Feeling Refreshed

‘…It does feel refreshing after releasing once…’

This was Yona’s first thought when she woke up the next morning with a much lighter body.

It seemed unbelievable, but this was reality.

Her body felt incredibly refreshed, as if it could float away.

In contrast, her mind was being tinged with self-loathing.

It’s not that she had never masturbated before.

Usually, when the body is tired or stressed, sexual desire tends to swell inversely.

But Yona hadn’t really gained pleasure from masturbation.

Unlike male masturbation from her past, female masturbation required longer preparation, took more time, and needed more cleanup afterwards, making it difficult to time it right when sexual desire peaked.

Moreover, unlike male masturbation where she could make do with rough imagination, female masturbation required not just the act itself but also imagining complex emotional aspects. What pleasure could Yona get from that?

With a male mind, she should be shaking a stick, but in reality, she had to poke instead, making it hard to immerse herself.

So she couldn’t easily get pleasure from masturbation, and eventually got tired of it and just gave up.

But last night felt like experiencing a new realm.

She had never felt such intense pleasure in her life.

The kind of pleasure that made her mind feel like it was burning white-hot,

And the kind of thrill that made her whole body tremble and stretch out of her control.

All these were first-time experiences, so Yona could instantly understand why women’s pleasure was said to be much more intense and longer-lasting than men’s.

Having released all the pent-up sexual desire, it’s understandable that her body feels so light now.

If only it hadn’t been in the church territory, it would have been great.

Yona got up from the bed and went to wash up.

Looking at the stone bathtub made her face feel like it was burning up as she recalled last night’s frenzied masturbation, but she couldn’t not wash either, so it couldn’t be helped.

For some reason, she had taken off her nun’s robe but put the veil back on before entering, so the thoroughly soaked veil had fortunately dried well overnight.

“What kind of crazy thing is this really…”

The more she thought about it, the more Yona could only sigh.

No matter what, it was the first time she had been so overwhelmed by sexual desire.

She couldn’t control herself at all, nor could she endure it.

Not only that, at some point she had collapsed on the bathroom floor.

Naked, with only the veil on her head.

And even then, her hand kept reaching for her groin—

‘Enough, enough! That’s enough!’

Yona shook her head violently.

Those memories she really wanted to forget.

-Alec, Alec… I’m, I’m sorry… I’m sorry… I, I, I don’t, don’t know…

-Alec, Alec… Sorry, sorry… I did wrong, wrong…!

Memories suddenly surfacing.

Yona’s face quickly turned red hot again.

‘No, why should I be sorry to that guy and what did I do wrong. I’ve only been good to him. Someone like me has really been good to him. Why did I say things like I’m sorry or I did wrong in that situation? I’m really crazy, really crazy. Really crazy—!’

Even if she screamed internally, that voice in her head wouldn’t go away.

But one clear fact, no matter how strongly Yona denied it:

Every time Yona begged Alec for forgiveness, she felt intense pleasure.

Perhaps if she had choked herself or spanked herself there—

It could be said she had shown enough restraint by not doing those things.

“Ah, ah, ah… Crazy… What am I really… Ahh…”

Yona collapsed onto the bed and covered her face.

Just thinking about last night’s shameful behavior made her face feel like it was burning up.

‘It’s fortunate Alec’s room isn’t close…’

What if it had been right next door?

She knew well enough that Alec wasn’t a person with that much patience.

Moreover, unless her moans weren’t that loud, if Alec had been next door, he would have heard them.

Then he would have barged into Yona’s room right away,

He would have immediately realized her moans were coming from the bathroom,

And the scene that would have unfolded before Alec’s eyes as he burst into the room—

It would have been enough to instantly burn away Alec’s patience and more.

‘…Wasn’t there a similar incident before?’

Probably, that incident at Ceres’ mansion.

At that time, Alec had quietly retreated at Yona’s words, but would he have done so this time?

“There’s no way…”

Alec striding into the shower room,

Yona staring blankly at such an Alec,

And then Alec reaching out to grab Yona’s soaking wet hand and pulling her up.

-Honestly, I think this is self-defense.

Saying that while firmly grasping Yona’s breast—

“Ugh.”

Yona shuddered.

She shuddered so hard her whole body trembled, and she shook her head vigorously, trying hard to shake off those thoughts.

And that’s when it happened.

“…Huh?”

Yona lifted her nun’s robe skirt and looked at her underwear, then let out a long sigh.

