episode_0513

It’s embarrassing to say, but I have no memory of the day right after I gave birth.

Because I was so focused on giving birth to Ethan’s child, I fainted as soon as I heard the baby cry.

I briefly collapsed from fatigue, and it was several hours later that I woke up again.

In the first place, I had been struggling for almost ten hours just to give birth, so I couldn’t help but collapse. I had been holding on until then because I thought I shouldn’t collapse, so I just held on.

When I woke up, the view outside the window was a bright blue sky as if it were morning again, and the first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was Ethan sitting next to my bed, watching me with a worried expression on his face.

“Uh, um… ?”

“Release, body is a bit… .”

“What about my child…?”

“… Look next to you.”

“… … Ah.”

When I came to my senses and turned my head to the other side, there was a baby lying next to me, wrapped in a white cloth.

Even though this was the first time we had seen each other in person since birth, I was sure it was Ethan and me, so I carefully held the baby wrapped in a blanket in my arms.

“I’m glad you gave birth safely.”

“I was more worried about the release. I didn’t think it would be that hard.”

“I didn’t know either. If I had known it would hurt this much, I would have thought about it more carefully and made the decision… .”

If she had insisted on not returning to Blackwood Manor and instead giving birth on her own in Strawberry Town, things might have gone really well.

No matter what the process was, in the end, being caught by Ethan and coming back was the best choice.

“You’re already a mom, Lilith, judging by the way you look for your child as soon as you wake up.”

“Oh, that, by the way, you haven’t eaten anything yet?”

“Are you hungry? Should I bring you some food?”

“Oh, no. Not me, I mean my child… .”

“… That’s okay. I already took care of it twice while Lilith was sleeping. ”

“Yes?”

“… I wanted to feed Lilith while she was awake, but she didn’t wake up. So I breastfed her and fed her while she was sleeping.”

“Ah… .”

“At first, I fed it to you while I showed you how to do it, and just a little while ago, I fed it to you and helped you digest it before putting you to sleep.”

“Oh, I see… .”

After hearing that, I feel like my nipples are slightly numb.

I was a little embarrassed to breastfeed in front of Isabelle and Ethan while they were sleeping, but it was still a lot better than having the baby starve.

-Gulp.

“Ah.”

“… Wait a minute. I’ll bring you breakfast.”

“… … Yes.”

Come to think of it, I haven’t eaten anything for almost 24 hours.

I had been in pain since yesterday morning and passed out right after giving birth to this baby, so it wasn’t surprising that I was hungry.

‘By the way, after giving birth, I definitely feel like my body has become much lighter.’

Until yesterday, I felt like something heavy was pressing down on my stomach.

But now I feel like I can move around a bit more freely.

The joy of being free from the pain of pregnancy was short-lived. Not long after Ethan left, the sonorous voice of a child tickled my ears.

“Eww!! Ewww!!”

“Ah, wait a minute! I’ll give you food soon, soon… !”

I hurriedly sat up halfway, pulled down my top, took out one breast, and put it into the mouth of the child who was crying as soon as he woke up.

“Eww… ew, ha, haup… .”

-Chop, chop.

“… … .”

… What can I say, it’s really amazing.

It was amazing that they knew how to express hunger and suckle so soon after they were born.

It was surprising that this huge thing came out of my stomach. It made me wonder if a woman’s body could open up like that.

‘I don’t think there will be any problems later, right?’

Well… I don’t mean it in a weird way, but just in case.

I hope that when I have a relationship with Ethan in the future, there won’t be any issues like Ethan being less satisfied with my body than before…

If you are not satisfied with the way things are going because of such issues, then it might be a good idea to seriously consider doing something else…

-Chop, chop.

‘…What am I thinking right now?’

I thought it was really absurd that I was even thinking about something like this when it had only been so long since I had a baby.

Rather, it is to the point where you come to your senses belatedly due to the stimulation of a child sucking on a pacifier.

Even though I didn’t really have sex while I was pregnant… I still had to control myself.

While I was thinking about that, the door slowly opened and this time a vanilla-haired maid appeared, breathing heavily.

-Squeak.

“Ha, haa, haaa… .”

