episode_0507

Thud, thud, thud.

Ethan starts to hand out apples while repeatedly banging his head on the floor so loud that the whole room resonates.

That embarrassing action caused my body to naturally rise from the bed.

“I’m sorry! I’m sorry, Lilith!! It’s because I didn’t trust Lilith and was suspicious!! And if I had spoken properly in the first place, this wouldn’t have happened!!”

“Ah, okay, get up, Master Ethan! I, I’m really fine. Ah, if I hadn’t made that stupid mistake in the first place, this wouldn’t have happened… .”

“No, it’s all my fault! I’m a selfish bastard who only thinks about myself, so I committed a sin against you that I can never repay for the rest of my life! It’s not a mistake that can be forgiven for not knowing!!”

“Ah, no… . T, if that’s the case, then I’m the same! I did this because I didn’t know that Master Ethan had no intention of getting a fiancé, so I should be the one apologizing… .”

“No, I shouldn’t apologize for the release… . This is all my fault… .”

“No. If I had to rate the faults, I would say I am about 100 times more responsible than Master Ethan… .”

Ethan keeps hitting his head on the floor, so no matter how hard you try to get him up, he just keeps hitting his head on the floor.

In fact, if we were to judge only by the size of the mistake, it was clear that I was more at fault, so I tried to get down on the floor and apologize, but he desperately tried to block me as if he could not tolerate that.

“Ah, I said no, Release! It’s my fault! Release, you’re not the one who should apologize!!”

“If I have to be picky, I was the one who didn’t trust you first, so I’m at fault… .”

“That’s the problem, I told you that I didn’t tell Lilith…!! Please, please don’t apologize!!”

“Then, Master Ethan, please stop apologizing… .”

I was lifted up from the floor with Ethan holding my shoulder, half-forcibly.

First of all, I’m not a single person, and if we look at it from a simple strength perspective, I would be pushed by Ethan, so naturally my body had no choice but to lie down on the bed.

“Just lie still, Release. Please… Please, let me give you a chance to atone quietly.”

“So, I’m not really angry at Master Ethan, whether it’s atonement or anything!”

“Because I can’t tolerate myself. Even though I’ve been watching you for so long, and even though I’ve loved you so deeply, I don’t know your true feelings, so I feel like I’m going crazy and want to kill myself right now.”

“No way, Master Ethan!! T-that is something you should never do, even if it’s just once!!”

“Be honest. Even Lilith probably doesn’t want to see someone like me anymore. What good would a man have if he locked up a woman with his own child in a cold prison and starved her? Huh?”

“Didn’t I tell you several times that it wasn’t true…!! I, I… I, ever since I found out that Master Ethan intended to take me as his wife, I’ve been feeling sorry, so about that… .”

… What should I do?

I thought Ethan had finally gathered his thoughts, but for some reason his way of thinking had become more extreme.

Of course, what Ethan did to me was something that shouldn’t be done in a normal romantic relationship or a married couple… but anyway, since this was also my fault, there’s no need for Ethan to feel this responsible.

When he brought up the idea of killing himself, my heart sank as I remembered Ethan from my dream.

‘Release, if you really hate me so much that you want to kill me, then I don’t mind dying.’

I remember Ethan from my dream, smiling creepily. I feel like if I leave him alone, he’ll make a really bad choice.

To let him know that I still had feelings for him… I raised my head and kissed Ethan.

-side.

“… Huh?!”

Ethan, startled by the sudden collision of lips, automatically tilts his head upward.

And then he immediately realized what he had done and apologized again.

“Mi, sorry, release! Ga, I didn’t know you’d kiss me all of a sudden, so I was a little flustered… .”

“… Master Ethan.”

“… … Yeah, release.”

“If your highness really wants to apologize to me… please don’t avoid me this time.”

“… … .”

-side.

I brought my face closer to Ethan, who was making eye contact with me with a nervous expression, and then I kissed him again.

The feeling of those lips that I had longed for, hidden away in my memory for a moment.

Even though it had been months since we last met, I pressed my mouth against his lips, which were still warm and soft, and slowly tangled my tongue between them.

