episode_0264

What on earth am I doing right now?

I came here to ask Edan about his wish, but it seems like I’ve ended up in Edan’s room in the dead of night.

How did I end up agreeing to let Edan… I mean, to let him lick me down there?

It was all because of that damn tea…

Every single problem was undoubtedly caused by that suspicious tea.

Ever since I drank it, strange words kept coming out of my mouth, and sometimes my body wouldn’t move the way I wanted it to.

I’ll say it again, I definitely did not want to allow Edan to perform this act on me.

Preparing to receive oral sex from Edan while undressing obediently was not something I desired. Seriously.

“…But it’s still better than asking him to do it from behind.”

As humiliating as it was to be in this position, it was better to be facing him rather than having him see my backside. Yeah.

Just like when I touched his chest before, I habitually took off my shirt and removed my camisole. I was wearing boxers, so there was no bra to begin with.

Then, I took off my pants and underwear, standing completely naked, feeling overwhelmed by the embarrassing emotions flooding over me.

“Am I really standing here naked behind Edan?”

I had only allowed him to touch my chest before, so revealing my entire naked body to him was only the second time. Even in the first instance in the bathroom, I didn’t show him my lower half, so this might be the first time I truly exposed everything.

…There was no turning back now. It would be even more ridiculous to cover up and hide. It would have been better to not do it at all from the beginning. Well, I didn’t say I wanted to do it, but you get the idea.

“Lily, are you ready yet?”

“Just a moment! I, I need to mentally prepare… Could you count to ten and then turn around?”

“One, two, three…”

Following Edan’s voice counting one second at a time, I quickly lay down on the bed and placed my hands on my stomach, trying to maintain a calm and expressionless demeanor.

“Eight, nine, ten.”

I wondered if he might suddenly turn around if I wasn’t ready, but Edan diligently counted up to ten before slowly turning his head.

“….”

“….”

“….”

“….Ed?”

“…Ah, yeah. Sorry, Lily.”

Even though he turned away, Edan snapped out of his daze when he heard me call his name.

It seemed like he found a woman’s genitalia quite intriguing.

…It must be his first time seeing it, right? Surely he’s not already experienced with other women and I’m just the first one he’s seeing like this?

Asking about this would be too embarrassing, so I decided to focus on the task at hand. I’m not some pathetic boyfriend asking if I’m the first to his girlfriend.

“You can do as you please, Ed. I’m mentally prepared now.”

“…Ah, okay.”

“I said you could touch with your mouth, so don’t say anything suggestive… You can touch however you want, look however you want. Just as long as you respect my ‘purity,’ you can do whatever you want…”

“Yeah, got it.”

…I’ve said all I need to. Now, I just have to wait for Edan’s actions, not to judge, but to wait.

As I lay quietly looking up at the sky, counting the patterns on the ceiling one by one, I knew that Ethan would finish what he needed to do and our time in this bed would come to an end. All I had to do now was endure the remaining time.

Trying my best to act nonchalant and suppress my emotions as much as possible…

“Lily, I have a question.”

“…What is it, Ed?”

“You didn’t really need to take off everything up top, did you?”

“……”

Ah, damn it.

I guess it’s just a habit from always having my chest touched.

“Why, don’t you like it?”

“It’s not that. I like it.”

“Then it’s fine, isn’t it? Why ask such a embarrassing question?”

“Sorry, Lily. I was just really curious.”

“It’s become a habit, that’s all. Is that okay?”

“Okay, got it. Sorry for asking something embarrassing.”

…It’s annoying.

That slightly relaxed attitude that seemed to be lingering since earlier is annoying, and it’s annoying how he ruins the mood when I’m all prepared and waiting.

It’s annoying how he apologizes twice, claiming to consider my feelings, and his handsome face is annoying too.

Just, just leave it be. Why do you keep making people anxious?

“I’ll touch you, Lily.”

-Stroke.

“Uh, huff.”

In the moment when my head was filled with annoyance towards Ethan, his words and a thin something slid between my thighs.

The sensation of a finger grazing between my thighs and the perineum. It was the first time I had been touched by someone else, and my body involuntarily shuddered, letting out a suggestive moan.

-Stroke.

“Uh, huff!”

-Stroke, stroke.

“Uh, huff, huff, ha….”

-…Squelch.

“Uh, uh, huff…hah!”

As the sticky sound between my thighs reached my ears, I snapped back to reality. And the realization that the source of the sticky sound was the fluid flowing out from within me.

Without saying anything, Ethan looked at me, and I blurted out an excuse as if I were angry for no reason.

“What, what do you want! It’s just because my head is full of thoughts about being touched by Ed that I’m wet?! It’s absolutely not because I got wet from imagining it before being touched?!”

“…I didn’t say anything, Lily.”

“I, it’s just that my head was so full of thoughts about being touched by Ed that I got wet?! It’s absolutely not because I got wet from imagining it before being touched?!”

“…Huh?”

“Ugh!”

Damn it. My cursed mouth.

