episode_0225

“Lord Ethan.”

“…Yes, Lillis.”

“I have something to say before we go to bed like this.”

“…Ah, right. I was going to say something too.”

What, so he was also planning to say something? Does that mean he had the same mischievous thought in mind after all?

With a surprising sense of honesty and a determination to satisfy his desires, Ethan rose from the bed, put on his coat, and began to prepare to leave.

“Lord Ethan? What are you doing right now…?”

“I understand that you don’t want to share the same bed with me after experiencing such a thing. So, I’ll sleep outside tonight and come back in the morning. I’m sorry for scaring you, Lillis.”

“W-wait…!!”

-Clang!

What’s with the sudden change?

Just a moment ago, he was rushing towards me on the bed, and now he’s suddenly trying to distance himself with strange misunderstandings?

As I grabbed Ethan’s sleeve and tried to walk him out to the entrance, he turned to me with a bewildered expression as I held onto his wrist.

“…Lillis?”

“W-wait a moment! That’s not what I was trying to say…!”

“I understand, calm down. Isabelle might wake up if we’re too loud.”

“…Yes.”

Thankfully, I glanced sideways and saw that Isabelle’s maid waiting room door was still closed. It’s fortunate that her hearing is not sharp.

“So, what did you want to say, Lillis?”

“Well, um, that is…”

As Ethan turned to me quietly, looking at me with the sleeve I was holding onto, I couldn’t find the right words to say in that moment.

It was good that I hurriedly called Ethan back from leaving, but how can I naturally bring up the topic of ‘satisfying his desires’ in this atmosphere? How can I help Ethan release his desires in the first place? My mind became instantly complicated with the same worries.

“Should I just allow him to touch my chest like usual? Or should I touch Ethan’s…thing like last time?”

A man’s desire usually refers to the pleasure of being able to ejaculate. At least, that’s how I felt when I was a man, so it shouldn’t be much different in reality.

However, simply asking Ethan to ejaculate and expose his penis might actually make him feel ashamed.

When I helped him in the bathroom last time, both Ethan and I were naked, so he might not have felt much shame when I touched his penis. But if I suddenly offer to help him release his desires this time, he might undoubtedly feel embarrassed as a nobleman.

If Ethan is already regretting his actions towards me, there’s no need to make him feel ashamed in that way.

On the other hand, asking him to touch my chest like before seems too weak, and the fact that this action cannot lead to ‘ejaculation’ is the biggest problem.

Lillis’s chest, which competes for the top 1-2 in terms of size among heroines, might be fully satisfying just by looking and touching it, but not being able to perform the most important act for releasing desires would actually decrease satisfaction.

In a metaphor from my previous world, it would be like watching adult videos to your heart’s content and then ending the happy time without climaxing, which could potentially make Ethan even more frustrated.

By only doing one of these two acts, modern Ethan’s desires cannot be fully satisfied, and yet I cannot just leave him to go outside the dormitory room as it is.

“…I guess there’s no other choice.”

In the end, my decision had to come down to just one option.

Solving Ethan’s sexual desire can prevent feelings of shame and provide a way to satisfy both the heart and the act.

“Master Ethan.”

“Yes, Lilith.”

“I, I wasn’t hurt by your actions just now, and I’m not afraid of you because of them.”

“….”

“This is the proof.”

As I pulled Ethan’s sleeve and brought it over my academic robes, his eyes widened in surprise and shook from side to side, looking at me apologetically.

He seemed quite flustered by the sensation of my hand on his chest after a long time. Although it was the feeling of touching the thick academic robes, Lilith’s chest was not an object that could disappear with just a few layers like Agnes.

– Clang.

“Uh, h-hmm….”

“L-Lilith….”

“If I had been scared by what you said, could I have brought your hand to my body like this?”

“….”

“I am grateful for your honesty. By confessing difficult feelings, I think you are a brave person, Master Ethan.”

“Lilith….”

“So now it’s your turn to convince me. You must understand that I do not harbor any negative feelings towards you.”

***

Stopping Ethan from leaving and back to the bed.

Sitting side by side on the soft mattress, Lilith and Ethan awkwardly avoided each other’s gaze.

“…Lilith.”

“…Yes, Master Ethan.”

“I know you trust me, so can’t we just sleep together like this? Just having you sleep next to me peacefully would be proof enough, wouldn’t it?”

“…No, we can’t.”

Rejecting Ethan’s proposal to overturn the atmosphere they had created, Lilith explained that just sleeping next to him would not be enough to prove her lack of fear. Her plan to help Ethan with his sexual desire today and prevent it from happening again in the future had been disrupted.

And her chest had been burning since Ethan’s touch earlier.

‘No, that doesn’t matter.’

Anyway, it was not allowed. It must not happen.