“…Isabel?”

“Haa, uh, Release… ? You’re awake… ?”

Appearing with disheveled hair, as if he had rushed in from downstairs.

It was quite an unusual sight for Isabel, who was usually quite calm.

“I just woke up. But why are you in such a hurry?”

“Haa, ah, I thought Lilith was still sleeping… . If the young master isn’t home either, I’ll have to feed him… .”

“Ahh.”

Come to think of it, Isabel was the first one to feed the baby when I fainted. It seemed like she had rushed over to breastfeed the baby again after hearing the baby cry.

She had been my exclusive maid before, so I guess that’s why Isabel naturally took on the role of babysitter.

“Thank you. You fed me when I collapsed earlier, and you even taught me how to breastfeed Ethan.”

“Ah, uh. Just in case, I learned it from the maid.”

“It’s all thanks to Isabel that I was able to give birth safely. I’m really glad that Isabel is my friend.”

“I didn’t really do much… . But I’m glad that the release is happy, hehe… .”

…I think the greatest luck I have in this world is having Isabel as a friend.

Whenever I was in trouble, it was always Isabel who tried to help me first, and if I did something stupid, it was usually Isabel who helped me out.

In 『Luminor Academy』, she was such a likable character that it was a shame she wasn’t the heroine, but when I met Isabelle in real life, not in a game, she felt like Lilith’s guardian angel.

“How’s Miss? I saw you eating and sleeping earlier.”

“Miss… Oh, are you talking about this kid?”

“Yeah.”

“Is it a girl?”

“Yeah. The priest told me earlier. Senior Katarina and I, and the master, confirmed it too.”

… a girl. Well, not bad.

At least I feel like she’d be a lot more docile than the boys.

Since I have to take academy classes and raise a child at the same time, the easier it is to raise a child, the better. If the child suddenly runs away from the academy dormitory after being active, it will definitely be difficult in many ways.

“Have you decided on a name for the child, Lilith?”

“… No, not yet. I’m still thinking about it. But I need to hear Ethan’s opinion too.”

“Master said it was okay for Lilith to do whatever she wanted.”

“Hmm, but I want to decide with Ethan. After all the hardships of giving birth to him… I have to be careful about choosing a name that will last a lifetime.”

“If the release thinks so, then of course it should be done that way.”

I don’t want to make a mistake and be teased by other noble children and become twisted or anything like that.

… Well, if something like that happens, Nana and Ethan won’t stay still before the kid goes crazy.

While I was breastfeeding the baby with those thoughts, Ethan, who had left earlier, came back into the room with a large tray.

“Release, are you hungry? Sorry for keeping you waiting.”

“Oh, no. The baby was awake and breastfeeding, so it’s okay.”

“I think it’s Lilith who needs to eat? And you’ve been starving for almost the entire day, but you’re still producing milk?”

“You must have had a lot of breast milk stored from the beginning. Isn’t your body physically suited to storing a lot of breast milk?”

“… … .”

“… … .”

“… I was just joking, but it’s embarrassing for me if you two are so quiet.”

It was originally a meme that was used quite a bit in the world, but it seemed to be an unfamiliar joke to the people of this world.

Isabelle, who was feeling embarrassed for no reason, returned to her waiting room, and Ethan placed the breakfast he had brought me on the table and brought the table next to the bed.

“Release, feeding the baby is good, but let’s eat something first, too.”

“Well, right now my hands are like this, so it’s a bit difficult to eat and do things… .”

“I’ll feed you. Okay, say ‘Ah~’.”

“Ah, ahh… .”

Ethan fed me a piece of bread he had torn off, holding it in his palm just in case it spilled.

Maybe it was because it was the only meal I had in a day, but it really felt like it was permeating my whole body. I was definitely hungry.

“Okay, drink some milk too, Release.”

“Yes, yes… .”

-Gulp, gulp.

“What should I give you next?”

“… Hey, can I have a slice of peach first?”

“Yeah, release. Say ‘Ah~’.”

“… Ahh.”

… What is this situation where I am feeding Ethan while he is actually eating me?

I did feel something strange, but… I just felt good about the current feeling, so I didn’t bother to mention it.