Still feeling the remnants of the tea’s energy in my body, I blurted out nonsense again. It was true, but I never intended to say such things directly to Ethan.

Realizing that I was only making things worse the more I spoke, I quickly covered my mouth with both hands, signaling to Ethan that I would not say anything.

“….”

“Lily? Can you repeat what you just said? I think I misheard.”

-Pat, pat.

“Just once, I think I misheard.”

-Pat, pat.

“Then you won’t say anything from now on? Really?”

-Nod, nod.

“…Okay, got it. You don’t have to say anything from now on. It’s fine.”

After Ethan’s somewhat uneasy voice, I felt his hands grabbing my thighs from below.

And then the sensation of him spreading my legs apart sent a feeling of shame coursing through my lower body that was indescribable.

-Slide, slide.

“……!!!”

Calm down, calm down. He’s just showing it for now.

Anyway, if I had to go through the process of doing what Edan had mentioned, including ‘that act,’ it was something that I had to pass through at least once. Forcing my tongue into the tightly closed gap between my thighs and licking it felt absurd to me.

…However, the sticky sound of saliva that I had heard earlier was a bit unsettling.

I desperately tried to prevent the sensation of something leaking from below by pressing my thighs together, so by now, the semen that had flowed between my lower body was probably starting to stain the bed.

It was embarrassing to expose everything without any reservation. It was more humiliating than anything I had shown Edan up to this point.

“……”

“……”

Meanwhile, Edan, who was just staring at my legs without saying a word after seeing that, was making me feel so hot-headed that I didn’t know what to do in the silence.

If you’re going to do it, just do it. What are you staring at so blankly for? Well, of course, if Lily’s in front of me, I might get lost in admiration, too.

Moreover, come to think of it, Lily in this world is a virgin, right? A pure body that has never had a man’s thing inside… No, not just looking at one man, but a pure body that has never had anything inside it.

If the only flaw in that pure body was that it was mine, it was a flaw, but it didn’t matter to Edan right now.

“1 minute… no, I’ll give you 3 minutes, really.”

If you keep staring at it for more than that, you should either squeeze your head with your thighs or wrap your calf around your neck.

Since I used to be a man, I was considering Edan’s feelings as a man. A man should consider a man’s feelings, right?

…Of course, there was a difference in that Edan was a voluntary man compared to me in my past life, but it wasn’t that important.

Edan, who had spread my legs like that, just observed for about a minute without doing anything.

I decided to ignore the sensation that semen was flowing down below. Since it seemed equally embarrassing no matter how much more it soaked from here after it had already been shown.

It was from that moment that Edan, who had been staring at my embarrassing appearance for a minute, started to do something.

…Although it didn’t mean that he had started cunnilingus in earnest.

-Open wide.

“Uh, huh?!”

I didn’t know that having ‘that area’ opened by someone else was such a humiliating thing.

I didn’t even touch it much, but when I saw semen dripping through my crotch like a female, there was nothing more embarrassing than this. It was a moment that reminded me of the lesson from the past world that there is always a bottom.

And in the midst of that, Edan, who was spitting out these words without caring about my embarrassment, was there.

“You’re cute, Lily.”

“Uh, huh?!”

“Even this part is really cute… really lovely. Truly.”

“Huh, huh, uh, huh…!!”

Edan’s absurd confession of love made me feel like my head was about to explode.

I felt a bit resentful of Edan, who kept saying such things without any shame. He didn’t even know what feelings I had while enduring this embarrassing situation.

I tried to endure until the end, but this time, I felt like I couldn’t bear it any longer, so I cautiously removed my hand and added a word.

“Phew, um… E, Ed…”

“Huh? Do you want to say it again?”

“I can see it clearly, you…? My, virginity, is…”

“What…?”

“Do you see the proof of my purity…?”

-Hwakjjaak.

“…Yeah, I see it clearly. The thin string-like thing in the middle is Lily’s maidenhood…the ‘proof of purity,’ right?”

“T-That…Ed has never seen it before…I-Is it lovely? It’s the evidence of a woman’s untainted purity…”

“……Yeah.”

“I, I haven’t been able to see mine directly either…I’ve bathed with Isabelle and Katarina before, but we’ve never shown each other that much… S-So, really, truly, Ed is the first person to see it…”

“Lily…”

“And I won’t show it to anyone else but Ed…not to any man or woman…because that’s the loveliness a pure maiden possesses, hehe…”

“……”

No, that’s not it.

I didn’t mean to say such things, this blabbermouth.

I don’t know why my thoughts on my maidenhood from my past life suddenly popped up, but I had already blurted it out.

I guess I’ll just have to forget everything that happened tonight by tomorrow morning.

…I probably won’t be able to face Edan’s eyes properly in my right mind now.

“……”

“……”

Once again, losing words to say to each other, we fell into a quiet silence where nothing was spoken.

-Swish.

“Eek?!”

Edan, without a word, slowly began to lick my collarbone with his lips buried in my face.