“…Damn it…”

Muttering a curse softly, Yona slowly stood up and rummaged through the drawer.

Picking up the neatly folded underwear from the drawer one by one, Yona quietly headed to the shower room.

Yona carefully put on her nun’s robe and donned her veil, then looked over her body to check if anything was amiss.

One shower right after waking up, and now another one.

After showering twice, she felt drained.

But since it was almost lunchtime now, Yona had to start preparing to move.

-Yona, are you there?

It was Alec’s voice.

At that voice, Yona’s body gave a start.

She had been thinking “that bastard this bastard” and so on, but when she actually heard Alec’s voice, she was startled.

After all, Alec was the only man who had appeared in those intense memories from last night,

And it was Yona who had pursued pleasure while apologizing and saying she was sorry, so in the end, it was like a thief feeling guilty.

“Ah, y-yes. Just a moment…!”

Yona hurriedly stood in front of the mirror to check if anything was strange.

No matter how she looked, there was nothing unusual.

Her nun’s robe was neat without a single wrinkle,

The veil on her head was straight without any crookedness.

‘…Wait, why am I…?’

Why should she be dolling herself up just because Alec came?

As soon as that thought occurred to her, Yona’s characteristic temper kicked in without fail.

Why was she trying to look good for Alec?

Why was she suddenly grooming herself in front of Alec?

It was something she couldn’t understand at all, and Yona’s lips unconsciously puffed out in a pout.

“…Come in!”

As soon as Yona’s permission fell, the door opened and Alec stepped into the room.

It felt like the air had changed.

That’s how Yona felt.

As soon as Alec entered this room, as soon as Alec, who always smiled in front of Yona, looked at her.

Her heart started pounding.

For some reason, Yona’s heart started racing.

‘Wh-What is this. An arrhythmia… maybe?’

Even though that couldn’t be the case, Yona couldn’t understand why her body was suddenly acting like this.

“What were you doing that your face is so red?”

“Ah, no. I didn’t do anything. J-Just some exercise.”

“What kind of exercise do you do inside a room…”

Alec came into the room and approached Yona.

A faint smell of sweat, and a strong male scent.

As Alec came closer and closer, his distinctive body odor wafted over, and Yona’s heart started pounding even more fiercely.

“Are you sick somewhere?”

Alec’s hand reached out and touched Yona’s forehead.

As Alec’s hand touched her forehead, which felt like it was burning hot and spouting heat, the coolness seemed to wash over her mind.

“Do you have a fever? No, it does seem like you have a bit of a fever?”

“Ah, no. I’m not sick anywhere. My body is healthy.”

“Even so.”

“Ah, really! I’m really fine! Why, why!”

People who have something to hide always tend to get angry preemptively.

The psychology of not wanting to show one’s weak points to others makes one sharp towards those who cross the line they’ve drawn.

That’s how Yona was now.

A nun, a clergy member, had pleasured herself inside the church territory,

And the object of that was her companion who had been with her all this time.

Although he had confessed to her, the guilt was even greater because she had rejected him.

Having indulged in self-pleasure thinking of such an Alec, it wasn’t strange for Yona to become defensive when Alec suddenly approached like this.

“Why are you getting upset again? Did something happen?”

“…N-Nothing happened. So why?”

Alec quietly looked at Yona.

From his perspective, Yona clearly had something she was uneasy about.

Seeing how she couldn’t meet his gaze at all and kept avoiding it, there must be something fishy going on.

“There’s some kind of smell…”

“Wh-What kind of smell—?!!”

Yona, who quickly turned bright red, whipped her head around to glare at Alec.

At Yona’s oversensitive reaction to the word ‘smell’, Alec smiled mischievously.

“Oh, so that’s it.”

“Wh-What.”

Yona’s face changed from red to white.

It’s true that she went a bit overboard last night,

And after releasing that sexual desire, the heat dissipated so she couldn’t leave the window open,

But it shouldn’t have been enough for the smell to still linger.

Yet he said there was a smell, and Yona’s heart started pounding heavily again.

“It’s not particularly embarrassing to have been in the bathroom.”

“…What?”

Yona’s thoughts stopped for a moment at Alec’s words.

Not understanding what this guy was saying now, Yona stared blankly at Alec.

“I could tell from how you reacted to the word ‘smell’. Why be embarrassed about that… The smell is barely noticeable so don’t worry… Huh?”

Yona’s face twisted terribly.