeting a lizard brat, but recently, the Hero Party seems to be meeting without me knowing, so I couldn’t let my guard down.

I can’t wear comfortable clothes in front of so many people, can I?

Of course, I also have my favorite nun’s habit, but I decided not to wear it unless I’m visiting a church.

Unless I’m going to the Holy Kingdom, I don’t think I need to be like that even in the capital.

Still, were the string sandals on my bare feet too much?

The rather chilly wind made me think that I couldn’t let my guard down even though it was spring.

“Then shall I wait?”

“Ah, yes.

I’ll be out after talking for a bit.”

The coachman tells me where he will be waiting.

I blocked the wind with my hand and smiled brightly, then moved my steps.

The goal is the mansion where Laura lives.

I’ve already contacted her to let her know that I’m visiting, so I won’t be making a wasted trip.

As expected, the servants came out of the mansion and started to greet me.

My body still hasn’t healed, so I stagger every time I walk.

I heard that Saintesses can even heal wounds contaminated with magic, but I’m just a high priest who is limited to healing and blessing, so I don’t have such talent.

Tsk, thanks to that, I haven’t even had a chance to heal until now.

Lightly ignoring the worries of the servants who quickly approached and grabbed my hand, I felt regret.

Sometimes Lina asks me if I have any thoughts of learning black magic, and I myself only have the talent for creating holy fire.

Would it have been a little better if I was a gentle being like a real Saintess who could heal others?

The incompetent knight Natalia has no presence, but she has a lot of money.

Thanks to that, I can eat well and live well wherever I go without worrying about expenses.

Moreover, she comes from one of the most prestigious families among the prestigious families.

Unlike me, who is just the face of the Holy Kingdom and has little practical power.

In the first place, I couldn’t even be that face.

What about the lizard-like brat Laura?

She’s practically Suhyun’s wife, and her magical skills have become impossible for anyone to catch up to.

I really envy her ability to show the best efficiency in her assigned position.

I’m just a Saintess who is putting out fires.

Really, if I was even a little more like a Saintess, I wouldn’t have masturbated in defeat in my dream last night.

Ah, cancel that.

What I did yesterday wasn’t such a lewd act.

I quickened my pace to try to erase my thoughts.

“Hello…”

When I entered the mansion, I saw Laura with dark circles under her eyes, as if she hadn’t slept all night.

Seeing her greet me with sleepy eyes, I felt an ominous feeling.

Does she have any worries?

It’s the first time I’ve seen Laura looking so gaunt.

Still, I came to this place to resolve the misunderstandings and secrets between us.

Now that I’ve decided to have more conversations with my companions, I had no intention of backing down.

“Hello?

I have something to talk about today…”

First, I greet her, then trail off and give the servants a look.

Then, reading the atmosphere, the servants start to disappear one by one.

There was no one in the living room, but just in case, Laura created an additional magic barrier.

Then, Laura made a noise like “Ugh…” and staggered for a moment.

Magic shouldn’t fail, and there shouldn’t be any backlash.

I was startled and approached her, but Laura just said she was fine and guided me to my seat.

“It’s okay, what do you want to say…?”

“That’s…”

Is she really okay?

If her body hurts, shouldn’t she get treatment first?

“I’m… fine.

Divine power isn’t very meaningful…”

“B, but still…”

When I put my hands together and concentrated my divine power, Laura urged me to stop, saying that she had already done everything she could.

If Laura says so, then that must be the case…?

Reluctantly stopping my prayer, I decided to tell her why I came to the mansion.

“Okay.

The reason I came to see Laura is because of what happened yesterday.”

“…Yesterday?”

For a moment, Laura’s pupils shook.

This clearly means that there’s something she wanted to hide.

In the end, my suspicion turned into conviction, and I continued without hesitation.

“Laura, you tried to erase my memories, right?

And memories related to pregnancy.”

“…”

Her tightly closed lips and her avoiding my gaze.

It seems like that’s the right answer.

“I, I know.

Why Laura tried to do such a thing.

It’s because of the baby, right?”

“H, how… I definitely erased all the related memories…?”

To my question of whether it was because of the baby, Laura said that it was impossible and muttered that she had confirmed the activation of the magic, but that wasn’t important now.

The key is why she erased the memories.

There shouldn’t have been anything happier than the fact that she was pregnant to Laura, who likes Suhyun, so why did she try to hide the truth by going to such lengths?

“Please tell me.

Why did you do such a thing?”

“Because of the miscarriage… I thought it would be hard for Sera…”

“…”

Miscarriage…?

I must have misheard, right?

Then what was that nausea I saw a while ago?

No, in the first place, how did she have a miscarriage… Thinking that, I was so surprised that I covered my mouth.

The battles in the Forest of White Haze, there’s no way the baby would have been safe in those urgent situations.

“In the Forest of White Haze, what happened?”

“I was cursed.

So every time I use magic, there are side effects…”

Slowly, Laura told me what happened in the Forest of White Haze.

She told me that she was cursed by Diana, and that she became unable to use magic properly because of it.

And what that fact indicated was only one thing.

After the incident at the fortress ended in the fall, Laura, who was pregnant with Suhyun’s baby, did not have relations during the stabilization period.

Then winter came, and the Hero Party headed to the Forest of White Haze, and the adventure, which they thought would be fine, entered the worst path.

Due to the influence of the curse, she even miscarried the baby.

“I understand now.

It was… a phantom pregnancy.”

“Sera…!”

Yes, Laura reached the point of having a phantom pregnancy due to the shock of the miscarriage.

And she didn’t want that fact to be discovered, so she tried to erase my memories because she thought I would be worried for no reason.

Even Suhyun’s increasingly haggard face recently made sense if this was the reason.

To think that she would try to erase my memories just because a companion was worried… I was ashamed of myself for calling her all sorts of names until now, like a spoiled brat, a handheld fleshlight, and a damn lizard.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry… I was too scared to tell the truth… But if I didn’t do anything, I felt like I would really go crazy… So, so I chose the easy way… I’m really sorry…”

“Laura…”

Laura is crying even more than I saw her yesterday, to the point of panting for breath.

Although I’ve never had a baby, I could tell that the shock of a miscarriage is sad beyond imagination.

Even in the midst of that, she’s worried about someone like me.

How kind is she really?

Barely holding back the tears that were about to come out, I went to Laura’s side and sat down.

I don’t know if these words can be called comfort, but it’s better than nothing.

“Laura, don’t cry too much.

It’s not Laura’s fault…”

“Y-you forgive me…?”

“You mean trying to erase my memories?

That was all for me, right?

There’s nothing Laura should apologize for.

Ah, still… I would like to see Laura’s baby someday.”

“My baby…?

Not Sera’s baby…?”

To tell Laura, who had a miscarriage, that I really wanted to see her baby, I think the last thing I said was a bit too much, but fortunately, Laura, who was overwhelmed with emotions, didn’t seem to understand the meaning.

I’m glad, I’m really glad.

“Yes, I… don’t think it’s possible.

Instead, Laura, please cheer up.”

“Me… cheer up…?

I don’t understand the meaning…”

No.

It’s better not to think about the last thing I said.

I didn’t say anything to Laura’s question and just patted her shoulder.

I should think more before I open my mouth from now on, I almost hurt a mother who had a miscarriage with my words.

I felt like I would really be creating a funeral home if I opened my mouth any further, and I was somewhat empathetic to Laura’s sadness, so I quietly chose to just cry with her.

Besides, Suhyun’s wife is Laura.

It’s impossible for my baby after all…