-Tick, tick.

“… … .”

-Tsk, tsk.

“… … .”

-Squeak.

“Release, I brought you the warm milk you asked for earlier… .”

“… … .”

“… … .”

“… Oh, sorry… .”

… Isabel came in for a moment, but quickly closed the door and went back.

Thanks to her consideration, I was able to lock lips with Ethan quietly without any disturbance from then on.

Ethan, who was passive at first, seemed to have a hard time holding back his desire as the kiss went on, so he put his hand on the back of my head, pulled my head towards him, and rubbed my face.

As I felt him slowly returning to the Ethan of the past, I also focused on the sensation inside my mouth, just like the two of us who had once made the most passionate love.

-Tseuup… .

“Haa, haaa… .”

“… … Phew.”

How many minutes did that passionate kiss last that took my breath away?

Before I knew it, Ethan’s face was no longer pale and bloodless, but had become full of life with red blood flowing back into it, and my face also began to flush unexpectedly.

“Do you understand now, Master Ethan? I still have such rational feelings for Master Ethan.”

“… … Yeah. I got it for sure.”

“Do you think that I still don’t want to see Master Ethan’s face, or that I hope that Master Ethan will be wrong?”

“… … Sorry, Lilith. I won’t say that again.”

“… If you knew, that would be great.”

… Still, I’m glad that it seems to have calmed down to some extent. If it had continued like this, the conversation itself would not have been possible.

When I become impatient, I don’t even try to listen to what other people say… I felt like that was strangely similar to me.

What should I say? If you put aside the background and all that, and look at them as people, it’s just the feeling of ‘they’re just meeting each other’.

Somehow, now I feel like I understand a little bit why I became Ethan’s exclusive maid, Lilith.

⁎ ⁎ ⁎

About a week had passed since the day Ethan and I admitted our mistakes and had a dramatic reconciliation.

The season of the first semester of the fourth year at Luminor Academy is about to end. Thinking about it like that, I was worried about Ethan who couldn’t graduate from the academy, but I was relieved to hear that Harold had taken some kind of action.

“Then, Master Ethan… Oh, no, Ethan is currently on leave?”

“Yes, Miss Release. By the way, your father has taken care of Miss Release’s leave of absence, so you can return to school whenever you want.”

“I see. That’s certainly a bit of a relief.”

I felt relieved because I heard that the part that was bothering me the most was resolved. I was worried that Ethan’s studies might have been affected because of me.

Even I felt relieved when I heard that I could return to school whenever I wanted. After all, it was definitely good news that I could graduate from Luminor Academy with Ethan.

… Of course, there were still some issues that prevented me from returning to the academy the following semester.

“Returning to school… I think I’ll probably be able to do it sometime next year.”

“Yes. For the sake of Miss Lilith’s health, I think it would be best for her to rest at the mansion at least until next semester.”

“That’s fortunate, Master Harold… I didn’t know that Ethan’s father, an academy professor, would shine at a time like this.”

“I am also truly grateful to my father. If he had not supported me, it would not have been easy for me to make the decision to go find Miss Lilith.”

“… Hmm, I see.”

By the way, the reason why my and Ethan’s situations seemed to have changed strangely since a while ago was because he was now acting as my exclusive butler.

It was a kind of role-playing that I started doing out of necessity because Ethan wanted to do something to get me to forgive him for what he did to me.

Since I’ve been Ethan’s exclusive maid for almost ten years now, I suggested that he should act as my exclusive butler, at least when we’re alone.

Just in case, I’m saying this, but it’s not that I wanted this situation to happen, it’s purely for Ethan’s sake.

If I didn’t do this ridiculous role-playing, Ethan would never feel like he was atonement for what he did to me, and that would just stress me out.

“Ethan, it’s almost time for the shower. Can I ask you to do the shower service today?”

“Yes, Miss Release.”

“I’m not feeling well, so could you please carry me? If possible, please hold me in a princess-like position.”

“Say whatever you want, Miss Release.”

… I’m not really enjoying this situation. It’s just that Ethan really wants to do it.