Chapter 87: Things that never change (4)

It feels like just yesterday I was enjoying the winter festival with Su-hyeon, but when I open my eyes, spring has already arrived.

Perhaps because it’s early spring, the wind still feels chilly.

However, as if to prove that it is spring, my colleagues who come to visit me tell me stories about yellow flowers blooming outside.

If you ask me, stuck in my room, what seasons or time mean to me, I have nothing to say, but the fact that it’s already been a year makes me think a lot of things.

It’s mid-March now, and this year, which was busy with things like beastkin and elves, has passed by like this.

Is it last year now, not this year…?

Anyway, thankfully, it seems the Hero’s party will be taking a break until my body is fully healed.

According to Su-hyeon, “You need to rest for at least a month, so don’t worry about anything and just relax during that time.”

However, the Hero’s party, except for me, seemed subtly busy, and even when I asked what they were so busy with, they would just smile with a lonely expression.

No one would tell me.

[If I talk to a b*tch like you, I feel like I’ll go crazy, so aren’t they avoiding you?]

“That’s bullsh*t, really.”

Suddenly, I hear Lina’s voice cursing at me in my head.

In fact, it wasn’t that bad that Laura, Natalia, and Su-hyeon were busy.

I was a little lonely, but I didn’t want anyone to see me talking to Lina.

Sometimes Lina would completely take over my body, and every time that happened, I couldn’t help but worry that they would think I was a crazy b*tch.

Anyway, this damn woman.

A woman who’s supposed to be the first Saintess isn’t helping at all.

[…If you don’t do anything weird, I’ll stay quiet.]

“Sounds like you think I’m an idiot?”

Lately, every day has been like this.

An everyday life where Lina always interferes whenever I imagine something or move my body.

At first, I was terrified of being sucked into the darkness every time I lost control, but these days, I’ve come to think that watching the outside world from my mental world isn’t so bad.

It’s like watching an animation with the lights off in a room.

I’ve completely adapted to this vicious villainess’s mental attacks.

Indeed, this is the power of the Saintess’s mental strength.

Feeling proud for no reason, I retorted to Lina and sat on the bed, reading a book.

The book’s name is ‘Basic Recipe Collection for Real Beginners’.

It’s a book I managed to get after asking around, and the servants bought it directly for me since I still can’t go outside.

Autumn has already passed, but reading is food for the soul.

It’s not that there aren’t any romance novels or fantasy novels in this world, but I want to read this kind of book right now.

In the first place, fantasy novels are all about a princess being kidnapped and a hero saving her, which is a boring and predictable story.

And there are so many stories where the hero is the main character, so is the hero a symbol of romance in this world?

I had a feeling that there wouldn’t be just one or two women after Su-hyeon.

[Of course.

A first impression changes just with the name Hero.

Unless he’s terribly ugly or constantly acts strangely, women will line up for him.

And his name was Kim Su-hyeon, right?

He’s not as good as Min-yul, but he’s reasonably good-looking.]

“Are your eyes just for decoration?

Too handsome men aren’t popular.

You have to be moderately handsome like Su-hyeon to feel human and likable.”

[Are you trying to show how stupid you are?

You must have seen at least some of my memories.

Min-yul is taller than Kim Su-hyeon, has a better-looking face, and has a much better personality.

Anyway, you’re just like a monkey, you have no eye for people.

Or what, are you taking his side because you like him?]

“L, like?

Who likes who!

He and I are just friends!”

[…Isn’t this woman really crazy?]

Who are you calling crazy?

Do you really want to taste some Holy Fire?

Even now, the way Su-hyeon and the other heroines are looking at me is unusual, they must be at MAX affection, and if I, the main heroine, seize the position of the main wife in this situation, it’s a direct line to the baby ending.

I should have checked my hymen back then…

[Be quiet, please!]

“Ugh…!

Not you again!!”

I don’t know what’s wrong with me that makes you keep taking over my body.

Lina suddenly started shouting, and thanks to that, I rolled off the bed and didn’t even hear the door opening.

“Saintess!

Hello!!”

I hear this energetic voice next to me.

Why is she here?

More than that, I can’t show her this embarrassing appearance.

With a trembling heart, I turn my gaze and see Caelia smiling brightly.

“Wow, that’s a delicious-looking picture!

Is cooking the Saintess’s hobby?”

“Ah, yes…It’s going to be a hobby.”

Looking at the idiotic elf Caelia, I quickly tidy up my messy hair and sit demurely on the bed.

I put my hands together and coughed repeatedly to create a voice befitting a Saintess.

“Th, then how long have you been watching?”

“From when you said, ‘Be quiet!

Please!’

Are you in a lot of pain?”

Damn it, I thought it was only in my head.

It seems the control of my body had changed in the meantime.

“The same thing about someone you like…?

Ah, that’s right.

Human women also make food directly to show their affection!

Is that the Saintess’s intention too?”

“No…I thought it might be useful in the future…”

Caelia asks me, pointing to the cookbook.

I’ve definitely seen it in the novels I’ve read a few times.

The scene where the heroine shows off her cooking skills that she’s been developing for the hero.