After making up her mind to help, Lilith rejected Ethan’s suggestion to sleep together, as it was not something that should happen in the first place.

“Master Ethan.”

“…Yes.”

“Just do as you usually do. Comfort my chest as you wish and relieve your ‘sexual desire’ as before.”

“Okay, got it. If you’re telling me this much, refusing further would hurt your pride, Lilith.”

Fortunately, Ethan seemed to understand her words to some extent and eventually nodded to her proposal, bringing his hands to the front of her robe and starting to undress her layer by layer.

– Swish, swish.

“….”

– Click, clack, click, click.

“Uh, h-hmm.”

– Rustle, rustle….

“Huh, hah…. Hah….”

Taking off the jacket, unbuttoning the blouse, and removing the blouse.

As Ethan’s hand got closer to her bare skin, Lilith was enveloped in a strange sensation that made it hard to breathe.

“Hah, hah….”

“Lilith, are you okay? Should we stop if you’re scared?”

“N-no…. I’m not scared….”

“But your breathing is labored. And it’s irregular….”

“I told you I’m not.”

“….Okay, Lilith.”

Edan finally understood my words, which were annoyingly phrased as if I were about to stop in the middle, and brought his hands to the center of my chest, where my Front Hook Bra was located.

-Click.

“Ugh….”

-Splash.

As the last safety device supporting my chest disappeared, my chest sprang out towards Edan as if it were pouring out.

While it might be a bit of a stretch for me to say this, my chest was probably the best object to use the expression “splash” for.

“Lilith, did they get bigger than last time?”

“The chest area feels a bit tighter than before. I am expanding the fabric inside the blouse and uniform jacket, but the underwear is a structure that cannot be touched by me or Isabelle’s skills….”

“…I guess I’ll have to get new underwear when I return to Blackwood Territory.”

“Enough, please quickly massage my chest as usual. Didn’t you promise to receive proof that I trust Edan?”

“…Alright, Lilith.”

Upon hearing my words, Edan, who was now clearly revealed, brought his hands to my chest, and the moment his hands touched my chest, a sensation like being pricked in my head overwhelmed me.

-Sizzle!

“Ugh, Ugh…!!”

It had been almost half a year since Edan’s hands had last touched me.

During that time, Edan had sparred with Harold, using all his strength and magic, and had yet to win a single round against Harold.

There were times when I wondered if I had lost my enthusiasm due to something like my chest, but seeing the still exciting movement of his hands, it didn’t seem to be the case.

-Sizzle, Sizzle!

“Ugh, Ugh…! Ha, Hah…!!”

-Sizzle, Sizzle!

“Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha…! Gah…!!”

Every time Edan’s hands massaged my chest, a pleasure like being electrified repeatedly overwhelmed me without a break.

Although I thought I had become quite accustomed to this chest massage over the past year, it seemed that it was just my misconception.

Even though it had only been about half a year since the last massage, a strange pleasure similar to when it was first touched enveloped my body. No, it might even be more pleasurable than back then.

Amidst the continuous pleasure, there was no room to restrain my moans or hide the expression of feeling it. I didn’t even feel the need to think about doing so.

I just wanted to surrender to this pleasure, led by Edan’s hands. Somehow, it felt like it would be okay.

-Pinch.

“Ughhh?!”

Nipple play is cheating….

-Squish.

“Gah, Gah…?!”

Moreover, after pulling forcefully, he pushed it in with his fingers.

Clearly, despite it being only half a year since Edan touched my chest, he quickly remembered my body’s weaknesses.

And with his skillful touch on my chest, all my thoughts and plans to return to normal were scattered like mist in front of Edan’s chest massage.

“Ah, Ah, Ah…. Gah, Gah….”

“Lilith…. Are you okay…?”

“I-I’m fine, Edan.”

“If it’s been a long time and it’s difficult, we can stop here….”

“Edan.”

“Y-yes.”

“If you ever say to stop from your mouth or say you’ll stop here…I might really end up hating Edan.”

“…Alright, Lilith.”

“Until I say stop, do not stop,” I said firmly, as Ethan nodded in understanding and reached out to caress the large lump of flesh on my chest once again.

*Squelch, squelch.*

“Ugh, ah… haa…”

And then, the intense sensation of pleasure that came rushing back.

Before my thoughts could be clouded by this sensation once again, I had to quickly move on to the ‘next step’.

Just caressing my chest all day long was not enough to satisfy Ethan’s ‘desire’.

*Squelch.*

“…Lilith?”

“Please stay still, Master Ethan.”

*Squelch.*

“……”

“……”

I undid the buckle of Ethan’s formal pants, unzipped them, and pulled down his pants without hesitation, ignoring his bewildered questions.

*Squelch.*

“Ah.”

Beneath the stiff formal pants, Ethan’s member, his dragon, was revealed as I pulled his underwear down to mid-thigh.