episode_0062

“Ugh…my head hurts.”

“Are you awake already? I’ve prepared a meal for you, so come and eat it.”

Marie, she brought us a meal.

Yesterday… Oh, that’s right. A lot of things happened.

Thanks to the quite dreamy atmosphere, it was a pleasant night, almost like a dream.

“Now that I think about it, the evil spirit had trouble sleeping properly before, but he slept soundly today.”

“…I don’t know if I could ask how you know that fact.”

She just smiled quietly.

Although I got a little goosebumps, I kindly answered the question.

“Because he was a god to begin with, he wasn’t used to sleeping. It’s just that whenever he wants to relieve his fatigue and rest quietly, he falls into a state commonly referred to as sleeping.”

“That’s amazing. Then, while you were looking at us, you didn’t take a single breath of sleep?”

“That’s right.”

I really didn’t sleep at all.

Just because I was watching you guys, that time was important and it was the only time I could get through it.

I just quietly watched.

…Of course, it never occurred to me that a relationship like this would be formed without being able to come down and come back up like this.

“Let’s go for a walk first.”

“Yes, let me do that.”

These days, she just smiles more often.

Should I say that it feels like that emotion is slightly reflected?

Being able to read her emotions at least a little bit was a huge boon to me.

“The world has become much more peaceful.”

“Yes, of course, the cold war situation does not change much, but it seems that the fact that the evil god completely destroyed the Dekarson Kingdom was a significant deterrent to them.”

“It is said that since that incident, sending assassins or sending someone to other countries has decreased significantly. It was oppressed by succumbing to overwhelming power, but peace has come nonetheless… I am not sure how to act as a god. “That’s right.”

“If the evil spirit wants it, wouldn’t that be the right thing to do as a god? If the father wants it, we will follow it, and if the father thinks that this is peace, we can make sure that this peace is maintained. Because it is.”

Is this the taste of power?

It was quite nice to be able to handle and move people as you please.

“For now, leave them alone. Then, if they start to act later, it would be good to destroy them properly and use them as another example.”

“Father, it’s already afternoon, so please come out quickly.”

…It’s already afternoon?

It looks like he was asleep for too long.

I didn’t know that afternoon had already arrived.

“I hope today won’t be much different from usual.”

The more there is nothing different from usual, the more you get used to this feeling.

I moved to the Holy Empire with the hope that this peacefulness would remain for the rest of my life.

Because it was the closest place to Lucia, I was confident that if I was lucky, I would be able to talk to her again like I had before.

“…Lucia.”

I stood in front of the stone statue of Lucia.

The sacred and noble statue of the Judge was never broken even when we invaded and laid this place underfoot.

Since it is a stone statue with a long history, we did not disturb it any further.

“Lucia, I have come to see you. Please show me what you are like.”

As I prayed and prayed so earnestly, my vision changed and the space turned upside down.

When I came back to consciousness, the space had already changed.

“Nice to meet you… I must say. I cannot sympathize with you, but I would like to greet you, Damien, and his past. As you probably already know.”

I greeted him with a certain level of politeness.

Lucia, at least I know that you are not a very suitable god for me.

This was because she was also a utilitarian being, similar to Damian of the past.

At least to the extent that he tells Rebecca to put his body on the line as a reward for each other, rather than asking Rebecca for a favor.

Asking if it is completely wrong may not be wrong because it is a way to achieve the goal while satisfying both parties, but under my standards, it was not a good thing.

At least I would have used the method of asking, and if that didn’t work, I would have used the method of getting it somehow.

Favors should be received and used, so as not to make unreasonable sacrifices.

…My method may not be the right method either.

“Well, nice to meet you, Damian. Now you’re back as Damian.”

There was an ordinary goddess, as if all the sharp energy I felt when I met her before was a lie.

Of course, because she also played the role of a judge, she could not completely hide her fierce and fierce spirit of life.

In the first place, people other than me wouldn’t even feel it, so I just calmly walked towards her.

“Regarding Marie, unfortunately, your prophecy did not come true. Your believers were also safe, but please forgive the Archbishop for sending him away first.”

“It’s okay. From the moment the story first raised your hand, the archbishop achieved his wishes, and she, the queen, also achieved all of her wishes.”

In fact, when I first met her, I felt quite afraid of her unique energy.

I think that the dizziness and nausea that he felt just by feeling the divine power were the minimum prohibition that Damian had to follow.

Considering that it is completely fine now.

“Damian, what you wanted has now been completely fulfilled. The story is on your side, everyone has the power to live freely, and your children are now living what they want. Are you satisfied?”

Are you satisfied?

“Yes, I am so satisfied with this moment, it is so beautiful that I wish it would stop like this.”

There is a contradiction in the coexistence of freedom and oppression, but even that contradiction feels beautiful.

The most ideal world in my opinion.

A world built with the sacrifices and blood of those who are not my followers.

Sadly, I didn’t feel guilty about the death and bloodshed of people not related to me, so it was the most ideal place I could think of.

“And Damian, you must have regained your old memories, but you still use the honorific language towards me.”

“At least now that I know the sacrifices you made, and the sacrifices you made as Damian, I can belittle you.”

Damien bet himself, and Lucia bet his equivalent.

In order to change the fate determined within the framework of the world, what the two utilitarians offered was each other’s existence.

Damian is existence itself, and Lucia is a life that is alive but not alive.

I gave up my divinity, gave up my faith, and eventually even gave up the right to leave this small room.

Now this place has completely become Lucia’s world.

That’s why I had to at least show respect to her.

“There is no need to make that face. Damian has made a bigger sacrifice than me. I also don’t feel so lonely in this place. At least I have someone to talk to called Rebecca and I can look at the world through her eyes. I mean, it’s there.”

“…”

“There is no reason to hate you because you do not listen to your child’s feelings and complaints. The world cannot go as it wants, so my child should now have his own thoughts and feel that he is moving forward without breaking even though he experiences failure.”

“You believe she won’t give up until the end.”

“That’s right. Even when we reach the end, Rebecca, my child will not give up. Even though it may seem like this, I taught her how to challenge and how to face it, but I never once taught her how to give up.”

That’s a bit disturbing.

I can’t believe you didn’t teach me how to give up. In short, isn’t this saying that he might really be targeting me until the very end?

…Something makes me a little uneasy.

“Still, thank you for coming to visit me in person. It really wasn’t a bad time. I hope you’ll come visit me often in the future.”

“I will do that when I have time.”

“Okay, let’s meet again next time.”

A short conversation with Lucia was an opportunity to obtain quite a lot of information and a chance to talk to a woman who is not easy to meet.

And that was quite useful.

“…See you next time, Lucia. I’ll see you again next time.”

As always, she held her sword nobly and looked at the stone statue that seemed to judge anyone, and muttered to herself.

See you next time, Lucia.

After that, we will come to you with your congregation, not alone.

I muttered that and returned to the evil religion.