That kind of scene often appears in animations and dating sims as well.

Wait, why are these the only memories in my head?

Even if I’m a shut-in, I should have at least some internet friends…?

Am I someone who can’t even say with confidence, ‘I have internet friends’?

I’ve lost so many memories because of Lina that it’s hard to tell what kind of person I am.

Even if I keep looking back on the past, all that comes to mind is ‘a small attic, a computer, animation, novels, games’…

Hey, even if my life is at rock bottom, there’s no way it’s this serious.

Surely a lot of my memories have been erased because of Lina, right?

[…]

Right?

Why aren’t you answering?

[It’s true that I deleted quite a few memories…No, no.

I like you better now that you’re more like a person.

Live like that for the rest of your life.]

Lina doesn’t answer my question and locks herself in my mental world.

I was a little suspicious because she trailed off at the end of her sentence, but if Lina says so, then it must be true.

As expected, I must have lost a lot of memories and look like a lower 0.1% of shut-ins!

“Saintess?

Why are you suddenly like that?”

“Ah, I’m sorry.

I was just thinking for a moment…Hehe.

But what brings you to my room?”

Basically, the Hero’s party members have no restrictions when visiting each other’s mansions, and Caelia joined the Hero’s party as an archer blessed by the wind, so she wouldn’t have been stopped by the servants.

The problem is that it’s hard to grasp what this idiotic elf is thinking.

Surely all the characters that appear in the game were set to be adults, so how did she end up with this kind of intelligence?

“A get-well visit!”

“A get-well visit…?”

“Yes!

It seems like the Hero, the mage, and the knight are all busy.

Today, I’m going to take care of the Saintess!”

I had a bad feeling.

This idiotic elf is going to take care of me?

It would be lucky if nothing happened to the mansion.

In the first place, what’s so fun about being next to a sick person?

Well, being next to Su-hyeon when he’s sick would be nice, though…

It often comes out in animations and manga, right?

The scene where they visit a heroine who has a cold and wipe away her sweat.

I’ve seen more than once or twice the scene where they barely cover their chest with clothes and say, “I can’t reach my back…”

I thought the opposite version might be nice too.

The main characters in that scene are all childhood friends or school friends, so…that much is normal between friends, right?

The word friend is so elusive between a man and a woman.

“Saintess, your face is very hot.

You’re sweating a lot too, so you must be in a lot of pain?”

“Whoa!

Cold!!”

I was thinking for a moment when I felt a cold hand on my forehead.

When I came to my senses, Caelia was sticking to me way too much.

Why is she doing this?

I’ve never seen anywhere that Caelia is a lesbian?

“As expected, your body is very hot.”

“I, is it?”

“Hmm, I guess that’s what we need.

Now, Saintess!

Close your eyes tightly!”

“Huh?

W, wait!

I don’t have hobbies like that…!”

What.

What.

What.

Why are you getting on my bed?

I don’t have hobbies like women b*ing each other!

Tense, I tried my best to push Caelia away, but I couldn’t resist due to my creaky body and my naturally weak constitution.

In the first place, Caelia has a body like Natalia…

Am I really going to be taken?

I felt sorry for Su-hyeon for some reason, and tears were about to well up, but at that moment, I began to feel a strange sensation on my head.

Then Caelia smiled.

“Hehe, you said you didn’t like the wind, right?

I made it myself!”

“Oh…this is?”

“A headband in the shape of cat ears!

I also cast a spell to block the wind, so it will be warm!”

Caelia hands me a hand mirror with a proud expression.

I take the mirror and look at myself, and I have cat ears mixed with white and pink on my head.

..I thought I was going to graduate from dog ears, but this time it’s cat ears…

I felt a strange feeling for some reason.

“Mya, meow…Is this okay…?”

“Wow!

So cute.

I gave you my gift, so please let me taste the food you make later!”

Why did the word meow come out of my mouth?

I’m so embarrassed I’m mortified.

It’s a relief that Laura and Natalia didn’t see this…But surely the wind is chilly in early spring, and it would be helpful to have it…?

“I don’t have much to brag about…I’ve never made food on my own before.”

“It’s okay!

Food is love and care, it was written in a book I read recently!

Surely the Hero will like it too?”

“R, really…?”

All I’ve ever made is ramen or frozen food…For some reason, I started to feel confident when I heard Caelia’s words.

Well, what’s so special about cooking?

All you have to do is make it according to the recipe.

When you think about it, there’s no difference between watching a boss monster’s walkthrough video when playing an RPG game.

Yeah, everyone seems busy lately.

They’ll be happy if I show them the food I made, right?

Yeah, even stupid elves like Caelia are helpful sometimes!

“Since I have a lot of time, I’ll tell you how elves cook!”

“Hehe, thank you.

I’ll show it to the Hero first and share it with you, Caelia, for sure.”

To be honest, I wasn’t good at keeping up with the flow when I talked to other people, but talking to Caelia was so easy that from then on, I started talking about how to gain favor with others and what Su-hyeon likes.

As expected, there’s no set standard for being a good wife and mother?

I thought I heard a sigh in my head, but let’s lightly ignore Lina’s stupid voice.